ZUKO x SUKI story. This story is focusing on Suki as main character. The chapter start with a breakup -sorry but not sorry. I wanted to work on the subject how people can change, and so their feelings.
Suki and Zuko's relationship would be a slow burn as they have other things to focus first, not yet grasping their growing feelings.
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Night came slow over the Fire Nation capital. The deep red colours of the palace had soaked in the day's heat, and now it let that warmth go in slow waves, drifting through the open halls long after the sun was gone. Down in the harbor, the clatter of ropes and crates had thinned to almost nothing, just the occasional creak of a ship settling against its dock could be heard by the ones that watched the shores. The wind moved warm and unhurried over the rooftops, like it too was ready to rest, nonetheless not everyone in the palace was ready to do the same. In one of the many rooms tucked along the palace's endless corridors, candlelight flickered against the walls. Suki sat curled in her chair, knees drawn to her chest with her chin resting on top of them. The mighty Kyoshi warrior with her pale bluish eyes watched the candle flame that danced in the darkness in front of her, on a tea table. The girl held the flames in her gaze without really seeing them as her eyes had gone somewhere else entirely yet unmoved from where they had been.
Across from her, Sokka tipped his chair back on two legs, one arm slung over the backrest like he weighed nothing at all. He turned an empty cup slowly between his palms, clearly still working up to whichever story he'd come to tell.
"Bato's son is building his own ship now," he said, eyes lighting up like he could already see it. "Kid's fourteen. The best part was Dad's face insulted for not building his own ship at fourteen." He laughed, swiping a hand through the air as if to wave off his own father's pride.
Suki's mouth pulled into a small smile, though it didn't quite reach the rest of her face. "How's Hakoda?"
"Good” a short pause “ Tired. The man is expecting a child with his girlfriend. I am happy for them." He paused, turning the cup once more. "I'm heading back in two weeks, actually. There's some council thing umm trade talks with the Earth Kingdom, which sounds like the most boring way possible to spend a week." The dramatic boy expressiveness now switched to normal one. “ But I don't mind, it's good, being part of that with my father."
"That's good," she said. "That you're part of it."
"Yeah." His eyes flicked to her, then held a beat too long. "You know, you should come. I don't think I've ever actually asked you." He rubbed the back of his neck, smiling like the idea had just landed in front of him, easy and open.
Something in his smile made the next part harder. Suki looked down at the candle for a long moment, turning over a dozen different ways to start, finding none of them right.
Just his name was enough to straighten his spine. He set his hands on his knees — not bracing, exactly, more like someone settling in to actually listen.
"I'm listening," he said.
"I've been thinking." She stopped. She'd been thinking for months, and now, with him in front of her, she couldn't tell which thought to start with.
"When's the last time you asked me what I want to do with my life?" Not an accusation and just a question, and she watched his face while she waited for an answer. Her hands were laced together so tightly her knuckles had gone pale, though she didn't seem to notice.
He opened his mouth, then closed it. She could see him digging through memory and coming up empty.
"I'm not angry," she said quickly, watching the realization land on him. "I only just realized ..uh.. I haven't been asking myself either….I think that's the real problem." She tried for a smile and it came out crooked, the corners of her mouth fighting against something heavier underneath.
"What do you mean?" He searched her face in the candlelight like the answer might be hiding somewhere in it.
She turned back to the flame instead of him. "I came to the Fire Nation because Zuko needed people he trusted. That felt like enough of a reason at the time." She paused. "But I've been here almost three years now, and I've been so busy being useful that I never stopped to ask what I'm actually building toward."
"You're protecting the Fire Lord," Sokka said, trying not to dismiss her, just naming what he'd always understood her to be doing in this huge, quiet palace.
"That's not a future, Sokka. That's a job I won't even be needed for one day." For a moment, the warrior was gone from her posture entirely, and what was left looked impossibly young of a girl who'd been carrying something heavy for a long time and had finally set it down where someone could see it. She kept her eyes on the candle, wishing, in some small and useless way, that the flame could just take her somewhere else so she wouldn't have to say the rest out loud.
He went quiet. "So what are you saying?"
