Neverwilde

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The one I want

Will

Stand in my Chaos

And say

"Is that all you've got?"

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Minor Key

Just one of those moments in life that seems to have a chorus of dissonant minor chords as the background track.

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Dragging

Dragging these chains

That keep my

Too Much

Bound up inside

Is becoming

Exhausting.

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Decisions

There is something about you

that makes me want to make

incredibly bad decisions.

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Distracted

I am so distracted by these thoughts of you.

At some point you went from being an entertaining pastime

To a discombobulating preoccupation.

Complete interference.

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Subjugation

Late at night I hear your call

That inaudible whisper slowly permeating my subconscious. Seeping through the cracks in my concentration, until all that is left of my awareness is you.

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Ache

Some nights there is an ache that lingers. Tendrils of pain snaking through my limbs, winding past organs, twisting across my skin. These nights there is no relief. No stretch that will uncoil this tension. No perfume that can cleanse the room of your essence. No scalding soak capable of wiping the memory of your touch from my skin.

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You.

That hair’s breadth

that separates desires

of the flesh

from necessities

of the soul.

That is where I find you.

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I Thought To Follow You

Setting forth on this path I thought to follow you.

A wonder filled but perilously crooked path.

It will be alright, you said.

You will follow me, you said.

And then you were gone.

Setting forth on this path I thought to follow you.

Hand in hand but a step behind.

I will keep you safe, you said.

I will lead the way, you said.

And then you were gone.

Setting forth on this path I thought to follow you.

Pausing at the crossroads to read the signs.

I am unsure, I said.

I feel lost, I said.

And then you were gone.

Setting forth on this path I thought to follow you.

Cutting the brush to restore the old way.

My knife is sharp, I said.

I will make my own way, I said.

And then I was found.

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Bound

Unsaid words of deepest longing

Bindings hold fast under stress of distraction

Thinly veiled as desire

I am bound to you.

Bound

Regardless of Time or Space, of Need or Want.

There is a part of my soul that will always know you,

Always reach for you, always scream for you.

Bound

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This place is mine.

I don't put these words here for you.  I don't render my thoughts down into syllables and spell words like syllable for your enjoyment or even your consideration.  This place is mine.  Claimed by my tears and settled by my screams.  My anger and hope both live here.  I have fought the bleakness and it brought me here.  This place is mine.