Losing Weight with the Unicorn

I'm trying to be happy with myself, I don’t know what it’s going to take, but I’m trying

[theredheadfromvirginia-deactiva]

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As suggested by a neurologist, this year I started to track my headaches and migraines after being diagnosed with Chronic Headaches. I’ve known for two years that I have a lot of headaches, but seeing it on paper like this really has opened my eyes to the problem. As you can probably see, I don’t do enough to manage my pain. This is for a number of reasons that I hadn’t really taken notice of until now. I’m so scared of becoming dependant painkillers, or using them to the point they become ineffective that I try not to use them at all. (Backwards logic, I know) I’m also worried that people will think I’m taking the piss at work if I’m often getting myself off the shop floor to go take some and have a drink of water every couple of hours. Sometimes the painkillers don’t even touch the headache and it seems pointless taking them. This has actually been a good month. The headaches haven’t been too unbearable and I’ve only had 1 migraine this month so that’s a bonus. I’ve got my first acupuncture appointment on the 6th, and a few people on here have said great things about it, so I’m looking forward to seeing if it works for me! Onwards and upwards.

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Good for the body, good for the soul.

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In lieu of me getting back on tracking and wanting to provide myself with some personal motivation I thought I good side by side photo was in order.

And this one I personally love, because it’s not a side by side of my face, or standing up, but how I look when I sit down.

I know a lot of people try and hide those photos because your body scrunchies up and shows more of yourself, then when standing up.

But I love all of me, and even tho I still have my ever lovely belly rolls, I can show myself that I have made some amazing progress changing just how they look.

This is important to me, because even tho I gained about 30lbs from my month of living life with Hayden, I still have progress on me and will keep on showing it as I continue on.

These two picture show a 207.2 weight difference.

That is 534.4lbs to 327.2lbs.

No matter any setbacks I have had, I can still feel amazing about myself and the changes I have already accomplished!

[amazingtransformations]

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Acupuncture therapy

My appointment for acupuncture therapy arrived yesterday for feb. I’m a bit nervous because needles, in the face, does not scream therapeutic to me, but if it helps the headaches then I’ll take it.

I’ve been feeling really down lately, like, I am trying so hard to be body positive and be nice to myself but I’m finding it so difficult when I hate myself so much.

I want to go back to the gym, but I can’t afford it at the minute, and I’m struggling with money as it is.

I hope things start looking up soon.

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For as long as I can remember, I’ve hated my body in so many different ways. 3 years ago I hated being fat, I hated the way stomach protruded and how my thighs rubbed together. I wouldn’t wear short leaves out in public because I hated my arms and dressed had to be worn with tights or leggings. I thought once I lost weight I would like myself, and find more confidence, and I guess that in a way I am more confident, but sometimes I find myself stuck in the same mind frame that I had 3 years ago. I still think I’m fat, I hate the sagginess of my tummy and boobs, I hate my excess skin and the stretch marks I have all over. Some days, I can convincingly lie to myself and tell myself I’m not that bad, but I know I’m lying to myself. So I’ve decided to find help, SELF HELP! I really hope that I can find it in myself to like myself, but it’s not good to be this miserable about the only body I have.

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It’s my blogs birthday! It’s been 3 years to the date since I decided to do something about my weight. In those 3 years I’ve struggled massively with not only losing the weight but with my self image and while I can say with certainty that I’m in a better place physically than I was 3 years ago, I regularly get stuck in the mindset that I’m only worth something while I’m losing weight. I’m not as small as I was this time last year, and I’m pretty upset about that, but I’m trying to teach myself that I’m worth more than the number on the scales. I’m still not at my goal but this year I’ve decided to ditch the scales because I’ve found that my weight loss goal consumed my life, everything was about losing weight and that in itself is not a healthy way to live my life. So I’ve decided that my new weight loss goal is to be happy, because happiness is not measured in numbers.

[claywoman]

my skin: i’m literally……… dying pls drink water, eat better, use some product,,, sleep decent hours……… 

me:

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my current state

[thebelchers]

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Me on Tuesday at my first driving lesson

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I started new medication today. It’s the weirdest thing I’ve ever taken. You don’t actually swallow this tablet, but rather tuck it between your top lip and gum and just leave it there to dissolve. I’m very aware that it’s there and it can apparently take a couple of hours to dissolve which is going to be annoying. Biggest problem though, no alcohol while on them, so some days may have to be missed because like hell am I giving up some of my plans

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HAPPY NEW YEAR YOU GORGEOUS LOT! let’s ditch that ‘new year, new me’ bullshit and focus of being the normal me (and you) but maybe a healthier, happier me (and also you). Here’s a few of my New Years resolutions: 1. Stop focusing so much on my weight and start trying to find happiness in myself. 2.dedicate at least half an hour a week to myself and my mood. 3. Spend more time with the people I love, and find a good balance between seeing my friends, family, boyfriend and looking after myself. I have other goals I would like to achieve but I know that those other things are subject to things that are beyond my control. I would like to find a new job that I actually enjoy, and become more creative as a person but I yeah, I won’t be making promises about that!

[melonmemes]

No Janet, I haven’t.

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Danielle Brooks for InStyle Magazine

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I’m still not in a great place, and especially after Christmas I’m almost punishing myself for having 2 days of indulgence.

I bought myself some new pants with Christmas gift card. They’re a size 18. I’m still 2 dress sizes down from when I first started which is still a good NSV.

2 days off plan isn’t going to destroy all of my hard work. It’s just 2 days.

I will get to my goal!

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My best drinking buddy making progress 💪🏻

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Yesterday was kinda weird

A lot of the progress photos I post here, I also post to my personal Facebook page, so my friend and family can also see my progress. I often get comments of support from them and that’s about as far as it goes.

But yesterday, while I was working, one of the lads from another department came over and asked if he could ask me something. He asked if I had a lot of excess skin. At first I was a bit taken back because no one ever actually addresses that part of weight loss to my face, but I was also surprised with how little his question actually affected me. I sort of expected myself to get upset and defensive, but I actually got into a in-depth discussion about it with him. I told him the truth, that yes, I do have a lot of excess skin and yes, in time I would like to have it removed.

It was a bit strange that someone was actually interested in the after math of weight loss and was even supportive in my stance on it.

I don’t know where I was going with this post, it’s really just a little story of my day to day life, there’s no moral here, at least I don’t think so. It’s too early to think about it.

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MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! eat as much as you like! Enjoy your dinner, and your dessert and those cheese and crackers! Have a few bevvies and have a nap because it’s only once a year and you totally deserve it!