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second time 2 people i love have od in one night.

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godddd. one of my friends has "its my final day !!!" in his bio and I'm 99% sure its a suicide thing. sghhhhhhh i should be asleep by now ive already tried to fix 2 crisess tonight but i cant just leave that alone

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the not crying problem has been solved. inkskinneds poems always work <3

[peri]

digital selfharm is real. do NOT check up on that ex-partner/ex-friend. do NOT reread those old messages/conversations that you know will hurt your feelings all over again or that will otherwise make you feel like shit. do NOT block evade to see if you’re being talked about. inhale. exhale. let it pass and you’ll be better for it.

[2colde]

i love leaning into a bad feeling #mytwistingknife

[memories]

I’ve been silent for too long and can no longer bear to keep this inside: @th3-st4rs-4r3-scr34ming is a good person and deserves many good things.

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@th3-st4rs-4r3-scr34ming

[im-scared-ngl]

okay i know all of my problems are things that make me a bad friend and less likeable and generally suck how do i fix these things that just seem a part of me (the forgetfulness, mood swings, impulsivity, immaturity, etc)

i know ive been a bad friend j just don't know how to be better. this sucks. how did i end up with so many lovers when im like this

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my love, rhose are all completely normal and expected especially for teenagers (except forgetfulness but you have multiple disorders that cause that). stop expecting more from yourself than you would from anyoen else <3

you have me as long as you want, i dont care if your always immature etc. everyone has stuff they can work on your not that bad. i love you

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sghhh just remembered one my online best friends is very anti endo. i coudlnt give less of a shit about syscourse but i dont want him to think im evil

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TALKING TO HIM ABOUT IT THIS IS SCARU

[th3-st4rs-4r3-scr34ming]

YOU GOT THIS LOVELY!!!!! hugging you <333

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ITS OKAY HES NOT GONNA KILL ME WITH ROCKS

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sghhh just remembered one my online best friends is very anti endo. i coudlnt give less of a shit about syscourse but i dont want him to think im evil

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TALKING TO HIM ABOUT IT THIS IS SCARU

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sghhh just remembered one my online best friends is very anti endo. i coudlnt give less of a shit about syscourse but i dont want him to think im evil

[im-scared-ngl]

its weird. im not asexual but i dont want sex but i like sex but i dont want it and im aromantic and i dont want romance but i like being close to my friends and kissing them snd stuff but i.dont want to be partners but i like having lovers and i dont want to get married but i dont know ehy not and i dont . auauhhfhhh

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i personally think thats rly awesome and based

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fucking.was sent "i love you" randomly at 2am so ofc i panic and ask if anythings happening. he says its not an attempt but also he took a lot of medication that he doesnt need or know why he took it

[im-scared-ngl]

im having guilt for thoughts. there are no thought crimes there are no thought crimes

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mhm<3

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nightshade definitely has something wrong with him (and maybe has since we got him) but i dont know if we're gonna take him to the vet. probably not. one mom wants to the other is against it. and i know we probably cant afford it but if he dies from soemthing treatable i.

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many things combining to make me feel Bad. i think i need to cry i havbt in weeks

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the things that usually make me cry arent working

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many things combining to make me feel Bad. i think i need to cry i havbt in weeks

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we just made plans to see each other for the first time and he attempted right before. still dont know if it will work. he swallowed isopropyl alcohol and he has a lot of the symptoms of poisoning from it. i technically have his address and could call 911, but thats. probably worse in some ways. if theres any sort of investigation and he gets taken away from his grandma his legal guardians are far far worse and have tried to drown him in the past. and the poisoning has its most severe symptom as coma iirc so he probably wont die? i dont know what to do. i dont think im going to call 911 on him, but if he dies i could have prevented it then. he just told me he also poisoned himself with it yesterday but took less then.