So I’ve missed out everything in between magnetic island and Melbourne, which was my last destination before starting my farm work, which I’ll cover all at a later date, I just thought to skip to exactly what I’m doing now as a lot of people from home are confused as to my whereabouts
So I moved up to Bowen in Queensland at the beginning of May with work! I was hoping to go back to England in June! however amongst other things that have happened over here, another factor was my boss said he would on take 24 people, and numbers were limited and he promised good work, with possibility of earning up to $1500 a week, after much thought and like I said other personal things happened whilst farming I decided to stay which was completely heart breaking once I arrived in Bowen, as the moment we arrived at 5am in the morning, everything that I had loved about this farm life had completely gone down hill, everything was about to change and my only wish and still now I feel the same, I wish he person I had become to rely and depend on had pre-warned me before even leaving seaspray for what was to come.
I am not going to go into detail about everything that has happened for the past 7weeks, it has been the worse part of my Australian journey, I am beyond thankful for the 2 amazing life long friends I have made; Aino and Charlotte, without these girls I would have done anything possible to leave Bowen and probably Australia. They have been there when I’ve been a complete and utter misery and done there best to try and cheer me up. Sometimes i would question why I would be in a awful mood when I have two great people by my side.
So after only being in Bowen for 4/5 days we took ourselves away to Arlie beach, for some much needed girl time and to actually socialise, and get drunk and do all the normal things, shop, eat, tan etc (ok no tanning it rained the whole time) by this time I had already completed my 88days farming, and needed to meet new people and socialise and get in my classic tragic Tasha drunk state. Well on the first night that happened a little too quickly and was in bed by 11pm with sick in my hair. Yeah tragic drunk Tasha was back
The next day we took our hungover sorry selves around airlie, Charlotte hadn’t been before so we showed her the sights, ok there’s not a lot, but there were shops and bars, things we had been lacking since January. We had a dominos and that night we prepared to go out again, this time without necking a bottle of wine in 20mins before heading out. We played the funniest and probably the most annoying drinking game with one of our roommates at the hostel -21 where you replace the numbers for different rules, all I can remember is;
321 thunderbirds are go, me love you Tasha.
I think that’s all anyone needs to know as well.
This night was just as messy, we met some local Aussies who were over in airlie for a rugby match or something, they brought us drinks all night, awesome free night, can’t complain. These guys were slightly strange but they had good banter and were up for a good night. This was probably the closest to a good night out in Australia, Byron bay has held the best nights out I’ve had over here, nothing compared to back home, but this night in airlie would be one to remember.
The next day we had to get our shit together because we were about to go on a 3 day rainforest walk trip, which we would later discover would rain the whole time and after walking 16kms with our camping shit and rucksacks we le have to turn back due to everything getting soaked. So everything we did was completely pointless but I wouldn’t change it for the world, we would regret not doing it if we didn’t try. This night I met up with a fellow Lincolner - Sean Blakey!!! Completely random!!!
Getting a bit side tracked now, so we spent some time in airlie before going back to Bowen. We lived in a nightmare of a hostel, ok, looking back it wasn’t the worse but was a lot of get used to. I didn’t like the person I was becoming, I was moaning and complaining about everything and living in that place for me was just utter hell. I hated every moment being there, when we would eventually work I would hope we would work as long as possible just to avoid being in that place. Which couldn’t have been more opposite to the life we had in seaspray of hoping the days would be cut short so we could go home and socialise.
I think after about 3 weeks of living there since getting back from airlie the opportunity came about that we could move out into our own house, just me Aino and Charlotte, this made us unbelievably happy, at the time work was going well again, Things were looking up.
After moving house and feeling a little back to my normal self, the same day we moved in I received some truly devastating news from back home, which obviously would just change my mood and go back to my misery self, my good life long friend Lily Thomas died whilst living her new life In Amsterdam. The black cloud that left me as soon as we moved into this house had returned only hours later. There was no amount of distractions that could shift my mood. All I kept thinking and getting more upset about was I meant to be home now, the reasons why I’m not I won’t go into, but I was meant to be home, and I wasn’t, I couldn’t grieve for my friend whilst working on a bloody tomato farm. This is the first time I’ve even spoken out loud about this apart from to close ones back home. I shut everyone away, I was fighting my own war and realised that what I had been upset about before this happened was over taking the grief I had for my friend and I had to cut the one person who once made me the happiest but now the saddest out of my life.
I was getting angry at everyone and loosing my temper and came to the decision to cut all contact with someone I had come to love and hate, as before what happened with back home, hew as the route of all this sadness and heartache.
