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Pile 1 - The Devil
Each autumn leaves fall from the trees as they have already fulfilled their function and are no longer of use. It's better for them to nourish the ground than to be stuck to the tree that doesn't have use for them anymore. You might be stuck in your old ways, stubbornly holding onto views, habits and defence mechanisms that no longer serve you. Contemplate on it, find out which thoughts and feelings you're ready to let go of, and just like tree - shed it, give energy of it all to earth for it to break it down and neutralise.
Pile 2 - The Dancer
Earth tell you to cheer up and try to enjoy your life here and now, regardless of things you might be going through for now. Don't dwell too much on anything - there are only things you can change (and of course do so if it's what you truly wish for) and things you can't influence no matter what, so there's no use to overthink them. Try to live in the real world more than in your head and try to enjoy it. Understanding the rhythm of the world around you and living according to those cycles (such as changes of seasons, Moon phases) might be beneficial to you.
Pile 3 - The Messenger
You need to tune in and listen to messages of the Earth and all life on it. This includes learning more about your pets and striving to establish better connection with them, listening to your instincts, observing the natural environment around you - for example birdwatching or paying attention to how the sky changes through the day, taking long walks outside to not feel disconnected from nature, and cultivating your relations with other people through most natural means that connected out prehistoric ancestors - such as cooking together, singing, storytelling (which might include watching Netflix or talking about your favourite characters/OCs) or gossiping.
Bond with people cause we're a part of ecosystem too!
Pile 4 - The Conductor
The Earth wants you to know that you should become more aware of your own power and then use it to aim for your goals. Your wishes are achievable, and by understanding the cards you have in your hands you'll know how to play them right, to get what you want. Maybe you have strong physical foundation - healthy body and two strong hands. Maybe you're very likeable and you know how to connect people together or get the exact help you need. (It's strength too, we are social species and we survived through the worst crises due to standing strong together and cooperation). Maybe you're very intelligent or creative. Whatever it is, be more proud of the resources you were given by nature at birth and what you've done to develop them further. Use them for your goals. Don't forget about systematic effort and discipline.
I need you to take a deep breath and really focus on the images in front of you before making a choice… maybe even two?
Slow down. Let your body respond before your mind interferes.
While you’re out here living your life, something else is happening behind the scenes. Lessons are closing, cycles are completing and patterns are dissolving. And in that same unseen space, a certain kind of lover is being forged specifically calibrated to meet you at the level you’re stepping into.
This isn’t here to pander to fantasy.
But understand something, imagination is creative force. What you consistently align with, you begin to embody. What you embody, you attract.
So the question isn’t just “who is coming?” next
It’s, "what kind of lover is being prepared for the version of you that exists now?"
Choose the image that pulls at you.
Don’t overthink it. Energy recognizes itself. ❤️
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Picture 1
Themes: Devotion, Surrender, Sacred Touch
These hands feel like two souls reaching across timelines
A love that offers itself fully without armour and games.
“Here I am. Take me."
“Your vulnerability is holy to me.”
The hands open upward, you receive them as they are and so do they. Any form of chasing or energy leaking isn't necessary here.
This is a lover who doesn’t love lightly. They love with loyalty that borders on obsession (the good kind) they'll feel a need to hold you when you’re unravelling. They are protective and steady also someone who is rather tactile. They need touch or express better with touch. Someone who remembers the feel and texture of your skin, hair and the fabric of your favourite or most worn attire. Someone who holds space rather than running from intensity. A person who offers themselves fully time and presence regardless of other duties.
A lover who shows up when things get raw.
Someone who is not afraid of your vulnerability neither your power.
This is a partner who wants to build safety but doesn't shy away from intensity either.
They are learning how to love with their whole nervous system, not just their heart and they'll teach you the same.
Life may have hardened them but they'll choose to hold you gently. This person has sharp, observant eyes. The kind of gaze that studies before it speaks. There’s something intelligent and slightly unreadable about their expression like they always know more than they’re saying. Lean or structured build, composed posture, deliberate movements.
They dress intentionally. Clean lines. Earthy or neutral tones. Nothing flashy, but always put together. Their hands look capable. Their voice is calm, steady, reassuring.
There’s mental quickness beneath the grounded exterior. When they speak passionately, they speak fast. Sharp humor. Strategic mind. They plan ahead. They think long-term.
You’ll recognize them by how stable they feel. Being around them settles your nervous system. They may appear reserved at first, but once they choose you, they are deeply loyal.
Strong Earth with Air influence. Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn energy with Gemini or Aquarius undertones.
Picture 2
Theme: Destined Meeting, Soul Contracts, Public Yet Fated Union
Lanterns here mean guidance in darkness, a path lighting up
when both walk it and a love that is meant to be seen, not hidden.
The multiple lanterns symbolise multiple lifetimes, parallel timelines converging. This will feel more like reunion less like a meeting. This connection will activate your purpose aswell not just emotions. This is someone whose presence reorganises your future
There is passion, celebration and spiritual protection.
This lover comes in during a “dark phase” of your life and becomes the light.
This person is also someone who sees value in little things. And value in little efforts that amount to something bigger. Likely also someone who likes taking pictures a lot even if they may or may not share them. Loves to study or immerse themselves in knowledge and culture.
“We found each other when the world was quiet but the soul was loud.” is something that crossed my mind when I was channeling for this group.
They'll enter your life during a transition. Bring in unexpected clarity on things you may have not been confronting at first. Very right place right time connection. You might feel like you share some kind of karma or debt with them but don't take it the wrong way, things will come to a balance between the two of you. So just because certain aspects of the connection feel confrontational or require a change of perspective, doesn't mean you run away.
This is a lover who has walked through their own shadows and now carries ample wisdom. This person seems to move fast. Meaning, you’ll feel momentum around them. Quick stride, expressive hands, animated conversations. There’s a youthful spark in their eyes, even if they’re mature in age.
Lean or athletic build. Defined features. Restless energy. They may talk with their hands or tilt their head when listening closely. There’s excitement in how they engage.
They’re social. People gravitate toward them easily. There’s laughter around them. But beneath that charm, there’s resilience, someone who’s been through battles and come out stronger.
You’ll recognize them by how quickly things ignite between you. Fast replies. Fast chemistry. Electric conversations. They feel like movement, like acceleration.
Fire with Air streaks. Aries or Sagittarius energy with Gemini influence.
Picture 3
Theme: Mature Love, Passion, Emotional Safety
A rose with dew tell you that softness and intensity coexist in this individual. This is a lover who can be dominant and tender in the same breath. This is someone who sees your emotional body as something precious, not inconvenient.
This love will feel ripe, magnetic, slow-burning but endless.
The water droplets here speak of emotional attunement.
Their desire for you doesn't end on body, they'll study your moods, your silences, your micro-expressions.
“I want to know how you break, so I can be where you land.”
This lover is protective of your softness and intensely attracted to your mind and darkness.
Someone who will feel like home and hunger at once. They are very sensual deep down. Very mystical and intuitive as well. They will notice things and collect very specific things as well. They have a way with words and self expression. People project onto them a lot but not always get their truth. They're protective of that side of them.
This lover has a commanding presence.
Strong posture. Intense eye contact. A gaze that doesn’t break easily. They may have broad shoulders or simply carry themselves in a way that feels powerful. Even in silence, they dominate the room.
They dress with confidence, darker tones, structured pieces, something subtly sensual. You notice them immediately. Others do too.
There’s depth here. This is someone who has spent time alone. Mature, self-aware, controlled. Their voice may be lower, steady, deliberate. When they look at you, it feels intentional.
The attraction is undeniable. Magnetic. Grounded but charged. Being near them feels both stabilizing and dangerously exciting.
You’ll recognize them by how intense the energy feels without a single word being spoken.
Strong Fire with heavy Earth undertones. Leo or Aries mixed with Capricorn or Scorpio intensity.
Pick a Card - It's Been Years. What Would They Say to You?
You know the person I'm talking about. The connection that never left your mind. Feeling introspective lately on some old connections of mine and made one of these for people who could relate. Readings are courtesy of my Dog Tarot deck.
These are just tasters based on vibes, but if you want a full reading that's personal to you (or to just tip your local fox) check out my Etsy.
Pick an image below. Take a breath. Which one calls to you?
Image #1 - Seven of Cups reversed, Five of swords reversed. "You have to let me go." You have an idealized view of the relationship, and the time that has elapsed has allowed nostalgia to cloud your judgement. It's okay to look back on your history with fondness, but when it gets to the point of escapism there's a problem. There's also something to be said here about letting go of past mistakes. You can't hang on to what went wrong in this connection for the rest of your life. Forgive yourself for having to let go; you did the best you could with the information you had at the time. There's a sense of fragility about you right now; be gentle with yourself.
Image #2 - Four of Pentacles, Two of Swords reversed, Three of swords. "Deep down, I feel it too." Beneath layers of quiet and prolonged distance, there's a feeling of something missing on their end too; it's not at the stage where it'll come to light organically or where they're going to just reach out to you, but there's a resistance to change and an unwillingness to let go on their part. There's suppressed feelings and mourning that needs to be confronted, likely for you as well. Allow yourself to mourn this connection- they feel the same.
Image #3 - The Tower, Seven of Swords reversed. "You had some part in this, too." A bit of a biting reading, so I apologize. The Seven of Swords reversed is all about coming clean, and The Tower is all about accepting a hard reality and surrendering to it. There's a reason this connection was severed, and there could be some introspection on your part that would benefit you in the future. I'm getting a feeling of hurt here, as if there's an old wound that's healing. Don't beat yourself up and write yourself off as a terrible person, though- that will do nothing in the long run. Instead, take your knowledge and experiences you gained from your mistakes in this connection and use this knowledge to improve the connections you have now. This might be a hard reality to face- it's hard to admit that we were in the wrong, after all. But you're only human and can't live a life without making some mistakes. Move on, and allow this person to move on in peace too.
Image #4 - Queen of Pentacles Reversed, The Chariot. "I release you. Take care of yourself." Is there a chance you're neglecting yourself and your future these days? Maybe looking back on this connection is a way for you to alleviate stress in the day-to-day. You're not meant to be back with this person, but there is a well-wish here and a feeling of fondness. The Chariot is all about movement, progression, moving on. Queen of Pentacles Reversed usually represents a person and can mean insecurity or not taking care of yourself- are you so focused on the past that you're not looking at the beautiful path that awaits you? This card is not an open door to go back to this connection but rather a smile and a wave goodbye, on good terms.
Pick a Pile: Who Is Thinking About You But Refuses to Admit It
Someone has you on their mind more often than they let on. Thoughts they push away. Feelings they rationalize. Moments they replay privately but would never confess out loud.
This reading explores who is thinking about you in silence, why they are holding back, and what keeps them from admitting it.
Choose the pile you feel pulled toward. Trust the quiet nudge.
Pile One
The person thinking about you is someone who knows you on a deeper level than they allow others to see. This is not a fleeting thought or a passing curiosity. Their attention toward you is intentional, recurring, and emotionally layered. They think about you during quiet moments, when distractions fall away and honesty becomes harder to avoid.
This person admires your emotional presence. The way you listen. The way you notice subtle shifts. The way you make moments feel meaningful without demanding attention. Being around you made them feel seen, and that is something they are not used to. It left an impression they have not been able to shake.
They refuse to admit it because acknowledging their feelings would require vulnerability. This person is guarded. They are used to maintaining control, emotional distance, or a certain image of independence. Thinking about you disrupts that narrative. You represent a softness they are not sure how to hold.
There is also an element of timing here. Something about their life feels unresolved. Responsibilities, existing connections, or inner uncertainty makes them hesitant to open that door. Admitting they think about you would force them to confront what they are not ready to change yet.
They replay interactions with you privately. Conversations. Small moments. Even silences. They wonder what you think of them. Whether you felt the same subtle pull. Whether you noticed what they were holding back. These thoughts often surface late at night or during moments of introspection.
This person feels drawn to your emotional depth. You do not overwhelm, but you do not skim the surface either. That balance makes you unforgettable. They sense that closeness with you would be intimate in a way that goes beyond surface attraction. That possibility both excites and intimidates them.
They also fear rejection more than they admit. Not necessarily rejection from you, but rejection of the version of themselves that would want something real. Thinking about you brings up questions about desire, readiness, and emotional honesty they have been avoiding.
You may notice subtle signs. Lingering looks. Quiet check ins. Engagement that feels intentional but restrained. They want to stay connected without revealing how much they care.
This person is not ignoring their feelings. They are containing them. Carefully. Privately. Repeatedly.
And that restraint is exactly why their thoughts of you have so much intensity.
Extended Reading on Patreon for $2:
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This extended reading explores what they imagine in private, the emotional and sensual layers of their attraction, and what would have to shift for them to finally admit the truth they keep avoiding.
Pile Two
The person thinking about you is someone who feels a strong mental and emotional pull toward you but keeps it hidden behind logic and distraction. This is someone who tries to explain their feelings away. They tell themselves it is curiosity, coincidence, or nostalgia, but the thoughts return anyway.
They think about you during moments of routine. While doing something familiar. While scrolling. While working. You appear unexpectedly in their mind, and they quickly redirect their attention. Not because the thought is unpleasant, but because it feels inconvenient.
This person is drawn to your mind. Your way of seeing things. The way you speak or express yourself left an impression that feels stimulating and difficult to replace. Conversations with you linger in their memory. They revisit what you said and how you said it, wondering what you meant beneath the surface.
They refuse to admit it because admitting it would disrupt their sense of control. This person values emotional autonomy and does not like feeling pulled toward someone without clear structure or certainty. Thinking about you introduces uncertainty. Desire without a plan. Interest without an explanation.
There may be distance here. Physical distance. Time. Or emotional distance created intentionally. They may tell themselves that too much time has passed or that the connection was not meant to last. Yet you continue to resurface in their thoughts, especially during moments when they feel mentally restless or unfulfilled.
