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virgohqs:

              ryder has never felt more hesitant in his life; this was a brand new feeling for him most of the time he just said what he had in mind and that was it. but this was a different case as he saw the almost black sanity bar hovering over the corner and that made his stomach turn in disgust and shame. how could he let this happen? if this was real life he’d be placed on death roll but he didn’t know what the actions were once he was out of the game. it was a free for all. ryder made his way to sit next to dakota but kept his distance as he wrapped his arms around himself. “i did something horrible the other night and i don’t remember anything else…but what i do remember was just….it was indescribably horrible…” his voice broke as he spoke, his chestnut hues focusing on the floor never looking up to his friend. “you know, that i get these occasional blackouts….and i’m just not me when they happen and its something that has happened to me in real life as well, the doctors don’t know why it happens but they’ve ruled out alot of the other things…but its been getting even worse in the game that i don’t even know who i am…” he began speaking, “i don’t remember when i blacked out or why but i just remember that…i ended up in this santuary type of place and…they were all young….but i just….it wasn’t me, i couldn’t have been me…” he began to feel the tears well up in his eyes and he just couldn’t hold it in anymore, he was breaking down because he simply couldn’t hold it in anymore.  

                 dakota’s eyebrows furrowed together as he observed ryder’s demeanor. this wasn’t his usual behavior for when he was feeling down about something. whatever it was had to be something bad. of course dakota wasn’t going to judge his friend, he was just concerned. just the sight of ryder and the brokeness of his voice had dakota’s eyes welling up with tears. “ryder, hey, it’s okay. it’s okay. i got you,” he assured as he placed a hand on the others shoulder in hopes of giving him some kind of comfort. as ryder spoke, he felt his heart begin to sink and an uneasiness bubble up in his stomach. no. no, no, no. “ryder....” the boy mumbled, pursing his lips. his hand had now fallen from his friends shoulder. they were young? what did that mean? surely he didn’t.....did he? was he capable of that? “i---what did you do? what did you do?” he asked shakily, almost scared for the answer. 

[faehelps]

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      there was no controlling what was going to happen to the people in front of him but right now he was not in control of his sane side, right now that side of him was in charge and with the bloodlust look in his eyes, it was easy to tell what he wanted. the players in front of him weren’t the usual ones they were simply waiting in a sanctuary they couldn’t even be counted as players they just wanted this all to pass and go back home but you see the group that had jumped ryder a few days ago were part of this small group of survivors and after kicking mutt he decided anyone who was close to those assholes didn’t deserve to be taking up space and supplies for themselves. the stocky male looked around the campsite noticing some younger players but that didn’t register to him all he could see were his next possible victims and that was enough to send chills of pleasure down his spine. his hand already missing the action of his pistol his fingers itching for some action as his dark hues scanned the small group of survivors in front of him, “so, which one of you wants to go first?” his hands reaching for his pistol which rested on the waistline of his jeans. everything was quiet after he spoke a few muffled sobs in the background but honestly, that was like music to his ears as he rolled his head in preparation of what was to come to them. “alright since everyone is so eager to be first i’ll do the honors of picking!” a sadistic grin now plastered on his face as he pulled out his oh so favorite pistol. mutt could tell something was off as his paw gently touched his leg along with a whine trying to get ryder’s attention but he was too far gone to whatever it was he has been dealing with. ryder ignored it though his eyes never leaving the now trembling players in front of him, “i want all the youngest of the group,” he spoke emotionlessly and that’s when the real sobbing began. the kids couldn’t be more than ten years old, clearly, parents didn’t care enough to follow the seventeen and up rule but hopefully, this would be a wake-up call.