"I'm saying I don't know who I am right now, outside of being useful to people." She said it plainly, because that was the only true way to say it, her eyes still fixed on the flame. "I left Kyoshi Island knowing exactly who I was. I wanted to help people and that was never complicated. But somewhere these last few years, that got blurry. I helped Zuko. I helped you, whenever you needed it and now something doesn't feel right anymore."
Her voice had an edge to it, quiet, frustrated.Tthe sound of someone still hunting for answers she hadn't found yet.
"You're still you," he said, and he meant it, which somehow made things both better and worse.
"I know. But I'm not the same as I was at sixteen with the same curiosity, same need to be useful the second someone asked." Her eyes drifted up, searching his face almost shyly. Across from her, Sokka had gone still, looking off to the side like he was turning her words over, deciding what to do with them.
"I think we've been…" she gestured between them " …doing this on momentum for a long time. Apart from each other for a year already. I –" Her voice caught. "I've changed a lot."
The silence that followed sat heavy between two people who had once fit so easily together. Suki watched him resist the urge to fill the quiet with a joke and that alone told her something had changed in him too. She held onto that small mercy more than she could say.
"I didn't know that," he said finally, quietly. "I didn't know you felt that way."
"I couldn't put it in a letter."
"I guess I've been so wrapped up in everything else, I just … expected you'd always be there waiting." The last words came out almost a whisper, meant for no one but the two of them.
"I wasn't saying anything because things always seemed fine, and I kept thinking it would sort itself out eventually." There was no blame in her voice, just the quiet certainty that neither of them had done anything wrong. They'd simply stopped paying attention, both of them, at the same time.
Sokka looked down at the cup still resting against his knee. He set it on the table, slow and careful, like putting it down properly might buy him another second to think. She watched him work through it the way he always did when something actually surprised him. Quiet first, reacting only once he'd had a moment to catch up. That was the Sokka the war had built: a fighter, a leader, someone who'd learned, eventually, to slow down when it mattered.
"So what happens now," he said. It didn't quite sound like a question.
"I think I need time. To figure out who I'm becoming." She paused. "And I think you're meant for something big, back with your people. You've been building something that matters, and you keep treating it like a hobby on the side."
He made a sound, almost a laugh, but it had a wince in it. "Was I doing that?"
Another silence. Softer, this one.
"I don't want to lose you," he said.
"You're not losing me." She reached over and laid her hand briefly over his. "We're just done pretending we're the same two people who met on Kyoshi Island. Those two made sense together. But we've both gone somewhere since then, and we never really talked about where."
He turned his hand to hold hers for a moment before she drew it back, gently.
"I think I took this for granted," he said. It clearly cost him something to say it that plainly, without a joke to hide behind. "Not you, exactly. I just assumed it would always be here, and I never –" He let out a breath. "Yeah."
"I know." And she did. That was the thing about Sokka, he was never careless on purpose. He simply moved through life trusting the good things to hold steady while he was busy elsewhere, and most of the time they did. Until, quietly, one of them didn't.
"Are you okay?" he asked.
She thought about it honestly before answering. "I think I will be. I think I need to be a little lost first, before I can answer that for real."
He nodded, slow. Somewhere below them, the city kept humming its low, steady hum. After a while he leaned back in his chair again, and she pulled her knees back up to her chest, and they sat there together a while longer, the kind of quiet that only exists between two people who have actually known each other.
It wasn't the end of what they'd felt. It was just the end of something they'd both been quietly outgrowing and, finally, saying so out loud.
The candle had burned itself low by the time the conversation found its natural end, leaving behind it a quiet that neither of them rushed to fill. The room felt different now, not emptier exactly, but settled, the way a room feels after something spontaneous happened and then it calmed down. Whatever grief existed between them carried no bitterness, only the kind of ache that comes from caring about someone and choosing, even so, to let them go.
There was a time when their hearts had moved in the same rhythm, when love felt like a shared breath. But life has a way of pulling even the closest souls onto different paths, and somewhere along the way, without anger or intention, distance settles between them like a slow‑growing fog. For so long it seemed impossible that they would ever reach this point; everything felt deceptively fine, the comfort of separation becoming its own quiet habit. Yet pretending they could return to each other unchanged would have been a gentle lie, the kind that bruises more deeply than truth. Suki felt it first, that small, bright flutter in her chest that belonged to the woman she was becoming, a woman who understood that love must be whole or not at all. She could not ask Sokka to wait in the shadow of a future she no longer saw clearly, nor could she deny him the chance to be cherished by someone who could meet him with her entire heart.
