Hihihihi what do you think about Levia and Nemesis’ relationship? Talking about how she “viewed” her, I really like how she just slowly came to terms that maybe Nemesis wasn’t all that cruel….and then accepting (can we even call that accepting) THAT SHE IS IN FACT NEMESIS
Thank you for your question! Tbh this is one of my favourite things about Levia to think about
Most of all I think Levia despised Nemesis, literally separating her as the worst part of herself. A resentful, emotional, feeling nothing from murders and sometimes enjoying them, sick woman. The Wrath. Something she couldn’t bear accepting as a part of herself.
In conversations with Allen, Levia diligently expresses respect for the patient, but in her thoughts she treats Nemesis not just with contempt, but with condescension. But going through Nemesis’ life, Levia begins to identify herself with her, compare their life situations and values (“I don’t know my father too”, “Me and Nemesis agreed on this” — I really like how it’s written especially in ch6, how Levia relates to Nemesis more and more). Meanwhile she keeps treating Nemesis as someone pitiful and weak, perceiving herself as someone much more dignified
Another thing for which I think Levia could despise in Nemesis is that she eventually gave up. Gave up on the world’s salvation, on controlling her impulses. That she stopped fighting and submitted to the circumstances of her existence. Levia disdainfully characterised Nemesis as "weak and dependent", like implying that she was not like that. Later (end of ch7), Levia called the self she wanted to see in her delusional world "fighting in the dying world". She always fought, hitting the wall, taking the mission of saving the world, in all her lives until the very end when she resigned herself as a destroyer after Ma’s last words (at least it’s how I read this scene when Ma says “Your real identity is —”: her identity is someone unable to save anything, and Nemesis can’t fight it anymore)
And this acceptance is really something, because in the end of MoN she stays very detached from the topic of what has happened but she can’t run anymore. I like to think that the scene with the mirror represents her unavoidable slow acceptance of the truth of herself. In ch6 Levia sees herself in the mirror, and in ch7 she sees Nemesis’ face as her own. The fact that she eventually chooses ‘Nemesis’ of her names should also symbolise the acceptance too I think. That works greatly for MoN’s structure, though I like that in Heavenly she still struggles with it because it’s more natural for her character