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      part of dakota believed that it would get easier --- being stuck in a game, that is. it didn’t get easier, though. he barely ever even slept. his mind was too busy racing with the events around him while desperately trying to grasp on to what was real. he was starting to forget. every day it was like he became more a part of the game and less of a separate entity. it was absolutely terrifying. especially when he thought about everything back waiting for him in the real world (when he could remember it). he worried that it would eventually all fade away and that when he was finally pulled from this digital world, he wouldn’t be the same person. maybe he wouldn’t be a person at all. maybe he would be locked away in some hospital with nothing but nightmares keeping him company. honestly, though, he tried not to think about that. having his friends at his side definitely helped on that front. they were probably the only thing keeping him grounded and more importantly, alive.

      the brunette looked up from his hands when he’d heard footsteps approaching. the sight of ryder made him smile but it didn’t last. no, something was wrong. his smile was replaced with a frown as he nodded at his friend and gestured for him to come sit beside him. “is that even a question? you know that you can talk to me about anything, ryder,” he replied sincerely. all of his own sorrows were completely gone now. his focus was completely on the male beside him.

[ncfelibata]

                         ryder thought about it for a second as he glanced over at his phone which had a few cracks on the screen, each of them having an interesting reason for being there but that wasn’t the point. the point was that he wasted his day recording the culprits instead of jumping to action maybe show them a few moves of jujitsu that he learned off a movie ( actually, it was the old episodes of naruto he had never finished but swore he could do everything in the show ) he once watched on netflix when he couldn’t sleep but no, he decided to record them would be punishment enough. he didn’t even shoe the video to the police since he wasn’t exactly on good terms with the department in town after a small occurrence a few years back. “we can leave that to the professionals i’m just here remembering their faces so next time i’ll have the fbi and swat team ready,” he spoke tilting his chin up ever so slightly, proud of his bravery. no matter how hard he had tried to keep up this manly facade he knew it wouldn’t last forever as a what could only be described as a childish chuckle leaving his lips simply because she refered to him as her king. a part of him prayed that she didn’t hear it but he knew the chances of that were extremely low. “so, um,” he cleared his throat, “yeah let me show you around my little shop,” he spoke nervously, “oh! we are saving the puppies for last because i know i’ll be stuck with them for the rest of the day.”

                         kori was absolutely beaming up at ryder, feeling like her heart was going to completely soar out of her chest. so far he seemed to be the perfect mix of everything she looked for in a guy. if at the end of this she wasn’t getting his number, she’d failed at everything in life. “you’re such a hero. they’re lucky to have you working for them and keeping everything in order,” she teased. it was probably a little ridiculous how much joy she’d felt entering his shop. animals and a cute boy? how had she managed to get this lucky today? certainly it was a lot more than she deserved. her eyes widened at the childish chuckle before realizing it had come from ryder. “oh my god, you’re the cutest boy ever,” she laughed. if it was acceptable she’d probably be kissing him right now. based on his behavior he probably wouldn’t care, but yeah, she needed to hold it together. and she’d be super embarrassed if she couldn’t manage to do that. “it might be in your best interest to not show me the puppies unless you’re prepared to be stuck with me the rest of the day because i’ll literally never leave. my dad is allergic to dogs so i’ve never been able to have one, but i love them to death.”

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virgohqs:

                     ryder hummed as if he was deep in thought before nodding his head, “yes and yes, but hopefully you won’t regret talking to me because i will most likely cry.” he teased playfully, a soft smile now notable on his lips as he continued to just take in the female in front of him – and just like that the smile had faded and his lips had now formed an ‘o’ shape as nodded his head in acceptance of losing this imaginary pen “well in my defense, the pen had become alive and wanted to runaway along with the rest of the statistics!” he tried to justify the reason for the missing pen. was he going to ignore the burst of butterflies that came out as soon as she nudged him? yes, but only for the time being since he didn’t want to start giggling like a school girl in front of her. and just like that he was convinced that her laugh was his favorite noise in this world and there was no limit to what he would do to hear it again. chestnut hues glued to the laughing girl next to him, hummingbird heartbeat striking yet again as she gripped his arm. was it too soon to admit he was in love? to a normal person, the answer would be yes but in ryder’s case maybe not since he was a hopeless romantic and a passionate believer in love at first sight. his annoyance of the squeaky toy thieves had faded and he had nothing but love in his heart as he continued to look at the girl fondly. a soft chuckle left his lips as she spoke, she was really cute but he already knew that. his ears perked up at the mention of him bringing in a video of the criminal to her restaurant wasting no time in pulling out his cellphone from his back pocket and waving it cautiously in the air not wanting to drop it, “why wait? i even have a folder for those scoundrels on here because i send them to the owner and anyone working a shift when i’m not there,” he bragged proudly of his ‘detective ways’. and just like that, he had found himself in front of his store has no idea whatsoever how the hell he got there but he wasn’t going to question it.  “alright, mrs.waters, welcome to your kingdom,” gesturing towards the empty petshop before pulling the door open for her, “ladies first.”