The week after we got two new housemates; Turkish mum and dad. This was a new experience, Hasan- the boss had people over from turkey for work as well so two had to live with us, this was very difficult as they spoke no English and at the time it was also Ramadan, and with one of us having to sleep on the sofa to make room for them I was again loosing my temper quickly. - something which looking back, I used to be so calm when I was back home, I know my attitude towards the general human race has changed a lot since farming, and I am hoping that’ll change by time I go home .
It was only a matter of time before we started to realise that the work here in Bowen was coming to an end, Hasan had promised us a 10hr a day 6days a week packing job, which fell through after weeks of saying ‘any day now’ before he came to us and told us it wasn’t happening we had made plans to leave Bowen and move to homehill, with a little help from someone I didn’t want the help from, but this wasn’t all about me, all three of us wanted to leave and getting help was the best thing. Within 2 days we were packed up and ready to go and leave this life we had tried to make in Bowen behind us.
Looking back, during our time in Bowen it had it’s ups but unfortunately had more negative times, I am only sad now when I look back at the negativity I may have infected upon Aino and Charlotte, what was going on was my own war, not there’s and sometimes I would be selfish and shut myself away and be alone because I thought I was he only one feeling miserable but I know they were too. There were a couple of highs from Bowen- on our days off we would go to the beach, the beaches her were incredible, the water was so clear, I actually think apart from Whitehaven beach at the Whitsunday Islands, bowen beaches are the most stunning ones I’ve been to in Australia.
So as I said we packed up and move to homehill on June 20th. we are now living in a working hostel with about 100 people, it’s chaos, it’s absolutely crazy. I love the social side of living here, we have been around japanese and Taiwanese for so long, which there is not much to talk about, it’s so nice to meet Europeans and even English (something I didn’t think I would say) even amongst all these people you can still feel lonely. Work is better here though then with Hasan, we get paid higher hourly and we are actually treated like human beings and not being shouted at every 5 minutes, I feel so free I no longer have to be in contact with Hasan ever again, we put up with a lot of shit from that job, and at he time I didn’t see it as much but now I do. At the time of working for Hasan I started to think he was an ok guy, hard to understand and get to know but to when you do you see a different side to him. Wrong! He is a greedy little Turkish man, who rests backpackers like absolute shit, slave labour, dogs get treated better. I can’t carry on farming much longer though, I have now done it for over 5months, it is good money and these little towns make it so easy to save, but physically and emotionally I am becoming drained and done with this life style. Whatever happens with work or money I am leaving homehill on August 27th (exactly 7months since I started farming) whether I leave for Asia or back to the uk, it’ll depend on how much I am able to save.
Living in this hostel is sometimes hard, and days off are so boring if you’re not drunk (something I’m trying to cut down on, as again being drunk 5 days a week like I was in seaspray turned me into horrible Tasha) Our job involves sitting behind a tractor all day planting watermelons and capsicums, it is the easiest and probably the most random job I have ever had, we are still working together which is great. I Will be staying here (unless there is no work again) until the end if August, until then I will be saving everything and will use it to take me as far as possible. I am so done with farming, it’s physically and emotionally exhausting I deserve endless amounts of Australian visas for the amount of time I have farmed for. Farming for me has completely lost my love for Australia, I have no motivation right now to discover more of Australia and if I’m honest I can’t wait to leave and explore other parts of the world. A lot of people have asked why I’m still farming and there’s a few reasons;
1) it is actually good money, back in seaspray I was earning nearly $200 a day
2) I spent everything I saved living in Bowen and owing Hasan rent, when you’re not working all money disappears
3) probably the most important reason Charlotte and Aino are still here with me, I have made two lifelong incredible friends, I will hold on to the memories and the times ahead until they go on their own paths at the end of August
4) working and saving in the city is impossible!!! During all this time I have had off work, I have come to a few positive decisions about my travelling future, what lever I have saved at the end of August will one way or another get me out of Aus, I am wanting to a see a little bit more then go nz and Asia before going home, but if I can only afford to go home that is what I’ll do.
I have also decided to travel Europe next year by train, I am beyond excited about this, and focusing on find work and a life in Germany, moving to Berlin is all I can think about. I have been teaching myself German again, I’ve been learning for about 6weeks and I feel more confident in reading German and translating but not speaking, I am going to enrol at college when I get back to lincoln and tame evening classes in German.
I am hoping to apply to university in Berlin and do my fine art research masters degree, but live in Germany for a couple of months before to improve my German. This is the goal anyway, however if my current experience with travelling goes, every day is unpredictable. If I don’t get into the university I will still move and work there. I guess that’s everything for now x