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[monatoxin]

belphie by omatoxin

(ill draw all of them, diavolo is up now)

[koutone-moved]

be3 💕

[gureishi]

Hey Grace! Do you have any HCs on Saeyoung’s hygiene? I know it may sound a lil weird, but he would spend days without leaving his office/computer.. so would he change anything one he goes to the apartment with MC or when the enter a relationship?

Hello anonymous friend! I sure do, hehe~

Today, in “Saeyoung is cleaner than you think”

TW: child abuse and neglect

Saeyoung is a paradox. He can’t cook—he lives mainly on snacks and soda. He owns like three outfits, and he definitely sometimes works for 48+ hours without a single break. He leaves chip bags lying around and if no one comes to check on him, his office will slowly devolve into a literal garbage dump.

And yet. He has a walk-in closet full of beautiful and perfectly-maintained costumes. He knows how to style his hair—he just doesn’t bother to do it, most of the time. His clothes are too big and kind of ragged but they are always clean. His office may be chaos—a reflection of his frenzied mind—but there's no trash piled up in his room, and his bed is always made.

No one is cleaning up after him and Saeran when they are kids: their mother is sometimes drunk for days on end, and the house falls into disarray—and so the twins learn how to care for each other. The are washing each other’s hair at an age when most kids are still being bathed by their caregivers; they are disposing of wrappers from any snacks they’re able to steal with remarkable and fastidious care. If their beds aren’t made, they're in trouble. If their mom is ever lucid enough to look at them closely, and finds them dirty and disheveled, she tells them they are disgusting. So they are as neat and as clean and as quiet and as small as they can possibly be.

When Saeyoung begins at the agency, he is taking care of himself as best he knows how—by taking up as little space as possible. He’s barely eating; he’s keeping his few possessions neatly stacked and hidden away. 

When Vanderwood is assigned to be his handler, they are unsettled by this strange, smart kid: even for an agent, his work ethic is alarming. It is Vanderwood who starts bringing him snacks—and eventually, cooking him real meals, too. And for the very first time in his life, Saeyoung finds that there is someone who will clean up after him—check in on him and make sure he’s still alive. He’s a kid; he takes advantage of it. It’s like he’s testing his limits: how long till this person gives up on him, too?

Vanderwood doesn’t give up on him. Because it’s their job. Because they couldn’t possibly, even if they wanted to. Because they know how it feels to be a kid with nobody looking after you.

By the time you meet Saeyoung, he’s got this huge house (with practically nothing in it but computers and screens and weird robots and more computers). He’s got these cars, which he’s put hours and hours of work into—cleaning and maintaining and upgrading. But he’s still leaving trash around the house, and he’s still not making his own food.

Because if he does, maybe he won’t need a handler anymore.

Because if he can keep his house clean and feed himself, will there be anyone left who wonders whether or not he’s alive?

It’s not conscious. He thinks he’s messy because he likes it that way—assumes that it’s in his nature to leave piles of empty soda bottles under his desk. But unconsciously, he’s always wondering when the day will come when nobody checks on him anymore. 

He still makes his bed every day. Vanderwood got over being baffled by that ages ago.

And he takes just enough care of himself to be comfortable. He works out every day (or almost every day, as his work at the agency shifts to mostly hacking). He takes showers—quick ones, just long enough to get clean. He rotates between the handful of outfits he owns.

And yes, sometimes he works for days on end without eating, or sleeping, or showering. And he feels terrible when he does it: sweaty and sticky and dizzy and nauseous. That sort of misery feels right, to him: it’s how a cockroach like him deserves to live, he thinks.

But listen, when he’s in the apartment with you, he is showering all the time. He is terrified that you’ll think he’s gross, for one thing—and besides, every half hour or so he catches a glimpse of your leg or something and has to do five hundred sit-ups to try and work off some of his frenzied energy. So then he has to shower again. He’s, like, alarmingly clean.

