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synopsis: when tashi duncan sends a dinner invitation, nobody declines. that includes you, her former flame and best friend, and your husband, patrick. a very awkward reunion over dinner ensues when past feelings resurface.
tags: 18+ mdni, features artashi/patashi/artrick (& all of them x reader), brief breast/nipple play, f!receiving oral, foreplay & lots of making out, dom!tashi through most of it, bratty!reader, everybody wants to fuck each other, mostly tashi x reader bc i'm yuripilled
wordcount: 9.2k words
notes: HAPPY ANNIVERSARY! was very glad to be able to revisit these evil bisexual idiots. dynamics are a lot harder to write when it's a foursome buttt this is what you get take it or leave it :P & i’d like to apologise for edging you with the last scene but i’m sure i’ll circle back to this eventually so they can all fuck nasty in peace <3 i have drafts for a few more flashbacks that didn’t make the final cut bc this has been in my drafts for months so if you want any of those maybe i’ll clean them up and post them at some point. all of this taking place at dinner and i dont mention food once... alright
VALENTINE’S DAY at a place like this is either very romantic or a very bad idea. There is no in-between.
The restaurant you find yourself at is polished within an inch of its life: floors gleaming, glasses so thin you’re already nervous to hold them wrong, and candles flickering in little gold halos in front of couples that make them look more in love than they probably are.
You wonder distantly if that’s the point.
You’re acutely aware of your husband’s hand resting on the small of your back as the hostess leads you through a maze of white tablecloths. He’s dressed up for once in a rented two piece suit. The tie you picked out for him rests in the passenger seat of his Honda CR-V, hastily torn off before you exited the car because “I’m not a fucking priss, babe. This makes me look stupid.”
Not a priss, he said, right before leading you into a restaurant that neither of you can afford to dine in with a couple that neither of you should be seeing.
“Breathe,” Patrick murmurs into your ear.
You don’t realise you haven’t been until you try. Your chest feels tight, like you’ve just spent twenty minutes running laps instead of sitting in your car to hype yourself up. It was your idea to say yes, so you refuse to let him know you’re panicking to avoid some petty jab about being a pussy over dinner.
You could have declined. You could have laughed and told Tashi you had plans. You could have pretended that spending Valentine’s Day with your husband’s ex-girlfriend—who is also your ex-girlfriend—and your own ex-boyfriend—who is now her husband—wasn’t some kind of elaborate emotional suicide mission.
Instead, you’re here, ready to face the guillotine. And isn’t this about to be a shitshow?
You see them immediately. They’re settled in a corner booth that somehow manages to feel both intimate and exposed to all the eyes in the room. Art Donaldson is not what you remember from college. He looks like he belongs here now, in a navy suit with a crisp collar and posture so straight you have to force yourself to stand taller to match it.
It hurts to look at him, akin to the way it’d feel to press on an old bruise to check if it still hurts.
It does, your brain adds helpfully.
Tashi sits next to him. You almost laugh, because of course she looks like that. You’ve seen her on magazines, TV screens, every social media platform you own, but the severe cut of her hair now makes your footsteps falter. She looks older. More mature than the young prodigy you used to giggle with in her dorm bed. Her dress is dark with an elegant cut, and you catch a glimpse of those long legs beneath the table, the strap of her heel glinting under the cloth.
For a second, you’re seventeen again, standing across the net from her and trying not to flinch when she smiles like she already knows exactly how the match is going to play out. You hate that your stomach still flips.
The most notable thing about them all—even if you have to squint to see it from this distance—is the matching wedding bands on their hands. You twist your own subconsciously. It’s a beautiful ring. Patrick managed to convince his father into giving it to him somehow. It still doesn’t feel like it’s enough to scream married couple when your husband is glancing around the room to eye the cleavage of the women you pass.
You force a smile on your face. It’s fine. He’s fine. You’re fine.
Art looks up at first, his smile faltering when his eyes find the pair of you. The crack in the polish lasts a microsecond before he rises to his feet to offer you a greeting. “Hey.”
Patrick’s hand tightens against your back as you stop in front of the table.
“Hey,” you echo, forcing something light into your voice. “Happy Valentine’s.”
Tashi’s mouth curves into something that’s not quite a smile. “Bold choice,” she says. “A double date.”
You laugh, because what the hell else are you supposed to do? “Your idea.”
“Yes,” she says smoothly. “It was.”
You sit. Patrick pulls your chair out for you, and you can’t remember the last time he’s done that without being prompted. You know he’s auditioning for Husband of the Year purely because of your company, but it makes your heart stutter nonetheless. Art waits until you’re both settled before taking his seat again.
Two married couples. Four people who have, at various points in their lives, slept in each other’s beds; whispered promises; thrown rackets and said things that can’t be unsaid.
The waiter appears and Tashi orders two bottles of wine. Something red—you don’t recognise the name, only that it sounds fancy enough that it has to be excessive (and way too expensive for your bank account.) But you have a feeling you’re going to need it.
The first ten minutes are polite. Too polite.
“How’s the tour?” Art asks Patrick.
“Fine,” he shrugs dismissively. “Nothing glamorous. Mostly challengers. You know.”
The word lingers between you all. Challengers. While Tashi has managed to make a household name out of Donaldson, your husband is still playing challengers. You almost snort.
Tashi’s gaze flicks to you, sharp but curious. “And you?”
“Coaching some juniors,” you say. “Playing some smaller events when I feel like it.”
You don’t mention it’s because you can’t afford it consistently. For the most part, rent falls on you when Patrick is halfway across the country. Coaching keeps you both afloat.
There’s the faintest twitch in her jaw. She doesn’t say it aloud, but you know why: you’re coaching of your own volition while it’s the path that the universe thrust unfairly upon her. Your stomach twists guiltily.
She tilts her head slightly. “Not playing seriously?” The words are mild, but the implication isn’t.
You force yourself to hold her gaze. “Depends what you mean by serious.”
“I heard you had a good run last spring,” Art says, stepping in the way he used to when things got too heated. You manage a grateful smile in his direction. “Charleston?”
He’s been paying attention. You don’t know how to feel about that.
“Semis,” you confirm. “I lost, though.”
Tashi’s fingers tighten around her glass and your stomach sinks. God, you hate that you still want her approval.
“To who?” Patrick asks, though you know he knows the answer—he’d been there, after all. He just wants to hear you say it. You don’t give him the satisfaction.
“Tough draw,” you say instead. Tashi’s mouth curves slightly and you know she can see right through you. “Everyone played well.”
Art offers you a reassuring smile. It almost makes up for the scoff Tashi is biting back. The waiter arrives with the wine, sparing you from elaborating any further. You practically gulp down your first glass.
By the time you’ve all started on the second, the edges of restraint begin to blur, polished facades falling away. Art has loosened his tie, posture softened. Tashi’s shoulders have grown less rigid, one arm draped along the back of the booth behind her. Patrick’s hand rests loosely over your knee, thumb ghosting along the bone absently as he recounts some disastrous afterparty in Cincinnati. His version of events is so dramatic you wonder if he even remembers you were there to know otherwise.
You aren’t really listening, anyways. You’re focused on the way Art is looking at you. His expression is hard to read—not quite longing, nor regret. It’s something softer you can’t quite put your finger on.
Whatever it is makes you feel uncomfortable enough to remember the last time he was in your dorm all those years ago. You can picture it perfectly.