In those last slow minutes, they had both seen it clearly how much they had mattered to each other, how the war had pressed them together and made them essential to one another in ways neither of them had words for at sixteen. And how time, given enough of it, speaks in its own quiet language. How a person can change so gradually, so gently, that even they don't notice until one day they reach inside themselves for something familiar and find it has already become something else.
And when the memories between them began to feel like echoes instead of anchors, Sokka understood. The moment arrived quietly for the moment he realised it was time to rise from Suki’s room and let the space between them become honest at last.
Sokka was the one who finally moved. He set both hands on his knees, drew a breath, and stood and she stood too, and for a moment they simply looked at each other, one of those long glances that says more than either person could have managed out loud. He could not stop himself from noticing her silhouette against the candle light, her posture still and composed the way it always was, the way that used to make him feel settled and now made him feel like he had missed something fundamental about her for a very long time.
"Goodnight," he said softly. And oh how she smiled at him, a real smile, warm and without bitterness, which somehow made leaving the room feel lonelier than he expected.
Closing that door felt like an impossible task like a weight heavier than any blade he had ever lifted. Sokka had survived a war, taken lives to protect his own and the close ones, slipped through shadows under false names, and made choices that carved scars no one could see. Yet this… this gentle ending between two people who once loved fiercely felt like a betrayal he never meant to commit. A betrayal of her, of himself, of the version of them that once seemed unbreakable.
There was nothing dramatic in the way they chose to part. No shouting, no accusations, no final wound to cling to. He knew he could have fought harder, held on tighter, tried to stitch the distance closed but he also knew, deep in the quiet place he rarely let himself look at, that something essential had shifted. What they had was no longer what they were. There were no hard feelings between them, only the trembling edge of a new beginning, frightening, uncertain, and painfully honest.
When he stepped outside her room, his fingers slipping from the doorknob as though it burned, he found himself suspended in a moment without direction. He couldn’t bring himself to return to his own room, not yet. His mind felt hollowed out, emptied of thought, and his feet moved without purpose, as if they belonged to someone else entirely.
He moved without thinking about where he was going, hands loose at his sides, the conversation turning itself over and over in his head like something he kept trying to find the bottom of. The torches along the walls burned low at this hour, throwing long shadows across the stone. The warmth the palace had swallowed from the sun was still there, held in the walls, drifting out slowly into the dark.
I think we've been doing this on momentum for a while.
He kept asking himself honestly if he had known that. And he kept arriving at the same uncomfortable answer that he hadn't known it consciously, but the moment she said it something in him had recognized it as less like surprise and more like something finally being pointed at directly. That felt worse, somehow.
He thought about the last time he had come to the Fire Nation just to see her. Not passing through on his way somewhere else, not stopping in because he had meetings at the palace anyway and of course he would visit while he was there and just coming, because she was here, and that was reason enough. The mighty warrior couldn't find that moment within his memories. He kept looking back and he couldn't find it, yet he could find the other times easily. The battle where she had appeared before he'd even thought to send word, reading the situation in seconds and slipping into place beside him like she'd always been part of the plan. The months after the war when everything was unfamiliar and too loud, and she had known without being told when to talk and when to simply sit nearby. She had always known where he needed her. She had always shown up.
He hadn't wondered, until right now, whether she had ever needed the same thing in return. Whether she had waited for him to come simply because she wanted to see him, and whether he ever had.
He turned a corner and nearly walked straight into Zuko.
Both of them were startled. Zuko caught himself first, squaring his shoulders on instinct before registering who it was. He was dressed plainly, some dark red, simple robes he clearly wore when he didn't want to look like the Fire Lord, and he was unmistakably heading in the direction of the kitchens. He looked at Sokka the way he had learned to look at people over the years with a quick, assessing, reading of the face and the body before the mouth had a chance to arrange something presentable. Whatever he saw made him pause.
"You're up late," Zuko said.
"So are you," Sokka said, which wasn't really an answer.
Zuko studied him for another moment. "I was going to get some tea." He tilted his head slightly down the corridor. "Come on."
