A long story about how I came to the life of my dreams!
Get ready, it will be interesting.
All my life, I've known that an amazing fate awaits me. I've always had high expectations and big dreams in my head.
There wasn't a single doubt inside that I had come to this Earth for a reason. I knew that there was an important purpose for me.
I started to get involved in spirituality, manifestation and esotericism at the age of 16-17, at the peak of youthful maximalism. It was at this age that I began to suffer from depression, existential crisis, and bipolar disorder. I was tormented by questions about the meaning of life every day.
I have a rich imagination since childhood, so visualization has always been my mainstay. I was constantly in my thoughts.
Tarot, meditation, yoga, affirmations, subliminals! In 2020, I learned about shifting through tiktok, but I still couldn't get into another reality despite many attempts.
I was very good at manifesting through listening to subliminals and affirmations. All sorts of little things, and then bigger events. Especially money and material things, that's what I did best. But that wasn't enough for me.
When I learned about the concept of the void state, I was absolutely thrilled! I'm an impatient person and I wanted to get everything at once at the snap of my fingers. From that moment on, I tried to get there every night, all my thoughts were just about that.
I couldn't relax and let myself go completely. No matter how much I tried to stifle my thoughts, nothing worked for many years.
But, I'm very stubborn and eventually found my perfect way.
Since early childhood, I have been very good at remembering my dreams, writing them down. I enjoyed discussing and analyzing them. I started listening to lucid dream subliminals, and every night my dreams became longer, more realistic, and more colorful.
At the moment, I have come to terms with my problems in my family, health, studies and head. I relaxed and let go of the situation. Inside, I just knew that sooner or later what I wanted would be mine. I'm basically a very confident person, so doubts have not been my companion along the way. I won't even talk about my god syndrome.…
I was constantly romanticizing my life, no matter what. My main advice to you is: Don't sacrifice your life to a state of void. Build a routine, live life to the fullest. Exercise, walk, socialize, eat right, attend events. Believe me, it helps tremendously to maintain stability and mental health.
And then that night came. I drank melatonin, went through my usual bedtime routine and listened to a couple of random subs. As I said before, void was hard for me when I was conscious. I needed to turn on my subconscious. I dreamed about him. Mr. X. It was like it was real. We were driving somewhere in the car, loud music was playing, I felt very good. When he touches my hand, and I look into his face, I suddenly realize that I am dreaming. Until that moment, I had almost never realized this in my dreams.
I do not know how in a dream I remembered my intention.… Probably because I was thinking about it 24/7 during the day. I said: “I am pure consciousness.”
The music got louder, and my ears started to pop. THAT WAS MY PLAYLIST, GIRLS! He turned to me and kissed me. Everything went dark. It was not an emptiness, but an abyss. I was falling, so fast.… Everything went quiet, everything became so clear and simple. After that, I just said: “All the innermost desires of my heart have become my reality”
Then I woke up. I looked at the screen of the phone lying on the bedside table. Four o'clock in the morning.I immediately felt light inside, as if a heavy weight had been lifted from my shoulders. Apparently that's how life feels without depression.… It took me a moment to realize what had happened, and I even forgot about what had just happened in my dream.
How did I know that everything worked? There was a text message from him on the phone: “I bought you a ticket, come back to Moscow tomorrow.” I laughed and thought I was still dreaming. How could I have this person's number? But then, memories that could not have existed began to appear in my head. Our meeting, our first kiss in his dressing room, our walks, his house. What kind of nonsense is this? I thought. Can you imagine? Another reality just loaded into my head.
Then I looked at myself in the mirror. I am the goddess of beauty! My weight has decreased by 20 kilograms. After that, I found some bachelor's degrees, car keys and a new apartment keys. I cried with happiness for a long time, it was impossible to believe.
My life hasn't been the same since that night.