                       kori thought about it for a moment before smiling assuringly up at the male. “i don’t think that i’ll regret it. i’m really liking talking to you. and just being around you in general right now, i guess,” she shrugged. no way she was going to mention the strong urge she had to just grab him and kiss him. maybe a few other things, too, but for the sake of her sanity she needed to attempt to keep her head pg. god only knows what would happen if she didn’t. “alright, fine, i accept the fate of my pen,” the girl laughed softly. her eyes absolutely lit up when he pulled out his phone and told her that he did in fact have video proof of the squeaky toy thieves. this guy was something else. “oh my god. you should get a job in security. you’d probably be good at it. then again, i guess recording the thieves instead of taking them down wouldn’t quite work for the job description.” something about him calling her mrs. waters made her heart jump in her chest. it was a stupid way to feel. they’d just met. she couldn’t catch feelings this fast. that’d be ridiculous. except, she kind of already was. ryder was the type of guy that only existed in her dreams, or so she thought. “my kingdom, huh? alright. well, my king, give me the grand tour.”

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hcaveninhiding:

                     it felt as if a hummingbird had replaced his heart due to how fast it was beating after kori had not only called him an angel but asked why every guy wasn’t like him, which he understood would be a disaster to the entire planet—no scratch that— the entire universe if more guys were like him but she didn’t have to know that part of him ever existed. “well, you know, there can only be one ryder in this world anymore would just be too much and the planet couldn’t handle that.” he teased, a chuckle leaving his lips. ryder stood there dumbfounded realizing what he had done. how could he just walk away from his store? thank god the last person in the store used a credit card if not the cash register would have probably been wide open and it would have been a free for all at the pet store; maybe it could have even made the news, who knows? and with that ryder scratched the back of his head ashamed and embarrassed at what he had done, “you know, i wasn’t really thinking when i decided to walk out…i just really needed to return that pen to you,” he decided it would be a good idea to bring up the imaginary pen up as he laughed softly to himself. “if something does get stolen it would most likley be the cat litter,” he joked trying to bring some light into the situation as he turned on his heels to head back to his job, “you know, one of the most commonly stolen things at a pet store is actually chew toys? not even food for the animsl it’s a freaking chew toy…” he began to rant about it, just the thought of walking into to an empty chew toy section was enough to get his blood boiling. “do you know how many people i have to pull aside because something inside their pants is squeaking? on avarege it’s at least two people a week and that’s too many people for my liking!” he wasn’t sure why he was suddenly ranting about this but a part of him was positive that it had to do with the fact that he was just overly nervous about being next to someone who was most likely the greek goddess of beauty rather than a dance instructor and a waitress. 

                  “so are you telling me you’re a lot to handle? am i going to regret talking to you?” kori asked curiously, tilting her head to the side slightly with a small smirk on her lips. she’d dealt with quite the variety of men so she knew that she could handle whatever he would throw her way. the smirk on her lips only grew when he brought up the whole pen thing again. it was so obvious he was lying and it was somehow super charming. he wanted to talk to her that bad that he was willing to face this kind of humiliation. “right, yes, because my pen was super important to you. which is why you lost it a second time for me, hmm?” she teased, gently nudging her elbow against the boys side. kori walked along beside ryder and was basically unable to keep her eyes off of him. maybe she thought he would disappear into thin air if she did or something. listening to him rant about the chew toy robbery epidemic had her bursting out into laughter, though, the mental image of people shoving squeaky toys in their pants filling her head. she covered her mouth with one hand and gripped ryder’s arm with the other to keep herself from potentially busting her ass because of how hard she was laughing. “oh my god! i’m so sorry, i’m sure it’s a very very serious issue in your line of work but that’s the funniest thing i think i’ve ever heard,” she said breathlessly. “i’m sorry. you seem so bothered by it, too. maybe that makes it funnier, i don’t know. this is amazing. if you bring a video to my restaurant of someone with squeaky toy pants, i might marry you on the spot. just throwing that out there.”

