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Friday the 13th

Today was a cold day for me, although I don't know why. I feel sad and weak and I don't know why. Maybe it's because I've been thinking a lot lately and our school stuff goes along with it, which also adds up because I've been feeling empty lately and don't feel like doing anything. I'm not motivated by what I can't understand, I feel like I'm in a game where I'm the only one who has to act and help myself... I don't know. I've been feeling so drained lately that I'm losing my appetite for everything, hay! Wish me luck!

I'm not okay. I didn't do anything but sit aside to rest because I had nothing else to do today. I have already compiled everything I will pass this week. That's why I just came in to do nothing today. Although, we only had a discussion today on one of our subjects which is the DRR and after that no one taught us again.

It's a chilly and cloudy day, so even though I'm not feeling very good, I'm still happy because I know that a lot of people are worried about me. I'm grateful to them for being there for me, even though I'm not feeling well today. I'll just rest and not worry about things too much because I have a lot to do tomorrow. I'm looking forward to our final exam this semester on Monday.

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A journey to remember

The journey we took on our thesis was not perfect. We had a lot of problems and we're struggling because we couldn't trust our team mates. We did a lot of revisions at the beginning of our research, when we were just defending the title, and we even changed the topic we were supposed to defend while defending the title, but thankfully, after we changed our topic we defended it smoothly and it was all thanks to my group mates.

A few months ago since we started our research, there were days when we had difficulty getting sources to put in our research paper. We have been involved in many things in doing our research, one of which is my group and I's search for reliable sources that we will use in our RRL which we need as much as we need.

I am grateful to my group because despite the difficulties we faced while doing the thesis, we still managed to overcome everything. Now we are preparing for the final defense after the exam. We still have a lot of revisions to do. I hope our research paper will be approved before the defense so that we can study it instead of having more difficulties in the final exam. Regardless of how we end up defending, I hope it's good and I hope we can defend our research paper.

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Tuesday

We didn't do much today as we had school in the afternoon. I didn't have anything to write down today because other than listening to some STEM students, we didn't do much. If I had to describe this day for me, it would be very boring because we are only going to collect the things that we will pass and the requirements that we need to complete during this week.

We only used our time today in FPL and EAPP to complete tasks that will be passed before and after our exam. It may not be obvious that we're putting in a lot of effort, but I'm still managing to do it. After a long revision process, we're glad to have our concept paper approved. Thanks to our leader for all the hard work he's put in on our behalf. 

Lastly, as a EAPP leader, I was given a lot of directions today. I gave out papers to my classmates and then collected the papers that we had to pass. Actually, it's tiring, but maybe all my tiredness will be worth it if I receive good grades in this subject. After I collected the papers of my classmates, we watched a movie on my laptop, but it didn't last long because they also stopped watching. Today was a fairly mundane day for me, nothing exciting happened.

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Preparation for my final examination.

Preparing for the final exam has been a difficult journey for me. I, too, have a lot of hard work-ship a week before the exam. I've been rushed all week because I'm not yet ready to take the exams, but despite my not-so-great week before exams, I still have at least three days to complete my reviewers and understand all of the lessons we've had throughout our second quarter.

I may feel a lot of stress as I prepare for our exam, especially because our exam is next week and I only have a few days to review those topics, so it may be difficult for me to process everything in one sitting. With all of that reasoning, I never forget how to pray to God because I'm hoping to God that I'll pass all of those exams and that I'll receive a passing grade, especially in our major subjects.

For the time being, I'm not expecting much from the outcomes of my exams, but I'm hoping to pass them again, just like our previous exams, in which I received at least passing grades. I believe in myself that I can pass this exam, and whatever the outcome is, I will accept it and try to convince myself that I did well in this exam. I am still not over the last grading period due to my grades, but I will give my all in this exam. Fighting!