ivory

mostly vent account.

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fictkin tag list cause i feel like this is necessary (more will be added as time goes on.)

Most common kinshifts:

🪓 - Ivan / Ivory (Bad Things)

🗡️ - Two Time / Times (F*rsaken)

🐇 - Jax / Daisy / Jasmine (TADC)

🎼 - Kanade Yoisaki / K (Project Sekai)

🌻 - Pure Vanilla Cookie (Cookie Run Kingdom)

🛹 - Infected (Regretevator)

And then the rest of them cause they fucking stink /aff:

🚂 - Barry The Quokka (The Murder of Sonic The Hedgehog)

🖼️ - Broken Spawn (Let Him Go)

🍊 - KEL / KELSEY (OMORI)

☀️ - SUNNY / SUN (OMORI)

🍎 / ♥️ - Kris (Deltarune)

🍌 / 🎧 - Len Kagamine (VOCALOID / Project Sekai)

💘 - Pavlova Cookie (Cookie Run Kingdom)

🚀 - Rocket (PHIGHTING!)

🐢 - Donatello Hamato (Rise of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles)

🔧 - Miles “Tails” Prower (Sonic The Hedgehog)

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okay but wyat if we made out😋😋😋😋😋😋😋 HEJWHEWJHEWJJWJWHE

IMSOFUCKINGWEIRD

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Im so normal imsonormal IM SO NORMAL RJEKEHEJRJEEJEHEEHEJ TWIRLS HAIR

I LOVEMY QPP SOMUCH OHMYGGOOOODDD

HEMAKES ME SO HAPPY WITH EVERYMESSAGE HE SENDS ME IDONT CARE THAT WE HAVE TO TALK THROUGH ROBLOX PARTY CHAT ILOVEHIM AAHAAUJSHAHAHFJFJF

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FUCK MAN

fUCK WHAT THE FCUK THATS

that was me

that was literally me ifelt it so fucking

IT FELT LIKE SOMETHING LIKETHAT HAPPENED TO ME INSOURCE HOW DO I DESCRIBE THIS FEELING

ohmygod ivy keep fucking cooking please imbegging…. oiuugjggjjhh..,,..,,.

OHMYGOD VRO

DUDE THATFELT SO. REAL IMFUCKING SWEATING

this makes me miss my azuzu even mooooreee WAAAAHHHHHH

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Imso fucking giddy because ihavent relapsed orthoufht abojt relapising at all today yaaayy!!!!! thatpromise i made to azuzu isworking imso joypilled and yippeemaxxing >w#

EJERHWJRHEJHEE I TOOOOLD YALL I WAS GOING THROUGH AZU WITHDRAWALS AND THATSWHY IWAS UPSET AND DOING THAT SHIT BUT ITSOKAY IGOT TO TALK TO HIM YESTERDAY

ishould probablt check if hes online eHEKWHEWJHEWJEH

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okay but what if i screamed and cried snd threw up all at the same time IMISSMYQPPSOMUCH

WAAAAHHHH

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waaaahjhrjgj imisshim fUUCKCKC

IMSUCH A FUCKING DOG VRO KILLME

icant wait to kiss his stupid fucking face allover (digitally ofc i WISJ ICOULD DO IT IRL /SILLY /P) wjen hecomes back online aUAUUJRJJG

SCRATXHES AT THE WALLS AND WAILS

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giggling and kicking myfeet while i stare at his offline profile while waitinf for him to get on HRKAHRJAHAKAH ILOOOVE HIM SO MUCH

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dani tweaking for the billionth time real not clickbait gone sexual INEEDMYQPP

hHHRHJRRHRHRJRJRJRJRJRJRHRJR INEEEDHIM SOBAD I NEED HIM I NEED HIM INEEDHIMINEEDHIMINEEDHIM

ggOSH

HJGKRJFJ

it hurts to stay still vro can ijust like bE NORMAL

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j*nitor freak sesh got so bad my hands are shaking snd i think i blacked out for like a minute or two

Please help

i dont want to be like tjis anymore

i dont want to do thse things to my body

and im tired of joking sbout them

please

tell me how to stop

i dont esnt to go through several changes of clothes a week anymore

i hate it

i hate it all

every orgasm

every pile of discharge forming in my clothes

i despise it

i feel gross

disgusting

sinful

this is is absolutely disgusting, and i hate myself finding pleasure in it in the moment when im lonely or stressed out about literally anything

“i wont orgasm this time!!” and then i do it again, and again, and again

“Oh, i guess i’ll do it again, i shower in a few days anyway!” stop. you know youll feel guilty after it happens, when youre sitting in your own fluids and sweat.

