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Do you have any ModernAU Rhaenicent fics recommandations where Rhaenyra is genderqueer/non binary and we follow her coming in and coming out alongside her (slow burn) relationship with Alicent ?

And if it's also about parenthood it's a bonus

Thank youuu

#hotd #house of the dragon #rhaenyra targaryen #alicent hightower #rhaenyra x alicent #rhaenicent #fanfictions #fic rec #thank youuu #modern au

Falling back in a HOTD obsession is like coming back to a burning house with dead and dying people everywhere but still being excited about it because yes, the roof is falling on my head and i know it will all crumble to the ground and wtf is that plot anyway but nevermind, i'm here to look at these beautiful and tragic sapphic women yearning for each others in the middle of that disaster and i love it

#tragic wlw is my daily drug #i'm watching that show as if i was reading a fanfiction now #i'm here for Rhaenicent and whatever hell they're going into together #i'm so excited tbh #it will be terrible #i want Rhaenicent to kiss #hotd #house of the dragon #rhaenyra x alicent #Rhaenicent

clexabookmarks

MASTER LIST

*COFFEE SHOPS/ CANDLE SHOPS AU

*NEIGHBORS/ ROOMMATES AU

*NO STRINGS ATTACHED/ FAKE DATING AU

*CHILDHOOD FRIENDS TO LOVERS AU

*FRIENDS TO LOVERS/ SOULMATES AU

*BARS/ RESTAURANTS/ STORES AU

*HOSPITALS/ LAW ENFORCEMENT AU

*FOSTER HOMES/ HARRY POTTER/ SUMMER AU

*WEDDINGS/ CELEBRITIES/ AIRPORTS AU

RANDOM (I) (II)

HIGH SCHOOL (I) (II) (III)

COLLEGE (I) (II) (III)

List (I) (II) (III) (IV) (V) (VI) (VII) (VIII) (IX) (X) (XI) (XII) (XIII) (XIV) (XV) (XVI) (XVII) (XVIII) (XIX) (XX) (XXI) (XXII) (XXIII)

CLEXAWEEK 2017

DAY 1 : ENEMIES TO LOVERS

DAY 2 : ROOMMATES

DAY 3 : STUCK TOGETHER

DAY 4 : FAKE DATING

DAY 5 : ALTERNATE CANON/DIVERGENT CANON

DAY 6 : FRIENDS TO LOVERS

DAY 7 : FREE DAY

Clexa Halloween Week Masterlist (2017):

Monday: Free Day (aka. SPECIAL TRICK OR TREAT DAY!)

Tuesday: Halloween Night (or Witches)

Wednesday: Horror Movies

Thursday: Vampires, Werewolves, Ghosts, Zombies

Friday: Trick or Treat

Saturday: Party & Costumes

Sunday: Historical AU

CLEXA HOLIDAY SPECIAL 2017

CLEXAWEEK 2018

DAY 1 : MEET UGLY

DAY 2 : CONSTANTLY MISTAKEN FOR A COUPLE

DAY 3 : AT WORK

DAY 4 : ACCIDENTAL STIMULATION

DAY 5 : RIVALS IN A SECRET RELATIONSHIP

DAY 6 : FAMOUS

DAY 7: FREE DAY

CLEXTOBER 18

CLEXMAS18

CLEXAWEEK 2019

DAY 1 : USELESS LESBIAN

DAY 2 : NO STRINGS ATTACHED

DAY 3 : ONLY ONE BED

DAY 4 : NIPPLES

DAY 5 : TINDER AU & NERD/POPULAR TROPE

DAY 6 : ENEMIES TO LOVERS

DAY 7 : FREE DAY

I'm not sure i'll finish that drawing but I wanted to share it here, because it's been 10 years and they're still so important. The inspiration for this is the amazing and beautiful fanfiction This heart, fossilized and silent (one was tender and once was violent), by Chrmdpoet.

