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More spoilers!
Sweet and dutiful Yashiro waits patiently by the elevator for Doumeki to return.
“Sorry, were you waiting for me?”
“I did wait.”
Yashiro is so sleepy.
That he suggests that Doumeki take the bed while he sleeps on the sofa.
There’s some old familiar banter and small talk about Yashiro’s tiny apartment.
The floor plan!!!!! I am so looking forward to building this!!!
It was suggested by a Japanese fan that this type of apartment is usually one that someone lives in temporarily.
I can’t wait to see the whole chapter and do a proper summary.
Yashiro smile!!??
Wow, that looks like a genuine smile from Yashiro. How many times have we actually seen that?
WE HAVE SOME SPOILER PAGES!
Apparently, Tsunakawa wants to know why Kamiya came back alone and we all know why *laughs in saezuru*
However he does want Kamiya to go back and guard Yashiro, and have Doumeki continue to look for the remaining members of the Kyouseikai, so the two of them have limited time together. I hope they can work things out alone in that apartment, and maybe please some touching?
god damn
CHAPTER 49 SPOILERS ARE HAPPENING!!!
Doumeki is carrying Yashiro like he’s done so many times before except this time Yashiro is awake for it. I love the push/pull between them, Yashiro holding on but then trying to push Doumeki away but Doumeki isn’t having it.
How is Saezuru Tori Wa Habatakanai a game changer for content aimed at mature audience – Notes on Yashiro #1
I took some time to write in the middle of a gloomy afternoon. I started from my thought that Saezuru Tori Wa Habatakanai (both manga and anime) is an unique piece that forever has changed the quality of content aimed at mature audiences, but I ended up writing about Yashiro and why he is one of the best written characters that I’ve ever seen.
It will be a long text and you already know that I am not a native English speaker, but I am trying my best, so bare with me. I have so much to say, that I could not fit everything in one post. Expect more to come, but due to my busy work schedule I can only write once a week. Thank you!
Disclaimer: There will be talks about abuse, rape, explicit sexual content, and I won’t refrain from using words like f and d. So it might be a lot of fucks and dicks. Also, a lot of personal side notes ahead.
[keep reading ♡♡♡]🖤🚬
I will analyze from a personal view the most important perceived elements of Yoneda Kou’s work, altogether with their perceived impact on content aimed at mature audience. In order to avoid any confusion that might occur due to my, at times, ambiguous manner of writing, I’ve decided to split my ideas into sections/headers which will highlight the main points. If anything gets foggy, I will gladly fragment it and explain it the best I can, later.
We’re living in an era where content is stored and shared everywhere. Content looks like a deep and wide ocean. Right before I watched Saezuru Tori Wa Habatakanai for the first time, I was looking to consume something romantic-but-controversial, dramatic, slow-paced and engaging, but with a tint of action, a need of mine that shows on Netflix, HBO or any other largely consumed broadcasting platform could not fulfill anymore.
I know for sure that too much existing content can be overwhelming. But is it really “this much content” quality content? The question is food for thought. With the illusion of endless choices in mind and at a click distance, it’s surprising to find out that there is so little content on topics like mature-romance-drama-action. This being said, I do not aim to compare Saezuru with anything else, as I know there are maybe other titles within the same tag (however, they are different!), and I don’t want any sort of bias to perpetuate and create divided opinions. Instead of comparing to other titles, I’d rather focus on why Saezuru is unique.
Even though Saezuru gives us the impression that it is niched on a certain audience, you have to hear me out how unique and amazing it is, that even while included within a huge scope of media entertainment, it still ticks the box for appeal on a larger audience. Larger than manga lovers. Larger than BL and romance lovers. I deliberately chose this term “content for mature audience” because I think that Saezuru perfectly fits it, more than it fits BL manga/ yaoi tag.
Saezuru has endless potential and I am writing this because I want to see and hear more of it in the future. I wouldn’t mind a visual novel with Yashiro and Doumeki, more movies, or a long anime series. I see it as a game changer because it creates, through a series of elements well thought and put together, a genre on its own whose complexity makes it so difficult to put a label on, which ultimately is the source of its power over conventional content.
