Daily Life of Me

Single mom of two wonderful daughters. Struggling with BPD. Welcome to my life.

[mentalsltz-deactivated20210521]

The weirdest part in anorexia is that you get a new symptom that clearly shows that you're dying by the week, blurry vision, dizziness, fatigue, heart palpitations, fainting, and yet you still can't bring yourself to eat because the guilt you get from it is still worse than all that

[awkward-butterfly]

Me making some bowls and dishes dirty, so that my parents think I ate:

[counting-every-calorie]

is it just me or does anyone feel like if they eat 300+ calories a day they’re never going to lose weight? like even though that’s over three times less than the average woman is supposed to eat it still feels like too much..

[ineloquent-tumbling]

Me: Why the fuck am I so hungry?

*checks the clock*

Me: Ah. According to this, I last ate 14 hours ago.

...

My brain: None of this food is the Right Food, & therefore is Inedible.

[starving--for--attention]

i sure do eat a lot for a fucking anorexic

[delicate-perfect]

When you “fast” for 16 hours and don’t lose 50lbs

[panicitsyourperiod]

*Laughs in ED*

[neverlandwarrior]

Hi my name is Courtney and I'm a fat piece of shit

[starvingskinny3690]

Me : *has an 800 calorie limit*

My tracker : hey! You’ve eaten 400 calories today! You can eat 400 calories more!

Me :

[basket]

I love how naruto describes SAI OMG

also, I LOVE HOW HE INTRODUCED SHINO TO SAI “WELL UM HE’S SHINO”

and, I love how SHINO opens up to naruto, it’s so cute cause Shino is such a serious person but got butthurt when naruto wasn’t able to recognize him immediately after 3 years and that naruto doesn’t know anything about him! 

OMG I LOVE ALL OF THEM

ALSO ALSO I LOVE HOW SAI JOTS DOWN EVERTHING HE LEARNS ABOUT EVERYONE. THIS SHOW IS FULL!  

[perfectapricotghostzine]

[americanshadestory]

When I see people complaining that they can’t loose weight I always think ‘what’s so hard about it just starve yourself ’ and then I remember that eating disorders aren’t normal lmao

[pensermaigre]

Bitches be denying at 300 cal meal one minute and then binging on 3000 cal the next

It’s me

I’m bitches

[delicatefrailness]

why do I always get a superiority complex when I am losing weight or starving myself. I literally feel like such hot shit, but when I start gaining again i feel like an absolute MUTANT and I want to hide away in a swamp or whatever the fuck

[skin-and-bonesssss]

I didn’t need it. But I ate it anyway cuz I’m a fat whore

[your-health-hazard]

[shygirl226]

And to think I had almost forgotten how it feels... the burning throat, the lingering scent of vomit, the red puffy face and the bloodshot eyes.

Worst of all the feeling of satisfaction.