#they mean so so much #i loved that moment in the forest with the glowing moss in the fanfic #this fanfic made me crazy #thank you Chrmdpoet #thank you lexa #and Clexa #and all fanfic authors #lexa #clexa #the 100 #clexa art #clexa fanfic

gritandoengay

10 years since Lexa was killed off, a small retrospective

I had to write this today. Clexa and Lexa were such a big part of my life ten years ago and for some time afterwards that, yeah....this post was always inevitable. Today is March 3rd, 2026, and it's officially been 10 years since Lexa was killed off in The 100.

The state of things in 2016

Younger sapphics don't understand how groundbreaking Clexa felt. We had no mainstream rep aside from like, Sense8 and Orange is the New Black, plus side characters in shows like Glee. Carmilla was a big fucking deal and, listen, I fucking love Carmilla and will forever treasure it, but it was a youtube series sponsored by Kotex that started with no budget whatsoever. This was the wlw media landscape at the time. Then came The 100.

The first season of The 100 was frankly meh and had very little hints of gay, but then came season 2. Not only was season 2 actually good, and not just CW good but like actually one of the best seasons of television that year good, but it introduced Lexa, the badass lesbian Commander of a whole civilization. We already loved her, but then, then, and this is where everybody collectively went ''HOLY FUCK'' - Lexa kisses and officially becomes a love interest for the protagonist of the show, Clarke.

Nobody had seriously been expecting that.

So, Clarke was now the bisexual protagonist of a network show, one that was receiving wide acclaim for its second season at that, and in a same sex romance. What's more, unlike the case with Korra, this romance would actually be explored on screen and not just hinted at at the end of the series. The only other show doing that at the time with a protagonist was Orange is the New Black, but Piper and Alex's relationship was presented as toxic and messy from the outset. Expectations for season three of The 100 were sky high, Clarke and Lexa felt like a chance for a central wlw ship on a big mainstream show to have a grand romance and be endgame against all odds.

Didn't happen, obviously.

That fateful night

I remember vividly how that night went down for me. I paused the episode right after Clarke and Lexa finally had sex together and ran to the nearby grocery store before it closed, incredibly giddy and smiling the entire time. My body was vibrating from the sheer euphoria as I made my way down the street. I made sure not to check any social media because I didn't want to be spoiled what would happen the rest of the episode. That was clearly the best decision, because for that short trip to the grocery store, I truly believed that Clarke and Lexa were going to make it. That they were going to be the first big wlw ship that go to be endgame in a mainstream show and have their romance play out completely on screen.

I came back home, clicked play on the rest of the episode, and then my world came crashing down. It felt that way online too. Heart break, confusion, betrayal, frustration, rage - that's what the show and ship tags on Tumblr were full of. People couldn't believe it. We had been foolish enough to think that Jason Rothenberg and co were sincere in their courtship of wlw fans, that they weren't leading us on for ratings and clout. Not only did it turn out to be the case that Lexa and Clexa were being used to generate more hype for the show, but she was killed off in frankly one of the most bullshit and insulting ways possible, being shot by her father figure literally only a few minutes after the Clexa sex scene (For what it's worth, the actual writer of the episode has apologized for it several times and even went to Clexacon. Javi is a cool guy).

I felt numb. Lexa being killed off legitimately contributed to my depression that year. The way people talked about her was as if we had lost a loved one, and it fucking felt that way man. So many of us related to her, saw ourselves in her. We felt like society was finally paying attention to and valuing our stories, our humanity. I had never, ever seen that amount of heart break in a fandom and thankfully I haven't seen anything like that again since. Other characters that were important representation to marginalized groups had been killed before, obviously, that same year also saw the brutal death of Glenn on The Walking Dead and The 100 itself managed to piss off even more people with the way it killed off Lincoln only a few episodes later, but Lexa's death truly felt like a tragedy in wlw fandoms.

