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[redpinejo]

Y’know what’s absolutely batshit crazy?

The realization that you are your own human being.

I was raised in a strict household. No peircings, no makeup, no tattoos, nothing cropped or see through, no being friends with boys unless they were your cousins, no going to the movies, no dancing, no saying “shut up” or “stupid”, 100% obedience to your elders.

I was very sheltered

Now I’m moving out and becoming an “adult” and the sheer potential is overwhelming. I’ll be moving thousands of miles away, so no going home every night.

I can get my ears pierced, not my nose or eyebrow, my fucking ears. I can wear makeup! Not the shitty “natural look” but actual bright red lipstick! (There’s a whole story behind that). I CAN WEAR CROP TOPS!

And it’s not just the freedom to express myself in a non-modest fashion. I’m beginning to realize that if my parents don’t like that I dyed my hair pink, they’ll have to just deal with it! I don’t have to live MY life by pleasing others. I’ll live my life the way I want and let others fit themselves into it.

I have lived the last 18 years of my life making others happy, now it’s time to make myself happy.

Fuck being a people pleaser

[high-functioning-depression]

Why am I still alive?

[depressedanxietydeath]

I died a long time ago, it’s just a matter of time before people realize I’m no longer me.

[antisocialaddict]

[we-liv-andwelearn-blog]

do you ever just want to slit your throat and see what happens

[high-functioning-depression]

Sleepless

You are extremely tired and exhausted. Your eyes burn like hell and you can finally go to sleep.

You toss and turn for hours. Not able to fall asleep.

You are freaking tired, but your body refuses to sleep.

You get frustrated.

There’s nothing else to do except to wait until you fall asleep, which eventually you do.

Or not.

Suddenly, there is light.

The dawn arrived.

You get up to start your day.

[save-yourself-stay-alive]

[we-liv-andwelearn-blog]

can someone please murder me so I don’t have to do it myself

[depressedanxietydeath]

So tired of waking up each morning wishing I didn’t.

[grungelama]

i’m such a disappointment.

[depressedanxietydeath]

She is dangerous when she is hurt. She can easily destroy everything around her, but she doesn’t. Instead she destroys herself.

Aletta S.

[dyingkami-deactivated20190102]

“i’m trying my hardest”

[depressedanxietydeath]

“Life is tearing me apart more and more every single day”

— me

[unravelingthepain]

I’m scared when I’m finally happy because I know that I’m nothing…

[dyingkami-deactivated20190102]

“why even bother trying?”

[depressedanxietydeath]

e v e r y t h i n g h u r t s

[xbloody-thighs-hollow-eyesx]

I’m used to it tho….