APRIL 8TH, 2007
Your room feels too crowded to have an argument in.
It barely feels big enough for the two of you when things are good. When Art would sit cross-legged on your bed with his back against the wall, trainers kicked off, explaining some minute adjustment to your backhand while you pretended to listen. When you’d steal his hoodie and argue it fit you better. When you’d both pretend you weren’t exhausted from practice just to stretch the night out a little longer.
“How is she?” You ask. You didn’t mean to open with that, but there it is.
He sighs, standing in front of your desk. The distance between you feels cavernous. “Rehab started yesterday.”
“I know.”
Of course you know. Everyone does. It was all around campus, and all over the tennis network. Commentators were using words like devastating and tragic and career-altering. You can still hear the sound it made before she tumbled to the floor when you close your eyes, that piercing scream ringing out over the court.
“She’s in pain,” he continues. “They’re saying at least nine months minimum before she can even think about competing.”
Nine months. That’s a lifetime in sports.
“And?” You prompt.
“And she’s not taking it well.”
You almost laugh at that. No shit. Tashi had been built on momentum. She was always moving, always doing something, and now she can’t even walk without crutches.
“I’ve been over there most nights.”
“I know,” you repeat.
“You know?”
“I’m not stupid, Art.”
He shifts his weight, defensive already. You hate that you can already see it coming. “You haven’t been answering my texts,” he deflects.
You lift your gaze to him. “You’ve been busy.”
“That’s not fair.”
You let out a slow breath through your nose. “What part?”
He frowns. “I can’t just disappear on her because you’re feeling insecure.”
There it was. “Insecure?” You repeat incredulously.
“Yes. Insecure!”
You stand up quickly. “That’s what you think this is?”
“I think you’re making this about you.” Your chest tightens at the accusation. “Her career just imploded,” he continues, voice raising slightly. “She might never come back the same. And you’re upset that I’m helping her?”
“I’m not upset that you’re helping her.”
“You could’ve fooled me.”
“I’m upset that it’s like I’m not even there anymore!”
“What?”
“You act like it, Art.”
“That’s not true—“
“Yes it is!”
“You’re imagining things.”
You hate that phrase. You have to fight the urge to just storm out of your own dorm at those words alone. “I watched you at the hospital,” you continue quietly. His mouth presses into a thin line. “You didn’t even realise I’d left.”
He looks away. “I thought you went to call your coach.”
“Yeah, I did. After I left.”
Art exhales sharply. “She was coming out of anesthesia.”
“I know.”
“She was scared.”
“I know.”
“She asked for me.”
“And you went,” you finish.
“What did you want me to do?” He asks, frustrated. “Ignore her?”
“No.”
“Then what?”
“I don’t know! Just… just remember that I’m there, maybe?” It sounds childish even to your own ears, words smaller than they felt. You want to tell him he’s been a bad boyfriend for months. That he’s not as committed to this as you are, and his priorities lie elsewhere. But in your anguish, all you can do is sound like a toddler throwing a tantrum about not getting enough attention.
Art runs a hand through his hair, agitation creeping into his voice. “You’re acting like this is some sort of love triangle.”
“Isn’t it?” You stare at him.
“No!” He denies instantly, eyes flashing.
“It always has been, I think—“
“That’s bullshit.”
“Is it?” You challenge. “Because from where I’m standing, it looks like you’ve been waiting for an excuse.”
“An excuse for what?”
“To go back. Patrick’s out of the picture. Why the fuck not?”
His expression hardens. “I was never with her. And he has nothing to do with this.”
Never with her. Not officially, sure, but you’ve seen the way they move around each other since starting at Stanford. There has always been something simmering beneath the surface, but Tashi was with Patrick, and Art struck up a relationship with you shortly after. But you’d be blind not to recognise there’s unfinished business there following the Junior Open.
“I’m not in love with her,” he adds.
You hold his gaze. “Say it again.”
“I’m not in love with her.”
“You’re lying,” you laugh, an ugly and bitter sound, shaking your head. “No. No, I’m losing you both. Oh my god.” You drag your hands over your face in frustration. You refuse to let him see you cry, but you can feel it building up.
“What?”
“You think this is about jealousy? I’m not that shallow, Art,” you say. “She hasn’t spoken to me since the surgery. She looks at me like I broke her knee myself.”
“That’s not true.”
“It is.”
You’d gone to see her once, bringing flowers after her surgery. You remember trying to sit at the edge of her hospital bed like you used to sit on the floor of her dorm, legs tangled, talking about rankings and dreams and futures together. She’d barely uttered a word to you the entire time. The resentment had been suffocating.
“I can’t compete with an ACL tear, Art,” you say bitterly.
“You’re not competing.”
“I am! I’m always competing with her.”
“You’re twisting this because you want me to choose!”
“Yes.” It’s embarrassing to admit, but you are. Denying it would be futile. You love Tashi, maybe even more than he does, but you can’t put yourself through this any longer.
“I’m not doing that,” Art says, shaking his head. Your heart sinks, even though you expected that answer. “I’m not abandoning her.”
“I’m not asking you to abandon her.”
“You are.”
“No. No, I’m just asking you to tell me I matter more!”
“You do.”
“Then prove it for once!”
He falls silent. You can practically see the walls forming behind his eyes. The compartmentalizing and logic, trying to figure out a way to escape this conversation with both of you.
“You don’t trust me,” he says finally, and you hesitate, because you don’t know anymore. You want to trust him, but wanting can only go so far when he’s proven time and time again that she comes first. “That’s it.”
“That’s not it,” you say, trying desperately to salvage the results of an ultimatum you gave him.
“I can’t do this.”
“So- so, what? You’re breaking up with me, then?”
“I’m saying if you think so little of me—“
“This isn’t about thinking little of you,” you cut in. “But I know you, Art. And I know that if she was the one asking you to choose her right now, you would.” He doesn’t answer and you feel something inside you give way. “I can’t be second.”
“You’re not.”
“I am.”
“You’re not.”
“Then I will be. As soon as she asks.”
Silence swallows the room. Distantly, you hear someone laughing down the hallway, a door slamming, and life going on outside your room while you’re stuck going in circles with this conversation.
“I love you,” he says suddenly, like that could still fix it.
“I know.” That’s the worst part. You know he loves you. You also know he loves her, and the difference between those two loves is about to ruin everything.
“Maybe this is just bad timing,” he offers.
You stare at him in disbelief. As if timing is why Tashi got injured on the court. As if timing hadn’t just exposed every crack that had been forming in your relationship for months.
“Yeah,” you force out. “Maybe.”
Art turns towards the door. You see him pause, and for a second you think he might come back. Might close the distance and kiss you and promise something concrete, and finally just choose you for once in his life. But he doesn’t.
His hand rests on the doorway. “I never meant to hurt you,” he says meekly.
“I know.”
Art leaves anyway, the door clicking shut behind him. In the quiet of your too-small dorm room, you’re left to realise that Tashi’s injury hadn’t just torn her ACL. It had torn straight through the middle of you and Art, too.
FEBRUARY 14TH, 2019
The memory dissolves like the sugar at the bottom of your wine glass. You down the rest of it. Art is still looking at you the same way he used to when he was trying to read your mind. You wonder what he sees now.
Regret? Guilt? Longing?
“God.” Patrick leans forward suddenly. “Remember when we were Fire and Ice?”