The fallout

It's incredibly important to note that Lexa was, at that point, just the latest in a long, long history of wlw characters that had been killed off. It used to be mandatory by government censorship to kill off queer characters, but even after those laws were lifted, homophobia made it so that queer characters kept getting killed off and ''Bury Your Gays'' continued well into the 21st century. That year alone, in 2016, a good number of other wlw characters were killed off as well, and wlw viewers had had it. We were fucking done with that bullshit.

The outcry was so big that companies learned not to queer bait to that scale again. I legitimately don't remember how many times some variation of ''LGBTFansDeserveBetter'' trended on social media, and these campaigns lasted for months. This shit was written about on many big mainstream media outlets, entire billboards were taken out in places like New York and LA, it inspired an endless amount of academic papers and even a documentary. Hell, an entire convention dedicated to wlw rep was formed and ran for a few years until COVID.

There was so much going on in the activism side. People from all walks of life - younger and older, from every corner of the world - came together to make it known they had had it with the queerbaiting and being used for ratings boosts without meaningful representation. On the smaller fandom side, people also channeled their defiance into creative outlets, making so many fanfics and fan art and edits that Clexa would go on to hold the record for most written about wlw ship on ao3 in a given year until CaitVi came along and broke it nine years later.

It really was a movement y'all.

10 years later

It's 2026 now and a lot of people seem to have forgotten about or don't even know who Lexa and Clexa are, to which I say....good, honestly.

I'm glad that the media landscape is now one where wlw fans don't have to resort to a show where the lesbian was killed off for their rep. I'm glad that young people don't have to go digging through media from decades ago for scraps, that there is newer stuff for them that doesn't end in heart break and actually centers our stories. I'm glad that we're at a point where there's wlw rep in multiple different genres, in tv shows as big as Arcane, The Last of Us, Hazbin Hotel, Pluribus, and Bridgerton.

I'm glad that we have ships like CaitVi, where not only is one of the protagonists a wlw, but it's a series where almost everybody dies by the end except the wlw and the literal last scene is of them snuggling by a fire together. I like to think that our advocacy in the Clexa fandom contributed to that happy ending for CaitVi. The show was already in production in 2016, so the creators and Riot definitely saw what went down. In a way, CaitVi turned out to be what many of us in the Clexa fandom were hoping Clexa would be. I legitimately felt a sense of ''Wow, this is really happening, after all these years'' when Arcane ended and our wlw got a happy ending together.

The downside is that now it feels like there's much less....unity, to be honest, in wlw fandoms. There's obviously the fact that wlw are more splintered now in different fandoms, which is obviously a good thing. I think this is also partly because Tumblr is no longer the home of fandoms and the other big apps just promote endless discourse/watching video edits, but either way, the absence of this wider wlw community is sorely felt. I don't know if that kind of thing will ever happen again because that environment was created in part through sheer trauma and people bonding over what little sliver of representation we did have, but I still miss it. I really miss the heyday of wlw fandoms on Tumblr.

From a personal standpoint, I met people I still talk to every day that I never would have come in contact with otherwise. I will forever be grateful to the Clexa fandom for that alone.

Reshop, Heda. You helped pave the way for many after you.

#makes me emotional #Lexa #clexa #The 100 #clarke and lexa

waitingforshow

Important fact of this day.

#that's the day #the famous one #let's say it's just the day Lexa and Clarke finally get together #nothing else #lexa #the 100 #clexa

nefertari-lilys

We're in 2026 now and, in less than 2 months, it will be 10 years that Lexa is gone.

I was not there on march 3 2016. I only watched The 100 6 years later, in 2022, with my first girlfriend. I cried when they killed her and I was so angry and then i came in the fandom and i learned all that has happened after her death. And I was amazed. I wish I could have been there at the time, crying and fighting with everyone.

But I was not and Lexa was such an important character to me that I knew I had to do something about that. She was the starting point of me thesis work that I wrote about F/F fanfictions and how they represent special spaces of identity construction and expression for queer and sapphic people.