There are certain elements that make Saezuru what it is: art. We’re going to follow in-depth and with examples 2 important elements: development of characters and immersion. These two elements are interconnected, but I will attempt to discuss them divided. Looking from a far, it does not seem like much, but they are major game changers.
1. Development of characters
Overview
There is no doubt that Yoneda Sensei’s characters feel alive. They breathe, take each step, weather and suffer more than you’d think it’s possible, in a manner that looks beyond convincing to the audience. Each of their fights will leave them with scars, and scars as physical features are an important symbol in the chosen appeal for realism. Needless to say, scars, under the emotional and mental umbrella, are present, bold, and they hurt. Sensei just knows how to depict everything with intensity and accuracy.
If you are watching the movie, or reading the manga for the first time, it’s going to literally sting how relatable Yashiro is, how real and raw Doumeki is, and how the other supporting and secondary characters are not just there by coincidence, but have a sustaining role in the atmosphere and story.
In the following section and further posts, emphasis is placed on Yashiro, but I’ve included key moments that capture the charm of all the other characters involved in the story, though I will treat Yashiro and Doumeki separately, putting each in light.
Yashiro and his past self
Following the proposed logic with Yashiro, from the start, we can easily see that he is bound to be a pellicular main character, but relatable, without taking over the role of a “prince charming”, although objectively handsome looking. He does not have a linear evolution, his upsides and downsides happening at random times.
Yashiro has a turbulent life as a teenager, after suffering trauma from rape in his childhood, then gradually encountering hope after meeting Kageyama, just to be let down by his ignorance, and to ultimately follow the masochistic path that sculpted him into the person we see when he first meets Doumeki. The psychological tools used in shaping Yashiro are not unusual, but he, as a whole character, stands out. I always wanted to deep dive into what makes Yashiro so damn charming. There are several instances that stand out about him and scenes where his evolution/transformation curve is visible.
At the very start, Yashiro himself tells us that he is “twisted beyond repair” and enjoys pain because this is everything that he’s ever known, ever since his stepfather raped him at the age of 10.
Kageyama was an important turn in his life as a young adult, as meeting him gave him the hope for a romantic relationship. Kageyama touches Yashiro’s scars in the doctor’s office and in the audiovisual room, but this stops as soon as he finds out that Yashiro was raped. Kageyama seems like the light at the end of the tunnel at first, but it turns out to be just the entrance for a pitch black pathway. He isn’t the salvation Yashiro hoped for. In fact, Yashiro does not even know what to hope for and what true salvation means, which mixed with his dark background, results in a depressing and hopeless spiral type of outcome. He also has no parents by his side. He’s never had someone to guide him and warm his freezing heart during childhood. We might as well assume that Yashiro is broken from the beginning. But how broken, is it really beyond repair? I think that is not the case.
I found interesting how Yashiro’s idea of love is contoured around the time shown with Kageyama. Yashiro, after all the trauma, creates a liaison between sex and hatred, as they coexist in his mind and actions (= the famous defense mechanism). It is best shown when in love with Kageyama, he will imagine, and get turned on by a version of Kageyama that is vulnerable and helpless. Not by a dominant version that could, for instance, fuck him.
“The Kageyama in my fantasy wasn’t on top or on bottom. He just cried.”
His true love interest is perceived as complete opposite of how he sees his dominator. But even more, Yashiro does not know how the opposite of pain feels like, so he is too afraid to find out as his defense kicks in. His love interest is never going to touch him the way that everyone who abuses him does. That’s why I don’t think he ever fantasized or had dreams about being penetrated by Kageyama, which, proves that violent sex is his main coping mechanism for his trauma. As a consequence, he is unable to romanticize sex or to make love with someone he has feelings for, as “making love” has no known meaning to him. Also, his basic emotional needs from childhood could not be fulfilled, because of the mistreatment that he received from his family, so he could not fully develop that side. This is why Yashiro can only look, sink into his thoughts, disconnect from the world and be an onlooker to his beloved Kageyama.
Here I would see fit to also point one thing: the scenes where Yashiro is lusting over Kageyama are so well made. They are absolutely flawless, and they show in a few panels the whole anguish, confusion and arousal of a troubled and lost kid, especially the moments when he runs and masturbates in the heat of the moment, thinking of Kage, away from everyone.