Art groans immediately, his gaze falling away from you. His cheeks flush in embarrassment. “Don’t.”
Tashi’s mouth curves upwards. “I liked it.”
“Of course you did,” Patrick says, ego stroked.
“It was juvenile,” Art says.
“Uh, no. It was cool,” Patrick corrects.
You watch them fall back into that old rhythm like muscle memory. For a moment, they don’t look like two grown men with mortgages and press obligations and complicated wives. They’re just like two boys in locker rooms, convincing themselves the world isn’t ready to see how they play.
“You guys were insufferable. The entire junior circuit hated you,” you chip in.
“The girls loved us!” Patrick protests.
“You loved the attention,” Tashi says.
“You ate it up, too,” you say, shaking your head at her. “The two of them orbiting you like idiots.”
Patrick grins. “We weren’t orbiting—“
“Yes, you were,” you and Tashi say at the same time. It earns a shared look between you, instinctive, the kind that used to happen across nets or over dorm beds. You swallow thickly. Art notices. His smile fades slightly.
“US juniors,” your husband continues obliviously. “That final was brutal.”
Tashi’s gaze shifts to you. “You almost had me.”
Almost. Like almost means shit in tennis. You remember the heat of it: screaming crowds, your legs trembling in the third set, the look of determination on her face opposite you.
“You broke me in the second. That was light work for you,” you say, injecting lightness into your voice.
“You let up,” she counters.
“No, I didn’t.”
“Yes, you did. You always got in your head playing me. You could beat anyone else, but every time I was across that net, you doubled under the pressure.”
Your chest tightens, and you force out a quiet laugh. “You’ve always thought that.”
“Because it’s true.”
Art clears his throat gently, sparing you. “I liked the afterparty.”
Patrick laughs loudly. “God, what a night.”
You remember it too vividly. Tashi’s blue dress on the dance floor, fingers brushing against yours, two sets of eyes following your every move.
“You two were practically chest-bumping over her,” you say, and you hate how bitter it comes out. You clear your throat, continuing lightly, “It was embarrassing to watch.”
“Competition,” Patrick smirks over the rim of his glass.
“It wasn’t like that,” Art says, rubbing the back of his neck.
His wife arches an amused brow. “No?”
He hesitates, and Patrick laughs again. “It was exactly like that.” There’s a beat of silence between you all, the memory hanging between you, before he braces his elbows on the table. “Remember what happened when we went back to the hotel?”
“Yeah. You knocked over an ice machine,” Art rolls his eyes.
Patrick waves a dismissive hand. “Irrelevant. I mean after.”
Your pulse ticks faster. “Wha happened after?”
Art closes his eyes briefly, because he knows where this is going. You’d made an excuse on the walk back from the beach. “I don’t want to be a part of your ego boost of a two-man, Tashi,” you’d laughed, shoving her up the path. “I’m too tired for that.”
“We kissed,” Patrick grins, lazy and unbothered. Art’s cheeks flush faintly red and Tashi catches your eye over the table.
“You what?” You say, feigning mild surprise.
Patric rolls his eyes. “Don’t act shocked. I bet she told you the morning after.”
“I’m not shocked,” you reply. “I just don’t think I’ve ever heard you admit it.”
Art exhales. “It wasn’t planned.”
Tashi’s lip twitches. “Nothing about that night was planned.”
“You didn’t seem mad about it,” Patrick says, looking at her.
“It was stupid,” Art adds.
“And then you all went to sleep?” You ask. Tashi stifles a snort into her wine glass.
“Yeah,” Patrick affirms.
You lean back into the booth. “That’s not what happened.”
Both men look at you, puzzled. Patrick’s hand squeezes your knee questioningly. “What do you mean?”
“I went to her room,” Tashi clarifies. She doesn’t look at either of them, gaze fixed on you.
Art blinks. “Her room?”
“What, to brag?” Patrick laughs uncertainly.
You shake your head. “She said she couldn’t sleep. Said the adrenaline wouldn’t come down.”
“What does that mean?” Art’s throat bobs. Patrick’s expression shifts from confusion to dawning comprehension.
“Art,” Tashi presses, sending him an amused look.
“What?”
SEPTEMBER 10TH, 2006
By the time the knock finally came, you’d half-convinced yourself she wasn’t going to show. Too busy with her new entertainment for the night while you were left to huff and puff over your loss alone, your second-place trophy glinting mockingly where it sat on the hotel dresser.
You recognise the two deliberate taps to your door immediately, shooting up out of bed like you haven’t been agonising over it for the last hour.
“Hi,” you say, trying not to sound breathless.
“Hi.” She leans against the doorway instead of walking in immediately. “Can I come in?” That part is new. Usually, she doesn’t ask. You step aside anyway.
She walks in slowly, eyes flicking curiously over the space. It feels like she’s already been here before. She has, sort of—different hotels, different rooms, the same agonisingly familiar pattern. By the end of the tournament, she’d always ended up in your bed at least once.
“You played well,” she says, like she hadn’t told you the same thing hours ago. She runs a lazy finger over your finalist trophy and you groan, slumping onto your bed petulantly. You’ve tried not to look at it since you got back.
“You played better,” you shoot back.
“I know.”
The lack of smugness almost makes it worse. She slips off her shoes and picks up your trophy to inspect, probably with the intention of getting a rise out of you, before perching on the edge of the dresser.
“How was your fan club?” You cross your arms.
Her mouth twitches. “Exhausting.”
“Poor you,” you say, lip jutting out in faux-pity. “It must be so hard having every boy in a ten mile radius in love with you.”
Tashi laughs. “They were arguing by the end of it.”
“Over you?” You huff a laugh despite yourself. Her amusement is infectious, regardless of how petty you’re feeling.
“Obviously.”
“And?” You study her face carefully.
“And what?”
“Did you have a good time?”
She doesn’t answer right away. She pushes off the dresser to sit on the edge of the bed instead, trophy abandoned, her palms smoothing over her thighs absentmindedly. Your eyes are drawn to the movement before you can stop them, fingers itching to reach out and touch that smooth skin yourself.
“We went back to their room,” she says. There it is—the thing she’d really come here to rile you up with.
“I assumed.” A beat of silence passes before you finally give in, pressing for more. “And?”
“You want details?” She tilts her head playfully.
“No.”
A small smile graces her lips. “They kissed me.” You nod once. “Both of them,” she adds. Your jaw tightens in a way that might be imperceptible to anyone else, but she knows you too well not to notice. “That bothers you,” she observes.
“No, it doesn’t,” you deny instantly. It does. A little. But not in the way it might have months ago.
“Oh, it so does.”
“Does not,” you insist. “You’re here now, aren’t you?”
“Yes,” she agrees. “I am.”
That’s always been the unspoken rule between you. Whatever happens in public—the flirting, the rivalries on court, the boys trying to get into either of your pants—it doesn’t follow you through the door unless she wants it to.
“Did you have fun?”
“A little.”
“Only a little?”
“You know how much fun I have with you.” Her fingers find your jaw, thumb smoothing out the slight jut of your lip. “Don’t pout.”
“I’m not—“ You start to argue, then give a reluctant huff. “You made me wait.”
“I was busy.”
“Yeah, I know.”
She laughs at the petulance in your tone. “Don’t roll your eyes at me. It was worth the wait, wasn’t it?”
“It will be if you kiss me already.”
