Fantasy Is My Reality

aggressively introverted. but emotional. lover of characters. dog whisperer. hermit. witty. self aware. socially inept. visually stimulated. rebel at heart. gay shipper. BAE is Robert Downey Jr. Next tier down is Benedict Cumberbatch and Michael Fassbender

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(SPOILERS) Lying awake at night, squinting at the ceiling and wanting to write a T’Challa/Tony fic

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am I the only one who sees this potential

both warriors, heirs to an empire, shared pain of a parent dying

T’Challa personality calms Tony’s down in a way no one can understand, listens to Tony, is dominant and close by whenever he can be, Tony snarks and flails but T’Challa has already seen through this facade since he met him (funny what you learn about a man when he’s sitting alone in the aftermath of a batttle he never wanted to fight). For some reason, T’Challa feels protective, stations himself at Stark’s home with him. He would return to Wakanda when he was needed. T’Challa was the first to witness Tony’s nightmares when things were settled. Afghanistan, then Obadiah. Then falling from deep space. Alone. Then Captain America. 

Then came the drinking. T’Challa watched Tony pop something into his mouth when the drinking was no longer enough. But sometimes, Tony would let him into his lab with little resistance, wave his hand around with insults here and there about “what the cat dragged in.” Tony would take steps back when T’Challa took one forward.

The signs were all there. So without permission, without a reason, he would advance until Tony was backed to a wall. And hug him. Tony was silent. Until the tears came.

[rellanka]

Hey guys, since fic involving the events in CACW that center on Tony are still a little difficult to find, I’ve decided to create a second list containing the ones I could. Still all ships, all pairings, all genres. Most of the incomplete fics are in the angsty section because they are angsty right now, but the majority of them seem like they’ll have happy endings, so they could really belong to either catagory. Otherwise, hope everyone enjoys and sends these authors some love for their hard work!

Obviously all fics have spoilers.

See my first fic collecting post here. Also, if there are some fics I missed, or CACW Tony fics not posted to AO3, please let me know and I’ll add them to the list.

  Angsty Fic (fic to rip your heart out)

Need is just a word by masterlokisev159 (incomplete, Steve/Tony)

All Roads Lead Home by starspangledsprocket (incomplete, Steve/Tony, Tony&Rhodey friendship)

It always rains by Kamaleen (incomplete, Steve/Tony, omegaverse)

The wrong call (all down the line) by SinBin (incomplete, Steve/Tony)

And I Leave You With This (this mess we’ve made) by spazt (incomplete, Steve/Tony, Rhodey/Tony)

Mirror Match by Mcfly93 (incomplete, Steve/Tony)

Vibranium Hearts by LokasennaHiddleston (incomplete, T'Challa/Tony, Steve&Tony friendship)

The Perfect Ending by tonystarktrash (incomplete, Pepper/Tony)

Heroes and Other Childhood Delusions by cavtain (typeBfan) (incomplete, gen, Bucky&Steve&Tony friendship)

Lost and Found by Shi_Toyu (incomplete, gen, Bucky&Steve&Tony friendship)

Reconstruction by tobedecided (incomplete, gen)

People Like Me Don’t Get Saved (We Get Left Behind) by arianapeterson19 (incomplete, gen)

Of Laughing Matters by Aate (incomplete, gen)

Captain America Signs the Registration Act by Mushroom (Steve/Tony, character death)

Regrets by RageAgainstTheNormal (Steve/Tony, character death)

Shield My Heart by snowkind (Steve/Tony, NSFW)

Zugzwang by Woad (Steve/Tony, character death)

We Know That Dreams Are Dead by Fangirlingmanaged (Steve/Tony)

Between a rock and a hard place by RedK (Tony/Steve, NSFW, dubcon)

I Guess I’ll Sleep When I’m Dead by Fangirlingmanaged (Steve/Tony)

I’ve Got Two Faces, Blurry’s the one I’m Not by Fangirlingmanaged (Steve/Tony)

Love is the Funeral Pyre by Antianeira (Steve/Tony)

Sweet Release by ElizabethMarvel123 (Steve/Tony, character death)

Friend, Please. by Fangirlingmanaged (Steve/Tony)

36 Hours by intheclearyet (Natasha/Tony)

December 16th, 1991—did you know? by MoonGirl1155 (gen)

The Only Exception by Lilipoussis (gen)

Whipping Boy by Caroly214 (gen)

only then i know why i see the warning signs by ars_arcana (gen, character death)

Scarlet Letter by Valentine (gen)

  Hopeful/Happy Fic (fic to make you feel a bit better)

What’s Bent, What’s Broken by crackedshades (incomplete, Bruce/Tony)

Reparations by genius_billionaire_gayboy (incomplete, Steve/Tony/Bucky)

Like the prodigal son by iamclem (incomplete, gen, may not stay Tony centric)

Possible by 222Ravens (Rhodey/Tony)

tomorrow mountain we will climb by fivedrinkamy (Rhodey/Tony)

One Safe Place by EllOnWheels (Rhodey/Tony)

