⑅ 𓋭𝒟ℯ𝓁𝒾𝓁𝒶𝒽^᪲᪲᪲ᛝ˚̣̣̣

ʚᵘⁿᵐᵉᵈⁱᶜᵃᵗᵉᵈ𔓎 ᵗʳᵃᵘᵐᵃᵗⁱᶻᵉᵈ ᧔࿔᧓ˢᶜʰⁱᶻᵒ ᶜʳʸᵇᵃᵇʸɞ

[nerdydollie]

🦷ּ ֶָ֢.⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔

introduction? idk... I'm giving up sorry :<

idk my name idk whatever my vibe is ig...

idk my gender

idkklkk how old i am dont ask idkidkidk

idk what i like anymore

i have just been trying to work on my webcomic.. ʚ ༝Pulled Teeth༝ ɞ and that's it i have nothing else i am nothing else but my vent accounts and the art i make i give up on everything else

idk anything uua idkk.. hehe idkk ꫂ᭪ i have nothing to tell u...!!!

im sick of pretending i actually have anything to say or have any sort of depth!! i don't!! i just want to be pretty and draw and that's it i am nothing i know nothing!

ʚ ༝...i have other accounts if u find them keep them separate from this one :c...༝ ɞ

[nerdydollie]

𝜗℘ ‿‿‿‿

i 🩵 blue...

ⁱ ᶠᵒʳᵍᵒᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ˡᵃᶜᵉ ᵖʳᵉᵗᵉⁿᵈ ⁱᵗˢ ᵗʰᵉʳᵉ ²²² ˡᵃᶻʸ 🪽

[nerdydollie]

how do i stop tumblr from sniping the quality of my arts?!? 😿💔💔 my art always looks so majestical until i upload it to tumblr >:C

[nerdydollie]

𝜗℘ ‿‿‿‿

i 🩵 blue...

ⁱ ᶠᵒʳᵍᵒᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ˡᵃᶜᵉ ᵖʳᵉᵗᵉⁿᵈ ⁱᵗˢ ᵗʰᵉʳᵉ ²²² ˡᵃᶻʸ 🪽

[nerdydollie]

this js why u'll never catcking me uploading my speedpaints ever 🫪😭 i just randomly get sidetracked and accidentally draw beautiful men sorry

[nerdydollie]

hm? me? a bitch? a lying bitch?? why would you call your baby sibling that? hm? well i wasn't actually ever a baby sibling was i? i was looked down on but i had to cater to you like you were a baby. the attention was always on you bec is big girl okay? is big girl fed? what about big girl? it's big sister's turn get out the fucking way little 6 yr old me!! duh! god! I'm so dumb , right?! oh im older right but i was so sweet so fucking nice to everyone and so innocent and i still haven't even said anything mean about you out loud in.. actually ever! yup, cuz it's actually easy for me to forgive or because i had no choice but i had so much love and hope in my heart you called me a devil and that i had monsterous demon eyes which was my insecurities but oh my bad it was just a bad day but you never apologized and i was insecure of my stare for years well it turns out I'm autistic so maybe that weird stare wasn't my fault not that it was my intention anyway, i loved you and i never stayed mad even if you hurt me so much screaming at a baby literally screaming like someone was murdering you in my sensitive ears when i was so little but i still loved you and smiled at you and you kept kicking at me like a dirty dog and i still forgave you after that YOU HUMILIATED ME AT MY WORST MOMENT IN FRONT OF HUNDREDS OF STRANGERS AND I FUCKING FORGAVE YOU SO QUICKLY and now you're calling me a bitch for something i didn't even do at all without any second guess you really think I'd do that??????? really??????? when all I've ever done is loved you?????! i never even had bad days i never even lashed at you EVER that wasn't in my parameters of my personality it still isn't sure I'll get pissed in my private writings only me or strangers will see but to peoples faces?? I'm silent and fawning and i really do mean it it's not just fear to my face all i feel is love and maternal care and it's taken advantage of over and over and over and it's in my nature to just be what i am a loving permanent presence i can't even go outside of it it takes so so so sooo much for me break sooooo much for me to explode even after that small time of me exploding i instantly feel sadness & regret and the pull to love and heal even when it's not my place when i should stop or when I'm tired but i can't and I'M THE BITCH when it's literally in my NATURE not to be anything but a sign of love and unwavering loyalty