They admire your originality. The way you do not think like everyone else. You challenged them mentally without trying to. That mental stimulation became something they quietly crave. It is rare for them to feel that kind of connection, which makes it harder to dismiss.
This person also feels slightly intimidated by you. Not in a negative way, but in a way that makes them question their own emotional clarity. You represent depth and self awareness that they are still developing. Admitting they think about you would mean admitting they are not as detached as they present themselves to be.
They may keep tabs on you from a distance. Checking in quietly. Not engaging too much. Just enough to feel connected without exposure. They want to know how you are doing, but they do not want you to know how often you cross their mind.
If you sense someone thinking about you unexpectedly, this pile suggests it is someone who values mental connection and struggles with emotional vulnerability. Their silence is not disinterest. It is restraint.
They think about you because you represent possibility. And possibility is hard to ignore.
Extended Reading on Patreon for $2:
“After Dark Thoughts: What They Fantasize About But Will Not Confess”
This extended reading reveals what they imagine when they are alone, why they suppress their attraction, and what would need to shift for them to finally acknowledge what they feel about you.
Pile Three
The person thinking about you is someone from your emotional orbit. Someone who knows you well enough to feel the pull, but not well enough to feel secure in it. This could be a past connection, a lingering almost relationship, or someone who stayed on the edge of your life longer than they intended.
They think about you when they feel emotionally vulnerable. During moments of nostalgia. During emotional lows. During times when they crave comfort but do not want to ask for it. You represent emotional safety to them, and that association is difficult to let go of.
They refuse to admit it because admitting it would reopen feelings they believe they already closed. This person has told themselves a story about moving on. About being fine. About the connection being resolved. Thinking about you threatens that narrative.
There is regret here. Not necessarily about what happened, but about what was not fully explored. They wonder how things might have unfolded if timing, communication, or courage had been different. These thoughts surface quietly, often when they are alone.
This person feels emotionally drawn to your gentleness. The way you listened. The way you offered understanding without judgment. Being around you felt like emotional relief, and that memory has stayed with them. They think about you when they want to feel emotionally grounded.
They may avoid reaching out because they fear disrupting your peace. Or they fear being reminded of what they lost. There is a sense that they believe the moment has passed, even though the feelings have not fully dissolved.
You may feel their energy unexpectedly. A sense of being thought of. Emotional waves that feel unprompted. This pile suggests that connection is still active on an emotional level, even if it is unspoken.
They think about you with tenderness rather than urgency. There is longing, but it is quiet. Reflective. They do not fantasize about dramatic reunion as much as they imagine small moments. Conversation. Presence. Comfort.
This person does not refuse to admit it out of indifference. They refuse because admitting it would require vulnerability they are not sure they can handle right now.
They carry you with them as an emotional reference point. A reminder of how safe connection can feel.
Extended Reading on Patreon for $2:
“After Dark Thoughts: What They Fantasize About But Will Not Confess”
This extended reading explores the emotional memories they revisit, the desire they suppress, and whether this unspoken connection is meant to remain internal or eventually be expressed.
Pile Four
The person thinking about you is someone who feels challenged by you. Not in a competitive way, but in the way you quietly expose parts of them they prefer to keep hidden. You reflect something back to them that they were not prepared to see, and that makes you difficult to forget.
They think about you when they are trying to distract themselves. When they are busy. When they are surrounded by noise. You appear in their thoughts uninvited, often during moments when they least expect it. This is part of why they refuse to admit it. They do not like feeling mentally undone by someone they cannot control.
This person associates you with truth. With clarity. With emotional depth that asks more of them than they are currently willing to give. Thinking about you stirs questions they have been avoiding about their own authenticity, their emotional availability, and their patterns in relationships.
There is attraction here, but it is layered with resistance. They feel drawn to your confidence, your emotional intelligence, and your presence. At the same time, they fear that being close to you would require them to grow in ways that feel uncomfortable or destabilizing.
They may have acted distant or inconsistent with you in the past. Not because they did not care, but because caring felt like losing control. You awaken something in them that does not stay neatly contained.
They refuse to admit they think about you because doing so would mean admitting they are affected by you. And this person prides themselves on appearing unaffected. On being composed. On keeping emotional leverage.
You come to mind when they question their own choices. When they sense they may be settling in areas of their life. You represent a version of connection that feels real and unfiltered, and that is both alluring and intimidating to them.
This person may watch from a distance. Checking in silently. Wondering how you are doing without asking. There is a sense of restraint here. A deliberate holding back that takes effort.
You may notice subtle energetic pull or moments where you feel unexpectedly seen. This pile suggests mutual awareness, even if it remains unspoken.
They do not refuse to admit it because they feel nothing. They refuse because acknowledging you would disrupt the emotional armor they rely on.
You leave an imprint. One that challenges, provokes, and lingers.
Extended Reading on Patreon for $2:
“After Dark Thoughts: What They Fantasize About But Will Not Confess”
This extended reading explores their hidden desires, the tension between attraction and resistance, and whether this connection is destined to remain unspoken or finally acknowledged.
PICK A CARD: why others get attracted to you (Thank you all for the 6k followers!!)
Hello and welcome to this new reading! This time I will tell you all about why others are attracted to you, why they get attracted to you. I hope you all enjoy!
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Pile 1
A lot of people get attracted to you without really being able to pinpoint why at first. It is not something loud or forced, it is not you trying to be impressive or constantly performing for attention. It comes much more naturally than that. Your wit plays a big role in this; you have a way of responding to things that feels quick, observant, and slightly unexpected. You tend to notice small details that others gloss over, and you often turn those observations into comments that are sharp without being cruel, funny without trying too hard. For many people this feels refreshing, especially in enviornments where conversations can start to feel repetitive or shallow. You bring a certain mental stimulation into a room, and people are drawn to that because it makes them feel more awake, more engaged. Being around you does not feel dull or predictable, and that alone already creates attraction. At the same time, your creativity adds another layer to this. You do not just think in straight lines; your mind tends to wander, connect things that do not obviously belong together, and explore ideas a bit further than most people are used to. This shows up in how you talk, how you tell stories, how you interpret situations. You often see multiple angles at once, and you are not afraid to entertain unusual perspectives, even if they are not fully formed yet. For others this can feel inspiring. They might feel like conversations with you open doors in their own mind, making them think differently or see themselves in a new light. You do not just consume ideas, you play with them, reshape them, and that makes people curious about how you see the world. There is also an underlying excitement in how you approach things, even ordinary moments. You tend to find interest where others see routine, and you can get genuinely absorbed in something that catches your attention. This enthusiasm is not exaggerated or performative; it is subtle but real, and people can sense that. It makes being around you feel more alive, as if there is always the potential for something interesting to happen or be discussed. This combination of wit, creativity, and quiet excitement creates a presence that pulls people in without you having to try.
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Pile 2
A big reason why others get attracted to you has very little to do with anything you actively try to do. It is not about performance, flirting, or consciously presenting yourself in a certain way. It is much more natural than that. You have a kind of beauty that feels unforced, and people tend to pick up on that almost immediately. Your appearance does not feel constructed; it feels like something that simply exists. Your hair, for example, is often seen as alluring not because it is perfect, but because it looks like it belongs to you. It frames you in a way that feels effortless, and there is a softness to it that draws attention without demanding it. People are often more atttracted to things that feel real rather than polished, and that is something you naturally embody. Your eyes play a big role in this as well. There is a look in them that you do not consciously put on, yet it communicates a lot. It can come across as depth, curiosity, or quiet intensity, depending on the moment. For many people, eye contact with you feels slightly disarming, not in a threatening way, but in a way that makes them feel seen. Even when you are not saying much your eyes tend to say enough. This makes people feel like there is more beneath the surface, something worth paying attention to. Attraction often grows in the space of what is not immediately explained, and you naturally leave that space open, if that makes sense. What makes this even more powerful is that you are not always fully aware of the effect you have. You might see your features as normal, or even overlook them entirely, because you are used to your own face and expressions. Others are not. They notice the way your expression shifts when you are thinking, listening, or slightly amused, any difference in your emotions, it is picked up on by people, it is noticed by them. They even notice the moments when your guard drops without you realising it has. These small, unintentional moments are often what people find the most attractive, because they feel honest and unfiltered.
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Pile 3
There is something in your energy that people notice before they can properly explain it. It is not loud or attention-seeking, and it is not something you consciously perform; it is simply there. A quiet intensity, almost a sense that there is more going on beneath the surface than what is immediately visible. Many people feel drawn to this because it makes you feel slightly out of reach, in a way that sparks curiousity rather than distance. You are not easily read and that creates interest, it pulls others toward you because they wish to find out what it is about you that you are hiding, what it is about you that makes you such an interesting individual. Others often feel like there is always another layer to you, another thought you have not voiced yet, another perspective you are still holding back. This makes conversations with you feel meaningful, even when you are not talking much. A big part of this attraction comes from how intelligent you are perceived to be. Whether or not you personally identify with that label is almost irrelevant; people tend to pick up on the way you process information, the way you observe before you speak, and the way you connect ideas without needing to spell everything out. You do not usually feel the need to prove how much you know, and paradoxically, that makes others assume you know more. When you share your thoughts, they often feel considered rather than impulsive, which gives them weight. Even silence works in your favour; people project depth onto you because you are not constantly filling space with words. At the same time, you do not come across as arrogant or dismissive, which is another reason people feel safe being drawn to you. Your uncertainty about your own intelligence, or your tendency to downplay it, is often read as humility. This makes others feel less threatened and more inclined to open up. People are attracted to those who make them feel seen rather than judged, and you do this almost unintentionally. You listen, you absorb, and you respond in a way that shows you have actually been paying attention. For many, this feels rare.
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Pile 1 - The Eye
For some of you, your psychic gifts will unlock later in life, probably after some significant event or important milestone that could serve as an initiation. Some of you will discover such talents after you understand your spiritual path for this lifetime. Some of you need to go further and follow your path of spiritual development until reaching a certain level. Try to not ignore your spiritual practices.
Pile 2 - The Adventurer
Your intuition might be stuck lately because you're stuck in general. Your routine might be very rigid and doesn't give you enough space to breathe and hear the voice of your intuition. You might also live on autopilot, doing the same exact things everyday. Such understimulating environment stops energy from flowing freely and properly, which makes contacting with your intuition way harder. Try to change your daily schedule a but so you aren't so blocked energetically.
Pile 3 - The Lovers
Finding like-minded people could help you advance in the spiritual path you follow and develop intuition. It's important to keep in mind, that here we're talking about equal relationships based on respect, so don't follow people who will try to pose as Guru. You need community, understanding and support,maybe some advice and guidance from more experienced people - but none of this involves taking the role of a follower or feeding someone's ego.
Pile 4 - The Seer
I see that you already are very gifted in this area of life, your intuition is very strong and rarely is wrong about something. You might be a fortuneteller yourself, or have a natural talent for such things. In general, rather than needing to develop your intuition you might have to always make sure that your relationship with it is healthy and deep, so you can always clearly connect to it. Don't ever ignore things your gut tells you and try to find a few minutes to quiet your thoughts down and listen to your inner voice from time to time.
What you don't see in yourself that would make you fall in love with yourself
choose a picture. whichever you are drawn to, would be your pile (1-3, left-right)
keep in mind that this is a general reading! i can go very in depth and detail, so take what resonates and leave what does not. if the reading doesn't feel right, then it means that the reading just may not be for you! don't feel pressured to stay if you don't like my way of delivering messages as well, as a reader, I understand sometimes people's energies won't always click.
also my readings are ALWAYS queer-inclusive. gendered language is not something i do in my readings. (if i speak of feminine and masculine energies, that is in the spiritual sense and does not equal gender.)
my readings are always timeless unless stated otherwise! the timelines that are specially named in my readings are to be taken loosely (as in, this could have happened to you already, happening in the moment or in the future)
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note: hi hi everyonee!! i loveddd doing this reading, your energies were all sooo beautiful and interesting i'm thankful i had the privelege to read them. i hope you could take something meaningful from this reading! i do enjoy doing love or relationship readings, but i am aiming to do more readings centered around YOU because i think readings about yourself are very grounding and helpful. and i wish everyone a good new year! i did my yearly tarot reading & ...my theme is the devil BUT HEY at least it is still a lot better than my 2025 reading. also im so sorry pile 1 i forgot to note your cards
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decks used: good karma tarot, cats rule the earth tarot, the wild unknown archetype
Pile 1
You are someone who is very intentional with your actions. Intentional with the choices that you make whether that be big ones, or smaller ones that would affect your day to day life. You consciously choose to do or surround yourself with things that would fulfill you the most. For this reason you may have a room that is decorated and you may find it important to have a room that feels like you/believes that your room is a reflection of you. You invest your time in things that are meaningful to you. I am seeing crochet, so you could be into arts or you may be creative. Even with the things that you own. You might donate or sell things you own that is of no use to you anymore. You are a very conscious consumer.
You might be someone who lives in their own world for this reason. Anything that you know wouldn’t fulfill you, you don’t let take up your time. You carve your own path, uncaring for what other people have going on. You are very focused on your own life and actively do things that would make your life beautiful. Anything else you can’t control, is none of your business. You are not concerned with how other people view you, you just are what you are. You’re very true to yourself. The things that make you happy are all that matters to you. And you aren’t afraid to slow down and reflect on what things still serve you and what things are not.
You are optimistic and full of hope. You have a very infectious aura that radiates very brightly which affects people in a positive way. People may feel energized after speaking to you. Motivated too, because you have a very level headed mind, which in turn makes people think clearly about their goals and how to spend their day in a meaningful way.
