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heard your voice by accident after not hearing it for six years and immediately started crying 💛

i don’t think of you as often as i used to but on the occasions where i do it still feels like a sledgehammer to my ribcage even after all this time

i think i’ve gotten really good at watering this hollow wood, imagining a tree is gonna rise

and missing is a funny thing, collects itself in annual rings, believing well that time will make us wise

but emerging from a fog revealed im standing in a logging field and time just made me see what isn’t there

is someone real if they’re unclear

can you be gone if you weren’t here

am i allowed to grieve the empty air

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in the wake of ur sunshine, i’ve never felt so glum

think i’m made up of moonlight, don’t reach quite as far but i still show up

stick around for someone, stick around til dawn

i wonder

do u ever feel so alone that u could implode and no one would know

when u look around and nobody’s home, don’t u wanna go back to wherever we’re from

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i hope you are doing alright! miss hearing your updates you are such a sweet soul and deserve to feel healthy, have independence, and live a life that makes you feel fulfilled.

:( i love u so much. honestly im not doing too hot but im hanging in there. thank u for checking on me it means more than you know

and u were at my wedding, i was broken, u were drunk

u could’ve told me not to do it, i would’ve run, i would’ve run

tell me what was the moment you decided to give up? could’ve told me what you wanted, i would’ve done, i would’ve done anythingggg

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i have the feeling u got everything u wanted, and ur not wasting time stuck here like me

you’re just thinking it’s a small thing that happened, the world ended when it happened to me

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i wish u loved me the way u think u do

but i still wanna come home and that’s as sad as it is true

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i still keep our photos in a folder in case u come back 2 meeeee

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when sorry starts sounding less like an apology and starts sounding more like a reflex

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i’m wasting my life living the way that i am right now and everything is so far gone that i can’t see a single feasible way to get myself out of this. i feel so painfully alone and sad and isolated here i just wish my brain worked normally man. im so tired of constantly comparing myself to others and wondering wtf is wrong with me. why are simple things so easy for others but when that same task when presented to me it seems like the biggest most difficult challenge in the world whyhhhh why why