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if youre here then you can find me elsewhere

[hauntedestablishments-deactivat]

who up experiencing emotions they can talk to no one about

[chronicallyabsent]

i've drawn enough of them. be free now. go. into the wild with you all

[indiestarlight-deactivated20250]

the thing about the "um excuse me if you're as poor as you say you are why don't you just sell all your most treasured possessions" thing that people love to trot out as some kind of "gotcha" is that they do not acknowledge how fucking soul-crushing it is to be in a situation that is already destroying your mental health and then be forced to sell one of the few things in your life that still bring you joy

[indiestarlight-deactivated20250]

and an additional layer of this that nobody ever likes to acknowledge is:

human beings genuinely need to have fun and enjoyable things in our lives so that we do not just fall so deep into depression we jump off the nearest bridge, but in the current world we live in, having fun costs money. every list i have seen of "fun things you can do for free!" still costs money, it just costs an amount of money that is inconsequentially small to the person writing the list but that could easily be what a poor person has to live on for an entire week

"sit in a coffeeshop and journal!" coffee, journals, and pens cost money

"go to events with your friends!" event tickets and bus fare/gas cost money

"cook a nice home-cooked meal!" ingredients cost money. if people could be doing this one they already would. do you think poor people eat ramen and peanut butter sandwiches every day for fun

"take up a hobby, like crochet or watercolor!" those supplies cost money. yes i know you can get a lot of craft supplies at the dollar tree. someone with thirty cents in their bank account cannot afford that

"go hiking!" gas money, hiking shoes, and clothes that won't be covered in holes by the time you get off the trail all cost money. if your closest hiking trails are national parks you've also gotta pay to go into those

everything costs fucking money. when you are poor, often the only way you can do fun things is 1) because someone you know with more money than you offers to pay for it for you, or 2) by utilizing things you already have at home, which you cannot fucking do if you sell everything you own

[indiestarlight-deactivated20250]

so yeah tl;dr when i see someone asking for money for groceries/rent/bills/etc and i also know that person has like a wacom tablet or a playstation or whatever i do not judge them, i simply think "i am glad this person is able to get some joy still" because i hold the extremely controversial opinion that not wanting to kill yourself shouldn't be a luxury that only rich people can afford