My Mind...

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Thought the darkest times

Now that I have found

All the reasons why

#amaranthe #endlessly

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I'm not the warming hearth fire.

Not the cozy chimney fire.

Not the campfire in a summer night.

Not the candlelight on a lovely evening.

Not the lighthous that shows you the way.

I'm the lightning in a thunderstorm.

I'm the shooting star in an empty sky.

Mabye I don't burn the warmest

and don't shine the brightest.

But I bring change,

I bringt hope.

I'm the one you remember.

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Where was I?

T.C.

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Did you miss me?

Kind of.

Why did you run from me?

I don't know. I wish I would understand.

Will you come back?

I already did.

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Sometimes it's so sad to look back and realize that you tried. But somethings you can't change.

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Everytime I believe to know what to think of you, everything changes. We are so much alike. And I don't understand how I didn't see the things I can see right now. I overcame what you are struggling with. And now you open up. You really do. Not because it slipped out or you are emotionally. Because you trust me. Because you want to. And there it is. Your weakness. Your vulnerability. But I will no the one that saves you. And that was your decision.

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Sometimes the world gives you a chance to rethink. How do you decide?

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Sometimes I ask myself if this is a look in my future. Now that I clearly see the crakes in the fassade. I tried to escape, but you can't run from fate.

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Reflection

Völlig unerwartet sah ich mein Spiegelbild. So klar, wie... Ich weiß, nicht mal an ich das letzte mal einen verschwommenen Block darauf erhaschte. Ein seltsamer Zeitpunkt. Ein unerwarteter Zufall. Ich weiß, dass du mich nicht vergessen hast. Doch du versucht nicht mehr in den Spiegel zu blicken, weil der Schmerz zu groß ist. Dss Gefühl, das zurück gebleiben ist, ist schwer zu begreifen. Habe ich wirklich schon so viel Kraft?

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Just once...

But it's a good reminder about priorities

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Who do you try to fool? Still yourself? Or do you belive the lie now? You didn't change. I did.

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Darkness

It's a strange feeling. Be reminded… seeing someone how is so much like you. But not like the you I remember, I like you are now. Somebody I don't see or know anymore. For the first time I'm really sad thinking what you become. How your persona took over. Knowing you vanished now.

I saw your pain and your despair. But there was no hope saving you, because of the fear. The fear I didn't understand and maybe never will. You choose your own damnation and turned into something else. I wonder if there is still some of you left inside.

But I don't think so. I feel sorry for the one I used to know. I miss your little talks, more than anything I have left behind. Now I have become what you once wanted to be. But you will never see it.

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Take all that away, and what's left?

Me.

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Fifteen years ago...

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sometimes doing something out of your comfort zone turns to something that lights up your day