She catches that hopeful lilt in your voice like a hook, and her smirk softens into something more tender. A second later, she crawls to straddle you, one leg on either side of your thighs. You suck in a sharp breath, fingers finally curling into the soft flesh of her thighs. And finally, finally, her mouth slots against yours.
You melt instantly. You always do. The whimper into her unbearably soft lips is undignified, her tongue sliding over your bottom lip before your brain can even catch up. It’s still maddeningly slow, and you make a quiet sound of protest when she pulls back to murmur:
“You really are jealous. I can feel it.”
The tease in her voice makes heat pool low in your belly. “Tashi,” you groan into the space between kisses, half-exasperated and half-desperate. You try to draw her back in for more, and she relents enough to bite playfully at your lip.
“That wasn’t a denial.”
Any witty protest is undermined by the gasp that her palming at your tits over your pyjama top draws out. Your hands slide up from her thighs to grip the back of the jacket she still hasn’t taken off.
“Why do you taste like tobacco?”
“Patrick smokes. They both do, actually.”
“Ugh. Gross.”
“Jealous,” she taunts again.
“M’not jealous,” you manage as she kisses her way along your jaw.
“You’re kissing me like you want to eat me.”
“I do.”
She pauses, breath hot by your ear as she debates whether to take that literally or not. Then she leans back, unzipping her jacket to reveal no shirt underneath, just a skimpy little bralette that does nothing to conceal the way her nipples are hard with arousal. Your brows knit together.
“Why are you— no shirt?” You say eloquently, too starstruck by the sight of her breasts in your face to speak properly for a moment. “Was that—“
“For them?” She interjects, smirking down at you. You nod. “God, no. For you.”
Your stomach twists in a way that shouldn’t feel so appealing. She shrugs the jacket off, guiding your hands up to cup her breasts.
“You want to eat me, huh?” She teases. Another shaky nod is all you can muster. “Words. You were so good with them earlier.”
You don’t have it in you to glare at her right now. “Yeah. I do. Can I?” The way her breath hitches when you pinch her nipple over the thin fabric is more satisfying than it has any right to be.
“How bad do you want it?”
You bite back a groan of frustration. Your brain is already fogged over, but you manage to make an attempt to sound less wanton than you actually feel. “Please, Tashi.”
She tsks softly, right on the playful side of condescending. “You can do better than that.”
A huff of impatience, and you fight the urge to pinch her nipple harder just to be a brat. Disobedience never gets you anywhere when she’s in a mood like this. The deal is whoever wins is in charge, and Tashi wins more often than not.
Not that you mind.
“Please, I need it,” you say, eyes shining pitifully up at her. “I’ve been thinking about it all day. You looked so hot on court. And at the afterparty, in that dress… fuck.”
“Were you thinking about it when I was with them?” She presses.
“Yes. God, yes.” Your head thumps against her chest, mouthing at the stiff peak of her nipple over her bralette. “The last two hours have been torture. I thought you’d stay with them all night.”
She arches into you with a sharp inhale, fingers finding the back of your neck as you suck harder. By the time you pull back, the fabric is stained dark with saliva.
“Thought about it,” she says, just to see the look of offence on your pretty face. “I’m joking. Take it off for me.”
You obey without hesitation, fingers slipping beneath the underband of her bra to drag it up and over her head. It’s barely hit the floor by the time your face is pressed against her again, a sigh of longing slipping past your lips as they drag up over her breasts.
“You’re so beautiful.”
She seems pleased by the compliment—not in a smug way, either. A girlish sort of bashfulness that’s quickly quashed as her hand guides your head down to kiss her abdomen. “How about you show me how beautiful you think I am?”
You smile against her, nose nuzzling against her soft skin. “Yeah? Can I?”
She slides off your lap to stand, and you have to stop yourself from reaching for her. Instead, your fingers curl back into the sheets, waiting as her fingers hook into her shorts. She eases them down slowly, enough to make your mouth water and your thighs clench together in anticipation. When she steps out of them, her panties follow, an even more agonisingly slow drag down her legs until they hit the floor.
You lick your lips.
“Lay back.”
“Huh?” You reply, dazed.
“Lay back,” she repeats, amusement lacing her voice.
You scramble back to do as asked, hastily adjusting a pillow for your head as you settle against the mattress. You feel it dip before you see her above you, swinging a leg over your torso as she comes to straddle your chest. You’re granted with the sight of her sweet cunt, already shining with arousal. You feel like a dog inhaling the scent so eagerly, lashes fluttering, but she only grins down at you.
“This is supposed to be my reward for winning, but something tells me you enjoy it just as much.”
“Uh huh,” you hum in affirmation.
And she’s absolutely right—you have no issue with losing every match if this is what you get. She shifts up higher, her knees braced on either side of your head, sinking down onto your face. Your eyes flutter shut, a muffled moan pressed against her when your mouth latches onto her. She’s always tasted divine. Good hygiene and diet, you imagine, or maybe you’re just so tragically in love with her that every part of her is like nectar.
“Fuck. There we go,” she sighs softly as you lap up into her.
It should be a little humiliating just laying there, nose nudging at her swollen clit as she rolls her hips against your tongue. Once upon a time she was concerned about her supple thighs suffocating you when she took her perch above you, but Tashi quickly learned you were right where you wanted to be.
Your hands come up instinctively to hold onto her, but she smacks them away like one would discipline a dog. “No. You gave up today.”
“I didn’t—” You try to argue, though it’s hard with your face smothered in arousal and the folds of her cunt pressing against your lips every time you open your mouth.
“Yes, you did. Any time you lose your footing against me, you give up.”
Her hips shift again and you latch onto her clit, alternating between flicking your tongue and sucking as if that might make her disappointment in you fade away. It lasts about all of two minutes before another thought occurs to her.
“It’s your forehand holding you back. You roll it in when you should be driving through it. You’re not losing because you’re worse,” she says. You’re actually a little offended that she’s coherent enough to speak through her pleasure when you’re currently worshipping her pussy to the best of your ability. “You’re losing because you’re passive.”
Somehow, that jab digs its heels into your chest, and you have a feeling she’s talking about more than just the final today. Your head falls back against the pillow to breathe again, panting up at her.
“... Are we still talking about tennis?” You ask, breathless.
She blinks down at you, caught off guard by the question. “We’re always talking about tennis,” she dismisses, right before her cunt hits your face again.
FEBRUARY 14TH, 2019
“—She used to call it sitting on her throne after she won,” you recall, laughing as you lean back into the booth. The memory warms your chest in a way the wine hasn’t quite managed to yet.
For a second, it’s just you and Tashi again. Not this table, not the wedding rings, not the years in between and the unanswered texts. Just her rolling her eyes at you while you both know she’s pleased to be talking about your time together again.
Next to you, Patrick is looking between you both with his brows drawn together, confusion sitting awkwardly on his face. Art’s expression is almost identical as he shifts uncomfortably.
“Wait, what are you talking about?” He says.
Patrick gives a short laugh beside you, though it sounds a little forced. “Is this an inside joke? You’ve lost me. Her throne?”
You glance between them, then back at Tashi. There’s a split second where you debate downplaying it to keep things neat and digestible… but the wine is doing its job. And so is the way she’s looking at you—dark eyes amused, a little daring, and it’s enough to push you over the edge.
“What? You guys didn’t know?”
Patrick’s confusion deepens. “Know what?”