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hcaveninhiding:

                  ryder was about to speak and say something completely stupid but his mind went completely blank his ears perking up at the mention of him being hot. now, he knew he was slightly attractive since single cat moms would come to shop and just hang around wanting to pet his scruff and then saying it reminded them of this one cat they had once that tragically died but it was their all-time favorite cat ( which in his mind was so strange, did these ladies all share one cat without knowing? ) but hot? coming from someone as attractive as kori? now that he didn’t believe. “tell your dad that he makes your mom the luckiest woman in the world because that gnocchi? heaven sent.” why was the only thing coming out of his mouth was about her dad’s cooking and his love for italian cuisine? but oh her smile was just as breathtaking as she was his heart felt like he just ran a marathon in which he’d gladly run again and again…and again just to get that feeling to never leave his chest. now, the male wasn’t expecting her to be this excited about him running a pet store but it is what it is; honestly, though he was glad she thought it was a cool job since he didn’t feel like too much of a sore loser now. “yeah! i know some pet shops get it really bad with the whole selling sick dogs and puppies from puppy mills but i can assure you that we don’t partake in any of those big cities scandals, any of the animals we have are the animals from the shelters since the owner from the shop’s wife owns the shelter–it’s complicated but they are the sweetest things you’ll love them,” he assured her with his famous crooked smile curving on his lips, “you know what? how about we get out this chilly weather and head back to the shop? since i really want to keep having a conversation with you but i’m the only one at work today and my children start meowing, squeaking, and barking if i’m gone too long.”

                    kori laughed softly and nodded, “alright, i’ll be sure to relay the message. he’ll probably give you free food next time you come in.” honestly in this moment she couldn’t be more grateful for the fact that they’d met here on the sidewalk instead of in her restaurant. she probably would’ve done something really stupid or had customers complaining left and right about how he was getting special treatment. not that she could promise that wouldn’t end up happening anyway if he came by during one of her future shifts. she could never get that lucky. the girl’s heart practically melted as ryder explained that all the pets in his store were rescued from shelters and she was looking up at him as if he’d hung the stars in the sky. “oh my god, you’re literally an angel. that’s the sweetest thing ever. why aren’t there more guys like you out there?” she said softly with a sigh. even though he wasn’t the owner of the store so carrying rescue animals wasn’t his idea, she could still tell that it was something he cared deeply about which made her heart inexplicably happy. the girl came out of her lovestruck daze when he mentioned being the only one working. “wait, wait, you left your store unattended to come talk to me? oh my god! that’s -- that’s so cute. also really stupid. now i feel like i’m gonna be responsible if anything got stolen while you were gone. let’s go,” kori laughed softly, shaking her head at ryder.

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hcaveninhiding:

