jelly — nineteen, agender, kei/kyr. extremely aroace nd strictly fictosexual. a submissive&bratty yandere kitty-cat ❤︎. hard and taboo kinks. medieval settings, jrpgs, music, anime, video games, weed. ask me about my interests !
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I'M NOT INTERESTED !!⠀⠀⠀⠀i am strictly fictosexual, anything i write and post myself will never be directed at another irl person and i am not interested in anything of the such. ⠀⠀⠀⠀i will not engage in kink with anyone else, so do not even try to come into my dms or asks trying to hit on me. ⠀⠀⠀⠀kink asks are fine, including scenarios or desires if you'd like to hear my thoughts on them or elaborate on a thought you may have.
MINORS DNI. - under 18 do not interact.
guidelines .. have your age in your bio. ⠀⠀⠀⠀don't ask for photos, videos, vcs, etc. i'm not interested in anyone 'real'. my blog is purely meant for sexual fantasies about my fictional others.⠀⠀⠀⠀ i highly doubt i'll post any f/o's on here with their names, but for my own comfort, i will disclose that i'm voidsharing with izuku midoriya and request doubles do not interact with my blog. ⠀⠀⠀⠀i block freely, tread carefully.
warnings .. this blog will feature hard kinks and fantasies,, which some may find triggering or unpleasant. follow at your own discretion, but everything will be tagged . let me know if i miss something when posting.
grey area ; off the top of my head, i'm iffy about omorashi/piss. hypno. ddlg. infantilism. mommy kink. a/b/o dynamics. these are case-to-case and may change, so not hard limits.
HARD X ; REAL PEOPLE. anal. scat+vomit. feederism+weight gain. pregnancy. breeding. gender play. lactation. fisting. race play. cross-dressing & 'sissy' stuff. puppy play. clicker training. 'healthy' and 'soft' dynamics just don't do it for me either. probably more. send me an ask and i'll let you know.. if there's something you're curious about.
layout is by @ sinnic . milk dividers . paw dividers . ribbon dividers . himiko toga divider .
bpd vent, nsft ,, bpd mentioned in kink space. unhealthy. this is purely raw impulse thoughts written during a split.
my bpd is yearning for angry hate sex where i'm abused and heavily marked in blue & purple because of it. I need someone to want me right now, even if it's just full of hatred before tossing me asides like some fucked up snuff bait to use as an anger management tool. I miss being in an unhealthy & fucked up dynamic,, i severely miss sobbing & pleading for someone to stay nd that I'll be better for them, that I'll change any way they want and even let them use me anytime they want & anywhere at all if it just means they'll stay and love me.
you don't even have to mean it. just tell me you love me, that you'll never forget me and that I'm everything you want, please. I don't care if you have to lie to me, i don't care if i disgust you,, because i disgust myself too. I can't do this without you, I can't live in a world where you don't want me!! there is no point if you're not near me, beat me, kick me, slap and punch me, choke me out, cut me, push my head into water until I pass out, I don't care!! I just need you in my life, i'd be the perfect fuck toy you've ever had!!! if you don't , i'll do it myself ,, i'll make myself bleed out by your feet right now if you even think about leaving me again. please. I need you in my life.
you're the only one who understands me. who saw how disgusting i am and still fucked me like I meant something to you. please, just do it again, I need to feel that way again, i don't want to be alone anymore.
pulling your hips back right as you get close. feeling how soaked you’ve made my leg. feeling you try to grind against nothing.
“aww.” wiping your tear. “were you close?” watching you nod frantically. “i know puppy. i felt it..” holding your hips still. feeling you shake with the effort of not moving. “but good puppies finish when i say so.” pressing my thigh forward just slightly. feeling you immediately try to press down onto it. pulling back. watching your face crumble. “and i haven’t said so.”
you whimpering. grabbing my wrists. not to move my hands. just to hold on.
sliding one hand between your legs. feeling how soaked through your underwear is. pulling it back. showing you. “look at that. soaking through your underwear just from humping my thigh.” watching your face go red through the tears. “and you still have to wait.” pressing my thigh forward again. holding your hips back simultaneously. feeling you sob. “i know.” cooed softly at you. “i know puppy. just a little longer and then you can finish. i promise.”