And in the future, when you’re living together, he is better—and worse—about taking care of himself. He does dishes now, because you’re probably doing most of the cooking, and he doesn’t believe that you should cook and clean up afterwards. He does laundry, too—but you normally have to prompt him, and he doesn’t always do a good job. He still leaves wrappers and bottles all over his office, but that’s his problem. He showers a normal amount—but sometimes he does still get so hyper-fixated on a project that he forgets about the passage of time.

But you’re there, now. When he’s been up all night trying to get a robot foot to bend the right way, you bring a blanket and wrap it around his shoulders. You make him drink water instead of soda, and you kiss his cheek and tell him he’s kind of gross and he needs to change clothes. He laughs and pulls you into his lap—and from there, it’s easy to persuade him to take a break. You can even get him into the shower, if you’ll come with him.

He doesn’t know when it happened, but he’s stopping wondering when he’ll be left all alone.

And even though he’s no longer dreading the day the world will forget about him, he still calls Vanderwood sometimes and begs them to come over and do his laundry. Vanderwood grunts and hangs up on him—but a couple hours later, they show up.

You don’t let them do the laundry. But you make them a cup of coffee and you squeeze their hand. Thanks, you want to tell them, for keeping him alive.

[amysteriousmessenger]

If you are accepting requests what about first date headcanons with the RFA (if that is too many characters what about just Yoosung? 😊) hope you have a great day xx

I hope this okay anon!! I added Saeran and V into this just for my own serotonin <3 oh to think about Saeran’s first date~ Reminder that I have a giveaway open!

Yoosung Kim First Date Headcanons 

Oh, he is so nervous. He’s never been on a date before, so cutscene to him asking Zen and Seven what he should do: with Zen suggesting that he should be as suave as possible, presenting you with bouquets and chocolates and Seven telling the boy that he should only speak backwards to prove that he was cool. Definitely not trying to just make him look like an idiot.

He’s a poor student, so your first date would be somewhere relatively cheap, most likely the cinema and then go get some food afterwards! Yoosung would believe he had to be chivalrous and let you pick the movie and where you wanted to eat, and would try to pay for your ticket and food since he’s the one who asked you out.

He’ll be internally panicking the entire time in the cinema, wondering whether he was allowed to wrap his arm around you or touch your hand. He really wanted to, but he didn’t want you to think he was moving too fast. So, when you lean your head on his shoulder he swears his heart stops. He won’t move a single muscle for the rest of the movie because he doesn’t want to disturb you. 

He’ll try to work up the courage to hold your hand on the walk home and he’ll actually manage it when you’re about two minutes away from where you live. It’s the thought that counts.

Zen/Hyun Ryu First Date Headcanons

On the outside, Zen’s cool and collected. He knows how to flirt and how to look good whilst doing it. He’s had a girlfriend before but that was a while ago, so he would be ever so slightly worried that perhaps he’ll be a little rusty. He spends extra long looking himself over in the mirror making sure that he looks his absolute best before he comes to meet you.

Your date would be an evening in the bar, sharing a couple of drinks and getting to be more comfortable in one another’s presence. Zen’s usually flirty, but he’s even more so after he’s had a couple of beers. He’ll be throwing compliments and winks at you like there’s no tomorrow: but that’s okay because you’re definitely enjoying the attention. 

You’ll talk about everything under the sun, the RFA, his work, your hobbies, how much he hates Jumin, how weird funny Seven is.

Zen will make sure you’re into it before he touches you, but he’ll be quick to wrap his arm around your waist or lightly touch your hand, using his finger tips to trace around the inside of your wrist. He won’t admit it, but seeing you so happy for his affection and even reciprocating it flusters him a little because it’s so genuine and sweet. 

Zen insists on walking you home, especially because it’s late and he wants to personally make sure you get home safe. He’ll swap between holding your hand and holding you by the waist as you walk, and will kiss your cheek before you go into your house. He doesn’t want to push his luck or overstep any boundaries, he’s a gentleman afterall, but he’s very pleasantly surprise when you pull him in for another kiss on the lips.

Jaehee Kang First Date Headcanons 

Jaehee’s also rather nervous before the first date, but tries her best to keep calm. She figures that you wouldn’t have agreed to the date if you didn’t already like her, but she’ll still doubt herself in that you should be with someone more interesting and less plain.