Tashi leans back, completely at ease as her arm drapes back behind her husband again. “That I went to her room,” she says mildly.
Art frowns. “Yeah, you said that part.”
“And stayed,” she adds.
There’s a stretch of confused silence before you see the moment it clicks for them both. “Stayed,” Patrick repeats.
Art blinks. “You mean—“
“Use your words, Art,” Tashi says, lifting a brow.
“You… didn’t just talk,” he says stupidly, his throat bobbing.
You snort into your glass. “God, no. She might have left you both high and dry, but I got laid.”
Patrick barks out a laugh, sharp and disbelieving. The thought of you, his wife, having a sexual history with his ex-girlfriend is both as baffling as it is thrilling. “No fucking way.”
“What? Is that surprising?” You glance over at him.
“Yes,” he answers immediately. “Yes, absolutely it is.”
Art is still processing, trying to figure out the timeline of it all. If you were sleeping with Tashi, and then Tashi dated Patrick, and you dated Art… the entire thing is confusing. “You guys—“ he gestures vaguely between you both, “—that was… a thing?”
“On and off,” Tashi shrugs, lips curving up.
“More on than off,” you add, unable to help yourself.
She shoots you a look. “Don’t exaggerate.”
“I’m not!”
Patrick leans back in his seat, dragging a hand over his mouth in a poor attempt to hide his grin. “That’s crazy.”
“You never said anything,” Art says.
You shrug lightly. “You never asked.”
“That’s not—“ He stops himself, shaking his head. “I feel like that’s something you mention.”
“Why?” You counter. “You guys were busy with your own thing.”
There’s a flicker of something between him and Patrick, easy to miss if you weren’t looking for it, but you are. You share a look with Tashi over the table.
“We didn’t have a thing,” Patrick denies, though his mouth is twitching.
“Sure,” Tashi hums.
“We didn’t,” Art says, shooting her a look.
“Okay,” she says, clearly not believing him in the slightest.
“You shared hotel rooms for years,” you laugh.
“Because we were touring together,” Patrick says. “It was cheaper.”
“And?” You press, brow raised.
“And nothing.”
Tashi lets out a soft, knowing laugh. “Right.”
“Nothing happened,” Art denies again, jaw tightening just slightly. You almost feel bad, but the way he can’t meet anybody’s gaze—Patrick’s least of all—is just too endearing for your tipsy mind.
“Didn’t say it did,” Tashi replies smoothly.
Neither of you push it further. You don’t need to. The implication hangs there the same way the rest of your history together does: unresolved. Instead, you take another sip of wine, letting the tension settle into something playful again.
“Anyway,” you say lightly, “the point is—“
“That you ditched us,” Patrick cuts in, pointing a finger at Tashi good-naturedly.
Tashi just smirks. “I upgraded,” she replies haughtily, lifting her chin.
You choke on a laugh while Art shakes his head like he doesn’t know whether to chuckle or be annoyed. “That’s unbelievable,” he says.
“You survived.”
“Barely,” Patrick mutters. This time, you catch the faint edge of something beneath the humour. You don’t think it’s anger. More like curiosity. He’s always been more open-minded towards that sort of thing, and you have no doubt he would have gotten off to that knowledge if he’d been told sooner. Then he just laughs, shaking his head. “Jesus. My wife and my ex—“
“Your wife and your ex that’s also your friend’s wife,” you correct sweetly.
“Ex-friend,” Tashi chips in.
“You’re making this worse,” he bemoans.
Finally, Art joins in on the laughter. “This is a lot.”
“Welcome to the table,” you jest.
The laughter doesn’t die down right away. Patrick’s raucous as always, and a nearby couple glances over in mild irritation, but none of you care enough to quiet down. For all your anxieties about tonight, you’re glad it got to this point where the past isn’t a sharp, fragile thing to be danced around. Now you can joke about it without feeling hollow inside.
Some time later, another round of drinks appears—this time something stronger, in four little glasses. You don’t remember anyone explicitly ordering it, but Tashi thanks the waiter like she did.
“Shots?” Patrick says, already reaching.
“Absolutely not,” Art replies immediately.
“Yes,” Tashi counters at the same time, and he looks surprised. You have a feeling it’s unlike her new polished self, the Tashi on all the billboards and sports magazines, but he doesn’t comment on it.
“Oh, come on. Just one,” you say.
“You too?” He says, sending you a betrayed look.
“Don’t be a bore.” You nudge the glass towards him, and he relents with a sigh.
“Patrick’s a bad influence on you.”
Tashi watches the exchange in amusement, then lifts her own glass. “To terrible decisions.”
“To terrible decisions,” you echo.
Patrick’s glass clinks against yours before he downs it. The burn hits fast, and you wince, sputtering out a laugh as you set the glass down. Patrick coughs dramatically at your side.
“Jesus—what the hell is that?”
“Expensive,” Tashi says lightly.
“Of course.”
She leans back, stretching slightly, then glances around like she’s just remembered where she is. “This place is boring.”
“It’s Valentine’s Day,” you laugh.
“Exactly.”
Patrick nods immediately in drunken agreement. “Too polite in here. Everybody looks like they have sticks up their asses.”
“It’s a restaurant,” Art points out.
“And we’re done with it,” Tashi decides, rising to her feet before anyone can argue.
“We are?” You blink up at her.
“With the restaurant? Yes. With the night? No.”
“What does that mean?” Patrick says.
She picks up her wine glass, tipping her head back to gulp down the rest of it. “Let’s go somewhere more interesting.”
“Like where?” Art replies warily.
Mischief sparks in her brown eyes. “Where do you think?”
The journey to her hotel room doesn’t take long. Across the street, up the elevator, all of you cramped together and giggling. You cling to Art’s arm as you stumble down the hall on their floor, and you don’t even realise it’s not your husband until Tashi laughs at you. She doesn’t seem to mind, though. Just loops her arm through yours and tells Patrick to hurry up as he lags behind.
When you get into the room, you make a beeline for the arm chair, slumping down with a sigh. “Take my shoes off for me.”
“Take them off yourself,” Patrick groans, collapsing onto the bed.
Art and Tashi are a little more dignified, not that you’re surprised. Art shrugs off his jacket to hang up while she takes off her heels next to him.
“There’s wine in the fridge if you want any,” she offers.
“I think I’d die,” you lament, leaning forward to clumsily unbuckle your heels. It takes a moment to get them off before you stretch out your legs, wiggling your toes. Patrick’s face down in a pillow now, a silence falling over the room. Then you sit up suddenly. “Do it for me.”
“Do what?” Art says, peeling his tie off.
“Recreate it.”
“Be a bit more specific, babe,” Tashi indulges with a laugh. The pet name makes your heart stutter.
“The… the hotel thing. The three of you.”
Patrick lifts his head, intrigued. “What do you mean?”
“Like, when I wasn’t there. Pretend I’m not here and it’s the night of the Junior Open.”
“Well, we just drank shitty beer and sat around the floor,” Art says, a little uncertain, though he’s smiling over at you with flushed cheeks.
“No. No, not that part,” you say, waving a hand. “The kissing part. You said you all made out.”
“What? No,” he laughs.
“You don’t have to,” you shrug, though your tone suggests otherwise. “Just thought it’d be funny.”
Tashi watches you. She knows you well enough to hear what you’re not saying—that it’s not just curiosity, not just a joke. “Funny,” she echoes, amused.