              “well, i’m not too sure it sure looked important…over 90% of pens,” he thought that up on the spot since a pen seemed to be a reasonable thing to drop and not notice, “go missing and are never seen again…guess your pen is just one of the majorities,” he shrugged a soft sigh escaping his lips as if that information was the worse thing he had ever shared. chestnut hues just taking in all the features of her face, noticing the faded freckles on the bridge of her nose and that feature alone was enough to cause his heart to skip a beat; she looked like a flawless model sent from the heavens and she was standing right in front of him and actually talking to him–pinch him he must be dreaming! a wave of relief washed over him as she assured him that he didn’t sound creepy but a part of him was saddened when hearing that she had to deal with worse creeps causing him to purse his lips in a thin line. what else was he excepting? she was gorgeous but that didn’t give guys the right to act like dogs–not like dogs, they were the best creatures god could have made– more like, idiotic assholes. yeah, that fits better. his heart was going to combust, she would have remembered him? no way that would be too good to be true.  unless it was because he did something completely outrageous in front of her that would be the only reason he’d be truly unforgettable. “no way! your parents are the owners of abello my all-time favorite italian restaurant?!” he exclaimed with excitement not knowing they had a daughter and that she even worked there since he spent most of his evenings there since cooking wasn’t his forte. “i don’t know which parent is the one who makes that gnocchi but please give my compliments to them it’s the best gnocchi i’ve ever tasted,” he requested with exceimtnet all over his eyes, poiting a finger in her direction, “ just don’t tell my grandma that i said that she’ll kill me,” he joked lightheartedly a soft laugh leaivng his parted lips. “but that’s really cool! kind of nice that you work at your parents’ restaurant and that you work at a dance studio, being busy is the only way to make money nowadays so i get that,” he smiled at her before shrugging, “uh, i work as the top sales manager over at the pet store down the road and if i ever need extra cash i work over at the record store downtown,” he replied rather embarrassed over the fact he was in his mid-twenties and worked in a pet store but hey he loved the animals and it wasn’t a stressful job so it helped alot with his condition. 

              “damn, i’m super hurt that my pen had to become a statistic,” kori faked a pout and crossed her arms over her chest, “my pen definitely deserved better. thanks for trying to be a hero. i feel really blessed that my hero got to be someone hot and not a wrinkly old guy.” her eyes widened slightly when she realized what she’d just said, though. not that telling ryder he was hot was a bad thing. she usually just....didn’t. even when she did find someone insanely attractive. the girl’s heart practically flew out of her chest when he began talking about her restaurant. it was his favorite? holy shit, how had she never seen him there? she was definitely going to have to start asking her parents for more shifts if it meant she would see him more often. which she already knew she wanted. “the gnocchi is made by my dad, so i’ll absolutely pass on the compliment,” she grinned. her heart had seriously never felt so full. how was she suppose to stop thinking about that now? her parents restaurant that she was one day going to be the owner of was his favorite? she was going to die right there on that sidewalk. “your secret is safe with me,” she promised. kori brushed some hair out of her face and listened as ryder continued to speak, genuinely hooked onto every word he said. she already wanted to know basically everything about him. she froze when he mentioned a record store downtown. it couldn’t be dakota’s, could it? it was the only record store she knew of but....no, no way. she definitely would’ve known if dakota had someone like ryder working in his store. then it registered with her that he mentioned he was the manager of a pet store and that excitement she’d had just a few minutes ago when he mentioned her restaurant was back. “a pet store? with animals? oh my god,” she said with a bright grin, jumping slightly and grabbing his hand, “will you take me? i love animals so much, oh my god. i think i’m gonna cry. you officially have the best job ever. this is amazing.”

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hcaveninhiding:

             the urge to giggle like a school girl was there after noticing her checking him out ( the urge to punch himself was also there since he had decided to dress like a middle-aged father who talks about golf but has never once actually played the sport…he let this be a lesson to himself. ) hearing her call him sweetheart and if he was honest that’s the only word he even heard from that entire sentence. ryder stood there for a few seconds truly admiring the girl before him and if he thought she was gorgeous walking by his job words couldn’t even begin to describe her now. a fake chuckle leaving his lips as he scratched the side of his neck nervously turning his around as if he was searching for the object he had to seel it at this point if not he looked like a crazy guy, “oh, you know what?” both his hands coming up in defense, “i think i just accidentally dropped what you dropped…you know, it’s good as gone now,” he shook his head softly while clicking his tongue. he thanked his lucky star ( and improv class )  for this moment. kori. a beatiful name for a gorgeous girl, it fit. “hey i’m telling you it wasn’t invisible,” he laughed softly at his own stupidity before extending out a hand towards her, “i’m ryder, with a y not an i.i knoe alot of people tend to make that mistake so…” oh yeah, he was totally keeping his cool, “it’s nice to meet you, kori, like really nice to meet you,” a smirk now curving on a corner of his lips as he emphaized on the really part. normally when meeting someone there are steps one has to follow to lead up to the dating phase and so on but ryder was more than willing to sell everything he owned and used his savings to buy a wedding ring and just get hitched right then and there but he had to remind himself that he didn’t know anything about the girl in front of her and sure, she was breathtaking and her smile was the reason the sun would hide behind the cloud because there was no way it could outshine her; he had to take things slow. like for instanse find out if she had a boyfriend or if she was single and looking for a boyfriend which was perfect for him because he was also looking for a girlfriend. killing two birds with one stone. “so, i’ve never seen you around here before…wait, that sounds like those horrible bar pickup lines but i’m being honest, i’m pretty sure i would have rememebred someone like you in this town…again not trying to sound creepy just being honest…” he sighed to himself, talking to girls was defietly not his forte especially when they were waaaaay out of his league; like kori.