She’ll invite you to a lunch date at her favourite coffee shop, and will enthusiastically explain all the different types of coffee beans and processes to you. Your heart flutters at the sparkle in her eye and she apologises for getting too excited, please reassure her that you love listening to what she has to say. 

When you both order and sit down, Jaehee gives you the Zen DVDs she offered to lend you, and the two of you talk about the different musicals and extra behind the scenes, and Zen, and you promise to guard these DVDs with your life. 

You listen as she slightly vents about Jumin, which is very understandable and you console her for having to catsit Elizabeth the 3rd once again. Jaehee gets a little bit flustered when you read across the table to hold her hand, but her gentle smile indicates that she’s enjoying the affection.

When it’s time for you to part, after Jaehee got another coffee to go whilst muttering that she just got another two emails from Jumin, Jaehee’s a little hesitant on the appropriate goodbye, she isn’t quite sure what to do since it was only a first date. The two of you hug, and she’’’ be so worried you’ll feel how much her heart is racing.

Jumin Han First Date Headcanons

Pulls out all the stops. You continuously assure him that he doesn’t need to and that you’re on the date to spend time with him, not his money. And whilst he understands that, he wants to treat you to a pleasant first date that you won’t forget and just believes that it should be standard to treat his partner.

He’ll have Driver Kim pick you up and bring you to Jumin’s favourite restaurant, where he’s (Jaehee) made reservations for the two of you. It’ll be an evening meal, shared over a bottle of horrifically expensive wine.

He’ll show you another one of his beautifully captured blurry images of Elizabeth the 3rd. He’ll even offer to show you the livestream he has on his phone, showing you watch Elizabeth was currently curled up asleep on the sofa.

He’s more interested in hearing about you than talking about himself. Jumin doesn’t mean to worry you with his forwardness. He’s very intent on being nothing like his father in terms of dating, and wants you to know that he doesn’t go into anything half-hearted, his lovelife included. 

You offer to pay your share, but Jumin declines. He insists that he was raised to pay for his partner’s meal, but he appreciates the sentiment that you were not depending on him to cover your bill, even though he always intended to do so anyway. 

You’ll share Driver Kim’s car on the way back, with Jumin taking your hand and kissing it as you left the car, telling you that he had a wonderful time and hoped that you did too, a small smile present on his face. 

Saeyoung Choi First Date Headcanons

Seven is very stressed. Firstly, he can’t believe that he even asked you on a date, let alone the fact that you said yes. Who would want to date someone like him? He’s a mess. But regardless, he’s getting himself all worked up and it’s only a slap in the back of the head from Vanderwood that sorts him out. 

Your first date would be to an arcade during the evening. You let Seven pick the date, and you laughed when you heard what he had chosen. It was so him: fun, childish, a bit chaotic. 

He’s very good on the claw machines, and will make a point of winning you any stuffed animal you want. He’ll also just win any particularly cursed plushies that he sees. This means that you’ll end up with an entire bag of cute stuffed animals, a minion, a bootleg Shrek, a fish with no eyes and a random sock that somehow made it’s way in. 

As a joke, you bring the bootleg Shrek up to your lips and kiss it before pressing it against Seven’s lips to also kiss the stuffed toy. His heart is racing and he sends a flustered, very speedy message of ‘ASDFGWESHARED AN INDRECT KIS WITH SHREK!!!’ to Vanderwood, and completely received an ‘I don’t care’ in reply. 

The two of you take a selfie to send to the chatroom, and Seven’s heart is fluttering so fast, you’re so close to him and oh god he can even smell your perfume and it’s so nice and- Snap. You took the picture, and laughed at how Seven wasn’t even looking at the camera in the photograph, he was glancing at at you with the softest expression on his face. He’s so embarrassed.

You get a ride home in one of his babies, and once you collect all of your stuffed toys out of the backseat, you root around in the back and give Seven the bootleg Shrek you both kissed. He wishes you a goodnight and turns to turn the radio on after you get out the car. He wasn’t looking at you, so his heart was not prepared for when you planted a kiss on his cheek before promptly running back into your home. Oh. He’s fallen, hard.

