A little of your time..please read...
Hey all, sorry for this post, but I am at my absolute limits now, and I feel like I have to do this, despite how horrid it makes me feel to do so.
For the past year, things have been gradually getting worse for me, especially mentally. I tried to manage things as much as I could, I have always been extremely frugal and sought help only when I felt I personally could not do anything more. I spent a good 6-7 years taking care of myself mentally, but this past event was the last straw and I completely broke, mentally and physically. I could not function, could not get out of bed, ate nothing, slept too much, sleep too little, hurt myself, death wishes, etc. Friends thought they were helping but were already too late and made it a lot worse for me financially and emotionally.
That was about 6 months ago. Now, even making simple decisions like “What will I eat tonight?” or “What must I do after work?” is suddenly a massive hurdle and my mind just wants to explode. Every day I have to deal with a dull heartache that rises every now and then, that makes me incredibly unfocused and just straight up induces panic attacks. It feels very debilitating because of how easily I am knocked out by this. Because I’m alone, nothing gets done: cleaning, bills, food, etc. It’s a mess, I manage the very bare minimum, which is not something to be proud of, considering I completely fall apart whenever I think of the people who have helped put me into this excruciating mindset. I can’t even take time off because of how unreliable my work is, so everything is just survival mode right now and it’s been survival mode for too many years, I can’t do this anymore.
All the expenses are piling up around me, it’s gotten so out of hand. Prescription drugs, bus rides, an ambulance bill, as well as seeing a private psychologist while I wait to be seen by the government issued ones, not even to mention living on my own and affording an apartment I used to split rent with, it all costs a lot of money. I wouldn’t be doing this normally, I hate this so much, but as things are now, I feel like this is all I have left. I would not be here if I didn’t decide to go a step further and seek immediate help instead of just my usual searching.
This will not be a constant thing, it’s just for now, to help get me out of this financial predicament. I’m only asking for donations, give what you want, it’s completely up to you. If you want, you could commission me too, here is my info page: COMMISSIONS
I can offer small commissions too if you would like something in return - $6 USD simple sketch in a 800px x 800 px box, just understand I am swamped at the moment with life, but I will get to these as soon as I am able, and I appreciate your patience during this time.
I’m so sorry to burden any of you with this, but I will appreciate any and all forms of donation. Thank you for your time.
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