Patrick swings his legs off the bed, sitting up fully now. “C’mon, man. For old time’s sake.” Nobody seems surprised that he’s up for it without question.
“This is a terrible idea,” Tashi snorts.
“Everything tonight has been a terrible idea,” you point out, crossing one leg over the other and leaning back. “Are you going to give me a show or not?”
She seems amused by your drunken confidence. Art looks to her questioningly—a lap dog, even now—before she nods. “You heard the woman. Give her a show.”
She moves to sit on the bed, patting either side of her. Art hesitates, but just like in 2006, as soon as Patrick moves he’s right there with him. Both of them bracket her sides, hands in their laps, the smell of alcohol heavy on their breaths. Tashi glances between them both, before her gaze settles back on you.
Suddenly, it feels a lot more real when they’re all in front of you. You exhale heavily, forcing yourself to maintain eye contact. “It was like this?”
“Mmm. They were both so desperate.”
“Who’d you kiss first?” You can’t help but ask.
Tashi smiles, turning her head. Patrick leans in slightly, breath ghosting over hers, but she turns before their lips can meet. Her mouth finds Art’s instead. He kisses the same way you remember—a little tentative at first, before his confidence builds and his hand finds her thigh, his kisses growing more fervent.
When she finally breaks apart and turns to Patrick, you find yourself unsettingly okay with it. A part of you thought you would have been jealous. You’ve been married to Patrick for four years, dating for even longer, and yet now your stomach is twisting with arousal at the thought of him kissing her.
He doesn’t ask for permission. As soon as her head turns, his mouth is on hers. He’s hungrier than Art, not just because they haven’t kissed in years. It’s how he always kisses. Sex with Patrick always feels like some all-consuming kind of lust, and your brain feels foggy watching Tashi shudder when his tongue shamelessly slides against hers.
You find your gaze flicking curiously towards Art for his reaction. He doesn’t seem as off balance as you would have thought, though that might be the alcohol talking. He’s just as enraptured by the sight of the pair of them devouring each other, his hand still squeezing Tashi’s thigh.
A string of saliva connects them when they break apart, and you wet your own lips. “So this is it? You just made both of them take turns kissing you?”
Art turns pink before she can reply. “Do you really think I’m that boring?” She laughs. She leans back, head tilted ever so slightly to expose her neck. And while she makes eye contact with you, Art and Patrick lean in, kissing along opposite sides of her neck.
It’s not shocking—nothing about tonight has been shocking, really—but it makes the wetness building up between your legs worse. The part that really undoes you is Tashi’s eyes staying on you. It feels like this isn’t just a reenactment for your benefit. It’s like you’re part of it, even from across the room. Always part of it, even back then.
A quiet exhale escapes her when Art’s grip tightens on her thigh, thumb pressing in unconsciously under the slit of her dress, while Patrick’s hand slides higher along her arm, fingers curling at her shoulder. They don’t look at each other, but they’re aware of each other. You can see it in the way they move: careful not to collide, but not exactly avoiding it either.
“Shit,” you murmur, more to yourself than anyone else.
Tashi’s mouth curves faintly at the sound. “You’re looking between them like it’s a match,” she says.
“Feels like one,” you swallow thickly.
She huffs a quiet laugh, breath hitching slightly as Patrick’s mouth presses just under her jaw, teeth grazing boldly. “And who’s winning?”
Your gaze flicks between the three of them, slower now to take it all in properly. “You.”
“Always,” she replies.
Her hands lift to find their jaws, guiding them back upwards. Your breath catches, fingers curling into the plush arm of your chair when their mouths meet together. All three of them. It’s a strange sight, all of them alternating between lips and tongues, but it makes your heart beat rapidly in your chest nonetheless.
You aren’t sure how long it goes on for before she leans back again.
“You know what to do,” she prompts both men.
Art blushes furiously, ready to protest. “Tashi—“
“Art.”
His complaint dies on his tongue. Patrick is smirking, though you aren’t sure why until it becomes clear what you know what to do means. He leans across her, where Art hesitates for a moment before he does the same. Your jaw almost drops when they kiss, and Tashi grins at the delight in your eyes.
You’ve never been blind about Patrick’s attraction towards men. He’s ogled them shamelessly for years, and you’ve always had your suspicions about how close he was with Art. Tashi made more than enough jokes at Stanford about teenage boys sharing beds during their formative years turning out a certain way.
It’s a different thing entirely to see him making out with a man. Especially when that man is Art, who’s still a furious shade of red but melting into the kiss. It’s drunk and sloppy, but it might be the single greatest thing you’ve ever seen.
You don’t realise Tashi’s talking to you until she says your name. Dazed, you manage a, “Huh?”
“I said don’t you feel left out?” She repeats.
“Well—” You swallow, shifting a little so your thighs press together. “I’m having fun watching.”
“You’d have a lot more fun kissing me.”
It takes you aback, but you’re nodding your head eagerly before you can really process it. You almost trip on your discarded heels in your haste to get up. Tashi slides back from between the two men, ignoring their questioning look.
“You look nice tonight,” you offer clumsily when you sit next to her, tongue feeling thick in your mouth.
“Nice?” She laughs, hand settling on your knee to give it a comforting squeeze. “You used to call me beautiful.”
“Well, you were. I mean— you are,” you correct yourself.
“Don’t get shy on me now. You were so confident ordering us around,” she teases.
“She’s always like that,” Patrick chips in. Art’s panting against his jaw, pressing kisses every now and then while trying to keep his gaze on the pair of you. “So bossy but as soon as she gets a little attention, she doesn’t know what to do with herself.”
“I don’t need you to tell me that,” Tashi snorts. He rolls his eyes, tilting his head back to catch Art’s mouth again.
“You’re beautiful,” you repeat, softer now, as she cups your jaw with her other hand. Her expression shifts slightly into that bashfulness you’ve missed so much. It boosts your confidence enough for you to lean in first, closing the distance like you’ve done a hundred times before.
It’s soft at first, slipping back into something that feels like it never really went away. You hear Patrick make a low, amused down somewhere behind you, but it’s distant. Everything is, except the way Tashi’s hand slides to the back of your neck, steadying you.
“You see? Wasn’t that hard,” she murmurs against your lips.
You huff out a quiet laugh, breath catching. “Shut up.”
She smiles into the next kiss, a little sharper this time, more like the version of her that thrived on pushing you. It pulls a soft, involuntary sound from your throat before you can stop it. The hand on your jaw tips it gently to the side so she can kiss her way along your cheek and to your ear. When your eyes open, you’re met with the sight of Art in the same position, your husband’s mouth sliding down his neck while one hand works at the top few buttons of his shirt.
“Do you miss him?” She breathes, low in your ear.
“Mmm?”
“Art. Do you miss him? Miss kissing him?” she continues, biting the lobe of your ear playfully. “Miss fucking him?”
“Yeah,” you sigh, shivering when she licks a stripe down your neck.
“Invite him over, then. I’m sure he misses kissing you, too. I know I did.”
You call his name, but it comes out more of a moan than anything when Tashi sucks against your neck. She stifles a laugh. “Art,” you repeat, a little louder. He looks towards you, pupils blown wide. Whether it’s from arousal or the alcohol, you can’t tell. “Come here. I want to kiss you.”
