△ New Hologram △ ♪ model, artist, gamer, fairy, spoonie ♫ Hi, I'm New! 🎀 *:・゚✧*:・゚✧ → My goal is to create a platform for awareness, visibility, and guidance for topics like chronic illness, mental illness, disability, trauma, and suicide. I also do Let's Plays, J-Pop translations, beauty vlogs, and more! My chronic illness story - an introduction and mission statement ☆ PATREON Find out how you can support my work. ☎ YouTube Check out my channel for chronic illness vlogs, Let's Plays, and more ☂chronic illness guidance sideblog 🌸Instagram ☮ Twitter ☀ Now on Snaphat and Tiktok @newhologram ☆I starred in The Trevor Project's Love is Changing History: Jenny! ☆I was cast as a mysterious character in Nero's music video for Two Minds. ☆I'm in this commercial for Not Safe with Nikki Glaser which aired on Comedy Central. :D ☞Other work Want to support my content? ↑I now have a "tip jar!"↑ And a Patreon! I live with fibromyalgia, narcolepsy, ulcerative colitis and other conditions that come along with them. I'm currently in recovery from living 20+ years with undiagnosed atlas subluxation complex and the resulting osteoarthritis (degenerative disc disease). Even with these challenges, I work as much as I can at multiple jobs (currently at 3, working on getting up to 4!) and my free time is used to work on content. Most of my paychecks go into caring for myself but I try to keep my schedule open for work. If I can't work enough, I can't afford my treatments or medications, and most of it isn't covered by insurance so it's out of pocket. If I can't take care of myself, I struggle at work, and I can't work on videos or resources either because my free time then needs to be devoted to recovery. It's kind of a vicious cycle but I strive to stick to a schedule that allows me to use my day off energy to creating content while still saving time for resting. Your donations and patronage allow me to afford what I need to care for my body while still being able to follow my passions. Thank you so much for supporting my dreams. 日本のみんなさんよろしくお願いします。にゅーと申します。仕事は俳優とモデルですけどブログもしったり、ユーチューブもしたっりします。 今、まだ勉強してるので日本語を話してがんばる!
Holograms! Thanks to all of your votes and donations to the Elton John AIDS Foundation, I'm officially a quarterfinalist in Style Icon 2025.
That means we've been reshuffled into new groups and votes have been reset to 0. Remember to vote daily for free by verifying via Facebook, or make a donation to place more votes. Remember the 2x donation vote events! That's when you can really boost my chances.
Voting for this round is 11/17-11/27. In order to advance to the semi-finals, I must place 1st by the very last second. VOTE FOR ME HERE!
Thank you for your support and please keep sharing my story so I can be a loud and proud medically complex, disabled model and artist in the industry.
Holograms!! 2x donation votes go until 9pm Sunday! This is the longest 2x event they’ve held yet and my chance to get ahead to make it to the semifinals by 11/27!
$25 = 50 votes and so on!! Let’s goooo!
Holograms! Thanks to all of your votes and donations to the Elton John AIDS Foundation, I'm officially a quarterfinalist in Style Icon 2025.
That means we've been reshuffled into new groups and votes have been reset to 0. Remember to vote daily for free by verifying via Facebook, or make a donation to place more votes. Remember the 2x donation vote events! That's when you can really boost my chances.
Voting for this round is 11/17-11/27. In order to advance to the semi-finals, I must place 1st by the very last second. VOTE FOR ME HERE!
Thank you for your support and please keep sharing my story so I can be a loud and proud medically complex, disabled model and artist in the industry.
One trendsetter will jet off to Milan for the Versace Fashion Show, be featured in Flaunt Magazine, and take home $20,000.
Hey, Holograms! I'm in the running to be a Style Icon. Please vote for me so that I can use my platform and art to help create positive change in the world. (Click the link above or here!)
You can cast one free vote every 24 hours by verifying on Facebook. Otherwise, more votes can be cast by donating ($10=10 votes and so on). Sometimes they hold DOUBLE donation vote rounds, so keep an eye out for that too.
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Style is a sacred way to showcase the soul on the outside, to be defiantly visible. That’s where the power of fashion really lies.
What makes your style stand out?
My style is cyber-angel resurrection: soft, alien, and unapologetic. Growing up, being myself wasn't safe, so I had to constantly conceal. But one day, I just couldn’t hide anymore. My soul was screaming to sparkle. Fashion lets me glitter when the world is dark and is my way of reclaiming transformation on my own terms. It's an act of rebellion, proof that I'm still here, glowing. Fashion allows me to embody both my vulnerability AND my resilience. That duality is what makes my style stand out.
What’s your dream fashion moment?
My dream fashion moment is to transform into something otherworldly in a music video, on stage, or in a magazine spread. I want to showcase fashion and art that tells my story, because it's really not just me. Many others have their own stories of almost not surviving, but persevering through illness, hospitalizations, surgeries, and abandonment by family/friends. I want to shine for anyone else out there who might be going through the grief of chronic illness or the rejection of who they are.
What would you do with $20,000?
My goal is to build a platform for awareness, visibility, and acceptance around chronic illness, disability, neurodivergence, mental health, suicide, trauma, C-PTSD, and LGBTQIA+ pride. To invest in creative projects that create an ecosystem of art forms to share not just my story, but others' too. I want to be the role model I never had when I was so sick and lost. If I can empower even one person to reclaim their spark no matter what challenges they're facing, then I shall not live in vain.
2x donation votes until 9pm PDT! $10 = 20 votes, and so on.
This is the FINAL 2 DAYS of the group phase! Help me stay in the top so I can advance to the quarterfinals and get closer to making positive change in the industry as a disabled model.
One trendsetter will jet off to Milan for the Versace Fashion Show, be featured in Flaunt Magazine, and take home $20,000.