When Yashiro chokes on his regrets as he jerks off over and over… I could literally feel dark butterflies in my stomach and a metallic taste on my tongue. So expressive and graphic, I loved it.
Soon enough we find out that Kageyama doesn’t really care, and this realization of him not caring, gradually contributes to Yashiro’s mental state degradation. I cannot stop wondering what would have happened if Kageyama would have cared enough to protect Yashiro from further twisting the knife in his own wounds. Yashiro breaking down and crying because of Kageyama’s ignorance is one heartbreaking thing, but knowing that Yashiro is biased and blind to the fact that Kageyama is one guy that half asses things in life, is another. A receipt of how Kageyama fucks it:
He gave wrong signals to Yashiro all along. You’re telling me that for two weeks, he touches his wounds because he has a fetish for marks, then he stops and never touches him again, and calls Yashiro just “a friend”. What if Yashiro isn’t simply twisted to fall for the first thing that appears as rescue, but instead, he gets those signals and understands them right to a point, just to be let down and have Kageyama take it all back, just because Kageyama is a coward himself who wouldn’t take things further. Might sound harsh, but Kageyama has always been a closeted gay and together with Yashiro’s zero self esteem, nothing good could come out of this relationship, not in the way that Yashiro wanted it. If we look at how things turned out with Kuga, and we compare Yashiro with Kuga, we can so easily see that Kuga pushed for the old man’s feelings, while Yashiro stood silent and chose to keep these feelings in himself. What if Yashiro pushed harder in high school for Kageyama’s reactions? What if Yashiro demanded and was a bit more pushy, just like Kuga did? But then again, seems at peace with his past, while Yashiro lives everyday with the consequences of his past, gets lost in these consequences and he constantly swallows them like cigarette smoke.
Kageyama does only half the things. He isn’t even paying attention to Yashiro and never really got to “know” the real him. That’s why he seems so ignorant and a dick. Even Kuga can figure out more about Yashiro at a glance, than Kageyama could in 20 years. It’s no doubt, I can see why Yashiro fell for this type that our doc is, but he is not even a good doctor to begin with. In “Don’t Stay Gold” his trembling hand and lack of accuracy while performing medical tasks proves this point. When he pulls the bullet out of that guy, it looks like he does not even know what he is doing. And even without pointing that out, he could not care less if something happens to Yashiro. He will be there to help, of course, but he will never leave the comfort zone. On top of that, Kageyama later claimed to have shown a lot of compassion towards Yashiro. I am struggling to see it and it hurts me, both as a reader and observer.
Bitterness aside, Kageyama just wanted to be normal, not associated with someone weird like Yashiro. It’s fair in a way, but twisted and unfair in another way, because someone already damaged as Yashiro is, did not really deserve it. No human being deserves that. And… Being looked down on and feeling sorry for… Two things that happened before to Yashiro. Two things that he desp adores. Kageyama does them both. But guess what? After all Kageyama isn’t a bad guy, he is just human. And humans are not all black and white, they’re so many colors and shades, and they have good and bad in them. Kage is just human, whether we keep a grudge on him or not. One more point scored by Sensei’s realism, as it’s impossible to hate side characters.
And with all the loneliness, and all messed up, Yashiro is still showing compassion. Why? Because he shows up to the funeral of Kageyama’s dad, being there for his only friend when he literally has no idea how to show support because he never experienced having someone care for him. Yet, there he is. Broken, but not broken enough not to empathize.
Also, later on, another moving moment which shows how big of a heart Yashiro has, is when, on his path to enter Yakuza, he hears about the discussion about the old hospital that belonged to Kageyama’s family and begs Misumi not to sell the land. That scene equally shows the interest that Misumi starts to take in Yashiro, seeing Yashiro not moved an inch after he was beaten to almost death, but gets all on fire and begs when it comes to this. Here is about how selfless and ready to endure everything is Yashiro, even if betrayed and left on the sidelines every time.
Surrounded by the disappointment of rejection, Yashiro steals the contact lenses from Kageyama, but not to make him suffer. This act of theft is nothing but a symbol for his need for closure. Yashiro wanted to own something that could comfort him and be his, if Kageyama could not be his. A lot of great people on Tumblr explained so much better than me these aspects about the symbol that is the contact lenses case, so I am not going to insist on it. I really love how such a small recurring symbol was inserted into the story. It shows the idea that Yashiro is, in fact, sensitive.