This way of thinking is helpful in times of struggle, because instead of shutting down out of anxiety, you face every challenge with courage and confidence. You think in the grounded way of “this is the objective fact about the situation”, “these are the options that I have” and “this is how each option would make me feel/affect my life”. You are good at choosing the things that are good for you / that serve you for the long-term.
channeled things:
LEO, cancer, pisces, scorpio, aquarius, dreamy energy/in their own world, yellow, birds
channeled music:
beabadoobee, tame impala, loveworm (beabadoobee)
Pile 2
You have a very healing presence. Whenever people spend time with you, they feel a sense of peace wash over them. And you make every interaction with you feel intimate. Not in a sexual way, just very special. I think you may not say a lot to most people. But when you do say things, it is very meaningful and wise. You may prefer to spend time one on one with people, instead of in a group setting. Or, your personality shines more when you are hanging out one on one with people that they might feel like you two have a special connection.
You may say things that are really wise without realizing it. You say things that people need to hear the most whenever they vent out their frustrations onto you, and in your head, you’re just responding or giving your opinion on their situation, but they may take your words and contemplate on them. Because of this, people see you as someone who they can go to when they need advice. You may often get people come up to you and open up about their problems out of nowhere and you might get confused by that because you aren’t aware of how people perceive you.
People really look up to you. In times where they need hope, they think of you— what you once said or the things they have learned through what you once said. People have a lot of love for you because of this. Some even see you as somebody who was there when they needed it, or who helped them go through tough times. Whenever they think back at your memories together or of you, they have a warm feeling in their chest and a smile on their face.
But all of this comes down to the fact that you have spent a lot of time contemplating on yourself. You are not afraid to be in your own company and thoughts. You have understood yourself in a much more deeper level than other people understand themselves. Things that are usually scary or disorienting to look at, you do it with assurance and with ease. You face all the different parts of yourself and you accept and embrace that. That is a beautiful and rare ability that you should be proud of. You have gone through things, yet your grace and humility stays within you. You have helped yourself out of hard situations and be your own hope and guiding light. You don’t grow hard and cruel like a lot of other people would have. You choose to look within and heal yourself in a soft way, even if that’s the difficult path to take.
You are someone who values fairness and equality. That means you are generous. You give your time, energy or resources to others. But you don’t do it at the expense of yourself. You are very mindful of how balanced a dynamic is— whether they do give back to you or not, but also you would always try to make it up to someone if you realize that you haven’t given back to them. And you won’t entertain anyone that is taking advantage of your generosity. In a larger scale, this could look like giving back to your community in general. You could like to donate or volunteer for this reason.
There is quite a significant masculine energy here, so you could not see that you're actually someone who is very good at taking action. You are a very dependable and grounding presence, but also someone with very clear goals and know exactly how to follow through with your plans. There is a lot of charisma in this energy specifically. Your groundedness and level headedness help people get out of their own head and motivate them.
channeled messages:
istjs, isfjs, infjs, intjs, minions?, the night, THE MOON, cancer, divine masculine, spacey
channeled song:
dear reader by taylor swift — ”you should find another guiding light, but i shine so bright.”, you might not find yourself as someone who people should look up to, you might feel like people don’t really KNOW you, healthy alone time might turn into isolation sometimes
cards:
the star, six of pentacles, the mirror - wild unknown archetype, king of wands, king of pentacles, the stone - the wild unknown
Pile 3
You may feel like you are boring or that you can’t keep up with others (your peers or your partner), but you actually have a very fun and spontaneous energy. You may believe that people won’t notice your absence, but they absolutely do. Your energy lights up a room and energizes the people in them. Whenever you are near, people always feel excited and some people may even suggest you do something impulsive. In your mind, you may be worrying that you won’t be able to be “fun” enough during those moments, but in reality, you are the one who triggers them to ask that in the first place LOL. You have a very lively presence. A presence even animals love. Animals may come up to you or get really excited around you as well.
You have a very powerful presence that is hard to miss. It feels like people look at you whenever you are in the room. As if you control the energy without knowing. People really care about what you think and what your input is on things. When a discussion comes around, they would probably look to you. Or during a group project, you end up being the one taking the lead without even realizing it, because that’s just how natural it is for you, and people follow.
You can handle a lot of things at once. You might be busy a lot, yet you handle it without missing a beat that you make it look so easy. Other people would fall under the pressure, but you are able to keep yourself calm and stable, and you keep on going. You are able to keep moving to one thing and then the next. Minimal breaks. And you do it well, with a smile on your face, even. And not without slipping in a few jokes here and there.
You are someone who is very determined and very resilient as well. Life may like to throw hurdles and challenges at you, yet you do not flinch. You have a strong willpower and stable confidence that does not shake in the presence of these challenges. And you do it with poise! While looking good as hell too. You are hot, by the way, to be honest that was actually the first message I got doing your reading LOL.
Yet even despite how professional and experienced you seem to be, you are very humble. You are very good in a lot of different things, yet you are always open to learning more. Even looking for different perspectives and different advice. Even during times when you feel like you need help from somebody, you are not afraid to reach out to people. That is a very respectable quality. People don’t just see you as an inspiration and somebody to look up to, but also genuinely see a friend in you. Just another human who sometimes need company or help.
You are open minded and curious. You challenge your own perspectives and beliefs. You find critically thinking on your own very important. You may even be someone who challenges others’ perspectives and beliefs as well, hence why people look at you during discussions.
A lot of people have a lot of respect for you. I feel that very strongly. Some of you may have the tarot birth card of the emperor, or you just embody the emperor’s energy very strongly.
channeled things:
gemini, singing, scatterbrained, fire signs (aries, leo, sagittarius) the majority of you might not be a fire sun but have firey energy, so fire mars could be you, MERCURY (gemini or virgo), you might own a dog or a pet that is black and white, STRONG alexander hamilton vibes LMAOODJ IM SORRY, honestly ppl could see u as the "group leader" LOL a lot of ppl want to impress you and some may accidentally make a fool of themselves in front of u bc of this
channeled songs:
non stop by hamilton — “how do u write like youre writing out of time” LMAO
cards:
knight of wands, the emperor, the prayer - the wild unknown archetype, two of pentacles, seven of wands, the sword - the wild unknown archetype
You’re someone’s dream person my lovely Bunny! In this “future spouse” styled reading, we’ll explore the reason why your destined lover will fall in love with you. To pick a pile, don’t overthink it; choose the one that draws you in the most while considering the reading’s intent. Pick multiple if you feel so called to! Always use your discernment & take only what resonates! Love, Matcha ♡
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1 ₊˚.༄
Who wouldn’t fall in love with you, Bunny? With your jolly and adorable nature, you slowly bewitched your person until all they could think of, day and night, was you. At first, you opened their hearts by being someone they could trust. After a brief moment of knowing each other, it was clear to them that you were reliable and open-minded. They understood you were an hardworking person in your professional life and you mirrored this trustworthy behaviour in your connection with them by always showing up the way they expected you to.
Moreover, you were willing to understand their point of view and collaborate with them to make this relationship evolve. They never felt like they were putting more effort than you, they were deeply touched by how you received them with such care and respect. Your person also thought it was quite appealing that you seem to put this effort into most of your ventures, they were impressed by your values. When they met you, it was obvious you had more than a fling potential, you stood out to them as someone that they could build something serious with.
The way you opened up emotionally to your person deeply moved them. Your compassionate nature and your sense of justice awakened something in them. It was evident that you shared similar values and they saw themselves through you. You expressed your passions without pride, it was your way of opening up. It was radical authenticity and your way of handing your heart to them, of being vulnerable.
However, they secretly felt like you didn’t realize how rare this raw fire you possessed truly was and they vowed to themselves they must protect your innocent soul. In their eyes you’re so precious that you should never have to struggle a day in your life, they never want you to experience pain ever again. They know your graceful wisdom had to come from strife. You never pretended you had a perfect life or that you were a perfect individual and they adored how honest you were about your past with them.
They loved that you showed them your flaws. To them, you have the most perfect imperfections. They fell in love with you for your beautiful light qualities and then they grew even more passionately enamoured with you the more they got to know your shadows.
Your person observed you longingly from afar before they took their first step towards you, Bunny. Every day the depth of their feelings growing more intensely. They knew all about your cute mannerisms. They were charmed by your idiolect; your own personal way of using language. The way you pronounced some words with more intent than others, the little pauses you made between sentences, the funny slangs you used among the scholarly words you probably learned in one of those big books you always carried around.
They imagined, as you spoke lively to your friends, that one day you would turn to them abruptly and invite them to join you. But you never would. So every day they would sneakily observe you, their love for you growing fonder. One day, they knew they had to approach you. However, your person was going through a period of scarcity in their life, and having decided you were the one, they felt obliged to only introduce themselves to you when they could be proud of their lifestyle. They wanted to offer you everything you could ask for, to make it a given that you had to be with them.
To your person, you were the most witty and beautiful individual gracing this earth. No one else came close to the charm you possessed and the wisdom you hold. You barely ever laid eyes on them, or so they thought, but they remained certain of your superior character. Your person was in love with you the first second they heard your laugh.
Every day their attraction grew more intensely, it was like a fire eating away their whole body. They could feel you in their veins, they yearned for your touch. You motivated them to mature, to be kinder, to apply themselves in their work… Eventually, their secret love for you became too overwhelming. Your person felt silly for keeping this up for such a long time. They grew so much since their obsession started and they finally felt ready to declare their flame, to invite you on a proper date. When you accepted they saw their future flash before their eyes. When you held hands for the first time they nearly cried and when you finally honoured them with an embrace, they knew all their effort was worth it.
2, 247, 353, 74, 82, 88, 90, 96, 999, red roses, The Secret History, mythology, selenite, red quartz, tinkerbell, Bridgeton, Sylvia Plath, Morocco, Japan, Taurus, Leo, Capricorn, Aquarius, Pisces, I, K, O, V, P, T
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3 ‧₊˚ ♡
You were so quick to discard them the first time you met, how could you, Bunny? They thought there was no way you didn’t find them attractive, their charm worked on everyone else. They always tried their best to open the conversation with something that wasn’t too abrupt, too obvious about their end goal. You looked at them like they were nothing and walked away. Well, that’s a first, and it was hard for them to describe the feeling it awakened in them. Thankfully, they knew they would have the chance to run into you again.
When they saw you again, they realized you were pretty friendly and funny. They decided to approach you more innocently. Truthfully, their initial attraction transformed into a more honest interest in who you were as a person. Maybe after all, they could settle for a friendship with you.
They got to know you better, they laughed with you, heard your interesting stories and frankly put they were as attracted to your mind as your appearance. Your person valued you so much as a friend and although their true love for you was now obvious to them, they now cherished you so much that declaring the depth of their feelings seemed too risky.
They loved you for how true to your values you were, for how you strictly established clear boundaries and respected yourself. They loved your duality, because at the same time you were one of the funniest person they met and they would repeat some of your one-liners to themselves and laugh alone in their room like a lunatic. You became their best friend and the most precious thing in their life.
You always seemed to have the right opinions and they were impressed by how virtuous you were. Every time they initially disagreed with what you said, they later changed their mind after you offered them a thoughtful and well-versed explanation of your statement. Your person learned so much from you. They became interested in topics they had never heard about before, and they grew into a more mature and intelligent person by having you in their life. They were now a bit ashamed of the first impression they gave you, they genuinely didn’t feel like this version of them anymore…
At some point, they had abandoned the dream of being with you and had simply resigned themselves to venerating you secretly. However, they don’t know when but at some point you developed feelings for them as well. They were so excited and flustered when you made a move on them. Ah! It always had to be on your terms and they loved that about you. They were glad you rejected them the first time, because now they could offer you a version of themselves they were truly proud of and that you truly deserved.
0, 2, 3, 34, 67, 77, 999, summer, beach, pink lace, red heels, lava lamp, clovers, lucky charms, camomille tea, Virgin Mary, Loki, bows, Aries, Taurus, Gemini, Capricorn, Cancer, J, M, Z, O, L
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4 ₊˚. 𖤓
The first thing about you that struck your person is definitely your beautiful appearance, Bunny. It’s like they recognized the one they’ve been subconsciously searching for all their life when they first laid eyes on you. Everything about you is exactly their type, as if the Universe meticulously chose all your traits to fit your person’s criteria’s. They felt an intense almost urgent attraction towards you, you got them instantly hooked. You were the most gorgeous person they had ever seen.
If it’s your looks that initially got their interest, it’s your personality that made them set on you for life. How can someone so flamboyant have such a difficult past yet such a lovely spirit? You’ve gone through so much yet you always came back stronger, more in tune with your highest path. They wish to replace all of the bad memories from your childhood with happy new ones you’ll make together.
When you entered their life you made it so much brighter all of a sudden, as if you were their appointed angel of light. They never knew the world could be experienced in such a reinvigorating way. With you, they reconnected to their inner child, to a part of themselves they thought was forever lost. They wish the nights you spent talking, laughing, drinking and dancing could last forever. But then again, when they wake up in the morning next to you, they realize how beautiful you also are in moments of peace and stillness. Like a sun at dawn.
With you, life is full of surprises. It’s as if the universe started favouring them the moment you entered their life. Maybe it’s because of the mindset shift you inspired in them, or maybe it’s because that’s just what happens when soulmates finally reunite. They know that by your side, the future can only be bright. It’s been evident since the day they met you that you were created for each other, Bunny. They promised themselves that they will never walk away from you and they’ll always do their best to take care of themselves so that they can take care of you the way you’ve always been meant to be taken care of.
2, 212, 2:22, 28, 49, 55, 844, 94, peony, lily, white horse, Princeton, jeopardy, clouds, jaguar, Mississippi, Mercury, Eros, Sagittarius, Leo, Libra, Virgo, Pisces, M, N, T, U, F, G
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5 ⊹˚˖ ꩜
Falling in love with you had a lot of layers, Bunny and one reading couldn’t possibly name them all, but let’s try to name a few... At first, it was how funny you were that got your person hooked. Seriously, they think you could be a professional comedian. The bits you do could entertain them for hours, they wish they could replay the things you say because your delivery is so spontaneous and amusing. The voices you make and the situations you enact are absolutely hilarious. You have such a fertile imagination and it’s obvious in the way you express yourself creatively. You have the spirit of an artist. Your person believes many creatives would kill to have such a vivacious mind this effortlessly.