how?? howhowhowhowwww?? how could you ever think i could do such a thing??? ME INSTEAD OF OUR LITERAL ABUSER & UR FIRST THOUGHT IS ME?!???? wth. wth. i can't breathe how could anyone ever think that about me i could never it's impossible i didn't do anything why would you say it's me?? and scream?? and everyone is soso angry at me for something i didn't do it was our abuser it wasn't me now she's going to hate me forever and still i cry because I'd hope she would love me again that i would eventually have a big sister again but it's over

it's so over it's just over and I'm not even sure why I'm sad when she's the one who always mistreated me to the point of ptsd and panic attacks my own sister the cause she literally ruined everything she willingly got us kicked out of where we lived to move in with an abuser and i still want my sister to love me and look at me?? why am i so dumb? this why i get abused for years my whole life why am i like this i hate everything why can't i just love and things love me back why?? not even one just not even one it's all i want i can't do this anymore all i can feel is love nothing else is permanent everything is so temporary but my love it's so abundant i never have any room but still i have no one to love not family barely friends not partners i have to keep it all in but love is all i have to offer I'm so bland if i put my love away just let me rest and I'll think about this later...

[ivydapple]

luna is so fun to draw

[nerdydollie]

this is the gender everybody speaks of... holyyy 😋

[nerdydollie]

the clouds hold this doll's tears 🌧️

💧⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔ꫂ᭪

[braaainwaaash]

[nerdydollie]

🐾

[nerdydollie]

I LUH TIS BRUSH SM GYAAAA

:3c

[nerdydollie]

🌌🌧️🧊

[nerdydollie]

꒰͡ ͜ ʚɞ ͜ ͡꒱ּ ֶָ֢.𝚒 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚌𝚛𝚢 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎 𖤐⭒๋࣭⭑ᵎ!ᵎ⋆⭒˚.⋆꒰͡ ͜ ʚɞ ͜ ͡꒱

🩵🪽ㅤ ׅ 𝄂𝄚𝅦𝄚𝄞𝅄ㅤᜊ𔕛ᜊ.𖥔 ݁ ˖⋆ ˚❆ 𓏴ꫂ᭪ 𐂯

[nerdydollie]

mah doodles from a diff drawing app is very 2020-esque ngl :p

[nerdydollie]

tried a different art style..

... i- LOVE IT !!!

⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔ꫂ᭪

[lumpy-bedpan]

[nerdydollie]

:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) 👍

[nerdydollie]

oh wow

my grandma just left to the store without us (me & my mom doesn't have a car there is only one car and it is my grandma's) and we can't walk because every store is a town away... once we go to the store we don't for a very long time and grandma just screwed us over because my mom didn't make my grandma coffee.. this is punishment... we literally have nothing around this time too

i was already in a very dark place this is so good for me i think not being able to eat for a week will surely be so good for me i can't wait oh boy! yk what maybe I'll chance it with the hicks and get shot trying to get just a little bit of fucking food a town away probably hours of walking that is soo achievable it's not like I'm disabled and cant walk that much noooo no I'm actually a professional german hiker if u didn't know so this is my time to shineI FUCKING HATE THIS PLACE I HOPE IT GETS BO.BWD DIEDIEDDIE I HOPE MY GRANDMA DIES FALL INTO TRAFFIC PLS FALL AND SHATTER YR SPLEEN PLZ STOP BREATHING PLZZ I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE I HATE IT ALLUVHVVHCGUIGC CUIH IIH V IIV CH YF UFCUF FUHI IVIFUCF UU FF UG HI GHH

[nerdydollie]

looooool loooool lololololl lolllll looooool 😹😹😹😹😹😹😹😹😹😹😹

anyways i like these colors a lot

[nerdydollie]

my grandma ate my SEASONAL cookies >:( i hate her SM & now i have to wait until next autumn THAT IS MONTHS OF WAITING FOR SMTH THAT WAS ORIGINALLY MINE ripping my life apart and enslaving me wasn't enough for her ig cuz she has to eat MY snacks too!! I HATE HER she rlly knows how to pmo

my patience is OOOOO it's it's gone

༝ anyways unrelated art bec i love it 𖹭ּ ֶָ֢.