It's kinda insane
That even if you get your hot girl phase
If you were ever made to feel like a D.U.F.F, you're still shocked anyone finds you not... repulsive? Dumb, ugly and fat?
Like there's 2 guys I'm interested in and that are interested in me and I'm just like... "lol I thought I am/was ugly!" And they're like "wait... what???"
Like I don't know who to tell. Cause I've always been the girl the weird (READ: ACTUALLY WEIRD) boys liked because I was nice to them. Because I was 'the last option.' Or 'the only option'.
Like I've been the thing you scoop out from the bottom of the barrel and say "hey, this is still edible, right?" For so long.
When really, I was just made to **FEEL** that way.
Like I can cognitively look at myself in the mirror and say, "Dayum! You look great!" But I've been put down so many times and called so many names and looked down on and teased
Until now you're 28 and learned there genuinely wasn't anything wrong with you the whole time. Or yeah, there totally was, but it wasn't what you were made to believe was. I *was* overweight and I'm glad I'm changing that because I have pre-diabetes and my mom's joints have worn out quicker because she's carried extra weight her whole life.
Like yeah, there was something wrong with you, you had mental illness that should have been taken care of and someone should have gave a shit and told you that YOU WERE WORTHY OF EVERYHTING ANYONE ELSE WAS THIS WHOLE TIME WETHER OR NOT YOU WERE PRETTY. WETHER OR NOT YOU WERE DEPRESSED. WETHER OR NOT YOU WERE FAT.
Cause it didn't matter. You were a human and not only did they focus on false things and made you believe lies, they also were cruel assholes who can't see what people actually have in them and that fucking matter soooooo much more than what they look like. They were DOUBLE assholes