“I am a wonderful actor”.
In similar instances, he is full of contradictions, one moment he laughs, another he is dead serious around his crush. Unstable and tormented by what happens to him if he emotionally gets hurt by the soon to be doctor, he finds relief in pain from sex with older men. And later on, he is plotting on making Kuga and Kageyama meet, just to give himself a lot of pain seeing Kageyama finally falling in love with a man. Yashiro isn’t only an actor, but he is a great observer himself. He knows exactly what his type and movements will be, so he knows how to act till the end, when he can finally push himself to accept that Kageyama will never be his man.
What I really wanted to say by showing all these examples, is that Yashiro is so much more than his trauma and so much more than he is perceived by Kage. His complexity goes beyond the expectation of just a broken kid with a “fucked up past”. Sadly, he is the only one blinded, not capable to see inside of himself, mostly because of what others did to him. At some point he says that it’s no one’s fault for his past, and that alone speaks volumes about the person that he is. He took all the blame on himself and continues to carry on as a side observer to his own life.
Fast forward the described scenes, some feelings remain dormant as Yashiro gets into the Yakuza, but I think daddy Misumi takes care of certain aspects of Yashiro, and thanks to him, they’re not lost forever. The dynamic between Yashiro and Misumi is another interesting topic.
Misumi is, well, both a daddy and a dad for Yashiro. It’s so intriguing to read everything that Yashiro went through when he first got into the Yakuza, and for sure, how Misumi saved Yashiro in all the ways that he could have been saved. He gave him a place to stay, and he gave him a bit of worth after partially convincing him not to sleep around with every single person, when they could simply sleep together. Misumi could give Yashiro the violence he was hungry for in bed, but he also could give him the affectionate care of a parent, because I’m pretty sure that Misumi loves Yashiro like his own son. He believed in Yashiro the way he was, even though he met him while he was at his lowest, being fucked by an entire gang and covered in cum. Here I think Yashiro’s recklessness, charm and not giving a fuck energy, played a major role in seducing Misumi, and by seducing I mean… More than just getting hard at the sight of Yashiro.
This just turned from a character analysis to I LOVE Misumi so much and everything he’s ever done for Yashiro. And honestly, I hold myself not to insert the image of Ryuzaki hearing how fucking good Yashiro looks after being taken under Misumi’s wing. Thinking of how in love Ryuzaki is with Yashiro, it makes me kind of excited to see his reaction.
Before meeting Doumeki, Yashiro has a few more details worth mentioning:
Self neglect habits, which can be linked to his depression. I am sure that Yashiro skips meals, especially in the days before Misumi took him under his wing, when he was fucked by Ryuzaki’s gang. Maybe he doesn’t get enough sleep from the way I see him at times, and he lacks overall the self care that he needs and constantly falls into the dark haul of hating himself not leaving any time for nourishment.
Yashiro is a heavy smoker, that is a detail that can equally reflect 2 things: he is trying to escape through his addiction, but smoking is also part of his interesting personality, a detail that makes him versatile. He smokes since high school, so this habit has been there for long enough to become part of him, maybe as another way to cope with trauma. Just like all the coping with trauma through sex.
Yashiro is not a monster; after all he becomes a successful man who’s got so many desirable attributes, yakuzas would kill for. I think that even while twisted beyond repair, hopeless and left behind, our Sensei left space for Yashiro to be able to empathize and feel love, even in the moment t0. He just doesn’t know it yet, because no one truly loved him. But what we do know, however, is that he always wanted to be loved.
I will conclude this post by saying that Yashiro changes a lot from high school up to entering in Doushinkai, so he was not stagnant at all before meeting Doumeki. He is not ready for love, but he refrained a bit from the gang bang and sex with just anyone. He does it smarter now. His dynamics with the other characters, his own struggles and past, and the position that he got within the group, remain all connected to his wonderful charm. It overall seems like there is no side character that is left untouched by Yashiro’s beauty, and as a result most of the people he crossed paths with, either bear feelings or admiration for him. Ok, maybe not Hirata. But the plot is so exciting, I could not even imagine that a character like Yashiro could reunite politics and affairs around such an immersive circle.