Now I'm watching The 100 again, with others friends and, once again, I'm hit by Lexa's influence in my life and in queer representations in cultural media. I was not part of the fandom back then and all the beautiful things you've done but I wanted to thank you all for that, all the persons who fought, boycotting the show, raising funds, creating the ClexaCon, fanart, videos, fanfictions.

It will be 10 years and we never forgot, we never will. Lexa lived through us and all the fans and fanworks and I think it's beautiful.

I'm glad this fandom exists even if it's not as strong as it was back then.

May we meet again.

sassymajesty

March 3rd, 2016

#lexa #the 100 #it's been 10 years and we will never forget

hedalexa

It’s been 10 years.

So let’s talk about it. Ten years ago I was on the frontlines with many other queers watching in utter horror as our favorite new icon was murdered. Lexa was a fictional character, but she symbolized so much more. There wasn’t nearly as much sapphic representation on tv, let alone on such a widely accessible channel, ten years ago as there is now. We were already starved for it. We’d been gifted an amazing character. A badass, young, female warrior who grown ass men respected and followed without question, who lead her people with sensibility and compassion. And then we were given enemies to lovers. The conflicted, complex, emotional roller coaster that was Clarke and Lexa. Two powerhouses who didn’t fall in love easily, they had to fight for it. No wonder Clexa was so iconic.

But we were also skeptical. We shouted loudly “We’ve seen this before!” “We’re afraid she’s going to be killed!” “We don’t want another victim of ‘bury your gays!’”

And we were promised Lexa would live.

We were lied to.

The network showed clips of the season finale with Lexa in it, to lure us into a false sense of security. Then that night, March 3, 2016, they gave us the Clexa sex scene, they gave us happy Clexa, they told us she would be fine, then they shot her on screen and we all watched our icon die.

I was 24 years old, a lesbian yearning for any on screen representation, and finally finding an incredible source. I cried for weeks. It hurt for years. I genuinely grieve this fictional character. I’m still not over the injustice, I just live with it deep in my heart. Lexa is part of me now. I haven’t had interest in any sapphic shows since. I’d been raised on Tara Maclay, and witness to Lexa. I’ve mistrusted tv writers ever since because I don’t want to get my heart broken again.

I never watched a single episode of The 100 after 3x07. I’ve seen clips of Lexa’s appearances and mentions. I know the significance of the series finale. The only thing I can say is Thank You to Alycia who chose her finale appearance with grace and understanding of the impact Lexa had. She was not going to let them use Lexa to hurt us again.

This is why Lexa is so deeply important to me. She is my icon. She is a symbol of the pain and injustice we suffer in the LGBT community. She is a warrior and a leader. She is my Heda.

Reshop, Heda

#lexa the 100 #clexa #heda lexa #the 100 #lexa is so important #may we meet again

raccoonhearteyes

TEN FUCKING YEARS WITHOUT LEXA

who would’ve thought this girl would have a vice grip on my soul ten years later

#it's the day #ten years later and she's still so important #we will never forget #lexa #clexa #Lexa deserved better #may we meet again #i love her so much

buddie-romance

thank you ao3 for being an archive and not an algorithm. thank you for letting me like things without consequences, thank you for being free with no ads, thank you for having lawyers to defend our freedom of speech. thank you tag wranglers. thank you to all authors and thank you ao3

#thank you ao3 #ao3

We're in 2026 now and, in less than 2 months, it will be 10 years that Lexa is gone.

It will be 10 years and we never forgot, we never will. Lexa lived through us and all the fans and fanworks and I think it's beautiful.

I'm glad this fandom exists even if it's not as strong as it was back then.

May we meet again.

#lexa the 100 #lexa kom trikru #lexa deserved better #clexa #the 100 #lexa #clarke #thank you Lexa #and everyone

toodrunktofindaurl

My heart broke because of the concern shown by Titus for Lexa, so I had to do something about it. It didn’t help when I realized that almost all the important figures in Lexa’s life died.