I decided today to post my last post ever and delete my tumblr.
I stopped regularly posting on here almost a year ago. I thought that I just didn't have time, but now that I think about it, it was an subconscious decision that helped me change my life. This place had given me a lot of unrealistic expectations of the world and what love was like and what life was like. Nothing is perfect, no one is perfect, and things don't always turn out the way you expect them to.
But there is beauty in the unexpected. God has given me more than I thought I even wanted. In an unperfect life, in a broken self image, I managed to become a strong woman of God. Don't get me wrong, I'm still working everyday to become a Christ centered woman, but what I've realized is that this place just holds me back. I was putting more effort in to a cyber world than I was in the real world.
I posted pictures of things I wanted and quotes of how I dreamed to one day feel. The only way to ever get where you want is to trust God and take a leap of faith. I used this place to get away, never realizing it was making things that much worse.
Now, I'm not slamming anyone for loving this place or living here all the time or anything like that. I loved it too. I just realized I loved it for the wrong reasons. Now I'm striving for change and trying to help others too because we're all just struggling along in this world.
And honestly, what's the point of anything if you're not living to make other people's lives better while you're in them?Â