- to be continued -
Yashiro's self-perception
Okay so I was reading saezuru again today (bc the wait for chapter 47 is killing me and I just can't get enough of saezuru). Anyway I was re-reading it when I got to this panel and a question struck me: "Just how much does Yashiro think he knows?"
What does he think letting Doumeki into his heart (which he already did to some extent) will entail? What does he think it will cost him?
My first guess was being able fuck random guys. But there definitely is more to it than that. His whole life he has thought of himself as being twisted and broken beyond repair. Meaning he can't fall love or be loved.
But dear reader, we all know that's not the case in the least. So what would loving Doumeki entail? It would entail mean him coming to terms with what happened. It would mean that he would have to accept that he was raped . That it messed him up, that it has defined who he is.
That at some point in his life he was a victim. His fort Knox of military defense mechanisms have been keen him alive. But D was able to get pass every single one of them. This is what scares Yashiro. Him having to accept what he to him, how it messed him up. And as frustratingly painting as it, to see how he abuses himself and runs away from all the people who care abt him. You can't really blame him.
Loving D puts him in the path of coming to terms with his abuse and trauma. His path to healing and salvation. If he will allow D into his heart completely and wholeheartedly he has to come to terms with his abuse. His emotional journey is something that he has to go through.
My fav Saezuru scene
CW: violence , suicidal thoughts , blood ,
(Please tell me if there's any warning i need to add)
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Really want to get this out of my system and talking to myself wasn't enough wwww so its just a messy rambling about my fav scene (so far) from the legendary series by yoneda kou sensei, saezuru tori wa habatakanai
It's..... Actually not a happy—rather, a grim one—but somehow it stuck to me. My fav scene is when yashiro beat the shit out of hirata after he shot doumeki..... Yeah......
Okay but to my defense it's the yashiro who lost control over his body what makes this scene so special to me. YK sensei had been portraying yashiro as someone who's composed, cool headed, and always under control—yes even when he's being banged and got all those treatments during sex, i feel like its still something that he has an upper hands in.
Not to mention, he was ready to die in hirata's hands, it feels like even he has the control over his own death.
But his eyes when he saw doumeki received a bullet....
Pure horror, and just one panel ago his eyes were lifeless. It gives me goosebumps.
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And finally, he lost his shit. He lost his control over his body.
It feels like his head blaring a deafening alarm of "He just shot doumeki, and i need to kill him" Over and over again. He lost his composure and just let his body and instinct took over him. There's even no joy when he beat hirata—like the way he did with one of the hirata's ex-cleaners—its pure hatred, anger, and horror.
And i think its... Beautiful. Because it adds layers to his character and a touch of human in him. Because it shows us how complex yashiro is. Because even the great young kashira can lose himself when the trigger is pulled. And last but not least, it shows us how important doumeki is to yashiro for him to lose himself.
Gosh i really love YK sensei, she's a genius.
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My abstract thoughts about this scene are more obscure and since English isnt my first language i cant really put it into words the way some of you did, but at least i tried lol.
Thanks for reading my nonsense rambling, do tell me if you know a way to convince YK sensei to give DouShiro a godamn happy ending they deserved.
Hi beautiful people!
Spoilers Alert 🚨🚨🚨
I have seen many people some sad and upset with Saezuru chapter 46, I will comment that I don't. I loved it, I was fascinated that Doumeki will not let Yashiro go, I think it was his wish from that time in the hotel lobby before Inami hurt him so much. Finally someone stops him and takes him away and he is not just anybody... is his dear love Doumeki. Then Doumeki discovers many things in those moments and provokes Yashiro in many ways and he is silent when we know how "dirty mouth" Yashiro is. We see a Doumeki burning with desire but, everything has to go slowly, this time Doumeki has to assure Yashiro, make him stay, choose him, look for him. Another exciting event was Yashiro's imagination, he is on a romance plan, very different from Yashiro before that he only thought about is sex. I'm very happy. I look forward and patiently to the new chapter. Don't be sad that something good is coming between them (hope). Thanks for reading and please do not re-upload the image. Share but not 🚫 re-upload. Thanks.
Yashiro & Doumeki forever together ❤️🖤❤️
Love...