The second thing that made them fall for you was the way you handle change and make the best of challenging situations. It’s as if your life has been tower moments after tower moments… Can the Universe give you a break?! They quickly realized you accepted these moments with open arms because you understand how they lead to powerful transformation. Hard life transitions don’t slow you down, they give you more momentum! How fascinating. You apply the art of transmuting energy in a way they’ve never observed before.
The third thing that made them fall in love with you was how patient and compassionate you were with them. You have so much drive so they were worried you would judge them if they ever slowed down or lost motivation, but you didn’t. Honestly, this is what ended up giving them back energy in moments where they were depleted. You didn’t act as if they owed you a perfect mood all the time and it soothed them. Your person is from an environment where being sad can be seen as being negative and they’re glad you looked beyond their sulky phases. Honestly, that’s what made them feel safe with you and totally surrender to this love story. They don’t trust easily, but you’re the person they’ve felt the safest with.
The fourth thing that made them enamoured with you was your intense passion. It’s a trait you share, being so obsessed with your dreams that the thought of not going after them is maddening. Some people could see it as a flaw, they see it as being alive. Sometimes, it makes you act in ways other people wouldn’t understand and they love it because they do. At this point in the relationship, they pretty much feel like they’re the only ones who truly see your soul, is that pretentious? If so, they don’t really care, they’re certain you feel the same way about them. That’s another thing they love deeply about you, how openly you’ve shown your affection to them.
Finally, your person wouldn’t say they fell in love with you, because it’s as if they always were. They feel your love was fated, that you simply had to reunite in this lifetime but that you were always meant for each other. That’s why they’ll never let you go, they genuinely don’t think they can, they think this romance is destined to last beyond this lifetime.
Meeting you felt like a sigh of relief for your person, because they finally met someone they could truly relate to. For most of their existence, they felt alone and misunderstood, but it all changed when you entered their life. Isn’t so appeasing to meet someone you feel like you’ve known your whole life, Bunny? This union always felt serene to this person. In romance, they’ve never felt confident enough to be their authentic self, but it all changed when they started pouring their love into you.
Loving you felt like an initiation. It wasn’t like falling in love, it was like meeting the love of your life, point blank. For them, it was completely life-changing, because they used to believe true love didn’t exist. You instantly became part of their purpose. The path ahead unfolded in front of them, your person now knew what their future looked like and it had the shape of your heart. Like a baby in their mother’s womb, they felt safe in your presence like they never felt before. They vowed to be the same for you.
They could look at you all day long, you’re their favourite piece of art. When you smile at them, they feel so abundant. Making you laugh makes them feel like they could conquer anything in the world. I know it’s cheesy, but they feel like royalty with you. By your side, life feels so poetic. They replay the dates you’ve been on in their head like it was a movie, and obviously, you’re the star of the show.
Your person loves how they can tell you anything and you easily understand them. Between you, there are no walls, your souls are one. You understand their pain better than anyone could. They told you things they never told anybody else, and you helped them make sense of experiences that burdened them their whole life. You make life feel so light.
They also love your way of expressing yourself, you have such an elegant way of talking about your feelings. When you talk about your past they’re so moved, it’s so effortlessly artistic. They feel like you could be the main character of an author film. Your person sees you as their muse. They love you in such a theatrical way. To them, you’re the embodiment of divine femininity. They would choose you over any riches.
1, 13, 31, 4, 4:44, 68, 7, 99, gold bracelet, violets, silver earrings, bamboo, golden retriever, ants, the ocean, crayfish, birth of Venus, Aphrodite, Coldplay, Mars, Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, Sagittarius, Pisces, N, I, H, A
(Disclaimer: I personally believe that we have more than one soulmate, so here I will be describing one of them, maybe the nearest to you in time.)
1- When you meet this person you will have just left something or someone behind. I’m seeing mostly a toxic person or relationship. After leaving that situation, this is when you’ll meet this person. I’m seeing you won’t even be looking for love and will be in a “I’m good on my own” mentality when you meet them.
Their possible sign: Gemini, Aquarius, Pisces sun moon or rising
2- I’m seeing that you’ll meet them during a time where you’re confused and lost. Your intuition may be fuzzy and hard to grasp and you’ll be very cautious. That’s when you’ll meet this person. I see them serving as guidance at first, maybe they’re a life coach or a spiritual teacher. Regardless, they will help you use and see your intuition and inner guidance and to let go a bit more.
Their possible sign: Leo, Aquarius, Cancer sun moon or rising
3- You will meet them after a time of healing and ending an unhealthy cycle. You would’ve ended doing some shadow work and have been facing your shadow side for a long time. I think that this is mostly revolving around love and relationships shadow work. I see you having all your chakras, especially the heart, open. You will be in your receiving energy when you attract this person. I feel like for the majority of you, this will happen soon.
Their possible sign: Scorpio, Pisces, Cancer sun moon or rising
Hello, my visionaries. How are your shoulders, you're carrying the weight of the world on them, aren't you? You have a strong sense of justice, and a strong drive to make right what you see wrong. You're attracted to a career that has structure and one in which you have to prove your capabilities. A lot of you would thrive in law or politics. You don't like corruption, or an excess of power, and you want a career out of putting an end to corruption. Some of you are interested in policing? Some of you want to make it into Hollywood. Some of you want to set up a charity. Finally, some of you see an inequity in some sort of niche field and are interested in making things fairer. I don't think I need to give this pile any ideas, you've all already made your minds up. You have a lot of raw energy, pile 1.
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Pile 2
You guys want to offer your expertise on something. This is a pile for the future economists, consultants, mortgage advisors, and investment/business analysts. Some of you want to be scientists, especially something in marine, but I feel that a very large majority of you are interested in finance. You are interested in predicting things before they happen, you want to offer your expertise to help people make informed decisions. You are interested in how things work. The 2008 financial crisis could be important to you in some way? A majority of you already know what you want to to, but you aren't sure whether you should or shouldn't. Listen to your heart, loves.
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Pile 3
This pile is intuitive, emotional, and wants to spread positivity. You want to heal everyone around you. This pile might be interested in becoming therapists, psychiatrists, or social workers. For some of you, looking into becoming a relationship counselor might be worthwhile. Some of you might be interested in spiritual works, and might want to make a career out of it. Becoming a vet, and oral health therapist, chiropractor, or physiotherapist might interest you as well.
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Pile 4
This pile wants so badly to be a teacher. I'm feeling for mainly older students or adults, but some might benefit from considering teaching younger students. I don't think I need to give you ideas, I think you know what you want to be, but a lot of you aren't listening to your heart. Some of you want something a bit more niche, and some ideas for this could be becoming a pilates instructor, a personal trainer, or a singing coach. A job as a music director or music teacher might be of interest. Some of you might be interested in becoming a dietician or a nutritionist.
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PILE 1
Woahhhh okay
✮⋆˙ Something will be revealed to u in 2026 👁️⃤
✮⋆˙ A betrayal, hidden motives, or manipulation tactics!
✮⋆˙ I feel there is some sort of frustration and impatience, feeling people are not giving u credit.
✮⋆˙ A tower moment, either u gain finances or a sudden shift ⚡
But by mid year, u become a BEAST! U start gaining focus, discipline, creation, and output 🔥
✮⋆˙ A sudden idea or opportunity makes u move very fast, U will start taking risks.
✮⋆˙ I see excellent career opportunities and reputation if u focus on building.
✮⋆˙ Money gets BETTER because u get serious 💸🤑
By the end of 2026:
Steady income
Skills sharper than ever
A stable connection
High confidence
Someone who wants commitment
A celebration at home
This year will be all about:
Finding the truth ---> Healing---> Working on urself---> Success
✮⋆˙ Fake people fall off, illusions break, secrets reveal, ur intuition becomes sharp 👑
U will see everyone’s true intentions! Wanna know your personal love life in 2026 ? Cuz i definitely sense something 👀
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PILE 2
Alrighttt
✮⋆˙ A MAJOR life chapter will be ending in 2026!
✮⋆˙ U will become mentally, emotionally, and physically STRONGER.
✮⋆˙ This is the “main character era” energy 😎
✮⋆˙ Expect a spiritual or emotional awakening ⭐
✮⋆˙ Someone will be watching u from a distance, keep tabs on u, message u, or be curious about u. But u will be busy enough to give a shit about them lol 😏
✮⋆˙ A long distance love possibility, someone from the past may reappear but u will heal through it.
✮⋆˙ Slow but stable financial and career growth, u will become more intellectual, observant, strategic 𓆩♛𓆪
✮⋆˙ I see travel, relocation, or expansion 💸⃤⛃ᯓ ✈︎
✮⋆˙ The real success, expansion, followers, recognition, and money will kick in strongly by the end of 2026 🔮💫
This year prepares u for a MAJOR breakthrough the next year! But wanna know your personal life dynamics in 2026 ? Cuz I definitely sense a plot twist here👀
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PILE 3
LMAO atleast let me start (already got the song lol) (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶)
Hmmmm okay,
U know that motivation for a new start and that delulu song plays 😂
I wont be shocked if ya'll dramatic or delulu gangs here.
✮⋆˙ This is the new beggining era, a fresh start in life 🪄
✮⋆˙ U will follow a system, build expertise, or enter a more stable career or institution.
✮⋆˙ Hitting a big milestone and celebrations, i see many personal achievements 🎉
✮⋆˙ Expect competition, jealousy, and obstacles around u, but u will handle everything with confidence and emotional strength ✨
✮⋆˙ I also sense fast movements, travel, and intense ambition.
✮⋆˙ Entering a global stage like social media growth, recognition 💎
By the end of 2026:
U will achieve something major
U will level up spiritually, emotionally, and socially
Increased confidence
In a committed relationship OR close to it
Surrounded by celebrations
Finishing something BIG in 2026
This year will be all about:
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PILE 4
Wow, I see VERY focused people here
Ya'll be doing extreme hardwork 🛠
Something or someone emotionally disappoints u, ended up making u become colder, wiser, and smarter.
Beware of unhealthy attachments and temptations ⚠️
✮⋆˙ U will become extremely serious about ur financial independence.
✮⋆˙ Cut off distractions and people who drain ur energy.
✮⋆˙ Also, becoming VERY smart and strategic 🌟
✮⋆˙ Expect a new romantic interest, warm energy entering ur life 👀
✮⋆˙ I also sense delays in making a decision or mental conflicts.
✮⋆˙ U will rise with POWER and start moving fast toward long term success 🎖️
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There’s a version of you that doesn’t smile for the light a version that hides in the quiet corners, behind polite words and practiced strength. That version knows the taste of envy, fear, exhaustion, pride. It knows how to build walls so tall that even love has to bleed to climb them. But shadow doesn’t mean weakness it means depth. It’s where your power lives, raw and unpolished. In this reading, we’re not looking for perfection. We’re turning toward the darker mirror the one that shows you as you truly are: flawed, hungry, magnificent. Here, we uncover the parts of you that ache to be seen your shadow traits, your hidden strengths, and the strange, sacred alchemy that happens when you learn to love the chaos within you.
Pile 1
You’ve always known how to command a room, even when you didn’t mean to. There’s something magnetic about your energy the kind that draws others in before you even speak. But beneath that charisma lies your shadow: control. You like things to move according to your design, and when life refuses to obey, it burns. You’ve built walls out of efficiency, out of competence, out of pride. You tell yourself it’s discipline and it is but it’s also a way to keep yourself from feeling the ache of vulnerability. You’ve learned to mistake control for safety, and power for peace.
Your strength, though, is in your vision. You’re not afraid to dream big to see a future no one else can quite imagine. When you walk away from things that no longer serve you, it’s rarely graceful, but it’s necessary. You’re built for reinvention. Every ending you’ve endured has been a test of your ability to rebuild yourself stronger. Yet your shadow whispers that if you don’t hold everything together, it’ll all collapse and that fear keeps you running, striving, proving. But here’s the truth: not everything needs your control. Sometimes your greatest act of power is surrender.
Your hidden strength is in your ability to turn pain into progress. You can take disappointment and transmute it into something beautiful, something lasting. You might not always trust people, but you trust growth. You understand that mastery doesn’t come from perfection it comes from persistence, from showing up when the world feels heavy. The part of you that’s tired of always being the strong one is also the part of you that’s ready to expand. Let yourself be seen in the cracks that’s where your real magic lives.
When you learn to loosen your grip, you’ll find that your brilliance doesn’t fade. It deepens. You’ll still build empires, still lead, still shine but now, you’ll do it without the weight of needing to control every outcome. That’s your evolution: power, redefined not as dominance, but as trust.
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Pile 2
You’re a dreamer and a survivor two halves of a paradox that often pull you in opposite directions. Your shadow is illusion: you see what you want to see, and sometimes, you get lost there. You’ve learned to wear calm like armor, but beneath it, your emotions swirl like an undertow. You crave depth, connection, meaning yet there’s a part of you that clings to stability, afraid of losing what little control you have. You hide behind logic when your heart becomes too loud, convincing yourself that silence is strength.
But here’s the quiet truth: your shadow isn’t the enemy. It’s your fear of being seen in your vulnerability that keeps you small. You fear that if people knew how deeply you feel, how easily you shatter, they’d leave. So, you become self-contained, neat, polished. Yet that containment is your cage. You’re capable of piercing insight of seeing through illusion, both in yourself and in others. But sometimes, you use that clarity like a blade, cutting down feelings before they can bloom.
