Qu'est-ce que c'est "éphémère"?

wait, we're all here for the porn, right? I mostly put my cleaner thoughts on music or food or booze and homebrewing here. would you prefer to follow a blog more focused on text posts about sexuality and bondage and stuff? try http://stateofthecage.tumblr.com/

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New comic.

[mountaingoatsmemes]

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is it true though that you have to love yourself to be able to love someone else? because that is a fairly large hurdle and i don’t know what to do

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is it okay to share your favorite mountain goats songs with your new relationship partner? the answer is that maybe you should wait a little bit with that one, actually

[caseyharker]

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she tied me down and made me sing happy birthday to myself and called me beautiful.

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tfa tsa

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accepted an invitation to a friend’s improvisational movement class next week instead of going to a monthly self-suspension meeting. a little afraid that:

1. the act of being observed/observing others will change how comfortable i’ll feel about expressing myself (almost certain)

2. movements i’d like to get out will be too aggressive/concerning for a class of unfamiliar people? what level of physical self-expression is socially acceptable in this scenario? for this to be cathartic, there are places and moods i’d like to explore that aren’t pretty or graceful or calm.

i’ve been tumbling and handbalancing long enough to be comfortable moving my body around, so i ought to be able to do a lot of what i want without injuring myself. would be curious how the event is structured. i also do best when observing before participating, but gonna try.

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an evening feeling better than usual about my genitals

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it’s more than rain that falls on our parade

nothing but sad times.

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i wonder how many years it takes for an onion wine 

that was named after my habit of peeing in sinks 

to become vile and undrinkable.

who do i share it with?

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circus~

i’m still working on a stable handstand and catching my backbend, but it feels like i’m getting all the pieces together. at least, i have a much better understanding of both things than i did a month ago.

one’s sense of bodily awareness starts from square one when inverted - figuring out how to move and control all of that stuff above your head is tricky. you look up at your feet and see the ceiling and the world i  in reverse.

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it was a big moment in my young life when i realized how well my singing voice matched gord downie’s register. and i could start playing almost any song and remember at least the chorus.

i didn’t get to watch all of the last show (probably recorded and easily accessible), but singing along after, like, five drinks... it’s still so weird.

[billy-old-deactivated20181202]

if you step on a person’s foot they open their mouths, just like trash cans.

[thr0atmistress-deactivated20191]

LMAO WHY AM I STILL LAUGHING AT THIS

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tumbling 201

some aspects of gymnastics are a language that i cannot practice at home and only speak once a week.

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i was pretty nervous about my tumbling/gymnastics class tonight, but i think i’m getting a little better? i’m feeling much better about the “candlestick” drill from last (the first) week; we worked on handstand drills today. those were kind of scary, but it was cool to work through the motions. i am NOT a gymnast, but i am getting stronger and better and bendier.

i actually wound up falling forward during one of the drills and hurt my ankle a little. i think i can stretch through it, though. makes me forget about the lingering pain in my toe from the clowning class.

my goodness was it a sweaty night.