Do you ever feel like that?
Disclaimer: English is not my first language and i hope it never will be.
I have a question for anyone who unfortunately ended up reading this little rant. DO you ever feel like "that"? I know you know what im saying. When your body doesn't want to live. When your body sees no reason to function. When all you want to do is discovering time travel so you can magically go to the future, which you hope will be better, because you finally achieved that goal in your life that makes you feel useless and hopeless, but at the same time you are too scared to know that you most likely failed simply because you are too melancholic to get out of bed and try to achieve that goal. When despite having dozens of people who love you around you, you feel alone, because you will never be worthy of anyone's love. When you want to read all the books, listen to all the music, paint all the pictures, smell all the flowers. But you can't get out of bed, go to the bathroom and brush your teeth. When you know you have to go to the gym, but the thought of leaving the house in tight leggings while several strangers watch you doing exercises you don't want to do makes you lose your mind. I don't want to live my life. I can't take it anymore. I just want to enter a void where I can live forever as a concept.