Your hidden strength is in your emotional intelligence. You have the rare gift of empathy that doesn’t just understand it absorbs. When you channel that into creation, conversation, or healing, you become transformative. But your challenge is to stop confusing control with safety. You can’t protect yourself from feeling without also numbing your joy. Your growth will come when you learn to open, even when it hurts, even when it’s uncertain.
When you face your fears head-on the fear of loss, the fear of being misunderstood, the fear of your own intensity you’ll find freedom. You’ll discover that your heart was never a liability. It’s your compass. You don’t need to shrink your emotions to survive; you need to wield them. Your shadow was never about weakness it was about teaching you that the light you seek outside is already burning fiercely within.
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Pile 3
You’ve always chased light joy, laughter, warmth because somewhere deep inside, you’ve known what it feels like to be without it. You radiate confidence, charm, humor. People are drawn to your spark. But your shadow lies in avoidance. You run from pain by painting over it with brightness. You downplay your sadness, bury your exhaustion, tell yourself you’re fine. You’ve mastered the art of keeping up appearances, of turning every downfall into a story. But sometimes, even your laughter sounds like armor.
There’s a restlessness inside you a need to prove, to perform, to be okay. You struggle to ask for help because you fear it’ll make you seem weak. So you take on too much, smile through it, and tell yourself that if you just keep moving, the cracks won’t show. But the truth is, your exhaustion isn’t weakness; it’s evidence of how hard you’ve been fighting to stay alive in a world that doesn’t always understand your fire.
Your hidden strength is resilience. Even when life knocks you down, you get up, again and again. You adapt, you rebuild, you create joy where there was once despair. But you need to learn that not everyone deserves your light. You don’t have to heal the world just to earn your place in it. The weight you carry the need to be everything for everyone is your heaviest shadow. And the lesson buried inside it? You deserve to rest. You deserve softness too.
When you finally stop running from your pain, you’ll find that it doesn’t destroy your light it deepens it. You’ll laugh louder, love truer, and shine brighter because it’ll come from truth, not performance. Your real strength is authenticity the courage to stand unguarded, to be both radiant and raw. When you stop hiding behind the sun, you’ll realize you were never just made of light. You were made of galaxies.
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⚠️This reading is general and may not apply to everyone.
Take three slow breaths, close your eyes, relax, and let your intuition point to the pile you should choose👁
Pile One 🔮
I can see that the person who’s secretly crushing on you has fast, fiery energy. They’re the kind of person who changes the whole atmosphere when they walk into a room strong presence, magnetic charm, and something about them just draws people in without trying. They might act calm or balanced, but inside they’re restless and constantly trying to keep their emotions under control. They might even pretend not to care, but the truth is they’re burning up inside.
This person sees you like a dream or an ideal, someone almost out of reach. Your presence has deeply affected them ever since they met you, something inside them shifted. They carry a quiet kind of power, with a sensitive and introspective soul underneath. They could be the type who prefers solitude or watching rather than talking. Their eyes say a lot there’s light in them, mixed with intelligence and mystery. Their energy feels like a blend of calm, depth, and something slightly haunting.
In terms of looks, they might be tall or average height, with a balanced body and intentional movements. Their gaze is direct and steady. They might have dark hair or soulful eyes that look both deep and tired at the same time. Their style stands out in a subtle way simple but well put together, with small details that make them unique. There’s a quiet tension around them, like they’re always thinking about something they can’t say.
You probably met this person in a setting full of movement or fast energy online, through school, or by sudden chance somewhere crowded. The connection between you two might’ve started unexpectedly, with a kind of chaos that felt exciting and confusing at the same time or through communication or movement online (social media, messaging), during travel, in a class or work project, or through friends in a lively setting. There’s a strong chance it wasn’t a planned meeting it just happened. Maybe a random message, an unexpected introduction, or crossing paths somewhere you didn’t expect to. The connection had a spark from the start fast, curious, and full of “what if” energy.
They’re crushing on you because you feel different. They see light in you a calm, warm energy that soothes their soul. You make them feel like you’re the person they’ve been searching for, maybe even without realizing it. You have that rare mix of softness and mystery that makes them obsessed.
Right now, they’re quiet, but their feelings are strong. They daydream about you often replaying conversations in their head, imagining meeting you, picturing what it would be like if you were together. They might be keeping an eye on you quietly or finding ways to know how you’re doing without being obvious. Thinking of you lifts their mood instantly; you’re like the sunlight that helps them get through their days.
They’re deeper than they appear, constantly fighting their emotions and trying to stay in control. But honestly? You live rent-free in their mind. They dream of you, think of you, and are slowly building the courage to come forward.
There’s real affection here quiet, powerful, and waiting for the right moment to be revealed.
This person feels your energy more than you realize. When you post something, when you disappear for a while, or even when you’re just thinking about them they sense it. It’s like there’s an invisible cord between you two. Sometimes they’ll randomly think of you and then see your name, a song that reminds them of you, or a small sign that brings your energy back into their day.
They overanalyze every interaction wondering if you meant something by your words or if you noticed them the same way they notice you. They might even write and delete messages to you, check your profile, then convince themselves to wait. You live in their head during quiet moments especially at night. That’s when they replay everything, trying to imagine a version of life where they have the courage to be honest about how they feel.
What they don’t realize is that their energy already reaches you. That little pull you sometimes feel, that random thought of them out of nowhere that’s their way of thinking about you, even when you can’t see it.
I can see this person might be Scorpio, Sagittarius, Aries, or Gemini. Their energy is fast, fiery, sometimes hesitant, mysterious, and magnetic. They lean toward imagination and dreams. This is someone who thrives on mental or emotional adventure, reacts quickly to situations, and feels deeply, yet keeps their emotions hidden.
I hope you enjoyed the reading pile one ⭐️
Pile two 👁
I can see that the person who’s secretly crushing on you has calm, grounded energy. They come across as logical and steady not impulsive or reckless. They carry a strong sense of responsibility, maybe someone who works hard or has clear goals in life. Their presence feels safe, like someone who always has a plan or thinks before acting. They might be older than you or simply more emotionally mature.
There’s something noble about their energy they notice the small details, they like doing things perfectly, and when they care, they care deeply. They’re not into shallow or temporary connections. They build trust slowly and only open up when they’re sure. But when they decide to love, they become protective, loyal, and try to be their best for the person they love.
In terms of appearance, they’re probably very put-together stylish but classic. They might dress in neutral colors or prefer practical, elegant clothing. Their body might be solid or well-built; their gaze is serious yet warm. Their features have maturity and calm attraction, and their voice could be deep or steady. They take care of themselves and the people close to them equally.
You may have met this person in a setting involving responsibility, work, or study maybe a coworker, classmate, project partner, or someone you regularly see in a structured environment. The connection between you two might still look surface-level, but there’s tension underneath: long looks, silent understanding, or unspoken curiosity.
From their side, you’re someone special. They see real beauty in you not just your looks, but the way you carry yourself, your composure, your quiet confidence. They see mature femininity and rich energy in you. They might even feel like you’re their “other half,” the reflection of what they wish for in a partner.
They’re crushing on you because you reach the part of them they usually hide. Even though they try to stay logical and composed, your presence makes them feel warmth and emotion they can’t control. They see you as someone they could build a stable life with. Deep down, they want to prove themselves to you to show that they can give you the security and peace you deserve.
They dream about you, but in a realistic way. They don’t get lost in fantasy they imagine what a real relationship with you would look like. They picture daily life together, shared routines, simple conversations, and moments of closeness. It’s not a fairytale in their head, it’s something genuine and tangible.
Something is holding them back right now maybe work, fear of rejection, or just their natural caution. They need to feel the timing is right before they open up. Sometimes they seem too rational or emotionally distant, but the truth is, there’s deep affection beneath that calm surface.
They quietly keep up with you noticing your words, your moods, even the small things you do. They remember details most people would forget. To them, there’s already something meaningful between you, even if it hasn’t been spoken yet.
They’re going through a kind of realization a wake-up call that what they feel for you isn’t just a passing crush. They know it’s something deeper, and they’re starting to think about taking action. Still, they’re cautious afraid that rushing could make them lose you. They want to build this connection carefully, like planting a seed and waiting for it to grow.
In their eyes, you’re the definition of someone worth waiting for strong, graceful, aware of your worth, and not dependent on anyone’s validation. They dream of being the one who gives you safety and emotional peace.
Even if they haven’t spoken it yet, their feelings are genuine and steady. They’re quietly preparing to offer you something real, lasting, and mature not just attraction, but a true partnership.
This person isn’t just a secret admirer. They see you as someone they could build a life with and that kind of love is rare, but very, very deep.
This person is testing destiny quietly. They’re the type who believes that if something is meant to be, it will happen naturally so instead of chasing you, they’re observing how life places you in their path. Every time they see you again, or something reminds them of you, they take it as a sign that the connection is real.
They’ve already imagined introducing you to their world friends, work, maybe even family but they hold back because they want to come toward you from a position of stability and pride. They don’t want to offer you “potential,” they want to offer you something solid.
You may notice subtle signs: they listen more than they talk, they remember what you like, or they give you help or advice that shows they care without crossing boundaries. That’s their way of loving quiet, intentional, consistent.
What you don’t see is that they’re already emotionally invested. They might pray for you, think of you before sleep, or try to become a better version of themselves because of you. You’ve inspired growth in them, even without realizing it. And deep down, they’re just waiting for the universe or for you to give them a small green light to finally take the next step.
I can see this person might be Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn, or Libra. Their energy is steady, mature, rational, responsible, and security-oriented. They are practical, thoughtful, and like to build trust gradually before expressing their feelings. They approach relationships carefully and prefer stability over impulsiveness.
I hope you enjoyed the reading pile two 💫
Pile three 🌙
I can see that the person who’s secretly crushing on you has focused, logical energy, but there’s a clear inner contradiction. They appear controlled and composed, yet carry strong, sometimes mysterious desires. Their mind is sharp, analytical, and always weighing every possibility. They think fast, plan carefully, and never act on impulse.
In terms of appearance, this person is striking and memorable. They might be medium to tall, with a well-built or athletic frame. Their posture is upright and confident, giving them a natural presence that draws attention without effort. Their face is defined sharp cheekbones, expressive eyes that convey intelligence and depth, and a gaze that feels both piercing and thoughtful.
Their hair might be dark or neatly styled, and they have a clean, polished look. Their style is classic or minimalist but precise tailored clothes, subtle accessories, or a signature detail like a watch or a small chain that makes them stand out. Their voice is calm and measured, but it carries authority and subtle charm.
I can see that you met them through relatives or from the past, not at university maybe a family friend, a cousin of a friend, or someone from childhood or earlier social circles whose presence has stayed close indirectly. Additionally, you could have met them in familiar social or family settings, like family gatherings, school events from before, mutual friends’ parties, or small public occasions. There was repeated interaction, subtle glances, or moments hinting at their interest, though it wasn’t obvious.
Internally, this person is a mix of intellect and emotion. They have strong feelings toward you but try to keep them under control. They might appear reserved or quiet, yet they think about you often and run through complex scenarios in their mind. Sometimes they step back outwardly, but inside, their feelings are intense, and they watch and follow you subtly.
They can fluctuate emotionally captivated one moment, distant the next because of internal conflicts or fear of expressing themselves directly. Yet despite this, they genuinely admire you. Your presence gives them a sense of comfort, warmth, and fascination they rarely feel with anyone else.
this person is intelligent, aware, composed, and naturally commanding. You know them from family ties or past social settings, not university, and their feelings are deep but hidden. They imagine scenarios with you and are carefully considering how to approach you in a safe, deliberate, and thoughtful way.
I can see why this person hasn’t made a move, and the Devil card gives a very clear explanation. They haven’t expressed their feelings yet because they’re caught in a mix of desire, fear, and internal struggle. The Devil shows that their attraction to you is intense and magnetic, but at the same time, it’s tied up with their own doubts, fears, or feelings of restriction. They might worry about how acting on their crush could complicate things socially, emotionally, or within your shared circles.
This card also shows that they might feel a little trapped by their own desires. They fantasize about you, think about you constantly, and even imagine scenarios where they confess, but part of them fears losing control or facing rejection. They’re very aware of the intensity of their own emotions, and that makes them hesitate.
So the reason they haven’t moved isn’t lack of interest it’s the weight of their feelings combined with caution. They’re deeply attracted to you, but they’re trying to manage their impulses, think things through, and protect both themselves and the connection you have. The Devil energy shows it’s a mix of strong desire and self-restraint intense, almost addictive feelings, but carefully contained for now
This person is constantly replaying “what if” scenarios in their mind. They imagine moments where they could be honest with you, how you might react, and even the tiniest details of your responses. They might be drawn to you in ways that surprise them not just physically, but emotionally and mentally. They feel a pull they can’t fully control, and sometimes it frustrates them because they want to approach you but can’t find the perfect timing.
They’re aware that their feelings are intense and almost addictive, so they’re careful not to let it show recklessly. You’ve already become a part of their internal world in their thoughts, dreams, and daily reflections. Every time something reminds them of you, even subtly, it strengthens the emotional loop they’re in. They may never say it outright yet, but you occupy a significant, almost magnetic place in their heart and mind.
They have a subtle way of communicating their interest without words. For example, they might remember things you casually mentioned weeks or months ago and act on them quietly like sending a song, sharing a book, or giving advice that connects to something you care about. Their admiration is expressed through attentiveness and thoughtfulness rather than overt gestures.
They’re also protective of your image in their mind. They might feel jealous of anyone else getting close to you, but instead of acting out, they channel that energy into imagining positive scenarios where they’re the one supporting or being present for you. Their interest is persistent and patient; they’re willing to wait for the right moment because they don’t want to rush something meaningful.