Saeran Choi First Date Headcanons

Saeran had never been on a date before, he’d never even had anyone romantically interested in him or been romantically interested in anyone before he met you. There was no way he was going to ask his idiot brother for advice, even though Seven was quite literally begging him to do so. He’d relented to the extent of briefly looking it up online, but nothing seemed quite right. 

He’d settle on a picnic and a walk around the park, since it was simple and sweet. He was a little nervous, so hoped that the flowers and sky would calm him down and he’d be able to talk to you about any flowers that the two of you found. 

He’d make the picnic food all on his own (letting his brother eat any of the scraps from the preparation) after asking what your favourite foods were. He’s so happy to see you enjoying what he made, it fills him with a warmth he still cannot quite pinpoint, but he knows he wants to feel it again and again. 

He’d take your hand in his as you walked around the park, where he could point out the different flowers and tell you their meaning, and how pretty they would look braided into your hair. When the two of you see an ice-cream van, he immediately suggests going over to buy some, and your heart clenches at the sheer childlike joy at getting to eat it. It’s so sweet and tender to watch. 

He swears he can see a poof of red hair every now and then from behind a tree, or in the reflection of a shop. Surely not. He must be imagining things. He had better just be imagining it. 

V/Jihyun Kim First Date Headcanons

V isn’t particularly picky when it comes to dates, as long as it’s doing something that you would enjoy. If you left it down to him, which you did this time since it was your first date and he was the one that asked you out, it would be spending time together at his house over a bottle of wine. He’s not as formal as Jumin, so he doesn’t mind you coming over straight away. V’s not expecting you to spend the time, so he’s already arranged for one of Jumin’s drivers to come and pick you up afterwards, as a personal favour to Jumin. 

Genuinely, V just wants to know more about you. He’ll ask you about your likes and interests, what you hate, how you love, what your world views are, how you see yourself and what art means to you. He’s not a particularly great cook, but he’ll make dinner for the two of you and pour you a glass to go with it. 

He doesn’t regard himself as an interesting enough person to warrant your attention, but he’ll answer almost any question you ask him about himself. He’s trying to be a more open and honest person, especially to you. Whilst there are some things he’s tentative to talk about, he’ll freely share his world and artistic views with you.

V will show you some of his photographs, and more intimately his paintings, in his studio and let you see his workspace. He’ll show you around his private collections and, if you’re comfortable with it, will ask to take pictures of you since there’s not enough time to paint you- although he definitely mentions wanting to do that at a later date too.

[truth-be-told-im-lying]

I saw this on @nad-zeta 's page this morning and it looked like fun. I always wondered how I'd "measure up" to my favorite guys...and now I know. 🤭 Am I surprised? Nah. But it's cool too have a visual and to pretend to silhouettes are the real deal. 😍

Here's the link!

I'll tag @thatfanfictionchick @gureishi @marshmallowprotection @fandomplethora @space-kitten-606 @dreamer-hyun and @find-your-sunspot ...and anyone else who wants to do it. Do itttt. Don't wait for someone to tag you. 💜

[space-kitten-606]

Oooh this is so cool! Thank you so much for the tag! I meant to add a third person who I also have a lot of love in my heart for, but I couldn't find out how tall he is ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Anyway, here's me in comparison with two of the fictional men who stole my heart for the longest time ~

I tag @shittylongcatposts @flanabananacakes @queen-of-northern-europe @poofyboo @currentlyprocrastinating @inthisblogwestanthechoitwins @korekiyo-shingucci @mars-ghost-erodes @saeyoungprotectionsquad @teenyturtle @mammonprotectionsquad @jiinx008 anyone else who'd like to do this ~~~

[currentlyprocrastinating]

Oooh, cool! Thanks for the tag~

Hehe :3c

I'll tag... @yoosung-simp @this-mess-of-a-song @makialene @marshmallowprotection @marmar-shii @cometcall @rfadaydreaming @lunarmessenger @gureishi and of course anyone else!

[lunarmessenger]

...sigh LMAOO I wish I was shorter but oh well.

