I Loved You On Purpose

Camilla. 25. Towson University alum. criminal justice major. I'm really bad at these bio things . . . . . . if you want to know something just ask!

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I just ordered Popeyes.

This why im fat.

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I just wanna take 2 weeks off and play house with my bf

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when you feel obligated to work OT because you haven't met the daily productivity expectations...

maybe ill do some work on Saturday since I'm off?

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I feel like I have a lot of self growth to do. I honestly have no goals and no clue where I see myself in 5-10 years. stuck in my job with no career goals or ambition to move up.

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didn't eat dinner. not trying to get up tomorrow and do it all over again. my back hurts and I'm constantly stressed.

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mad at myself for being jealous/envious of my friends that are moving on in life. getting engaged and ready to get pregnant.

I have no one so I'm happy for them but lowkey dont want to hear about it. I have no next steps planned out. no one to spend forever with. no career goals. no nothing

[myminisliceoflife]

so the box to my blender got thrown away and clearly I was keeping it which is why it was still there in the first fucking place.

Like it belongs to me, not the house. So when I move out I'm taking it with me so it wouldve been nice to have the fucking box.

I just really wish people wouldnt touch my stuff. All she had to clean was the bedroom but instead she throws my stuff away from the bathroom and kitchen.

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I dont think I should've made the decision to go back to school. I'm so far behind right now it's not even funny.

I'd like to think that I wouldve spent the last 6 hours doing hw had someone not pissed me off.

But alas this is what I get for procrastinating and being lazy

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trying to figure out if I should pay off some of my student loans or just keep saving my money so I can buy a house in the next few years z

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Thought I was gonna be able to do some homework tonight but he hasn't left yet and its apparent that I'll be crying myself to sleep.

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I feel like all I do is get stressed and complain. Adulthood sucks. I feel like I never have enough money for stuff. And going back to school was a mistake, just gave me added stress.

I should probably start a 401K or something and find a permanent job so I can buy a home and move out

[myminisliceoflife]

when rainy days give you that seasonal depression. the kind that makes you question every move that got you to where you are today. next thing you know 20mins have gone by and your sitting at your work desk feeling unaccomplished

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I really shouldn't let things people say get to me. At the end of the day you're 30 with no type of college degree, no career or long term job, no car, staying at your grandmas house. I on the other hand have a bachelor's, constant employment of 5 years which is paying for an associates, money in my savings, a car, good credit. Like if I'm living at home at 30 it will be by choice not happenstance.

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when someone tries to come for you about messages you sent 2 years ago. check the date before you accuse me of shit, asshole

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why is everything so stressful?

I'm tired all the time, I keep working stupid temp jobs in a field I dont want to be in. The money is good but I don't want to be here permanently. I feel like I'm wasting my life/time/potential and have nothing to show for it other than a bachelors degree and good credit.

[myminisliceoflife]

How does one express that they know what they want and deserve and they want you to give it to them?

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took off work for 4 days for nothing. worst birthday weekend ever. things really do get worse the older you get