Another subtle aspect is that they’re very intuitive about your moods and energy. Even without asking, they sense when something is off or when you’re happy, and it affects them deeply. This connection goes beyond casual attraction it’s a psychic-like awareness that keeps them emotionally tuned to you, almost as if your presence or absence subtly shapes their daily rhythm.
Finally, their admiration isn’t superficial it’s layered. They see both your strengths and vulnerabilities and appreciate both. They’re fascinated by your personality as much as your appearance, and that fascination keeps them mentally and emotionally engaged, replaying scenarios and thinking of ways to connect without overstepping.
I can see this person might be from certain signs, placements, dominance, or their energy. They could be Scorpio, Capricorn, Virgo, or Libra. Their energy is steady and rational, full of caution and analysis, yet it carries hidden mystery and magnetic appeal. Scorpio reflects depth and secrecy, Capricorn reflects discipline and a desire for stability, Virgo reflects sharp observation and attention to detail, and Libra reflects social intelligence and the ability to balance mind and heart. These signs and energies describe someone reserved but deeply attracted, carefully calculating every move before acting.
Hey, I’ve got Doja Cat’s ‘Candy’ stuck in my head especially the part where she says, ‘It’s addictive, you know this…’ Can’t get it out!
I hope you enjoyed the reading pile three✨️
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in this pick-a-card reading, we will uncover how your person will feel when they see you for the first time, what do they think of you, what about you grabbed their attention, what makes you unforgettable, and maybe….we could even discover what trope you guys will have😉👀🤭. what was it about you that captivated them so intensely? is it love at first sight? or is it a slow-burn typa connection? well, buckle up and get ready my love, because you’re going for a ride😳😏
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⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧ pile I ⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧
My lovely pile 1, you guys might be the introvert pile or you guys just tend to keep more to yourself. I'm seeing here that your person's first impression of you is that you are someone who does not talk to a lot of people or you are someone who just ends up enjoying your own company. You guys are more on the quiet side and I'm seeing here that your person might be a little intimidated by that. What I'm sensing here is that you are going to be in your self-love era where you're only gonna care about your emotions and your needs rather than pleasing others, you get what I mean? You aren't here for fun and games, babe. You are here for you.
Your person's first impression of you is that you are someone who is more focused on yourself and not gonna lie, this is kind of very intimidating for them. I feel like before even knowing you, they will judge you a lot. They will think that you are too protective and you are someone who is hard to read - they might also feel a little insecure around you. Like, when they look at you, they will be like, “damn, I could never be like them. I wish I was more like them”. And you know what the funny part is? I see them going through a lot of emotions when they see you for the first time, and these emotions are like how teenagers feel when they fall in love for the first time. I know it's a very classic example, but it's very funny because I'm seeing here that they do not know what to do with their emotions and they will try to play it cool, and they will try to be very nonchalant - like “yeah, whatever” type energy. But trust me, that is the COMPLETE OPPOSITE of what they will be feeling. They know that they can't be all mushy mushy about you, especially if it's the first time they're seeing you. They need to be in check. And let me tell you something babe, I'm seeing here that you will leave a lasting impression on them to the point where when they go back home, they will literally think about you.
Your person's first impression of you is that you are someone who's been through a lot and someone who has gone through a huge transformation, and this could explain why you might be an introvert and why you only care about your needs. Let me make one thing clear, babe - the transformation which you will be going through is going to be so positive - that even other people will notice it. I'm not even kidding when I tell you that other people will try to win your attention and because of this, your person will feel very challenged. I'm seeing here that when they see you for the first time, they feel like they need to compete for your attention. They will be thinking of ways on how to grab your attention, and this is when they need to cool their emotions. They know that they can't be protective and possessive over you during your first meeting itself, and they'll be even more surprised - wondering as to why they're getting so worked up over someone they just met. You're playing games with your person, pile one. And honestly, I’M HERE FOR IT.
I'm seeing here that when your person sees you for the first time, they'll just know it's you. Like something in their heart, something in their mind, something in their soul just knows that you are the one for them. There is this sort of acceptance they will go through. Like they know that they only want you and no one else. I think it's because of how transparent you are. You are very realistic and you will not sugarcoat anything for anyone. You're just very straightforward and you will say things bluntly to anyone's face. And I think this is what attracts them to you a lot. They want someone to give them a reality check. They want someone to put them in their place, you know? And most importantly, they want someone to challenge them. The reason they're so intimidated by you is because you give off this very challenging and competitive energy and they feel like they're never, ever going to be good enough or they can't go up to your level - and this is why they feel so insecure around you. But this insecurity isn't a bad thing. I'm seeing here that this insecurity will motivate them, and they kind of like how you are more authoritative than them - is what I'm seeing here. What sort of kink does your person have?🙂↔️😭 Is this even a kink or do they really feel like this? Because I'm seeing here that they love when the people they're attracted to have more power over them. UM SIR/MA’AM, keep this in the bedroom🤨🤭. Anyways, so we were talking about challenges. Sorry, got carried away a little bit over there. Your person likes it when you challenge them. It seems like they want to work for your love. Like they want to earn your love. And again, I see them feeling all giddy for you. But they know that they cannot be such a yearner during the first meeting, so I see them bottling up their emotions and trying to figure out why they feel so intensely towards you.
Your person's first impression of you is that you are someone who does not want to stand out. I see you trying to fit in the crowd and I see you limiting your energy, but something about you, babe - something about you just makes you stand out. It's your energy that glows, like no matter how much you try to hide yourself, people will always sense your energy. Your energy is so captivating and your person literally cannot ignore your presence. I'm also seeing here that they are kind of scared to approach you and to start liking you because they feel like you are too, too good for them. At some point, they might even deny their feelings for you in the beginning, but after a lot of contemplation, they'll realise that they actually like you.
Your person sees through you, babe. Like you try to fit in and you try to close yourself, but they see through you. They see you for who you are. They know that you are a kind person and you are very generous. Some people might mistake your bluntness as you being rude, but your person knows that that's not your intention. You aren't someone who beats around the bush. You get straight to the point and this is why they understand you. They don't consider you as someone who is mean or rude. They consider you as someone who is transparent, who is not afraid to speak their mind and they will find this so damn attractive.
Your person's first impression of you is that you are someone who is blessed with abundance and security. You seem like someone who is doing very well in your career life, and I'm also seeing here that you will be in your best era where everything is working in your favour. You are starting to love yourself. There has been a positive transformation that has taken place and everything just feels right. Your person's first impression of you is that you are someone who is there for the ones you love. You might not be a very-openly-affectionate person, but you show your affection through subtle ways. You don't proudly talk about loving someone. You love them in silent whispers, and your person instantly notices this when they meet you for the first time.
⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧ pile II ⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧
Babe, your face card is SERVING like I can't even explain how GORGEOUS you are. Like holy I had to take a pause and just admire your beauty because GAHDAMN, how do you do that? Like pile 2, you are so beautiful inside and out. There is no way someone so ethereal exists. Your person's first impression of you is that you are someone who is beautiful - like your beauty is so breathtaking, their jaw will literally be on the ground. I wish I was kidding, but I am not babe like oh my god you are literally breathtaking and because of you being so beautiful, your person is going to think that you are full of yourself and that you do not give a damn about anything or anyone around you - which is completely wrong because you are literally such a wonderful person. Like not only is your face card eating, but your personality is equally beautiful - but again, pretty people hardly get the chance to explain themselves or let people explore them because people just have this assumption that pretty people are really full of themselves, and this is the exact impression your person will have. But don't worry, you will prove them wrong. But their first impression of you is that you are someone who is quite self-centred and that you do not care about what other people think of you. You are at peace with yourself, babe. You gain attention, you gain a lot of love. You have many admirers, especially secret admirers and many people want to be you. But be careful. I see a lot of envious energy around you, so please protect your peace.
When your person sees you for the first time, they know that they can stop searching, because you are the answer they have been looking for this entire time. You are the confirmation and you are their belief. You are exactly what they have been searching for. You are the peace. You are home. You are the fulfilment they have been desiring for their entire life - not only will they worship you, but they will only have their eyes for you. You don't have to worry about anyone stealing your person because no one can. You are your person's person and once they meet you, no one else will matter to them except for you.
Your person’s first impression of you is that you are someone who is so damn sexy. They literally cannot control themselves. I see them having a lot of sexual and physical desire for you and you should be surprised if they don't fall down to their knees and worship you, because trust me, their self-control is on the verge of breaking down when they see you for the first time. They will try their best to keep themselves together and honestly, congratulations to them if they do because I don't think they can hold themselves back for long. They're desperate for you and I see them begging for your love and attention. They are basically at your mercy. You can do anything to them and they literally just smile and be like, “thank you”, like they are such a fool for you. Your person desires you very intensely, babe, like not only physically, but they also emotionally desire you. They have a deep craving for closeness and when they see you for the first time, they know that you are the right person they can give their heart to.
When they see you for the first time, I see them being fearful. I see them being afraid to give their all to you because when they love, they love deeply. They have been hurt in the past, and because of this, they have completely shut themselves out in regards to anything romantic. But when they see you for the first time, they just know that you are the one for them. Like, you guys feel so right. You were the missing puzzle they have been searching for and they're going to try their best to control themselves when they see you. They know that they just can't go all crazy over you because there is some sort of self-respect they hold. They're literally going to hold themselves back from submitting to you because they know that they cannot do any of this during the first impression.
When your person sees you for the first time, something in them just feels… right. It's like the world stops for a minute and they have found the peace they have been searching for. They've been manifesting you, babe, and they've been very patient. I swear to God, when they look at you for the first time, they will instantly know that they want to make you theirs and they want to be yours. Everything feels easy with you and they know that they shouldn't force this connection, especially when they see you and meet you for the first time - so they will take things slow and they will go with the flow, but they will be holding themselves back because they know that they cannot be a sucker for you in the beginning itself. They want to expose their love to you in a slow and steady manner. They're afraid that if they give their all to you during the beginning, you will take advantage of them, so this is why they will be a little slow while showing their love for you, but I can reassure you that what they feel for you is real and what they feel for you is very deep. They have been waiting patiently for you, my love.
⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧ pile III ⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧
I have a feeling you might be meeting/have met this person in your workspace or your work environment because when this person sees you for the first time, they will remind themselves of their career life. They will toss you off as a distraction in between their work life and they might even shut themselves out when it comes to you. You will notice that they are more closed off towards you and they are more chatty with other people and you might feel hurt because of this, but trust me, they are behaving this way towards you because they have strong feelings for you.
When your person sees you for the first time, they know that life is going to be hell for them. Why? Because your presence, your energy, your aura is such a damn distraction for them. They can't stop thinking about you. During work, they think about you. During the shower, they think about you. Before sleeping, they think about you. In their dreams, they dream about you. While having lunch, they think about you. You are constantly on their mind 24/7, and instead of honouring their feelings in the beginning, they are going to dismiss their feelings and label you as a distraction - but what they fail to notice is that they have strong emotions and strong feelings for you.
They are not an easy person, let me tell you that, babe. They are someone who has completely closed themselves off and they are someone who is very protective of their energy. I feel like I'm doing a reading for pile 1 again, but here the roles are completely opposite. Your person seems to be having more of pile 1’s personality. I think you might have been attracted to pile 1 and if you were, I suggest you go give that a look and then come back here so that you'll get a better understanding of what I'm trying to say. But now coming back to your reading, your person is going to dismiss ALL their feelings for you. They're gonna come up with stupid excuses just to get their thoughts off of you. The reason as to why your person is behaving this way is because I'm seeing here that they are currently focused on their career and their seeking change. They are unhappy with the way things are going for them and they're manifesting for a change, but you will be surprised because that change is you. They have been manifesting you this whole time. You are the change that they have been seeking for, but they will not accept this very easily during the beginning because, again, they see you as a distraction. But later as you guys progress in your relationship and in your connection, I'm seeing here that they will actually honour their feelings and they understand that what they feel for you is real.
Imma be honest with you, sweetheart - when your person sees you for the first time, they know that you just feel right, like your energy, your presence, everything feels right, and a part of them knows that you will heal them, but they are afraid of opening up and they are afraid of losing their track in terms of their career. It will take them some time to realise, but once they realise that you are the one they have been seeking for - they will honour you.
Okay, the reason as to why I felt like you guys might be working in the same work environment is because they will notice you when you guys are paired together in a project or something of that sort. Or maybe you guys will have to work together as a team and that's where you will stand out. They will notice how you work well with others. They will notice how you respect others and how you support each and every individual. And not only that, your contribution, your idea, your intelligence is what makes you stand out. And this is the first impression they will have of you. It's your intelligence, it's your instinct, it's your practical nature that makes you so attractive to them and I see them focusing more on you rather than the work, and this is why they label you as a distraction - because they feel like you are pulling them away from their work life, but what they don't realise is that they need to pull back a little bit from their work life because they have spent so much time in their career to the point where they fail to notice the feeling of belongingness their soul desires.
And you know what's cute and hilarious at the same time? Though they label you as a distraction, they will be very protective over you. Don't ask me why because I don't even know why and don't even ask them because they themselves don't know - but something in them just wants to protect you. And if anyone talks bad about you, they will literally be your number one supporter. Like, you will never catch anyone bad-mouthing about you when they are around. They will shut your haters up in a second. I think that will be one of the moments they will realise that they like you. They will pause and think to themselves, “why am I defending her/him/them so much? They're nothing but a distraction for me, but why are they always in my mind”, like you get this person so worked up and they're so puzzled. It is so so cute.
