naty nixo 𝄞

[worldscoolest]

Jean Paul Gaultier (2009)

[hotelgirlsworld]

Heaven is the

Chateau pool

[natynixo]

i know at work i can come off like an angry little diva.

an angry little usher.

it’s never my intention, i swear.

and maybe i’m reading too deep into it.

they probably don’t even think i’m angry.

i just have a resting bitch face.

i’ve just been functioning on the same algorithm since i was a little girl: don’t speak unless spoken to.

i’ve been carrying so much in my personal life that, somehow, work has became the only place i can find peace.

a place to clock out from everything else and just breathe.

so to my coworkers, i’m sorry if i seem distant or quiet.

it’s never personal.

i’ve just been trying to preserve my energy.

for the first time in the three years i’ve worked there, i spoke up.

i never used to.

but eventually you hit a breaking point when you start recognizing the patterns.

why we’re short staffed, why people don’t feel comfortable coming back?

how can anyone feel safe returning when we’re constantly reminded how replaceable we are?

speaking up was my breaking point, but also proof that i’m changing.

maybe i’ve always looked like a diva, but that was just me masking.

the little usher who’s always been afraid to speak up is finally taking control of her life.

[natynixo]

i’m an artist.

i go through periods of isolation because i need time to heal. process. psychoanalyze my mistakes.

then go back to performing.

it’s true.

most days i do wish i could be everything and everywhere at the same time.

but i’m also a human being.

[natynixo]

i was really talking my shit on this song, and now it's my most streamed track on soundcloud <3

[heavensghost]

Words by Mary Oliver engraved in rock

[gogumagirl]

what was your biggest childhood dream?

to be understood!!!

[natynixo]

i feel bad that i've been abandoning this blog, but life has a funny way of reminding you that it's coming from you, not at you. it's been hard to consistently post and keep up with writing when life has been moving so quickly. but maybe that's okay. maybe it just means i've been busy living.

still, i need to keep going. i need to be more organized. plan. plan. plan. and then execute.

i don't want to abandon my blog, my craft, or my hobbies anymore because these are the things that keep me grounded. they remind me of who i am.

i also keep coming back to the idea that it's been hard for me to speak up. but the truth is, i do have a lot to say. and sometimes when you tell the truth, people become uncomfortable. they project, deflect, and try to villainize you for naming a situation for what it is.

we live in a world that often rewards performance over authenticity. and within that reality, women are almost ALWAYS criticized for pointing out the bullshit.

so stay true to who you are. stay genuine. stay kind.

no matter how many people try to define you without truly knowing you, never let them convince you that their version of you is more real than your own.

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year of the horse !

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coachella 2026

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