Clearing Skies by Reddwarfer (Rhodey/Tony)

Show me how it used to be by JuliaBaggins (Pepper/Tony)

Bless This Mess by katalizi (Pepper/Tony)

Before The World Fell At Our Feet by lunarknightz (Pepper/Tony)

(An Attempt At) Subterfuge by Timeboundpythia (Pepper/Tony)

wear your momentum by sandyk (Pepper/Tony)

The Healthful Benefits of Cactus by buffyaddict13 (Pepper/Tony)

Three by Amy (InnitMarvelous) (Pepper/Tony)

Twist and Turn by Queen_haQ (Pepper/Tony)

Only You (Reprise) by muzivitch (Tony/May Parker)

How Happiness Works by little_werewolf (Steve/Tony)

talk is cheap by allourheroes (Steve/Tony, Peter&Tony friendship)

Detente by MassiveSpaceWren (Steve/Tony)

Broken Pieces of a Whole by coaster (Steve/Tony)

Unbent, Unbroken by lwielaura (Steve/Tony)

You’ve Been Sleeping In The Wild by skyline (Steve/Tony)

When The Dust Settles, Who Will Be Standing With Me by vicnic90 (angsty Steve/Tony, Natasha&Tony friendship)

Suit Up by awildlokiappears (gen, Steve&Tony friendship)

     It’s sequel: Iron by awildlokiappears (gen)

Moving On by Kaitie (Steve/Tony or Steve&Tony friendship, Natasha&Tony friendship)

Always Hate Me by CoffeeAndArrows (Natasha&Tony friendship)

I Know by nonna (gen, Bucky&Tony friendship)

He Killed My Mom by Kelady (gen, Steve&Tony friendship)

Alright by FemiNerd (MishaDerps) (gen, Steve&Tony friendship)

Done by ficlicious (gen, Laura Barton&Tony friendship, Rhodey&Tony friendship)

Off Screen by RussianEmpress (collection of fics, second chapter has gen Peter&Tony friendship)

Aftermath by shadowlancer_95 (gen, Fury&Tony friendship)

Keeping Track of Things by riani1 (gen, slight T'Challa&Tony friendship)

[mythicalgummies-blog]

BLESS YOU

SIGNAL BOOOOOOOOST THIS SHIT

[ohrobertdowneyjr]

GQ STYLE. Debut issue. {2016}

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bae

[sebfanno1]

J2 at A16

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YOU TWO

LOO AT WHAT YOUVE DONE TO US

[mishacoliins]

I hate this so much

[mythicalgummies-blog]

BLESS THEM

[bitchevans]

[literallyacryptid]

I want tony stark to adopt civil war Peter Parker

[mythicalgummies-blog]

ME TOO THEY

WERE

SO

FUCKING

ADORABLE

TOGETHER

[tsfrce]

Chris Evans & Robert Downey Jr. on People Magazine

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Srsly

signal boosting this shit

Chris Evans strikes once again. RDJr’s #1 fanboy.

Fantastic.

#CivilWarFixIt

[p48hyunah-deactivated20250627]

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i am laughing so hard

[eliisiion]

an apple a day keeps anyone away if you throw it hard enough

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Civil War Fan Wars between Team Cap and Team Iron Man

Can we all agree to disagree?

Can we all please understand that everyone fucked up in this movie and no one was right?

CAN WE PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT YOUR FAVORITE CHARACTER WAS NOT THE ONLY ONE IN PAIN?

Can we stop the Steve Rogers hate?

The Bucky Barnes hate?

The Tony Stark hate?

PLEASE?

Please don’t talk to me if you don’t understand that Bucky was a victim, but he’s not blameless.

Please don’t talk to me if you don’t understand that Steve was a victim, but he’s not blameless.

Please don’t talk to me if you don’t understand that Tony was a victim, but he’s not blameless.

Get your heads out of your asses and see that all of these characters are humans underneath the costumes and they’re all in pain and suffering and lashing out and protecting themselves and each other in the only ways that they can.

Thanks.

/rant over

[fandoms-to-rule-us-all]

The fact that Steve was crying while fighting Tony is just to much to handle

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I noticed this too and no one is gunna talk about it?

[iwantcupcakes]

The pain piles on in Civil War, sadly.

[by david christopher bell, via cracked]

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ALWAYS reblog. Signal boosting the FUUUUUUUUuuck outta this.

[page-and-page]

“He’s now in the Marvel Cinematic Universe, and he can interact with the characters in that universe. I think that this mentor relationship that Tony has developed with Peter Parker is probably one of the most interesting things the universe has moving forward.”

[mythicalgummies-blog]

YAAAS

[grantsattler]

i just want tony stark to be happy

[mythicalgummies-blog]

i keep saying the entire movie he was in pain

[captainsilentwhisper]

I’m actually grateful for whoever’s decision it was for Tony to protect his face with his hands, when Steve brought up the shield.