I’ll tag @boyimtrash and @mystic-echoes ! Some of y’all that I wanted to tag have already been tagged lol;;; but if anybody else wants to join feel free !!

[mystic-echoes]

ohh fun!! it’s been a hot while since the last time i measured myself so i had to do a bit of guessing but hopefully it’s accurate!

@ anyone who wants to join !!

[moonrelics]

“Meet me at the space station...”

Finally finished!! A 9 x 12 watercolor piece for my friend, Echo! Her and 707 are the cutest~

[lunarmessenger]

@mystic-echoes :)))

[mystic-echoes]

LUNA IM SO IN LOVE WITH IT YOURE AMAZING ITS PERFECT

[lunarmessenger]

Hard Regrets (Pt. 3) - 707 x MC

I changed up a bit of the prompt; I made her missing for a bit longer for dramatic effect lololol but here’s part three my loves !

warnings: angst :) LOL

word count: 1.8k

He was numb. His gaze was empty much like his heart, the bags underneath his eyes bruising a light purple as he sat on his bed.

Two months. It’d been two months since he’d seen or heard anything from MC. It didn’t matter where he looked, what systems were hacked; there was nothing. He’d gone so far as to check obituaries, but she wasn’t anywhere to be found on there either. His nose twitched as his mind fixated on the fact once more, the tears pooling in his eyes as he continued to stare at the wall.

It was like she’d just completely disappeared.

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[itsmeohmyo]

▷Doodle dump of my guy Unknown ☠️ I want to push myself and try comics so I’ve been doing reference sheets for some characters (If you don’t mind mess then I’ll post more dumps in the future haha) ❤︎

[sae-vii]

.*•.° s p a c e d a n c e .•*.°

[spacechip707]

I have this headcanon that Saeyoung is actually very ticklish. I would love you forever if you could write about it. I love your Saeyoung x Mc fluff so much 😭

I am honored to fulfill your wish, Anon <3 Also, yes, ticklish Saeyoung. I love this concept. I hope i did it justice! Hope you enjoy:)

SLAM.

Saeyoung stumbled through the door he had just kicked open. His eyes stung at the bright, fluorescent light that attacked them as he emerged from his dungeon of screens, wires, and endless work. Judging by his reflection on the metal door, he looked like crap. With a low groan, he ran his fingers through his hair in attempts to tame the tufts jutting from his scalp.

He gave up the hopeless case early, deciding instead to trudge into the living room in hopes of something other than computer contact. Ever the angel she was, MC was reclined on the couch–no doubt waiting for his return.

“Done,” he announced hoarsely.

Her astonished expression was only confirmation of his bedraggled appearance. Her gaze drifted down his entire form, and her mouth twitched upwards in almost a condoling smile. He couldn’t bring himself to return it.

“You look pitiful,” she commented.

“I feel pitiful,” he returned. He dragged his aching legs towards the end of the couch, all while lifting his arms wide. “Pity me.”

She clicked her tongue and extended her arms forward. “You poor thing,” she cooed. “Come here!”

Depleted of his usual energy, Saeyoung pressed one knee against the cushion of the couch and started crawling on his hands towards her. Only, his arms gave way before he could reach her enticing embrace, and the weight of his body sent him toppling to his side. He didn’t even feel pain when he hit the ground, but he still let out a soft whimper as he crumpled against his side.

MC scrambled across the couch and hovered above him. “Saeyoung, are you okay?”

He twisted onto his back. His eyelids drooped, and he could barely see her face curtained by her hair through his narrowed view. “Mhmm,” came his muffled reply.

MC propped herself on one elbow and shook her head. Her fingers strayed downwards to the locks against his forehead, hooking around his curls and gently tugging back until the knots loosened. He leaned into her tender touch, greedy for the energy it provided.

“Why don’t you get some sleep?” she said, her delicate voice not helping his exhaustion problem. “Dinner will be done in a few hours.”

His brows furrowed in objection, and his nose let out an unattractive snort. “I don’t think I can even move right now,” he replied, his tongue barely forming around the correct syllables. Thankfully, she could still decipher it.

