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When you get to take a full shower while your child stays in one spot! Mom win!!!!!!
Writing Prompt
Person A: It was a one in a million chance we met in the first place. What makes you say it’s possible we’ll meet again?
Person B: Because if I’ve already found you on accident, I'm sure I can find you again.
It's a nice fall day in the streets of New York. I decide to take a walk through time square. As I am walking I notice a small bench that is calling my name. I walk over to sit down, and just as I sit down this very attractive man decides to sit down at the same time. He looks over at me and chuckles.
"Well hello there miss..."
"Hello, I am sorry I will find another spot to sit."
"And why would you do that when this bench has plenty of room for the both of us?"
I feel my face start to burn up as my cheeks turn red. I smile politely and position myself to sit facing forward with my body very stiff.
"I'm Easton, What is your name?"
"uhm, Jasmine."
"well Jasmine, you are very beautiful."
He thinks I'm beautiful? chubby ol me? I have long brown hair and I am wearing an over sized shirt and leggings with a pair of keds! No makeup at all!
"oh don't get quiet on me, I'm not going to stalk you!"
Honestly please do...
"thank you, and sorry I'm not used to complements."
"how about we hangout sometime when you are free? I have to get going, but I will see you around."
"It was a one in a million chance we met in the first place, what makes you say it's possible we'll meet again?"
"Because if I've already found you on accident, I will find you again. After all Jasmine you are a diamond."
"okay... I doubt it, but I guess I'll see you around"
"here is my number you silly lady... I wouldn't walk away without knowing for sure I'd find you!"
"hahaha oh right..."
He smiles and gives me a kiss on the hand and walks away.
That night I went home and enjoyed a glass of red daydreaming of a romantic Italian dinner with him. His brown eyes staring into mine. Frank Sinatra playing in the background.
The beautiful sunset of Georgia. I did not use a filter, this is a real live moment captured! So breath taking! Our cabins were located on the edge of the water and I was so happy to enjoy this view!
Over the weekend I had to luxury of visiting a beautiful military resort located in Georgia. This was the little beach on the resort. I had to capture this moment! And I can't help but feel like I am at my zen.
Mom Rant
So today I deep cleaned my kitchen. Does it still look like it? HELLL NO!
I spent today with my online assignments and taking care of my toddler. Then I had to deep clean the kitchen, vacuum the stairs, clean up messes, and cook dinner. Great everything is done but now I have to clean the kitchen again.
Bath time is over, finishing my assignments, child is asleep now.
Son's father gave him a bath tonight while I did my assignment. two hours go by and I walk in the bathroom and there is dark blue paint all over the fucking shower wall!! MIND YOU I scrubbed my bathroom down YESTERDAY!
Some will say oh it will come right off with water, no this is blue paint, I have to scrub this shit off the wall. I am so tired of being the only one who cleans. Sure guys will take trash out. But what about the deep cleaning. I feel like everything would be easier if it was just me and my child. Atleast I would only have to clean up after us two.
Another thing, my child does not listen to me because the guys do not listen to me. He is literally so rebellious these days! What happened to my sweet boy who was always on mommas side. Ugh!
I just want to go back to right before he turned against me. He does not want to listen, he thinks he is 2 going on 20.
Some days are easy when the guys aren't around. My son listens, he is calm, and doesn't get into every little thing. I feel like I am the only one who provides structure for him. It's so frustrating being the only one who is holding shit down to make a home feel like a home.
Some gold advice from Margaret Atwood from her Master Class on creative writing trailer.
I’ve been pretty quiet. I’m busy working on my other tumblr posting my short stories and what not. I’m so excited because I’m writing my NOVEL! I started to write before I became a mom and I pushed it off for so long. I love writing my short stories on my tumblr page. I have a pretty good audience. Ofcourse it’s for adults. This page is more for you normal people compared to my other page!
I have been doing a lot lately aside from being a mom. I have started my novel, got a second job on top of my new job. And I’m hoping to have my car next month! I feel like things are finally falling into place. But it’s always a calm before a storm…
It’s the end of the day and my body is just aching!
After the terrible twos. After cooking and cleaning up after everyone. After cleaning the living room and vacuuming under everything. Sweeping and mopping. Then bath time. Then bed time. Then take the trash out. Make sure everything is off the steps. The list goes on just for me to do it all over again tomorrow.
This is part of motherhood. The stuff that you don’t get a thank you for. It’s just your job. These are the days I wish I had more time for self care. By the end of the day I just want to lay in a hot tub and fall asleep. It’s so late and I don’t even have the energy to put on a face mask.
