Okay but question why is it like; I don't know if anyone else ever has this experience but does Silent Hill/Resident Evil/Cry of Fear music like. Just help you calm a headache or uhh help you sleep etc? Like? It's horror game music and I know it but WHY does it provide comfort all at the same time?
Maybe my brain has finally lost a few shiny marbles for good but, something about it feels so good. It's the same feeling as being at a park at late night with the lights on or sitting in the countryside watching the stars creep overhead, a blanket to swaddle you in. It's probably my bias for the night talking, but it doesn't feel like the night expects anything from you when the day seems to desire everything and more. And I guess horror games kinda give that feeling of the night, in the right areas.
Even though it's rough, it's rough in a different way, the kind that quick wit helps you most in, rather than having to rot out your skull with corporate jargon. Maybe I do enjoy the difficult parts of life, but not the ones that are most present in our world? Not to say that I'd want to have to fight for my life either...Guess it just feels more bearable, from hypothetics, even though I know for SURE it would be horrible in some ways.
Grass is always greener, or in this case, more...uhh, scary? Maybe?