Fire birds 🔥
Hey! It's me again (lol) Thank you for your analysis to my last question I really appreciated it and enjoyed reading your answer. Anyway this time I waned to ask you about the deliberate changes in Yashiro. We know that Doumeki has changed and matured. But wbt Y? Even do he claims he hasn't (and D thinks so too). I just don't buy it, after all he's still a person. And people change, and there's no way he didn't change at least a bit after his encounters with Doumeki. But how exactly? Idk we haven't gotten much of him after the time skip to know for sure how he has changed. I'd say he's lost some interest in sex, evidence? He wasn't really exicited when Misumi got violent. He just laughed his ass off. And when Inami called him to meet up, he wasn't really in the mood responding to his call with "nope I'm going to sleep now, do you have info worth my time?" And then arriving with a not very enthusiastic mood saying "Let's get this done and over with" sounds like he wasn't really looking forward to it, and saw it more as a nuisance. I don't think he's gone celibate (sobs 😪) but I don't think he's having as much sex as before.
Hiii! ❤️ So I just started rereading (probably for the millionth time in a row) the whole manga and I was focused several times particularly on Yashiro's dynamic and the changes in himself. I find it so interesting too how his sexuality shifts post time skip. If Yashiro changes? Well...
I do believe he has changed a lot on the inside, not only as a result of sex with Doumeki, but also from their separation. I mean... Yashiro couldn't forget him which brought a lot of his softness on the surface: he is dreaming about him and then wonders 'what does he look like, again?' I think that question is posed on a self mocking tone, just like many times Yashiro thinks to himself 'what is this?' (when he is jealous on Kuga and Kageyama going out with Doumeki) or after Doumeki blows him in the hotel room and he is taken aback by his mouth and touches and he is crawled on the bed saying again 'what is this?'. I don't think that he forgot Doumeki's face at all, he just comments on his dreams as he is shocked he never dreamt about someone else in the same way. He is maybe surprised to feel these things, and questioning himself like “why do you dream about him? What is it about him that makes me so restless?” is one way to face the feelings that won’t fade with physical separation. I think he could not forget about the tender moments that they shared, so Yashiro had, in these 4 years, to eventually come to terms with the fact that he discovered how love feels, even though he decided to run away from it.
Now, without mere intention, he has a new way to see things and refer to things through the lenses that Doumeki brought in his life. Since he felt romance once, and it impacted him, how can he go back to mindless fucking? It doesn’t taste and feel like it was with Doumeki. What if his mind wanted to get over it, but his body just ached to be touched and loved in that way that he just discovered through D? I really wouldn't be surprised if Yashiro, in all these years, was mostly doing it alone, thinking of Doumeki and his damn beautiful eyes, rather than go for random guys. Or maybe he subconsciously looked for Doumeki in everyone. I really refuse to believe that Yashiro did not change one bit in this time.
With Misumi, I think the panel where Yashiro is teasing him was made to show us that their relationship is 'homie' like, and Yashiro is comfortable with him, but not anymore into harsh sex. After all Misumi is like a dad to him, and he shaped his character a lot, regardless of what Yashiro chose in the end. But it’s so clear that Yashiro at 40 has settled a lot. And about Inami, honestly, I think Yashiro was never really into him. I just feel my skin crawling thinking of how terrible Inami is.
Ever since Doumeki is back into his life, I also think that Yashiro is hungry for more affectionate touches, going slowly towards accepting that he isn’t into harsh sex. There isn’t much evidence, indeed, about how much sex Yashiro has, but we haven’t seen any scene with anyone else than the steamy moments with Doumeki. Maybe he has no desire for someone else? Ahhh this is exciting. I really wish that in the future I’d see a Yashiro that takes Doumeki’s gloveless hands and asks him to touch him exactly the way that he did 4 years ago. Because I really think that Yashiro, even though he has to process a lot of things, he did change and has a lot of potential to make sex a pleasure thing, and not only associate it with pain and trauma. I really hope that I won’t be wrong and that there is space for healing.
Four years have passed and the fire is even bigger than before🖤🖤 🔥🔥🔥
"The distance between us is closing."
"What did I do again before?"
"How did I remain so composed?"
Saezuru Tori wa Habatakanai.
Twittering Birds Never Fly.
by Yoneda Kou