“The bed is softer than the floor,” MC said. She had a point, but his limbs were sapped of any vigor now that he was laying down. He stayed put. She rolled her eyes jabbed her finger against his arm, but even then he couldn’t find the motivation to push her away. “Saeyoung…”

Her fingers continued to barrage his shoulder with little pokes. He only shook his head and stared at her through a half-lidded gaze. “Seven Zero Seven has shut down. There will be no powering on until recharge is complete. Beeeeep!”

Her hands clamped over her ears at the last shrill sound, and a laugh erupted from Saeyoung’s throat at her disgruntled expression. It was short-lived, however. A moment later, a flash of playfulness sparked behind her eyes.

“Oh?” she leaned forward on the couch. “Is there any way I can aid in this recharge?”

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[fluffyspaceblanket]

Happy birthday jaehee!!!

I love jaehee so much ahshshaj I would literally die for her, she deserves so so much better

[spicy-pozole]

I love drawing 707 and MC so much. Also I always picture this scene happening eventually when he eats Taiyaki around her... because of this:

[lunarmessenger]

Hard Regrets - 707 x MC (Part 2)

Part 2 to that little short that a precious anon had requested! I said I’d post after new years but my depression has me weirdly inspired JGELHGEH probably because this is a negative situation ^^;; pls enjoy getting your heart broken hahahaaaaa - luna 

warnings: angst, depictions of graphic injuries

word count: 1.6k 

He woke up in a cold sweat, chest heaving as he gasped and grabbed on to his black sheets. His brows furrowed as he sat up, wiping the sweat from his forehead as he took deep breaths. The image of the wind howling, rain pounding against the asphalt as the blue and red lights flashed. The image of MC being put onto a stretcher, her limbs mangled and face matted with blood as she remained still.

“Snap out of it, Zen.” He mumbled, throwing the sheets off of himself as he ran a hand through his silver hair. Nimble fingers gripped his knees for a second as he tried to remember what he saw, the fear and panic still trying to leave his body. Deep down he knew that he couldn’t just “shake this off”. It was one of his prophetic dreams; he just knew it.

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[lunarmessenger]

hi!! i wonder if i could request a one shot angst with saeyoung. so mc have a huge anxiety and she always closed up everything even after she's with saeyoung. one day when saeyoung snapped at her out of stress, she end up missing for like around two weeks without any traces even saeran cant help saeyoung to find her

after searching for the whole times they end up finding out that mc got in accident and still in the hospital because her injuries was so bad and actually someone from rfa (u can choose who) try to hide this from saeyoung because mc told them everything

i know its quite hard im sorry 😭

ohohohoho anon you give me too much power for requesting an angsty prompt. i hope you enjoy, thank you so much for this request! I will have to split it into quite a few parts because otherwise...it’ll be much too long haha ^^;; - luna xx

p.s. sorry requests are taking so long!! the holidays have been insane, but i promise after christmas and new years i’ll go back to posting regularly!

warnings: graphic depictions of major injuries, mentions of hospitals, and mentions of mental illness.

word count: 1.9k

Hard Regrets (Pt. 1) - 707 x MC

Her nimble fingers switched on the heater as a cold chill ran through the house, hands reaching up to the small blanket she’d thrown over her shoulders. The soft patters of rain thumped against the roof of the apartment, the only sound competing with the rain being the soft clicks coming from Saeyoung’s computer and the flicker of paper as Saeran read through one of his many books.

She smiled fondly as Saeran’s eyes danced across each page, filling his mind with the story as he burrowed deeper into the couch. That smile faded as her eyes slowly switched to his brother, her boyfriend, the man hunched roughly over his desk as he typed furiously. Empty cans of soda and crinkled bags of honey buddha chips littered both his desk and his floor, causing her to sigh as she walked over to help clean up.

This project had ended up being one of his longer ones, tomorrow making it about two months since he was assigned the task by Jumin. She was used to seeing Jumin overwork Jaehee, but now that it was affecting Saeyoung the way it was...it made her anxious. Of course his exhaustion worried her, but he became much more irritable when he became fixated on an important project.