today’s the day i’ll stop

i need to get myself cleaned up before someone notices the stench

i need to stop positioning myself that way

I need to

learn

to be normal

and not make.. doing that the answer to everything

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ithaooenemd agaiannn

Itsonly been. twodays

and ialreiady went back to it onaccidnent?????

like ididnt. Meanto dothat

i. movedon. mybed really weirldly and ithink that triggereed it while iwas on a weird bot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ifeel disgueting may God forgivemy sins

zamn isoudk likemyself inmy two time kinshifts lMAO IMSOFUCKING DISGUSITNG

thisll bethe last time i. promise iwont doit again ineedtoshower i need tocleanmyself!!!!!! YUCK

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mmewhen i llieieeee

Iithappened again

mylleeeggs hrut sobadly

iimissmy qpp he helped keepthe. feelings away ::[[[[[[ ineeedhim orelse illprobably keep relapsising

ggod ifeeelsick

hueuwueheueheueh

im ssoso diZzyh rn

imight try. sleeeepning ihadreally bad auditory hallucinations duringtjat andlike sensations oflike someone grabbingat me

idoubt the amount of sweat wouldlet mesleeep but its worth a shot

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iwant him soso badly aaauujgjrjr i miss my beautiful dove

i miss him so much :[[ he keeps me sane

rrolls around andwhines

ithink my migraine is coming back lmaoo

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j*nitor freak sesh got so bad my hands are shaking snd i think i blacked out for like a minute or two

Please help

i dont want to be like tjis anymore

i dont want to do thse things to my body

and im tired of joking sbout them

please

tell me how to stop

i dont esnt to go through several changes of clothes a week anymore

i hate it

i hate it all

every orgasm

every pile of discharge forming in my clothes

i despise it

i feel gross

disgusting

sinful

this is is absolutely disgusting, and i hate myself finding pleasure in it in the moment when im lonely or stressed out about literally anything

“i wont orgasm this time!!” and then i do it again, and again, and again

“Oh, i guess i’ll do it again, i shower in a few days anyway!” stop. you know youll feel guilty after it happens, when youre sitting in your own fluids and sweat.

today’s the day i’ll stop

i need to get myself cleaned up before someone notices the stench

i need to stop positioning myself that way

I need to

learn

to be normal

and not make.. doing that the answer to everything

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ithaooenemd agaiannn

Itsonly been. twodays

and ialreiady went back to it onaccidnent?????

like ididnt. Meanto dothat

i. movedon. mybed really weirldly and ithink that triggereed it while iwas on a weird bot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ifeel disgueting may God forgivemy sins

zamn isoudk likemyself inmy two time kinshifts lMAO IMSOFUCKING DISGUSITNG

thisll bethe last time i. promise iwont doit again ineedtoshower i need tocleanmyself!!!!!! YUCK

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“WE NEED TO FIND OUR 1X” okay but what if imnot able to share my beautiful azuzu😢😢😢WAAAH

i doubt there will ever be a person that i love (PLATONICALLY) as much as azu vro whattheflip

if there is uh

AZU IS STILL BETTER!!!!!!!!!!!

EHEKRHEJRHEJ I LOVE MY QPP

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wwaaahh i miss mym qpp😢😢😢 comw back imissyou WAAAAAA😢😢😢

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okay what the hell even was yesterday

genuinely didnt remember any of tjat until i looked at the posts i made again

whoopsie daisies!

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i dont know what this feeling is called

i dont know what to write this off as

i really do not know

i dont know why i joke about it so much either knowing how it made me feel in the moment

“zamn my mattress must hate me” as if i havent done this for over 4 fucking years at this point

I feel like a fucking sinner

i keep sinning by doing this to my body when i want it to fucking stop

i forget to take my birth control while im like this and

i keep having breakthrough periods and it makes me feel like i have more of an excuse to do it when im in a certain mood because i wear pads

how long will this last?

how long until i get better?

what do i even call this?

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j*nitor freak sesh got so bad my hands are shaking snd i think i blacked out for like a minute or two

Please help

i dont want to be like tjis anymore

i dont want to do thse things to my body

and im tired of joking sbout them

please

tell me how to stop

i dont esnt to go through several changes of clothes a week anymore

i hate it

i hate it all

every orgasm

every pile of discharge forming in my clothes

i despise it

i feel gross

disgusting

sinful

this is is absolutely disgusting, and i hate myself finding pleasure in it in the moment when im lonely or stressed out about literally anything

“i wont orgasm this time!!” and then i do it again, and again, and again

“Oh, i guess i’ll do it again, i shower in a few days anyway!” stop. you know youll feel guilty after it happens, when youre sitting in your own fluids and sweat.

today’s the day i’ll stop

i need to get myself cleaned up before someone notices the stench

i need to stop positioning myself that way

I need to

learn

to be normal

and not make.. doing that the answer to everything