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“depending on where you began the story, it was about noah czerny.” she/her | 21

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hearing what straight women or just people who like men find attractive always makes me question if i even like men cus…ew like i am attracted to men but apparently not in the way y’all are.

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watching my 3 month old nephew ALONE 4 days out of the week while my sister is at work… man if i didn’t want kids before i def don’t now!!

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good afternoon all! i hate all my clothes 🩷

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reading old pieces of my writing like…oh i was real depressed but DAYMN could that bitch write!! like i haven’t written in months but i was pumping that shit out at 17 while actively fighting for my life.

taylor swift said “how can a person know everything at 18, but nothing at 22” or whatever and she was so right…

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rip taylor townsend you would have loved audrey hobert 🩷

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my toxic trait is seeing something and being like “i could make that…” like sure you could. but it will probably look like shit.

for instance, i just turned a dress into two tank tops. is one of them uneven…yes! but i MADE it and now i have TWO things i will wear rather than one piece of clothing i didn’t wear 🩷

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well would a girl with adhd spend 5 hours straight sewing…i don’t think so!

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my fashion red flag is that i do unfortunately like a lot of magnolia pearls clothes… like they’re a disgusting company (and extremely overpriced) with horrible ethics (‘plantation’ and ‘hobo’ core 🤢🤢) but unfortunately some of their stuff is cute :/

like i’d never buy from them and i could 100% make a lot of it myself, but thats my confession 😔

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on vacation. ate the most delicious pizza. found scrumptious vintages platforms at the thrift. sat outside on a rocking chair and read 100 pages of my book. the air smells fresh, crickets are chirping, there are visible stars in the sky. and now i’m the first one going to bed. life is #good

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wasn’t gonna drink tonight but my son carl grimes is dead.

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this is my trying to convince myself not to be my worst self playlist

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first hot day (80°) of the year and i’ve already complained about 5 things in the span of 15 minutes …i am a professional summer hater.

genuinely the heat turns me into the worst person ever and i have a headache which is only made WORSE by the heat and my coffee was made wrong. fuck my chungus life. like love summer and the sun in theory but in actuality it makes me homicidal.

also hate summer cus i can’t walk down the street without seeing people sitting outside of bars or some shit with all their friends and then in struck with envy and hatred and it’s like. guys pls, i’m trying to be positive and happy and ure ruing my mood with your happiness. and no one else is sweating!!!

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off campus men all geriatric and mid while the girls are drop dead gorgeous and one is 19 🙄

and then i see people being like “stop complaining about their looks— they’re ‘normal’ people hot not celebrity hot” okay so you admit they’re mid. also a female lead would NEVER be able to be ‘normal’ people hot. fmc’s are ALWAYS drop dead gorgeous, even when they’re meant to be ordinary looking because women HAVE to be pretty. a male actor can get away with being a little ugly or average looking or being 30 and playing a 20yr old college student, but a woman could NEVER!!

bitches be like “omg he’s so HOT!” and it’s just a man. a man you’d pass on the street. and then women get scrutinized for just existing. in order for a girl to be considered hot or desirable enough to be a romantic lead they have to meet all these check marks and be basically perfect, but a man just has to have abs and full hair.

i’m not saying it’s weird that hannah’s actress is 19, i’m saying it’s unsurprising that the female lead would be younger than the male lead. the standards for women are so high and we are not allowed to age or look aged or even mature. the fact that all the guys look so old wouldn’t be bothersome if the girls did too, but they don’t. they look visibly younger.

like it’s not that serious it’s just a cringy tv show but also every thing is always that serious and i hate men.

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me when my mom says she loves arizona and im like “girl when the hell you been to Arizona??” and shes says “30 years ago when i first came to america” and now im crying cus arizona probably reminds her of Mexico….like man fuck u.

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be forgetting how many freaky weirdos there are i the world and especially on this app and then i stumble across scary things…. like people shipping negan & carl AND carl and rick…. mom pick me up im scared. somehow it’s worse than wincest

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hey guys! just watched the walking dead s7ep1 for the first time since it aired!

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finding a note my dad wrote for my mom asking her to go on a date with him—in SPANISH! meaning he had to take out a fucking spanish dictionary or some shit to write it out 😭 but yet he never actually put in the effort to fully LEARN spanish and now he’s a trump supporter. genuinely makes me so sad to think about my parents when they were first dating and were in love and how much they’ve grown apart. like i love my dad and neither of them are perfect but like my mom deserves better :/ she wanted to be a stay at home mom but he didn’t want her to so she didn’t. and she always tells me and my sisters to stand up for ourselves and what we want, specially against men—because she didn’t do that when she was younger. and says for us to marry a hispanic man because white men don’t help as much. and she wants to move back to mexico when she retires—BECAUSE THATS HER HOME!!! SHES LIVED IN AMERICA FOR LONGER BUT THATS STILL HER HOME!!!! like i hate & it makes me sad when she yells at my dad (cus he’s not the type of person to yell back #twins) but i also understand why she gets frustrated with him. and like she has always been the ‘mean’/‘strict parent but really that’s only because he leaves that stuff to her, without her shit wouldn’t get done. they both have their issues and ill defend them both but like pls guys #getdivorced

they are truly such different people it was never gonna work out between them and that makes me so sad.