Within the past month he’d grown incredibly distant so that he wouldn’t have any sort of distractions, and that meant that she didn’t get to spend time with him as often as she wanted to. The last time she’d reached out to him he had glared at her, telling her that while yes, he loves you, he needed to finish this project.

“No distractions, MC.” She whispered softly under her breath, a reminder he himself had given her the last time she interrupted. All she’d wanted from him was a hug. She slowly approached, bare feet softly tapping against the wooden floors as she made her way over. She was a couple of feet away from him, stopping as she hesitated. Maybe coming up with some sort of excuse would help guide him away from his computer? It wouldn’t be seen as a distraction since it wasn’t selfish; more like a welfare check?

“Are you boys up for some tea?” Saeyoung didn’t move an inch, mumbling a rough no as he continued to type and click across the screen. She visibly deflated, the bags under her eyes from lack of sleep growing heavier from his rejection. He hadn’t even been sleeping in their bed lately; he would sleep right there, on that god damned desk of his. She was snapped out of her rejection at the sound of the couch cushions moving; Saeran gave a small smile as he book marked his page, placing the book on the coffee table as he stood.

“I would love some, MC. In fact, I’ll help you make it. Come on...” The soft tone of his voice was a nice contrast in comparison to the rough rudeness of Saeyoung, the weight on her chest slightly lifting as she walked with him into the kitchen. Saeran grabbed the tea leaves while MC weakly grabbed three glass mugs; despite Saeyoung saying he didn’t want any. She readied the kettle, pressing the on button and watching as the blue light illuminated the dim kitchen and the water slowly started to come to a boil.

“MC...I’m sorry that Saeyoung is...the way he is.” The sudden apology from Saeran made her eyes widen as she turned to look at him, parts of her long hair falling into her face as she cleared her throat.

“What? Oh, no I mean...I guess...” She tried to think of an excuse for him, tried to come up with reasons on why it didn’t bother her that he got so invested that he not only forgot about her and Saeran, but forgot to take care of himself. Her eyes grew hot with tears for a split second as she shook her head.

“I just, I don’t know what to do. I can’t be honest with him about anything, because the last time I tried he...” She started to visibly shake, the only thing keeping her together being the sudden tap of the kettle signaling the water was ready. When she’d interrupted him before he almost flipped the chair because he was so angry; her distraction had caused him to mistype due to ruining his focus; according to him.

The only people who knew how he was making her feel was Saeran and Zen; the thought of the two men’s kindness towards her when Saeyoung was the way he was when he was writing made a soft smile grace her exhausted face once again. Though she hated to admit it, sometimes she wondered why she had not moved on to either Saeran or Zen. Both men would treat her the way she deserved, and she knew that, really she did.

But Saeyoung...she just loved him so much.

The way he was when they first met; how he had tried so hard to push her away and he just couldn’t. Because he didn’t want to. She didn’t want him to either, and she stayed because she knew that he loved her. Something in him changed, she can’t really remember when it happened; it just did. When he got a new project it was like MC didn’t exist; and he acted like he didn’t treat her that way when it was finished. No matter how much she hated it, no matter how much it made her cry; she just couldn’t leave.

All because she loved him.

“MC...? Should we take these to the couch? Maybe I can read you a couple of chapters?” She was snapped back to attention by Saeran, giving a slight nod as he took two mugs and she carried the last one. The sweet smell of honey and chamomile filled her nose as she slowly walked over to Saeyoung’s desk, his body still in the same position she had left him.

“Saeyoung...” Her voice was soft as she tried not to startle him, her anxiety slowly building with the tension as Saeran noticed what she was doing.

“Wait, MC; maybe we should just leave the tea over here?” She paused furrowing her brows as she tilted her head and slightly turned towards him.

“Then how is he supposed to know we at least made him a cup?”

“MC—” She turned back around to continue walking when her foot caught on one of the empty cans, causing her to lose her balance as she let out a gasp.

“MC!” She tried to redirect the cup as it flew out of her hands, the hot tea splattering all over Saeyoung’s desk and computer. Her heart sank in her stomach as Saeran was instantly at her side, Saeyoung leaping from the hot temperature and the sparks that flew around his desktop as he yelled.