The look in their eyes as they go from tentatively licking the tip to tease you, to gagging around it when it's suddenly shoved down their throat — their eyes flying wide open and watering in a split second
In a mood right now... I just got the strongest urge to fuck up some pathetic thing's face and desecrate their body to the point where no one else would dare to touch them out of pure disgust for their marred figure. To cure my sick curiosity, I'd have to settle for you. Luring you away from watchful eyes, eager and excited to see you writhe in pain and agony. A heated knife or two so I can plunge it deep into that eye socket and carve my name across your once unblemished skin, letting you feel each and every searing cut into your delicate flesh as I leave permanent marks for you to remember me by. That's if I ever let you live. Your body would serve as the perfect, once-living sex doll with all those deep slits I cut into you, and that perfect pocket pussy that once held your beautiful eye. I'm going to hold onto you until your very last moment with me on this earth.
i want something to use,, not someone,, something.
“you wanna be good for me right?”
something that is completely dependent on me,, does whatever i tell it to do. doesn’t eat unless i say it can,, cuts when and only when i tell it too,, gets off only when i say so !! (because only i can control its agony, or pleasure) ⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺
if i tell it to send me a video of it cutting itself, that’s what it does. if i tell it to touch itself, and to not stop touching until i tell it to - and i don’t respond again for hours - i expect it to still be touching itself when i come back. i don’t expect it to have cum, because i didn’t give permission.
“i’m the only one who can deal with you”
i can do whatever i want to it,, whether that be ruthlessly fucking it,, beating it,, or raping it. and it wants to do anything for a sliver of my attention,, ruin itself with drugs or self-mutilation and drinking because it knows i like my pets that way,, and that’s the only way i’ll keep it around. the only way i’ll love it. broken and whorish. might even pimp its useless ass out to make money on the side, because it’d do anything to make me happy, and do anything to hurt itself.
it loves me more than it loves itself,, loves me more than it loves its life,, and the life of the people it care about. i matter more, right? ᡣ𐭩 ྀིྀ
“i honestly don’t care if it hurts, baby.”
it’s so disgusting,, that it gets off when i tell it how i’ll kill it !! might cut it up til it bleeds out all nasty,, or suffocate it while i use its body (my body, it belongs to me) the way i want to, or shoot it when it stops pleasing me — it gets needy, whining like a stupid fucking dog. make fun of it for cumming to the idea,, punish it because i didnt say it could cum,, but it’s ok because it’s just fuckmeat so i can’t blame it for getting off.
i’m not doing this because i hate you,, i’m doing this because it’s fun !! ≽^-⩊-^≼
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i’m looking for more toys, so be good and send me something in my dms or asks !!
i want to condition a toy to love my abuse so bad then abandon it.. and when it tries to find someone else ,, it’ll realize that nobody will threaten to rape it ,, drug it ,, make it to cut itself ,, or tell it just how it’ll be killed quite like i can .ᐟ i’ve ruined you for everyone baby ,, you were moulded just for my entertainment ,, my plaything ,, and now nobody else can play with you ♱
dehumanization is nice and all, but sometimes i want to remind you just how human you really are. ( ˶ˆᗜˆ˵ )
i don’t want you to slip into that dissociative haze, the one that makes you so malleable and docile, and makes it easier to weather all the cruel treatment i dish out. that’s cheating (。•́︿•̀。) because it’s easier to get off on being mutilated by my blade, to get off on being used by me, when you believe you’re an object made for it. a vessel devoid of independent will, stripped of all autonomy .ᐟ.ᐟ
i want you to be aware the entire time. to feel the hurt. i don’t want you to think you’re an object made for this, i want you to know that you biologically aren’t. that you had opportunities to live a good life, privilege, but this is what you get. i want you to feel every last ounce of your humanity crushing down on you, to deny you the solace of detachment, i want you to be consumed by the very thing you tried to forget. you need to think for yourself, and drown in your thoughts, and beg me to take that humanity away.
the way patients in pain crave death, i want you to crave being seen as less than. to beg to be treated like an animal, a ‘thing’ because it’s easier than this. and i still won’t give you that respite. a cycle of dehumanization and rehumanization that fluctuate on how i feel. ♱
voice trembling, you beg for a break, but they only slow down. they don’t stop, just grind in deeper, forcing you to feel every inch. they lick at your tear-stained cheeks and whisper, “you can take it, can’t you?” they smirk against your cheek. “not that you have a choice.”
Open your mouth. Good girl. Puppies need mouth inspections too, right baby? Look at all that drool. Does it feel good when I rub your tongue? Yeah? What about a bit further hmm? Someone is getting all dizzy... Does my puppy need something else filling their throat? Is that it?
I love the concept of someone teaching you how to fuck. how to kiss, what it feels like to have someone else’s hands on you, someone else’s tongue. all under the guise of them being helpful, sweet to you, so you’re not nervous for when it ‘really’ happens. only for them to make sure they’re the only ones who ever get to see you that way