Because i just keep imagining the same look on his face as he had when Obadiah ripped out his arc reactor 

that very moment he actually believed the person he trusted was going to kill him

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OUCH OUCH OUCH OUCH

OTL

[drnerdlove]

Tony Stark Needs A Hug

Literally all the conflicts in the Marvel Cinematic Universe from 2001 on could’ve been avoided if somebody’d give Tony Stark a hug. Cracked recently posted an article about plot points the MCU would never go into and brings up the fact that Tony Stark has PTSD and nobody seems to care. This is true and a good point. But I don’t think it really goes far enough. The author talks about Tony’s reactions and behavior in Iron Man 3 after the battle for New York… and that, I think is where he gets it wrong. Tony’s been dealing with PTSD since the midpoint of the first Iron Man movie. Y’know, when his convoy was attacked, soldiers died all around him, he was kidnapped by terrorists, watched a man he admired die in his arms and then had to kill a whole bunch of folks to escape.  It’s pretty obvious by the time he has his first post-release press conference that he is completely and utterly fucked up by the experience. His erratic behavior and abrupt changes in behavior? All part of what’s going on… and this leads directly into damn near every major event in the MCU. Everything Tony has done has been to be proactive. He’s trying to protect people from harm before it happens. Thus the Iron Man and War Machine suits. Thus the Iron Legion. Thus Ultron. Thus SHIELD’s preemptive strike initiative. Thus the Sakovia Accords. Because all Tony wants to do is make sure nobody gets hurt - including (and especially) him. I mean, let’s look at things here. Tony has grown up believing that everybody he loves is going to leave him. His parents die when he’s 19. Jarvis - who practically raised him thanks to his absentee father - died before that. Ho Yinsen - a scientist that Tony admires - dies as Tony is trying to rescue him. Obidiah Stane - another father figure to Tony - betrays him and tries to murder him.  Tony has spent his entire life losing people he loves and now he’s trying to save everybody else. Small wonder that his power is building more and more elaborate suits of armor. But everyone keeps brushing it off as Tony being Tony. By Iron Man 2, it’s pretty clear he’s not sleeping and the only thing that’s keeping him together is being TONY STARK the image, not the man. His erratic behavior isn’t just that he’s being poisoned by his arc reactor, it’s that he can’t handle the guilt and panic and pain of everything he’s gone through. But everybody keeps calling him a fuckup and an asshole, even people who should know better. James Rhodes, Nick Fury and Phil Coulson should recognize that a civilian who’s gone through what Tony has is going to need some serious help. But then comes The Avengers. And the Battle for New York. And while Tony’s able to process misfits of science like The Hulk and Captain America, the Battle for New York blows his fucking mind away. Now he finds out a) aliens are real, b) there are billions of them, c) they want to murder us all and d) Tony only barely stopped them and that was mostly by luck. So by the time Iron Man 3 rolls around, his psyche is mashed potatoes. He’s working like a madman because he knows what’s out there and he’s desperate to save the people he loves.  And then the Mandarin nearly blows up two of the people he cares for most in the world: Happy and Pepper.  And then he meets two more people his company’s weapons have destroyed.  And then the Scarlet Witch shows him a vision of all his friends have been killed and it’s his fault because he should have been able to stop it.  So what does he do? He turns to the only other person on the Avengers who can understand his trauma - Bruce - and tries to build another, bigger suit of armor, one that can protect the entire planet. And then watches as JARVIS dies in front of him. JARVIS - the last hold he had on the closest thing he had to a father.  And then in Civil War, he gets his face rubbed in his failures again. Look, here’s someone else you couldn’t save! This is YOUR FAULT Tony, you asshole! Of course, by this point, he’s trying to do some self-directed therapy… and it’s pointing in the wrong direction. He’s trying to deal with his relationship to his father and not that he’s gone through shit that makes people break down. And when General Ross comes and says “Ok, here’s what you need to do to protect people and make sure you’re doing the right thing” of course he jumps at it. This is what he’s been trying to do over and over and over again since built that suit IN A CAVE. FROM SCRAPS! It’s why he’s building suit of armor after suit of armor. And everyone thinks he’s an asshole.  Part of the problem is that people keep shaming him and yelling at him, as though that’s going to get him into therapy. You know what he actually needs? He needs a friend. Someone to ask him “are you ok?” and suggest that maybe doing this thing might help him. Nobody does though. Even Falcon - who is shown in Winter Soldier to be helping soldiers process PTSD and the scars of war - doesn’t seem to notice or care. Literally the only person who’s remotely sympathetic to him? A little kid. Who tells him “Hey, you’re an engineer. Go build stuff.” Not what he really needs to do but hey, it’s the first person to take his pain seriously and fuck why not? Yeah, he’s abrasive and pushes people away. Small wonder: everyone he loves either dies, leaves him or betrays him. Even Cap - Captain fucking America, who he both loves and resents because Daddy loved Rogers more than he loved Tony - has betrayed him. Has sided with the man who… well, spoilers.  He keeps people at arms length because he’s afraid to get hurt again. But he cares. He cares more than he can let himself admit. And all he wants to do is save people.  Tony Stark needs a hug and someone to ask “Hey, you ok?”

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SIGNAL BOOOOOOOOOOST