I don’t know how to write about this without sounding like I'm a little off my rocker. However, as we moved deeper in our FLR I noticed from his journal and our open share sessions that Butler was not so much a physical masochist as he had deep desires to experience emotional pain from my hands. It never bothered me to cause him physical pain, in fact in turned me on, but to hurt his feelings? That took some thought. How could I reject him but keep him in the circle of my love? Looking back, I never should have risked it. I gave him what he thought he wanted but it almost cost us everything. I'm wiser now. We both wanted to live on the edge. However, the edge can be very sharp indeed. Be careful.