Your person’s first impression of you is that you are someone who is very passionate and you're very nurturing. People are naturally drawn towards your energy and everyone wants to be your friend, including them, but they're afraid and this is why they will be holding themselves back in the beginning. You are a lovely person, pile 3, you make people feel comfortable around you and people naturally open up to you and this is what scares your person. They're scared you will see their true naked self and they are scared of being judged. This is why they are so defensive around you, but they will soon realise that you are the tenderness they needed in their life. Your touch is the medicine they have been craving for. They're afraid they will feel comfortable around you and they're afraid they will let their inner child out around you, but I see them eventually doing this because they can no longer contain their feelings for you. You are their calling and you are their awakening and do not be surprised when one day they develop a soft spot for you because that is the day they finally let you in.
hiii my lovely angels🫶, i hope this reading finds you in good health and i hope you all are doing well. its been so long since i've posted and i miss posting regularly, but ugh life is just not letting me🥹. i've been trying to find the time to post, but something or the other always comes up and i get busy with that. but i finally got some time to do a reading and i hope you love this one! i would be so glad if you could like my post and re-blog it, and please let me know which pile you picked - i would love to hear your thoughts and know if this reading resonated with you!! take care of yourself, and i will see you in my next reading. thank you for being here💞
(note - tarot & oracle cards provide guidance and possible insights into what could happen based on current energies, thoughts, feelings and actions. the cards can highlight potential paths or outcomes, but they do not predict the future in a fixed way. this is a general reading so take what resonates!)
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Note: Some of these came out kind of harsh! this was not my intention, the readings have a mind of their own. lol. Anyway, I dont mean to offend, this is all said lovingly. 💕Take what resonates and leave what dosent.
Phone Line 1: wake up call
this pile was so unique?!?! The message was pretty distinctly split into two groups. one of which has a romantic aspect and the other a career. regardless read all beacues some of the advice might relate to one another.
you need more tolerance/ empathy when it comes to your relationships. you might get caught up in your emotions and are quick to act on it or cut people off. you need to learn balance with yourself to depen your relationships with others. by doing this you can open yourself up to new situations and reationships. for some of you, this could also open a relationship with one, specific person who has felt "shut-out" by your previous attitude. other than that, in genral most of you who adopt this attitude will find lots of oprotunities and inspiration on the other side. adopting this attitude will open up SO many doors for you. please!!! live your life with an open heart!!! i see progression in career/ social status(?) in the future.
some of you are working on a project of some sort and have hit a road block on it. like writers block or something, idk. opening up to new ideas will progress your plan to action.
at the begining this change will be dificult as it is out of your comfort zone, but worth it.
i think this pile is a little small minded? and dosent look at the big picture. you need to bring some perspective into your life. explore new horizons. you old way of thinking was limited and stoping you from growing. be open to new perspectives and ideas. try new things even if you are unsure. TAKE THE RISK
some of you may have already started on this path. this is a sign to keep going the reults for your effort will pay off.
Phone Line 2: opportunity is knocking
This pile is a slippery slope. A lot of yall may be unemployed, financially insecure, or at a job you hate. 😬 sorry that came off like that but thats what I am hearing. If it doesn't resonate leave this pile and pick another or click off entirely. If it does resonate please stick around, I may have some advice. ❤️ For those who are on the hunt for a new job you are in luck! It's looking like a new career or money making opportunity will arrive. Unfortunately, this comes with a pretty heavy con. It seems like for most of yall, the job will be hell. I hate to sound so negative, sorry!!! The good thing is that it seems you will be very well paid for your pain, but its looking like the space you will be working in will be very emotionally and mentally taxing.
This is the part when you need to take a good look in the mirror. If you are emotionally sensitive, easily influenced, or an extreme people pleaser don't take this job. This is the type of job that has a lot of office politics and drama. Im hearing " bird ass bitches" lol. You will be paid well, but if you are not able to stay above it all and ignore your surroundings the money won't matter and the job will eat you alive. You know the saying that nurses "eat their young"? That kinda vibe; maybe not nursing, but definitely creative. Something like writing or editing/editorial work.
If you think you can handle that, thats fine, it seems like this job won't last particularly long. Not like you are getting fired, but more like a stepping stone in your career. The storm before the rainbow. You know how people have karmic relationships? This job is a karmic relationship you will learn from, if you choose to stay/ choose it. If you will take the job: keep reading. If not, its looking like there will be another job opportunity in a couple months that is nicer and a easier working environment (+ finding some meaningful connections 👀) but it seems like it won't pay as well, and you may be a little board with it.
Some of you are already in this type of job or are willing to take it on, here is my advice for navigating it. 1) do not make this job your life. Stay grounded with family and friends. Find some activities in nature or with movement, im hearing dance as well. This is the kinda job that will make you think that it needs hour on hours of your time. The best way to deal with this is to take steps back and look at the big picture. 2) You will need a lot of teamwork skills, tolerance, and attention to detail. I think the job is going to be very task heavy, so it will be easy to get umoverwhelmed. Take the job one step at a time and it will be alot more manageable. 3) if you want this job, clean up your portfolio and LinkedIn. Clean up your image and you life in general. Prepare like you are already starting the new job soon. I think this is a corporate job so they will look a lot at your image. 4) this job could traumatize if you don't create a good work life balance now; and make sure you have methods of cleansing from those types of energies. Have strong boundaries and learn to communicate well so your intentions are not misunderstood. 5) kill the people pleaser inside you. That job will chew you up and spit you out if you are a people pleaser. 💔6) it seems like this job is pretty unpredictable. You should grow accustomed to delays and working with what you have, if you have strong dedication this job will reward you. In short: be self sufficient, don't loose your creativity or drive, stay grounded,prioritize mental health, keep active, and stay spiritual.
If you are able to do that then you should walk away with minimal scars and Hella cash. Lol💸 Again I think this job, although trialing, will be a learning opportunity and will act as a stepping stone to your next career.
Phone Line 3: call for reconciliation
I feel like this pile has had a rough week. * virtual hug* ❤️🩹
Its looking like you had a falling out with someone close, a childhood friend or partner. It seems like you had some type of joint project together and a argument that left you feeling betrayed. I think it was some type of decision that needed to be made. Maybe one person wanted to take baby steps and the other wanted to rush into it, leading to an argument. Even though this was not meant to hurt you it looks like you both got in your feels and said some hurtful things. I think this has left you feeling very alone and betrayed in a person you had a lot of trust in.
I think most of all it hurt your pride and you don't want to reconcile with them because you don't want to seem pathetic (note: you are not!). Some of you have gone no contact perhaps? In any event this person has a message for you that could shed light on the situation and give you some perspective as to why they said/did what they did. Basically saying that it was nothing personal and they were just doing what they thought was best.
If you guys manage to talk this out, whatever venture or project your doing will take shapea dn will lead you guys to your success. And make you relationship stronger. This argument was just one of those mountains yall had to climb before the reward.
Not to say you have to totally forgive them but a honest conversation will do a lot of good. In this moment take some time to meditate and realy look internally as to why your are feeling this way and try to articulate that in paper, so that when you talk to this person you are able to do so with some coherence.
When you apply this, some major change is needed going forward. Some of you are the type to think with your heart and when you have arguments they might blow up a lot more than needed. If you need to keep a journal of what bothers you and comeback to it to see how much of that is just emotion and how much is a genuine issue.
Whoooo thank yall so much for reading!! This took for ever!! Idk why but this one was a little emotionally draining 😪. Anyway thanks again and lots of love 💕.
Summary: getting hit in the head with a puck at your first hockey game is bad enough, but when the adorably guilty defenseman who deflected it shows up to apologize, you have to decide if he’s worth giving hockey (and him) a second chance
The wall of sound hits you first.
It’s not like a stadium. Not like the open-air roar of a touchdown, a diffused, rolling thunder that echoes off the sky. This is contained. This is pressurized. It’s a thousand people screaming in a giant, refrigerated tank, and the noise vibrates in your teeth.
“See?” Liz yells, grabbing your arm. Her voice is already rough, and the game hasn’t even started. “Isn’t this insane?”
You nod, pulling your jacket tighter. “It’s insane that I’m wearing three layers and I can still feel my fillings freezing.”
“That’s the ice, silly,” Gabi says, bumping you from the other side. She’s bouncing on her toes, eyes wide and bright. “You’re basically breathing the game.”
“I think I’m breathing the guy behind me’s pretzel,” you mutter, but they don’t hear you. They’re already chanting.
This is, categorically, not your scene. You are a person of grass stains, autumn Sundays, and strategic timeouts. You understand the beauty of a tight spiral. This is chaos on skates. It’s too fast. The puck — which you can barely see — moves like an angry wasp.
“Okay, so who am I supposed to be watching?” You shout over the horn that signals the start.
“The Devils!” Liz screams. “Obviously! We’re red!”
“And Luke Hughes!” Gabi adds, her voice dropping into a dreamy sigh. “Number forty-three. He’s ... just watch him.”
“Which one is he?”
“The one who’s perfect!”
You roll your eyes, but you scan the ice. They’re all just helmets and numbers, gliding with a terrifying, unnatural speed. The sound of their skates cutting the ice is a sharp shhhk-shhhk that slides right under the roar of the crowd.
Your seats are, as promised, offensively good. You’re only four rows back from the glass. You can see the condensation, the scratches on the plexiglass from previous impacts. The players slam into the boards right in front of you, and the thud is heavy, solid, rattling the glass. You flinch every single time.
“You’re flinching,” Liz points out, laughing.
“That guy’s face just mushed against the glass like a cartoon. How are you not flinching?”
“It’s hockey! It’s just a check!”
“It looks like aggravated assault with a side of frostbite.”
The first period is a blur of whistles, sudden stops that spray snow over the glass, and your friends trying to explain rules that make zero sense.
“So, that’s icing,” Gabi says, pointing.
“Why? He just shot it.”
“Yeah, but he shot it from behind the red line, and it went past the other red line, and his teammate wasn’t there first.”
“... So they get penalized for being too good at shooting?”
“No, they get penalized for … for just … dumping it. It’s a rule.”
“It’s a dumb rule,” you declare, sipping the watery, overpriced beer you bought just to have something warm to hold. “In football, that’s called field position. That’s a good thing.”
“Just watch Luke,” Gabi insists. “Forget the rules. Just watch him skate.”
You sigh and find number forty-three. He’s tall. Taller than the others, or maybe he just skates with a fluidity that makes him seem to take up more space. He moves backwards as easily as forwards. It’s impressive, you’ll give him that. It’s the kind of effortless athletic grace that you can respect, even if the sport itself looks like a bar fight that won the lottery.
The game is tied. The energy in the building is high, a nervous, electric hum. The puck is in the Devils’ zone. A player from the other team — the white ones — winds up for a shot.
It happens in that slow-motion, hyper-focus way that trauma always does.
You see number forty-three skate across the lane. He drops to one knee, angling his body. He’s trying to block the shot.
The crack of the puck hitting his stick is louder than anything you’ve ever heard. It’s not a thwack. It’s a bang.
The puck deflects.
It doesn’t sail. It doesn’t arc. It rockets.
It comes straight up, over the glass, a black missile in a sea of white ice and red jerseys.
You don’t even have time to raise your hands.
You just register a black comet, the panicked gasp of the man next to you, and then-
Nothing.
Just a blinding, agonizing, white-hot explosion of pain right above your temple.
The world goes sideways. The roar of the crowd dissolves into a high-pitched, thin whine.
“Oh my God!” Liz is screaming. It sounds like she’s in a tunnel.
“Medic! We need a medic! MEDIC!”
Hands are on you. You’re slumping forward, your beer spilling onto the concrete floor. The pain is … it’s breathtaking. It’s not a headache. It’s an occupation. It’s taken over the entire right side of your skull.
“Hey. Hey, look at me. Can you look at me?”
You blink. Gabi’s face is swimming in front of yours. She’s pale, her eyes wide with terror.
“It hit her. It hit her in the head. The puck. It hit her right in the head.”
“Okay, miss. We’re right here.” A new voice. Calm. Authoritative. “We’re going to get you out of here. Can you stand?”
“I ... I don’t ...” you try to say, but your tongue feels thick. A hot, wet sensation is trickling down your cheek. You touch it. Your fingers come away red.
“Oh god, she’s bleeding,” Liz whispers, and her voice breaks.
“It’s okay. It’s just a head wound. They bleed a lot.” The medic, a guy with a grizzled mustache and kind eyes, shines a tiny, excruciatingly bright light in your pupils. “Yep. Pupils are a little slow. We’re gonna take a ride.”
The walk up the stairs is a humiliating, dizzy blur. You’re leaning on the medic and Gabi, a towel pressed to your temple. The game is still happening. You can hear the whistle, the roar as play resumes. People are staring. Some look concerned. Others just look annoyed that you’re blocking their view.
“I hate hockey,” you mumble, the concrete steps seeming to tilt under your feet.
“I know, honey. I know,” Gabi says, her voice trembling. “I’m so, so sorry I made you come.”
***
The medical room is aggressively quiet. It’s beige. The silence is a stark, sterile contrast to the arena, broken only by the hum of a vending machine in the hall and Liz’s nervous sniffles.
You’re sitting on an examination table covered in crinkly paper. The medic — Owen, his name tag says — is gently cleaning the cut on your hairline.
“Well, the good news is you’re going to be fine,” Owen says, his voice a gravelly comfort. “The bad news is, it’s going to swell up like a prize-winning grapefruit, and you’re going to have a headache that could stop a train.”
“It already does,” you manage, wincing as he applies a steri-strip. “Feels like my brain is trying to divorce my skull.”
“That’s the concussion talking,” he says, not unkindly. “It’s mild, but you definitely got your bell rung. That was a hard deflection.”
“It was Luke Hughes,” Gabi says from the corner. She’s been texting furiously, her face still pale. “He blocked the shot. It was his stick.”
“Gabi, I don’t think that’s helpful right now,” Liz snaps.
“No, it’s fine,” you say, closing your eyes. The fluorescent light above the table is a personal attack. “I don’t even know who that is. It could have been, I don’t know. Wayne Gretzky. I’d still feel like I got hit by a truck.”
“He’s only the best young defenseman on the team,” Gabi whispers, as if this is some great comfort.
“He’s the one with the great ass,” Liz supplies.