I have been using witch hazel for my face though! I put some on a cotton ball and rub it over my face every morning and night. So far the results are great!
I would love to enjoy a glass of red but my body doesn’t even like alcohol anymore. I guess I really am getting older. The point where I actually listen to my body!
It feels like a constant upkeep! I’m always losing upper body strength so now I need to do more at home workouts. I can’t have dairy or else I’ll be miserable for 48 hours! I don’t ever style my hair. As long as it’s washed and brush. Just be happy that’s done! I only wear mascara and eyeliner. I can’t stand actual makeup anymore. It just makes me breakout! I hate anything I wear so I stick to yoga pants and a tshirt. Yup this is mom life!
But I love my child’s little smile and giggles. They honestly are what makes everything so worth it. I just wish the days were more easier. Having only one child. It’s hard on the child not having anyone to play with besides momma or whatever adult comes around. Unless we go to a park or birthday party. And no I’m not having anymore children you can forget that! LOL
One day it will be easier. I won’t have to clean up my child’s mess. I won’t have to yell to get off the top of the couch. I won’t have to complain about all this crazy stuff because my child will be older. So I try to enjoy the moment, even when all I want to do is cry, sleep, escape, etc. because I know everything will be okay. My child is okay, I’m still alive and moving, and I’m providing a real home.
Sometimes the only way to get over someone not wanting to be around you is by deleting them completely from everything. After trying to be a friend and be someone they can talk to and have fun with, etc. They still act like you’re irrelevant and don’t exist. It’s time to completely move on. No one should have to stress over someone not wanting to be in their life. No matter how long the friendship was.
“I used to dislike being sensitive. I thought it made me weak. But take away that single trait, and you take away the very essence of who I am. You take away my conscience, my ability to empathize, my intuition, my creativity, my deep appreciation for the little things, my vivid inner life, my deep awareness of others’ pain, and my passion for it all.”
— Unknown
Growing up we are never taught about how to take care of ourselves as a mom. We learn how to provide for a child and teach them to be successful in this world and give them love.
But we aren’t taught to love ourself. We aren’t warned about the risk of our mental health. Waking up one day and just feeling like you don’t belong in this body. How did my body become so bloated. Why is my hair more dry. Why are my calves so wide. Why won’t my thighs shrink. Why are my arms oversized now. How come everything is irritating me. How do I express myself without sounding like a complete bitch.
What happened to me? Why don’t I feel happy and free?! I love my child so much, I will do anything for my child. But why am I still not happy like this. Being a mom is a full time job. There are days I feel like I’m failing, and there are days where I feel like I’m rocking this shit.
But I want to feel like me again. How did I let myself go. Some days I just don’t want to brush my hair. I don’t want to vacuum the fucking stairs again. I don’t want to pick up the toys that were thrown into the kitchen.
Why are moms always feeling guilty for having self care days? We spend so much time taking care of another human, we completely forget to take care of ourself. And that’s what isn’t taught to us before becoming a mother.
We have to take the time to exfoliate, sleep, exercise, etc.
Other wise we are just walking zombies faking a huge smile. Moms need time for themselves!!!
We spend our free time with friends and family. And forget to use our time for ourself because we honestly just try to make time for everyone!
I miss the days where I wake up feeling like I’m glowing. I’m so over exhausted that I literally forget how to look happy sometimes. I guess after awhile the fake look becomes natural.
High school parenting classes need to teach females about their mental health as well. Not just give them a fake baby doll and grade them on their skills.
I’m now starting to feel like my normal personality again. Happy, goofy, loving, free. I took time to organize, I took time to lay in bed all day for once, I took time to rejuvenate my body! I feel like I can complete my motherly duties without being so irritated.
We need to change for our future children. Teaching our children how to love their self and make their own happiness.
Why do you feed off my struggles?!
You hate me so much that you have to compare your up to my down!
I’ve done nothing but help provide this life!
You walk around with your head up high. But the second something is missing or your knocked down you come crying.
You make this task feel like it’s supposed to tear me apart until I can no longer function.
When will you get over it?!
When will you learn that your actions are not to affect me but to affect the one person you helped create!
A smile won’t fix your cruel actions.
A sorry won’t fix them either.
So
I’m gonna finish writing my book this year!
No more procrastination!
It’s happening!!!
“Every flower must grow through dirt.”
— Laurie Jean Sennott (via marijuanamodels)
#The dance scene is reminiscent of 1987’s Dirty Dancingㅤ ㅤㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤㅤ #Kenny Ortega choreographed Dirty Dancing
“It’s been a long time since I’ve been me.”
— Fernando Pessoa
“Those conversations you skip sleep for.”
— Unknown