Art obeys, despite Patrick’s groan of protest, though your husband follows him across the bed. Tashi continues to lavish your neck with attention while Art leans in with that same hesitance before melting into you. Your drunken mind deduces that he tastes better than Patrick. Not that Patrick tastes bad, but you’re used to kissing someone who tastes of tobacco, not just wine and traces of mint.
“Man, this is like a wet dream,” Patrick sighs.
“We should probably stop while we’re ahead,” Art adds half-heartedly, though he doesn’t stop kissing you.
“Yeah? You want to stop?” Tashi reaches across, fingers sliding between his legs to palm his bulge. His breath hitches against your mouth.
“No. No, I’m just saying…”
“Stop talking. Don’t ruin this for me,” Patrick says.
So Art doesn’t. Clothes start to come off in pieces, entirely uncoordinated. You’re half-laughing and half-serious in a way that only happens when there’s too much history and too much alcohol in the room. Patrick tugs at the hem of your dress like he’s done a hundred times before, a bit distracted, his attention splitting between the three of you.
Tashi doesn’t hesitate, though. She moves between all of you the way she always has, slipping her hands under fabric, pushing shirts off shoulders and guiding more than asking.
You catch yourself laughing at something—nothing, really—as Patrick loses his balance trying to step out of his shoes, collapsing half on top of you and mouthing at your shoulder instead of getting up again.
“God, we’re a mess,” you say, breathless. “I really want to fuck you, though.”
“You fuck him all the time,” Tashi says with an eye roll, her fingers currently making quick work of Art’s belt.
“No. No, I mean all of you.”
And she’s about to take you up on that offer when her phone buzzes where it was discarded near the head of the bed. Tashi freezes, brows furrowing slightly. “Hold on—“ She says, already reaching for it.
“Don’t tell me you’re taking a call right now,” Patrick groans against your shoulder.
“It’s probably important,” Art adds, though you can tell by his frown and the bulge in his pants he’s just as disappointed as Patrick.
Tashi looks at the screen, her expression shifting. “Oh my god.”
“What?” You ask, sitting up a little straighter and shoving Patrick off. He collapses into Art instead.
She turns the phone around without a word. It’s a photo, bright and blurry, taken by someone with too much enthusiasm. A card smeared in glitter and doodled hearts, with a grinning little brunette holding it up to the camera. Scribbled across the front, it reads:
HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY MOM!
For a second, everyone is quiet. Then you laugh, not because it’s funny—though you suppose it is, in a way—but because the contrast is so absurd it knocks the air right out of you. Patrick follows a second later, loud and incredulous.
“Are you serious? Right now? This is why we haven’t had kids,” he laments. You smack his arm, but you’re still laughing.
“That’s—shit. That’s timing,” Art exhales his own laugh.
“I told her I’d call her before bed,” Tashi huffs, but she’s smiling down at the screen when she turns it back to her.
“Well, that’s one way to kill the mood,” Art says, glancing around at the half-undressed state of all of you.
“Speak for yourself,” Patrick mutters, adjusting himself shamelessly.
“No, I think that’s pretty definitive,” you laugh, tugging the straps of your dress back up. Your heart is still hammering in your chest.
“Probably for the best.” Tashi meets your eyes, something warm flickering there again. There’s a quiet agreement in the room, unspoken but shared. The tension doesn’t disappear entirely, but at least none of you are groping each other anymore.
“I need water,” Patrick declares.
“Same,” Art says, and the pair of them shove at each other on their way to the fridge, sporting matching tents in their slacks.
You watch them, lips curving up faintly while Tashi texts her mom back. Some things change, some things don’t.
“Hey,” you say lightly, looking back at her. “Tell her I said happy Valentine’s.”
Tashi glances up at you, a smile tugging at her mouth. “I’m not sure how to explain who you are, but I will.”
The night ends less explosively than it might have had things continued. But when Tashi settles back next to you, phone extended to show you the picture again while Art and Patrick bicker behind you, you don’t think you’d change a thing.
how did reader accept the first date? throwback chapter // set after "the chasing"
wc: 2.1 k
warnings: they lose a pregnant girl and baby :( not explicit and not mentioned specifics but you should know that !!!! maybe ooc too idk at this point
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“Risk birth, ETA 5 minutes.” Dana announced across the room.
It was almost 7 PM. As much as he hated staying over after his shift, late traumas meant a chance to walk you to your car–and damn if he wasn't going to take it.
After your latest imminent rejection, Robby had simply kept on with his life. He knew whatever electric tension lingered between you two wasn't going anywhere, so he had settled into a routine of teasing you whenever you were down at the pitt, quietly waiting for the day you finally fell into his arms.
Though that resolve tested itself every time he heard the nurses talking about your boyfriend—some hospital lawyer that apparently everyone loved. Robby rolled his eyes just at the mere thought.
Dr. Adamson grinned at Robby. “Page your girl,” he ordered, already returning his gaze to the charts he was reviewing.
“She is not my girl,” Robby half-protested, but he caught himself smiling at the presumption. He figured if half the hospital already called you his girl, it was halfway to the truth anyway.
So, he paged you.
STAT ETA 5 min -MR
“I have never seen you so smitten, Robinavitch,” Dana teased.
“Nor will you ever again.”
At her brows riding up on her forehead, he pressed on, entirely unapologetic. “She is the one. I know it.”
Dana scoffed. “Does she know it?”
Robby smiled, leaning against the nurses' hub while he waited for the elevator doors to open. “She does.”
“She has a boyfriend.”
“Small detail.”
Less than two minutes later, he saw you coming through the elevator doors. Pink scrubs tucked underneath your white coat, your hair neatly clipped up and away from your face—and just like that, he was already smiling.
.
It had been brutal. A young pregnant girl who had overdosed. Neither you nor Robby had been able to save her, or the baby.
When the gurney was finally rolled away, you had ripped off your surgical gown, balled it violently into the trash bin, and headed straight for the elevators. He let you go, figuring the night you lost a nineteen-year-old and a seven-month-old baby wasn't the night he’d get lucky.
In silence, he picked up his backpack and headed to the parking lot, the weight of the loss heavy on his shoulders as he walked out into the humid night.
He saw you right away. Leaning against the hood of your car, shoulders shaking as you let out a frustrated grunt, strands of hair slipping loose to fall across your face.
Robby called your name, and you spun around, teary-eyed and pouting. The second you saw him, you frantically scrubbed at your cheeks.
“What’s wrong?”
You let out a shuddering sigh. “You mean besides losing two lives today? Jeez.” You tried your best to force a casual shrug and failed miserably. “My tire's flat.”
“You got a spare?” He swung his backpack off his shoulders, dropped it by your feet, and immediately started rolling up the sleeves of his shirt over his forearms.
“That’s the spare.”
His head tilted slightly to the side. “How long have you been driving on the spare?”
“Since the good one punctured.”
Robby scoffed. Hands planted heavily on his hips, an incredulous, disbelieving smile tugged at his lips. He covered his face with one hand, massaging the bridge of his nose.
Without another word, he picked up his backpack, walked right past you toward his jeep, and swung the passenger door wide open. “Get in.”
You blinked at him, eyes wide.
“I am driving you home. We can deal with this in the morning.” He jerked his chin toward the interior of his car.
You swallowed, grabbed your backpack, and climbed in—and Robby could have sworn his heart took a violent, hopeful leap.
.
“I’m hungry,” Robby suggested once the vehicle was moving.
“Wanna go get some takeout? My treat for the ride.”