               kori couldn’t help but laugh at the boy in front of her. it was pretty obvious that he was lying but she found the effort to not come off as a total creep quite endearing. she could already tell that he wasn’t anything like the other guys that tended to hang around her. the ones who really only cared about what she would do for her between the sheets until she played with their heads and made them wonder instead what they could do for her. “ah, right. that’s a shame. though i guess if i was so careless with it then it must not have had much importance in the first place,” she shrugged, deciding to play along. not like it could hurt anything to boost the guys ego a bit. the girl quirked a brow as he informed her of the spelling of his name as if it were some completely life changing information. honestly though, she didn’t mind it. it was pretty cute. everything about ryder was cute. “ryder..” kori repeated softly to herself, looking down at her heeled boots. part of her was suddenly feeling a bit shy around him which was definitely unusual. nobody ever made her shy. at least not since -- well, she didn’t think about him anymore. she pursed her lips and looked back up at him. “it’s really nice to meet you, too.” part of her had this ridiculous urge to reach out and, like, poke him or something just to make sure he was real. because there was no way he could be. he wasn’t making creepy advances and his eyes weren’t focused on places they shouldn’t be. it could be an act, though. some “nice guy” ploy just to get her to hook up with him in the backseat of his car. not that she’d really mind that, if she were being honest with herself. “you don’t sound creepy, don’t worry. you’re actually the opposite of creepy compared to what i normally deal with,” kori shrugged before continuing, “i actually don’t get around here often. if i did, i think i’d remember you, too. i spend most my time at my family restaurant, abello’s. maybe you know it? if not, you should come by. nobody cooks better than my parents. but, uh, i also work at a dance studio teaching classes. so...yeah. i’m a pretty busy person.” then she was looking around to see where ryder might’ve come from. more than likely he worked in the area. “what about you? what do you do?”

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hcaveninhiding:

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        it had been a slow day at the store today and ryder knew it had to be the weather since most pet parents tended to stay indoors with their cuddly critters whenever it was even the slightest bit chilly. though it was almost may so what the hell was happening? where is the spring warmth all the vloggers on social media are posting about? because it sure as hell wasn’t where he lived. after restocking the inventory and play with the hamsters for four hours ( well, restocking only took twenty minutes the rest of the time belonged to the hamsters he had so gladly befriended. ) the brunet had to decide if it was time to close shop for the day and just head home early or stick it out and make some few extra cash to pocket; and with that it was as if god had heard his players the familiar ringing of the doorbell brought fake smile to his face as his chestnut hues landed on a customer. “hello, welcome is there anything i can help you with today?” he greeted politely almost sounding like a robot, the man simply shook his head as he continued to wander through the store. great he was going to be one of those people. a puff of air left his lips as he leaned against the counter, tapping his fingers to a beat of a random song that had come to his mind— great, another disney princess song— and it was all thanks to layla. time went by slowly as the customer picked out a few items and headed towards the cash register where ryder waited, the fake smile back on his face and his tone sounding more robotic than before, “hopefully you found everything you were looking for without trouble,” a line he had said a million times as he checked out the items. “it’s a grand total of….34.87,” he looked up at the male in front of him who could care less about any of this and handed him the credit card. ryder did his things, passing the credit card, charging it, signing and boom done but as he was about to hand the credit card back to the other his eyes had landed on what he swore had to be some kind of princess from another country that just so happened get stuck in his crappy town. she was beautiful—no no, she was beyond that she was gorgeous…actually he was having a hard time finding the word to describe her. and with that the male let the card fall from his hands and walked out of the store carelessly, walking after her. so, yeah, maybe it was a little creepy but he didn’t care. what if that was his soulmate and he just let her walked away? he wouldn’t live with himself if that was the case. ryder followed the girl for about…three minutes before bending over to pretend to pick something up building up enough courage to tap her shoulder gently, “uh, hey, excuse me,” his voice sounded confident but he sure didn’t feel it, “you dropped this and i thought it should return it to you,” a soft smile curving on his lips and though it seemed like a good idea a few seconds ago…now he had nothing to actually give her since well, she didn’t drop anything in the first place. 