It wasn't quite an invitation. It wasn't quite an order either. Sokka followed anyway.
The small kitchen off the east wing was empty at this hour, the staff long since retreated to their quarters for rest as with each coming day there was always loads of work to prepare for. Zuko moved through it with the ease of someone who had clearly done this before, setting water to heat, finding cups, locating something cold wrapped in cloth that he set on the table between them without comment.
Sokka sat down heavily, elbows on the table, and stared at the middle distance.
Zuko set a cup in front of him and took the seat across without asking any questions yet. He simply watched, the way he had become good at watching , not staring, just present, giving the room enough quiet to become comfortable. When the water was ready he poured for them both with the kind of unhurried care that Iroh had apparently managed to leave in him despite everything, then wrapped both hands around his own cup and waited.
The silence that settled between them wasn't uncomfortable. Zuko had a particular quality of stillness that Sokka had once found deeply unnerving back when they were teenagers and enemies, and then uneasy allies, and then something harder to define such as friendship because when giving it some thought, it was still hard to believe but Sokka understood now that the quality the black haired in front of him possessed was patience. Not the performed kind but the real kind in essence which is rarer.
Sokka turned his cup in slow circles on the table, his chin resting in his other palm. The soft scrape of ceramic against stone was the only sound in the room.
He eventually sighed, a long, uneven one and looked up at Zuko sideways.
"How's Suki been?" he said. "I mean … lately. How has she actually been."
Something shifted behind Zuko's eyes, small and considered. He took the question seriously rather than reaching for something easy.
"She's been good," he said. "She's been exceptional at her work. I don't know what we would have done without her, honestly she walks into a room and reads it in about three seconds and she's almost always right." A pause. "She's very good at making people feel steadied."
"She's less good at letting anyone do the same for her."
Sokka's hand stilled. The cup stopped moving.
"Lately I've noticed…" Zuko chose his words carefully, " she seems a little elsewhere. Like she's present, doing everything she always does, but something underneath is somewhere else entirely. I assumed she was tired or working through something she'd bring up when she was ready." He glanced up. "She hasn't mentioned anything."
"Once." The corner of Zuko's mouth moved slightly. "She said she was fine." He tapped one finger quietly against the side of his cup.
"Yeah," Sokka said. "Yeah, that's what she says."
He looked back down at the table. The tea had become a soft gold, the steam beginning to thin. He thought about every time in recent months he had called her brilliant, capable, extraordinary, all of it genuine, all of it true and how almost none of it had been are you alright or what do you need or simply I came because I wanted to see you. The realisation settled over him slowly, the way cold does when you've been standing in it too long without noticing.
"I think," he started. He stopped and tried again to speak. "I think I've been very good at telling her how much I admire her, and not very good at actually checking on her."
Zuko said nothing. He sipped his tea and waited.
"We talked tonight." Sokka exhaled slowly. "She said she doesn't know who she is anymore, outside of being useful. That she came here with this clear sense of herself and it's gotten blurry." He rubbed the back of his neck. "And that we've … grown apart."
He finally looked at Zuko properly. Something quiet and private had moved through the other man's face, a surprise arriving and then settling into something more complicated.
"I didn't know that," Zuko said.
"Neither did I." Sokka's voice came out smaller than he'd meant it to. "That's sort of the problem."
Zuko set his cup down and was quiet for a long moment, looking at the table. Then something shifted in his expression, the particular look he got when he was pulling up a memory he hadn't revisited in a while.
It had been a few weeks ago. One of those evenings when the weight of the day had lifted just enough that a small group of them had gathered in the east courtyard – Suki, Zuko, two of the council members who had since gone home. The conversation had drifted the way it does when people are finally tired enough to relax, and had landed, somehow, on Mai.
Zuko didn't mind talking about her the way he once might have. Enough time had passed. What existed between them now was something he had quietly made his peace with as a genuine warmth, a respect shared between two people who knew each other's difficult edges and had chosen, differently, to remain. He was content with that.
Suki had been listening with her chin resting in her hand. She had asked him, gently and with real curiosity, whether he ever wondered what things might have looked like if they'd found each other at a different time, if they'd been given another chance to try.
"Sometimes," he'd said honestly. "But I think she was right. I think she knew herself better than I did at that point."
