finding myself again

21 | vegetarian | polish sw/hw: 88.6 kg cw: 78.2 kg lw: 55 kg ugw: 48 kg

[phresious]

[buctoria-deactivated20180328]

[naturallize]

[beba1510]

[wildestlovers]

[angelscarnage]

“sorry I can’t come, I saw myself in the mirror and now I’m having a breakdown”

[myoddaddiction]

Hi guys,

I haven’t been around lately. I gained 2 kgs, and I’ve been maintaining my weight for 2 months... I was actually quite ok with my weight for some time, until now. I met a guy, he’s super sweet and funny, and we’re actually together. The only problem is he’s making me feeling bad about my weight. Not consciously I think, but he talks A LOT about losing weight, trainings, diets... I can’t understand if he’s trying to talk me into losing weight or it’s just a talk. It makes me think that if I won’t lose weight he’s gonna get bored with me or find someone better? I don’t know... It just puts a lot of pressure on me. I was thinking about losing weight healthily but now I want to lose weight fast. I want to be thin. I don’t want this feeling of shame and unworthiness... I really want this to work out but my anxiety is waking up.

[rosalinelilian]

[annajoganiyan]

[destroymylife]

[myoddaddiction]

I told my friends that I’ve lost 10 kg during quarantine and I instantly regretted it. I’m afraid my body doesn’t look 10kg lighter and they’ll think that I lied when they see me...

[myoddaddiction]

I’m in bed and I’m craving cake. Maybe if I’ll think about it long enough my brain will create dream about feast with strawberry cake, ice creams and pizza... 😥🙏🏻

[myoddaddiction]

Today’s the day when I lost 10 kg. It took me 66 days and I’m still far away from my goal, but I’m happy because this means if I can lose 10 kg then I can lose 20 kg. I just can’t give up.

[nvdish]

[ana-elisabeta]

[myoddaddiction]

I’m going to sleep not because I’m sleepy but because I’m hungry.

[myoddaddiction]

Lol. I got sick and I vomited and the first thing that my dumb brain thought was “aM I goNnA lOsE WeiGht bC oF ThIs?”. 🤐

[myoddaddiction]

Well, I lost 0.7 kg so I guess it was worth the pain. 🤷🏼‍♀️😂