           despite the chill in the air, kori had decided to take advantage of her day of and spend it out around the town. she never understood why people made such a fuss about the weather. though honestly she was kind of grateful that they did because it made the streets and stores a lot easier to navigate. however after walking for a few hours and being unable to find anything worth adding to her wardrobe in any of the stores around, she was basically ready to call it quits for the day or call up one of her friends to see if they’d come out of hibernation to humor her with their crazy antics. there was never a dull moment when they were around. then again, she wasn’t exactly in the mood for the things donovan or autumn would probably propose and dakota more than likely had his hands tied with little layla. the girl sighed, brushing her fingers through her brunette hair. alright, so she’d officially accepted that this day was a bust and she needed to just get home. which is exactly where she was headed when she felt a tap on her shoulder and a voice talking behind her. kori put on her signature (fake) smile that won over all the customers at her families restaurant and turned around to face whoever it was. though the second she laid eyes on him, that smile fell. because holy shit, this had to be the most attractive guy she’d ever seen. and she didn’t even try to mask the fact that she was one hundred percent checking him out, her eyes doing a full body scan as she bit her lip. she froze when she realized what he’d said. had she even had anything to drop? wait, did he even have anything in his hands? oh my god, he didn’t. kori looked back up at the males face with a grin, shaking her head as she chuckled softly. “you know, sweetheart, that might’ve worked if you actually had something in your hands,” she teased, admiring his facial features for a few seconds before continuing, “i’m honestly not sure why you even bothered. not like you’re a burden to look at.” normally she would’ve just left it at that and walked away. she generally disliked it when guys made moves on her, especially when they were using lame pickup lines. but this guy was too much of a blessing to turn her back on. “i’m kori, if you were wondering. unless you weren’t and genuinely came to return an invisible object to me.”

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hcaveninhiding:

                    it made sense that after their sudden new unlocked level or whatever in their relationship that secrets had to be kept but he never expected it to be this soon. there were two things ryder was unquestionably sure about the first, he had now his first secret with dakota and he couldn’t be more thrilled to have a secret with someone he cared deeply about. second, he was the absolute worse when it came to keeping secrets which is why he never had or kept any—ever. that didn’t mean he wasn’t willing to give it a try since this wasn’t exactly a small secret…it was pretty big. chestnut hues raking the room once more the dead bodies still pretty dead and just laying there. a snack for the zombies that will soon overrun this place. ryder scrunched his nose as he placed his attention back towards the other a soft smile now plastered on his face as he heard dakota speak of his daughter. maybe it wasn’t a total given especially in his position in a game about death and zombie but ryder? he loved kids. if he ever got out of this game and tried to actually meet someone in the real world he wanted to find the perfect person who was willing to start a family with him and have a bunch of kids in the future; but of course, he was still young so maybe in a few more years…though every day he spends inside the game is a day less he goes without meeting his soulmate. “fine, i’ll just use the word baddie, or whatever the hell that means but it does describe you pretty well, dakota the baddie,” a playful wink being sent in his direction as he spoke, though he did just find out that one of his closest friends was pretty…interesting fellow how could he not love him? “do you think she’ll love me more? because now i have to find a way to get us all out of this game just so i can meet this notorious layla and tell her how cool i am without even mentioning my time in this damn game but you know, back out there i’m a pretty bad ass general manager at a pet store not that i’m bragging or anything but…i’m pretty fucking awesome out there.” he stated, confidently nodding his head. though ryder did know the severity of their current position and the situation he just couldn’t shake off the feeling of what he had witnessed mixed in with that he had done a few minutes ago before walking in on dakota having his own little party, he couldn’t remember much on what happened between him and the other players but he knew they were history now and whatever he had done withh surely comeback to him whenever he’s alone or trying to sleep he always expected it now after blacking out but he would rather just forget it and go on pretending he had never harmed another human but he knew all too well he was the reason many weren’t going to ever return home in the real world. 

