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menhera, Tenshi Kaiwaii, mizuiro Kaiwaii, yamikawaii, yumekawaii themed blog. They/them. repost with credits. tw: medical equipment, suicide idealisation

[nekotrainmenhera]

X is such an unsafe place. people who post there have my full respect but I'll never post there its scary.

[nekotrainmenhera]

fudge scammers they just target artist or author that's new or not as good or have English second language. And people fall for it because small artist and author or esl don't get as much likes, community and encouragement. I literally seen so many case of people posting how happy they are getting the scammer comment because they believed it is genuine.

[nekotrainmenhera]

【地雷系百合ビジュアルノベル】『少女蕾』タイトル初公開

looks cute wishlist added

[addict3dangel]

[kensiijordan]

cr: kensiijordan

[nekotrainmenhera]

I always find it hard to read ace fanfic because how good that scenario is and zero chance happening to me to have anyone be so caring to me and I don't deserve it anyways.

[nekotrainmenhera]

when no one likes my work I think my work is disgusting and I should kill myself. when too many people likes my work I think my work is actually disgusting and I feel sick.

[fr0stiesys]

ポカリスエット大好き🩵

[nekotrainmenhera]

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[nekotrainmenhera]

sometimes I feel ok but when anyone stand in front of me. I feel sorry for taking up their space. I feel sorry for blocking their way. For wasting their time. I really just want to disappear.

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[nekotrainmenhera]

I want to disappear

I want to smell like blank paper or dry wood board

I want to be empty

none existence

unable to feel

unable to self recognize when looking into a mirror

to be oblivious

to live without knowing

[creepozoid-temple-of-viv]

[nekotrainmenhera]

I'm so stupid no matter how hard I try I'll never get better at drawing

[nekotrainmenhera]

No one will be my only friend.

No one will.

No one.

No one will complete my projection,

no one is going to fulfills my narcissism.

Everyone is my friend.

Everyone have their own best friends.

No one will come to save me.

No one will be my only friend.

Everyone is my friend.

I don’t need someone to be my friend.

I don’t need someone to be my best and only friend.

I don’t need someone to save me.

I don’t need someone to listen to me talk about things I like.

I don’t need someone to like what I like.

I don’t need someone to love my work.

I don't need to be the most important person in someone's life.

It's all childish.

It's all self centered.

[coping-skill-toolkit]

During my first month with my therapist, I was given this worksheet to read and work on. She noticed that while I was talking with her, that my thoughts followed a lot of these. I wasn’t aware that my anxiety had brought me down paths of low self-worth and stinky thinking.  After a couple of weeks of talking with her, she gave me this worksheet to work on. 

While, at first, I thought these weren’t going to work out, I was very surprised to see just how easy they were to use . My homework at that time was to identify which sort of thinking I used on the regular and which ones would best challenge them for me. So, what do you think? Do any of the maladaptive thinking patterns sound like you? which ways would you like to untwist your thinking? 

[fureiart]

more tenshi kanade 🪽

[nekotrainmenhera]

my angel

[cherrybitesmarks]

[nekotrainmenhera]

valid