“Liz.”
“What? We were pointing him out. He’s number forty-three.”
You sigh, the motion sending a fresh throb behind your eye. “Great. My brain was scrambled by a nice ass. Write that on my tombstone.”
Owen finishes taping a small gauze patch over the cut. “Okay. I want you to sit here for a while. Let the game finish, let the crowd thin out. I don’t want you fighting traffic. We’ll have someone check on you. If the nausea gets worse or you feel dizzy, you tell me. I’m just outside.”
“Thank you, Owen,” you say. He nods, gives you a small smile, and leaves you, Liz, and Gabi in the beige silence.
For a few minutes, nobody speaks. Liz scrolls through her phone. Gabi just stares at you.
“What?” You finally ask, your voice flat.
“It’s really swelling.”
“Thanks, Gabi. Super.”
“No, I just … god, Y/N. I’m so sorry. This was supposed to be a fun night.”
“It’s fine,” you sigh, leaning your head back against the drywall. Bad move. The wall is cold and hard. You wince and sit up straight. “It’s an experience. I can now say I have been personally assaulted by a professional sport. It’s a fun party story for when I’m not concussed.”
“You’re taking this surprisingly well,” Liz says, looking up from her phone.
“What am I supposed to do? Scream? I tried that. It makes the headache worse.” You rub your eyes. “I just want to go home, take three ibuprofen, and sleep for a billion years.”
The door clicks open. It’s not Owen.
It’s a woman in a sharp blazer with a Devils logo embroidered on the chest. She’s holding ... a lot of things. She has the strained, high-wattage smile of someone in Public Relations.
“Hi there!” She says, her voice painfully cheerful. “Are you the young woman who took that unfortunate puck?”
“That’s me,” you say.
The PR woman’s smile tightens just a fraction. “Well, on behalf of the entire Devils organization, we are just terribly sorry about the incident. Player safety and fan safety is our number one priority.”
“Seems like fan safety is, like ... priority two,” you mutter.
Liz kicks your ankle.
“The team felt just awful about it,” the woman continues, ignoring you. She steps forward and places a brand-new, bright red hockey jersey on your lap. “They wanted you to have this.”
You look at it. It’s an authentic jersey. The number on the back is 86.
“Oh my god,” Gabi breathes, her hands flying to her mouth. “That’s a Jack Hughes jersey.”
“And,” the PR woman says, gesturing to the hallway, “the boys sent down a few things from the locker room to apologize.”
An arena attendant wheels in a small cart. On it are two hockey sticks, both with signatures scrawled all over the tape on the blades.
Liz and Gabi are on their feet, instantly mesmerized.
“Is that ... is that Timo?” Liz asks, touching one of the sticks reverently.
“The whole team signed them,” the PR woman says, beaming. “We are just so thrilled you’re okay. Is there anything else we can get for you? Another beverage? A foam finger?”
You stare at the pile of merchandise. The jersey on your lap feels stiff and synthetic. The sticks are ... just sticks.
“I’m in pain,” you say. The words are quiet, but they cut through the manufactured cheer.
The PR woman’s smile falters. “Well, yes, Owen said it was a mild concussion, but that you’re-”
“I have a splitting headache. I’m bleeding. And I’m pretty sure I’m going to throw up on your shoes,” you say, the frustration and the pain welling up. “And you brought me … sports memorabilia.”
“It’s signed by the team,” she says, as if you’ve missed the point.
“I don’t care,” you say. And you realize you mean it. “I don’t follow hockey. I didn’t know who Jack Hughes was ten seconds ago. This is just an overpriced hirt and two pieces of wood. It doesn’t make my head hurt less.”
There is a terrible, awkward silence.
Gabi looks horrified. Liz looks like she’s trying not to laugh. The PR woman looks like she’s just swallowed a bug.
“I see,” the woman says, her voice several degrees cooler. “Well. The items are, of course, yours to keep. Our apologies. Again.”
She turns, her heels clicking sharply, and leaves the room.
The door shuts.
Liz holds the silence for one second, then two, and then she bursts out laughing. “Oh my god, Y/N. Her face.”
“It’s not funny, Liz,” Gabi says, wringing her hands. “She was just trying to be nice. Those are worth, like, thousands of dollars.”
“They’re worth Tylenol to me right now,” you grumble, pushing the jersey off your lap onto the floor. “I don’t want it. It smells like stadium.”
“You’re impossible,” Liz laughs, picking up the jersey and folding it carefully. “You get hit by a puck and your first instinct is to insult the team.”
“My first instinct was to pass out. My second instinct was to wonder why they think signatures from some random guys are a valid form of medical compensation.”
You lean your head back again, more carefully this time. The throbbing is a constant, dull drum. You can hear the game ending outside. A horn blares, followed by a huge roar from the crowd.
“Devils win,” Gabi says, checking her phone. “Overtime. Luke got the assist.”
“Good for him,” you say, closing your eyes. “Tell him his other assist is currently trying to burrow its way out of my skull.”
“You’re awfully grumpy for someone who just got a game-used stick.”
“I’m a football girl, Liz. You know this. If Josh Allen threw a ball and it broke my nose, I’d be annoyed. But at least I’d know who he was. This is just ... I’m tired. And my head hurts. And I want to be in my own bed.”
The door opens again.
You don’t even bother to look. “Owen, I swear, if you’re also here to offer me a foam finger, I’m using it to start a fire.”
“Um, Owen’s not here.”
The voice is not Owen. It’s young. It’s male. And it’s incredibly awkward.
Your eyes snap open.
Liz and Gabi both freeze. Gabi makes a sound like a deflating balloon.
Standing in the doorway, looking entirely too large for the small beige room, is a guy in hockey gear.
Well, most of his gear. He’s wearing skates, but he has guards on the blades. His hair is plastered to his head with sweat, curling around his ears. He’s holding his helmet in one hand and a bottle of Gatorade in the other.
He looks about your age. And he looks mortified.
It’s number forty-three.
“Oh,” you say. “It’s you. The ass.”
Liz chokes.
The guy’s face goes from pale to bright, crimson red. “I … what?”
“Liz said you have a great ass,” you clarify, because honestly, the concussion has destroyed your filter. “I’m Y/N. The one you tried to decapitate.”
“I-I’m Luke.” He takes a hesitant step into the room, skates clacking awkwardly on the tile. He’s looking at the gauze on your head. “Oh, god. I am so, so sorry. I was just trying to block the shot. It was coming in hot and I just got my stick on it and it just ... flew.”
He’s rambling. It’s actually kind of adorable, in a panicked-puppy-who-chewed-the-sofa sort of way.
“Yeah, it flew,” you agree. “Right into my temple.”
“I saw it,” he says, wincing, as if reliving the moment. “I saw it go up and I just—I heard the sound. I knew it hit someone. I’ve never done that. Never. I feel awful. Like, awful awful.”
“It’s fine,” you say, resigned. “I’ve been told I’m getting a free grapefruit out of it.”
He blinks. “A grapefruit?”
“The swelling,” you say, gesturing to your head.
“Oh. Right. God. Does it hurt? That’s a stupid question. Of course it hurts. I’m so sorry.”
“It hurts,” you confirm.
Gabi, who has been holding her breath, finally speaks. “Hi, Luke. We’re huge fans. I’m Gabi. This is Liz. We love your, uh, skating.”
Luke gives them a quick, distracted smile. “Hey. Thanks. But I really just came to see if you were okay.” His eyes land back on you. They’re very earnest.
“I’m okay,” you say. “Concussed, apparently. But okay. Your PR lady already came by.”
“Oh, yeah?”
“Yeah.” You gesture with your foot to the jersey on the floor. “She brought me a random shirt. And some sticks.”
Luke looks at the pile of merchandise. He looks at the HUGHES 86 jersey on the floor. He looks back at you.
And he laughs.
It’s not a polite laugh. It’s a real, surprised snort of a laugh. “A random shirt? That’s Jack’s jersey. He’s my brother.”
“Oh,” you say. “Well. Your brother’s random shirt is on the floor.”
He laughs again, harder this time, and the tension in the room just evaporates. Even your headache seems to pull back a fraction.
“You really don’t care, do you?” He asks, a look of genuine disbelief on his face.
“About what? Hockey?”
“Yeah.”
“Not really. No. I’m a football girl. Sorry.”
“No, don’t be sorry.” He steps closer, leaning against the counter. He seems to be trying to figure you out. “I just ... usually when this happens — not this, but, like, when we meet fans — they’re not ... like you.”
“Disappointed?”
“No. Honest. God, that’s refreshing.” He runs his hand through his damp hair. “So the sticks didn’t help?”
“Do they dispense Advil?”
“No.”
“Then no.”
He smiles. It’s a really good smile. It’s lopsided and bright, and it makes him look his age. “Right. Okay. Good to know. Note to self: sticks are not painkillers.”
“So, you came down here right after the game?” You ask.
“Yeah. Soon as I got off the ice. I couldn’t stop thinking about it. I just had to make sure. The PR team, they’re great, but it’s different. You know?”
“I do,” you say, and you find yourself smiling back, just a little. “It’s nice of you. To come check. Most people would just let the team send merch.”
“It was my stick,” he says, shrugging. “My fault.”
“It was an accident.”
“Still. A really bad accident. And it was your first game, wasn’t it?”
Your eyes go wide. “How did you know that?”
“The guy sitting next to you. When the medic was helping you up. He was yelling, ‘It’s her first game! It’s her first ever game!’” Luke winces again. “I think I ruined hockey for you. Forever.”
“I mean you didn’t help,” you say. “I was already confused by icing. This just sealed the deal.”
“It’s not always like this,” he says, almost pleadingly. “It’s not ... we don’t usually try to injure the crowd. That’s generally frowned upon.”
You chuckle, and then regret it as the pain throbs. “Ow.”
“Sorry. Sorry.” He gets serious again. “Look. I know the jersey and the sticks are dumb. If you’re not a fan, they’re just ... yeah. Wood and polyester. I get it. But I really want to make it up to you.”
Liz and Gabi have simultaneously stopped breathing. You can feel their silence.
“Make it up to me? How? You gonna teach me the infield fly rule?”
He looks confused. “The what?”
“Football. Baseball. Whatever. It was a joke. A bad one. Concussion, remember?”
“Right.” He shifts his weight, the skate guards clacking again. He’s suddenly nervous, but in a different way. Not I-injured-a-fan nervous. Just ... nervous.
“I want to, uh, I want to take you to dinner.”
The words hang in the beige room.
Gabi makes a small, high-pitched squeak.
You just stare at him. “Dinner.”
“Yeah. Like a real apology. Not this.” He gestures to the room, the merch. “Somewhere with no ice. And no pucks. And where the food doesn’t come in a plastic helmet. I’ll pay. Obviously. It’s the least I can do. I mean, I did try to kill you.”
“You didn’t try to kill me, Hughes.”
“Felt like it. So ... what do you say? Dinner. A real one. So I can apologize properly. And maybe convince you that hockey isn’t the absolute worst.”
You look at him. He’s got a small cut on his chin you didn’t notice before. His eyes are fixed on yours, earnest and hopeful. And, okay, Liz was right. He is ridiculously cute.
And you find yourself, despite the pounding in your head and the gauze taped to your skin, feeling something other than pain for the first time in an hour.
“You’d have to explain icing to me,” you say.
He breaks into a huge grin. “I can do that. I can explain it. Slowly. Many times.”
“And I’m not wearing that jersey.”
“God, no. Please don’t. Burn it. I don’t care. Just say yes.”
You look at Liz and Gabi. They are both giving you the frantic, silent YES-YES-SAY-YES-OR-WE-WILL-KILL-YOU-OURSELVES look.
You look back at Luke.
“Okay, Hughes,” you say, a slow smile spreading across your own face. “Dinner. But if any more rubber objects are hit my way, I’m leaving.”
He laughs, a bright, relieved sound. “It’s a deal. No hockey talk. Unless you ask. Okay, now I really gotta go. The guys are waiting. But can I get your number? To, you know, plan the apology dinner. Date. Thing.”
“Smooth, Hughes,” you say, but you’re already reaching for Gabi’s phone, because yours is somewhere at the bottom of your bag, and your head hurts too much to dig for it. “Here. Put it in this.”
He takes the phone, his fingers fumbling with the screen. He’s still in his giant gloves.
“Oh, god. Sorry.” He pulls one glove off with his teeth, types his name and number, and hands it back. His hand is bare. It’s warm.
“Luke,” he says, pointing to the screen. “I put my name.”
“I got it.”
“Okay. Cool.” He shoves his glove back on. “I’ll text you. Tomorrow. To make sure you’re, you know. Not dead.”
“Appreciate that.”
“Cool.” He backs towards the door, skates clacking. “Cool. Okay. Feel better. Seriously. I’m really sorry.”
“It’s okay, Luke.”
“Okay.” He gives one last, awkward-slash-dazzling smile, and then he’s gone, the door whooshing shut behind him.
The beige room is silent again.
You, Liz, and Gabi stare at the door.
One second. Two.
Liz turns to you, her eyes wide as saucers.
“You just got asked out by Luke Hughes. After he shot a puck at your head.”
Gabi just faints, her knees giving way as she slides silently down the wall onto the tile floor.
“Oh, for god’s sake,” you sigh, carefully swinging your legs off the exam table. “Gabi, get up.”
“I hate you,” Gabi groans from the floor, her voice muffled. “I hate you so much.”
“Yeah, yeah.” You look at the jersey on the floor. You pick up the stick, testing its weight. It’s lighter than you expected.
“So,” Liz says, a slow, dangerous grin spreading across her face. “A football girl, huh?”
You look at the door Luke just left through. The headache is still there, a dull, insistent throb. But it’s manageable.
“Yeah, well,” you say, trying to hide your own smile. “Maybe I can make a small exception for cross-training.”
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