                       dakota followed ryder’s gaze, glancing around the room with his lips pursed. he wished he knew exactly what the other boy was thinking and not just saying to make him feel better. not that he thought ryder was being dishonest. just....withholding bits of the truth, perhaps. he had to be. of course he knew that ryder wasn’t a saint and had done his share of bad things but there was no way this was okay. people were dead now. real people. because of him. with no real cause behind it. just his own anger and head that he can’t control. at least not in here. god, he hoped the sanity meter wouldn’t affect him in real life. he couldn’t just go all horror film killer on people when they pissed him off. “dakota the baddie. i like that. kind of means i’m a villain, but layla did always like darth vader better than obi-wan kenobi. so maybe i can be her darth vader. hopefully with the redemption story added at the end of all of this as well,” he smiled softly. that smile fell completely as ryder informed him about his life outside of the game. and, yeah, nope. scrap all that darth vader shit. he was screwed. he was properly screwed. “a pet store manager? are you serious? mate, i’m so fucking done for. bloody hell. i own a record store. what five year old likes records? not my five year old. but she loves animals. you’re officially better than i am and i’m not sure i can go on with that knowledge. we might be better off if you just threw me to the zombies and called it a day,” dakota joked. honestly, though, it was kind of hard to joke when they were surrounded by death. “we should probably get out of here.”

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                 ryder pulled a face as dakota mentioned choosing a rather….interesting route instead of the simple bullet through the head. “well, you know, maybe you’ve been hanging around zee too much? this stuff is kind of her…what’s the word i’m looking for? oh!— specialty.” quirking both brows at the last word and maybe it wasn’t time to joke about it perhaps it was too soon but he was just trying to lighten the mood up. yeah, maybe it was too soon. ryder cleared his throat as he watched the brunet with curious and worrisome eyes he didn’t know what else to do he just wanted his friend to know that no matter what he had done or was going to continue doing that he didn’t need to worry or ever be cautious around him after all ryder saw their small group almost like a family which was comical in a sense they were stuck inside a game that had something in every corner trying to kill them every second but he somehow had found relief and even comfort knowing he had this little group of just three other survivors that he could call a family. ryder was taken by surprise when he felt dakota pull him in for a rather tight hug, even for a game this felt more real than the hugs aunt beverly used to give him during the holidays; of course, he couldn’t just stand there like an idiot so ryder did what any sane person would do and hug the other back. a faint smile curving on his lips as he instinctively rubbed the others back in comfort. “hey no problem, dude, can’t wait till we get the hell out of this game so i can finally meet layla and tell her what a badass you were.” 

                  dakota wanted to laugh at ryder’s joke but instead he just frowned. “you can’t tell her about this, okay? she....she doesn’t know. nobody knows. you weren’t even suppose to know,” he admits softly. the last thing he wanted was for his friends to think any less of him or any differently in general. they had a good dynamic going. he never wanted that to change, especially not because of him. he did end up laughing, though, when ryder brought up telling layla that he was a badass. with a shake of his head he was pulling back from the hug and grinning at his friend. “i wanna tell you not to tell my child that i was a badass, especially not if you were using the word badass, but honestly i’m gonna need to boost of cool points. she loves me but she thinks i’m lame. and when she meets you? i’ll just be a sad forgotten man,” the brunette laughed, though honestly there was more truth than fiction in his words. 

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