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Why..

I lost it a little bit today...luckily he was there for me. Better than you were..why am I like this? Why can't I get better? I want to enjoy my life again! Why can't I?

I hate you

I hate you. I hate that I loved you. I gave you everything that I could. Yet still I was abused, controlled, and accused. My accusations were true. But you..how can you be a man with the way you act? You're nothing but a damn child that I had to raise when I should've left sooner and raised myself. Fuck you! I hate you!

Abused

Why did this happen to me? When did it all begin? What did I do to have this happen? How did I not see the signs? I loved you...yet you abused me..I did all I could to make you happy...yet still you abused me..I saw the bruises and felt the pain when I would wake up..I never asked because I just assumed it was my own fault..I don't remember many things that happened..I would fall asleep only to wake up in pain..my mother saw the bruises..saw the look in your eyes..she knew what was going on yet I did not...how could you do this to me? Over and over again? Did it get you off? Did you actually enjoy doing that? Why would you do this to me? What did I do to you to deserve this treatment? Was I not good enough? Were you trying to humiliate me in your own way? You said you loved me and I believed you...but you were just a monster who tricked me...I loved you and now I regret that decision...I hate myself and feel disgusting...no matter what I do I can't get it out of my head...why did you abuse me like that? Why? Why? Why?....

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Thai Basil, Lemongrass and Grapefruit Cocktail | Swooned

Adulting

Nobody explains to you about how hard it is to be an adult. They don't tell you about how hard it is to figure everything out on your own. You have to stop and budget, can I go out tonight or should I feed myself for the next week instead? They don't tell you about how you might have to separate yourself from your beloved animals..will they be okay at their new home? Why can't I keep them? You love your animals and you love all the things you have while living with your family. All the good things you've had that you now have to let go. Did you realize all that you would be giving up? Did you realize how hard it is to be an adult? So many questions yet...so little answers. And many many bills there on the dining room table.

#dontgrowupitsatrap

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Grilled Chicken & Strawberry Salad Wrap | The Pioneer Woman

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Rosemary Corn Cake with a Honey & Brown Butter Buttercream

Let's imagine

Let us stop and imagine about all that we know from our lives so far...have you got that thought in your mind? Good. Let's take that thought and warp it into our own little world. Go anywhere you want to or anywhere that you do go to help you get through the hard times in your life. Let's imagine that world you made up actually came true. How would you react to this? What would it do to you to find it exist? Does this idea make you happy?

Work and no management

When you open a business and you hire new employees. Make sure you have a set schedule and a set way of informing your employees of their schedule so they don't have to sit around or make plans or even have to cancel said plans just because you stink at informing your employees of when and where they work. Geez work on your work ethnic please.

Real bitches make you better than shut you down.

sweetoothgirl

Cannoli Cream Puffs

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I don’t care if you’re black, white, straight, bisexual, gay, lesbian, short, tall, fat, skinny, rich or poor. If you’re nice to me, I’ll be nice to you. Simple as that.

Teen (via words-in-the-paradise)