Suki had smiled at that, soft, and slightly distant. He had read it, at the time, as simple thoughtfulness. The mild, passing melancholy of someone hearing an old story that wasn't theirs.
He had not looked at it again until now.
The smile had been turned inward. Like someone hearing a stranger describe an answer they were still searching for in themselves. She had been holding his words up like a lamp to something in her own life she hadn't yet found the language for, and he had been too caught in his own reflection to see it.
Zuko came back to the present slowly. Sokka was watching him.
"She asked me about Mai once," Zuko said. "A few weeks ago. About what it was like to accept that someone you love has chosen a different path." He paused. "I thought she was asking because she likes to understand people."
"But she was making a sadder face than the conversation called for." He said it quietly, almost to himself.
The two of them sat with that for a moment.
"Mai is well," Zuko continued, turning his cup. "She's doing something that's actually hers now and I think that's what she always needed. I still care about her and I believe she knows that. But she made the right call, and it took me a while, though I got there." He looked up at Sokka. "It took me a while."
Sokka nodded slowly, looking at nothing.
"Are you alright?" Zuko asked directly, the way he had learned to ask things since the war, without burying the question under so much cushion that it lost its weight.
Sokka was quiet for a long moment. Then he picked up his tea, finally, and held it in both hands the way Zuko was holding his.
"I think so." He looked at Zuko with something tired and honest in his face. "I just needed to sit with the fact that I assumed the good things would hold while I was busy. And sometimes they do." He paused. "And sometimes they've already quietly changed, and you just didn't notice because you weren't looking."
Zuko held his gaze and nodded once. No advice. No words to smooth it over. Just the acknowledgement of one person who had learned something the hard way to another who was learning it now.
They sat a while longer. Two cups of tea cooling between them. The palace rests silent around them, each of them thinking about different women, and the same essential thing on how easy it is to be beside someone, and still, somehow, miss them entirely.
Sokka leaned forward, turned his cup once more, and set it down with a quiet finality.
"Can you not tell the others yet," he said. Not quite a question. Directed at the middle of the table. "Aang and Katara … I just – I can't face that conversation yet. I wouldn't know what to say."
"Of course," Zuko said, without hesitation.
"It's not that I want it to be a secret. I just don't want it to be a whole thing." Sokka exhaled slowly. "She still cares about me. I know that. And I care about her. That part hasn't gone anywhere." He turned the words over, checking them for accuracy. "I think that's almost what makes it harder. If one of us had done something wrong it would be cleaner."
"It's harder when there's nothing to be angry at," Zuko said quietly.
"Yeah." Sokka looked at his hands. "She's going to be okay. She's one of the strongest people I've ever known and I've always meant that. But I think I let that become an excuse without realising it. Like she didn't need me to check on her because she always seemed fine." He pressed his lips together. "She needed someone to see past the fine."
Zuko listened the way he had become good at listening, without rushing toward a response.
"I just wish I'd been paying more attention," Sokka said.
The kitchen was very still. Outside, somewhere in the dark, a night bird called once a single, clear note and then went silent, as though it understood that some things are said only once and do not need repeating. And in that night the trust between the two young men that fought in war together has grown fonder.
"What will you do?" Zuko asked.
"Give her space." Sokka straightened slightly, pulling himself back into something more collected. "I promised Toph I'd stay until she gets here anyway… she's coming to see you about something so I'll be around. I just don't want to make it harder for Suki by hovering."
"You can stay in the village if you'd rather not be in the palace," Zuko said simply. "I know a few places."
Sokka looked at him with genuine and a little rawness in it. "Yeah. That would actually … yeah. Thank you."
Not long after Sokka opened his mouth again “Zuko, can I ask for a favour?”
Zuko looked at him curiously “what is it?”
The bluish eyes were avoiding the Fire Lord’s “I don’t want to ask for much but” he hesitated for a bit but managed to look in his commorade eyes “can you look after Suki?”
Zuko blinked once but then nodded and reached for the teapot.
They stayed a while longer without saying very much, the way people sometimes stay together when the important things have already been said and what's needed now is simply not to be alone with them. Outside, the capital lay dark and quiet beneath its cloak of warm night air, holding its own counsel, keeping as it always had the secrets of the people who lived inside it.
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