“Yes to the first. No to the last.”
You laughed—a small, almost nonexistent sound that anyone else would have missed. But not Robby. Not when it felt like his entire world was gravitating around it.
You told him about your favorite place, and he followed every instruction to the letter. He ordered at the drive-thru and went straight to your building.
Outside, he popped the trunk and removed the soft top of his Jeep. Both of you climbed in, sitting comfortably to share your first meal. Your legs were almost touching, separated by a mere five centimeters.
When you were done you leaned back against your backpack, and a moment later, Robby did the same. You both laid down in the back of his Jeep outside your place, sharing a bag of fries.
Robby couldn’t focus on anything else except that proximity and the lingering smell of your hair. He could have happily died right there, looking at you lying next to him. But greedy as he was, he needed more.
“This isn’t a date, Robinavitch,” you muttered.
He snorted. “Of course it isn’t. You have a boyfriend.”
You turned to look at him, chewing the last of your meal. “I don’t, actually. But still.”
“Oh no,” he mocked, “what happened?”
You laughed, pushing him softly on the shoulder. “We had some differences.”
“About?”
“Damn, you’re nosy.” You raised one eyebrow. “Okay, let’s play questions, and it’s my turn. Why does nobody call you Michael?”
He sighed. “Only my family calls me that. What differences made you break up with your boy-toy?”
“We discussed kids. I said I wanted two; he said he wanted three.” You took a sip of your soda, the straw making a wet noise. “And then I said we could renegotiate because when I returned to work, I’d probably get baby fever—”
You sighed, and Robby thanked God for it because his food was threatening to make a reappearance at the mere thought of you having someone else’s children.
“—and he said his wife won’t work. He wanted me to be a stay-at-home mom, non-negotiable.”
Robby’s eyes widened. Knowing you, he almost pitied the fella. “So you murdered him?”
He teased, and you laughed. Robby prided himself on being able to make you do that.
“My turn. What’s your body count?”
He cackled, his body rolling to the side. “I can’t tell you that!”
“Have you lost count?”
“I am a gentleman!”
“Find that hard to believe.”
“But it’s true.”
Your brows climbed up your forehead, and his chest tightened.
“Why don’t you wanna go out with me?” he asked, softer and kinder now, with true curiosity behind the question.
You looked back up at the sky, your gaze lost in the twinkling stars. “Because I am tired of that game, Robby.”
He might as well have been physically struck; his lungs suddenly ran out of air. “What game?”
You smiled, a cynical curve touching your mouth as your eyes closed. “The nonchalant dating, one-night-stand obsession. I want the long run now.” You sighed.
You turned your body sideways so you were lying face-to-face. Robby could have sworn his heart was going to stop any second as he saw your eyes shining in the dim light of the night.
“Why do you want to go out with me?” you asked, your eyes glinting.
Robby swallowed hard. Why. Because he had been certain for a while now that you were the woman he wanted to marry. Because he hadn’t thought about a family in years until he met you. Hell, he hadn’t even ached for a kiss since middle school, and that was all he did now after meeting you.
Robby just exhaled—a loud, big gulp of air. Then: “I want the long run too.”
You smiled, almost too easily. “Aren’t you a charmer?” Your head shook slightly.
Drowning in a rush of adrenaline, he asked, “What do I have to do for you to acknowledge that I am not lying?”
You looked at him and looked, going on for far too long for his comfort. “Prove it.”
He laughed—a big, fat, cynical laugh. “Is waiting for you to walk you to your car not proof? Having your seven and a half, no powder, gloves ready when you reach the ED?”
Your head tilted.
“Alright. What about sending you medical journals with highlights and Post-its?”
“Professional interest,” you barked, a smile twitching at the corners of your lips.
“Sending Colombian coffee to the OB-GYN department every month so you don’t have to drink Costco coffee?”
“You do that?”
He nodded. “Or paying off the cafeteria ladies so they'll save dessert for you?”
“Robby!” you whined, your cheeks turning pink and hot.
“Every Wednesday, when they make your favorite. And I know it’s your favorite because I heard you say it to Dana six months ago.”
You went silent. For a terrifying second, Robby considered the possibility of you walking straight into your house, calling 911, filing a restraining order, and labeling him forever as a creep.
Instead, you did the one thing Robby had dreamed about. You closed the distance and kissed him.
Your lips on his felt like a fantasy. You were soft and sweet, yet demanding and conquering—everything you were, and everything that had made him fall for you.
Robby prided himself on a lot of things. His usual control of a situation whenever a woman was in his arms was one of them. But right there, in the trunk of his Jeep with you kissing him, he felt like a complete novice. He kissed you back, sure, but his arms were frozen. Your hands were in his hair, pulling and squeezing as you explored him, while he couldn't even bring himself to pull you closer. He knew he’d be doomed if he did. He knew he wouldn’t be able to stop, that he would never get enough.
But as you bit his lower lip and sucked, your nails scraping his scalp, his instincts finally awoke. He pulled you flush against him, one hand locked on the back of your head to keep you in place, and the other on your hip to ground you against that hypnotizing sway he definitely hadn't imagined.
Just as he thought he had things under control, you pushed him onto his back, straddling his hips. Damn you and your eternal resolve to always have the upper hand.
He stopped you, pushing you softly to regain some semblance of composure. His jeans strained precisely where your weight rested. Nowhere to hide, really.
“Wanna come inside?” you asked with a ragged breath.
Robby had to be dreaming. He had dreamed about this more times than he cared to admit: your hair hanging loose on your shoulders, your cheeks flushed, your lips swollen, and your chest heaving in rapid movements. And still. Still.
“No.”
One of your brows danced at him as you pulled yourself down and closer to him. Your lips brushed his ear, his jaw, his neck. “As exciting as this is... we are past the age of making out in the back of a car.”
He caught you by the hair, effectively kissing you again—rougher and needier. “I know,” he rasped against your lips. “But no. I want a date.”
Your brows knitted. “You can have it both ways.”
Of course. He could be a grown-up and have it both ways. But it didn't align with the perfect plan he had in mind.
“No. I don’t want you regretting it in the morning.”
“Will there be something to regret?” You asked, your breath hot against his face.
He scoffed. “I brought you home because you are vulnerable, sad and didn’t want you to cry yourself to sleep. Not because I pretended to take advantage of it.”
It was your turn to scoff. “I am a grown woman, Michael.”
His eyes traveled down your body. “I am aware. Very.”
“I can make my decisions.” Your fingers traced the lines of his chest. “Even reckless ones.”
“See? Reckless. We’re going on a date and I’m proving you that I am not a poor decision.”
“Okay.” You grinned. Kissing him.
“Date first.” He pecked your lips again, apparently unable to stop.
“Old-fashioned guy, huh?” you teased.
“Well, I am old.”
You smiled. “Yeah, you are. Alright. Date.”
You sat up on your knees, pressing down on his embarrassingly obvious erection, and extended one hand for him to take.
He did, shaking your hand firmly as if sealing a business deal.
“Tomorrow. 8:00 PM. Before you change your mind.”
You stood up from his lap, hopping off the Jeep and tugging at your backpack. He sat back, watching you go.
“I won’t.” You slung the bag over one shoulder, looking back at him with a teasing smile. “Night, Michael. Sweet dreams.”
As you walked into the building, he collapsed backward onto the bed of the truck, waiting for his jeans to go back to normal.
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