“Are you...are you kidding me? Are you fucking kidding me?!” His voice boomed throughout the apartment as he turned towards her, golden eyes filled with rage as he loomed over her. He was so angry that he hadn’t realized her hand was red from being burned; she’d managed to get most of the tea spilt on her in an attempt to salvage his tea. 

“Oh, MC...oh God you’re burned; we need to get you to a hospital.” Saeran helped her up but Saeyoung was quick to push them apart, getting in her face as he pointed at his desktop.

“Do you know how long it took me to figure that out, MC?! You’re so fucking lucky that I had a back up running at the same time because I swear to God...” His voice was low, teeth clenched and nose scrunched as he angrily glared at her. Saeran grabbed him by the hood, yanking him away from MC as she shook from his outburst. He has never physically grabbed her and yelled at her the way he just did.

She watched as the two brothers went head to head, noses almost touching as they screamed back and forth. It became too much for her as she got up, trying not to catch their attention as she slid on her shoes and slowly opened the door. The rain had started to come down harder, the wind howling as her loose bun instantly came undone and wildly blew her hair around her face.

She almost, almost second guessed her decision until the sound of glass breaking caught her attention, the mug of tea that was supposed to be hers now smashed in pieces by one of the walls. Saeyoung’s chest was heaving while Saeran got up from a squatted position; almost as if he’d dodged whatever Saeyoung threw.

 Those pieces mirrored her heart; that mug was one that Saeyoung had bought her when they had first started going out. A picture of a cat had been printed on it, the cat making a winking face as the phrase I meow you! cradled the toon cat. It was one of her many prized possessions, and he had smashed it like it meant nothing to him.

That finalized her decision.

“What, Saeran? Stay out of this!”

“Are you so damn selfish that you haven’t realized that your girlfriend has burned half of her body to try and save your desktop? We need to get her to a hospital! Now!” He quickly turned to where she was squatting down by the wall, pausing when he realized that she wasn’t there anymore.

“MC...?” Saeran’s brows furrowed as he walked down the hall, leaving Saeyoung to cool off as he looked back towards his computer. The monitor screens were black as the tea slowly seeped into his keyboard and monitors. The more anger that left his body the more he’d realized what he’d done, his body slowly going into shock as he stared at the broken mug on the ground. The pink heart was in pieces, the larger part covered in brown tea as Saeran’s voice slowly became white noise in the background.

What had he done?

This entire time he’d been an absolute shit to his girlfriend; the one person who had supported him from day one. He slowly shuffled over to the broken pieces, socks growing wet from the spilled tea as he picked up the pieces.

“What have I done...?”

“Saeyoung! Saeyoung she’s gone!” He slowly blinked, not even bothering to adjust his glasses and messy red hair in tussles as he put down the glass and pinched the bridge of his nose.

“What?”

“She’s gone! Her phone is on the coffee table, and she didn’t take her bag! Saeyoung we have to find her; there’s a storm outside and she’s by herself!” Saeran was rushing to put on his coat and grab an umbrella, his boots clunking against the floors as he grabbed Saeyoung’s shoulders.

“Saeyoung, if you love her, you need to get off your ass now and help me find her. Now!” He slapped his dumbfounded brother, forcing him on to his feet and throwing a coat at him as he grabbed one of the many car keys hanging from the key shelf. Reality sank in as he threw on his sneakers, grabbing a beanie from the coat rack and tossing it on. He felt his stomach churn as his hand brushed against her coat and scarf, grabbing the scarf she always wore and wrapping it around his neck.

We have to find her, we have to find her.

I have to find her.

[lunarmessenger]

Hi have this rough sketch of @mystic-echoes having her face smooshed by God 707 thank you have a wonderful day ❤️

[mystic-echoes]

THE WAY I LOVE YOU THIS IS SO PERFECT

[s1n-am0n-deactivated20210627]

Something something Vanderwood Trans

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[aud-messenger]

Here, have a happy saeran n a saeran who loves u very much 🥺