Dear Hollywood: Accessibility Is Glamorous
Through the Style Icon competition, I’ve had the opportunity to share my story while directly challenging Hollywood itself by being candid about the reality of being a disabled model in an industry that often uses people like me for diversity points, without actually changing their standards to make this kind of work more accessible. All while holding the distinct honor of supporting a good cause like the Elton John AIDS Foundation, which is working to fight not just AIDS but the stigma surrounding it.
Being selected for this competition has been incredibly meaningful to me because I almost didn’t survive trying to “make it” in Hollywood while chronically ill and disabled. Living with chronic illness forced me to slow down, but it also taught me how to shine in ways that are more real and honest to being human. It’s proof that I’m still here, still shining, and that representation is needed now more than ever.
If I win, it would be the answer to my deepest held dream: to create art to share not just my story, but others' too. Millions have their own stories of almost not surviving, but persevering through illness, hospitalizations, surgeries, ableism, and abandonment by family/friends. I want to shine for anyone else out there who might be going through the grief of chronic illness or the rejection of who they are. I want to be the role model I never had when I was so sick and lost.
My story is important because to this day, people with disabilities (especially invisible ones) rarely see themselves reflected in fashion or entertainment. I want to show that visibility is power, and that accessibility can coexist with red carpet glamour and the undying ambition of an artist working hard for her moment. Hollywood can and should reflect all of us and I intend to challenge the industry just by being myself.
Check out my Style Icon profile and drop me a free vote 1x daily, or make a donation for more votes. Wait for the 2x donation vote events if you really want to give me a good push forward.
Made it to the top 5 of my group so we’re now in the final week of the group phase. In order to advance to the quarterfinals, I need to stay in 1st place by 11/13.
Thank you to everyone voting for me! Please keep it up. Remember that you can vote for free once a day by verifying on Facebook or make more votes by donating ($1=1 vote) to the Elton John AIDS Foundation.
Watch out for the 2x donation events where a $10 donation = 20 votes and so on.
Please read my story and my objective in winning Style Icon as a disabled and queer model/artist. Even if you can’t vote, sharing is helpful!
https://styleicon.org/2025/new-hologram-disabled-queer-icon
One trendsetter will jet off to Milan for the Versace Fashion Show, be featured in Flaunt Magazine, and take home $20,000.
Hey, Holograms! I'm in the running to be a Style Icon. Please vote for me so that I can use my platform and art to help create positive change in the world. (Click the link above or here!)
You can cast one free vote every 24 hours by verifying on Facebook. Otherwise, more votes can be cast by donating ($10=10 votes and so on). Sometimes they hold DOUBLE donation vote rounds, so keep an eye out for that too.
💖🪽✨
Style is a sacred way to showcase the soul on the outside, to be defiantly visible. That’s where the power of fashion really lies.
What makes your style stand out?
My style is cyber-angel resurrection: soft, alien, and unapologetic. Growing up, being myself wasn't safe, so I had to constantly conceal. But one day, I just couldn’t hide anymore. My soul was screaming to sparkle. Fashion lets me glitter when the world is dark and is my way of reclaiming transformation on my own terms. It's an act of rebellion, proof that I'm still here, glowing. Fashion allows me to embody both my vulnerability AND my resilience. That duality is what makes my style stand out.
What’s your dream fashion moment?
My dream fashion moment is to transform into something otherworldly in a music video, on stage, or in a magazine spread. I want to showcase fashion and art that tells my story, because it's really not just me. Many others have their own stories of almost not surviving, but persevering through illness, hospitalizations, surgeries, and abandonment by family/friends. I want to shine for anyone else out there who might be going through the grief of chronic illness or the rejection of who they are.
What would you do with $20,000?
My goal is to build a platform for awareness, visibility, and acceptance around chronic illness, disability, neurodivergence, mental health, suicide, trauma, C-PTSD, and LGBTQIA+ pride. To invest in creative projects that create an ecosystem of art forms to share not just my story, but others' too. I want to be the role model I never had when I was so sick and lost. If I can empower even one person to reclaim their spark no matter what challenges they're facing, then I shall not live in vain.
Top 10 and back in 1st place! So many donations to Elton John AIDS foundation today.
Thank you, Holograms. 😭🙏🏻 2 more weeks to go in the group phase. Please keep voting and watch out for the 2x vote events. Let’s make this happen.
Read my story and vote here!
How voting for New to win Style Icon supports a great cause ♡ The Elton John AIDS Foundation
Vote/donate here!
As a medically complex and queer creative, being part of this is really special to me. Please keep voting so I can make it to the finals and share my story with the world.
You can cast one free vote every 24 hours. More votes can be cast by donating ($10=10 votes and so on). Sometimes they hold DOUBLE donation vote rounds, so keep an eye out for that too.
One trendsetter will jet off to Milan for the Versace Fashion Show, be featured in Flaunt Magazine, and take home $20,000.
Hey, Holograms! I'm in the running to be a Style Icon. Please vote for me so that I can use my platform and art to help create positive change in the world. (Click the link above or here!)
You can cast one free vote every 24 hours by verifying on Facebook. Otherwise, more votes can be cast by donating ($10=10 votes and so on). Sometimes they hold DOUBLE donation vote rounds, so keep an eye out for that too.
💖🪽✨
Style is a sacred way to showcase the soul on the outside, to be defiantly visible. That’s where the power of fashion really lies.
What makes your style stand out?
My style is cyber-angel resurrection: soft, alien, and unapologetic. Growing up, being myself wasn't safe, so I had to constantly conceal. But one day, I just couldn’t hide anymore. My soul was screaming to sparkle. Fashion lets me glitter when the world is dark and is my way of reclaiming transformation on my own terms. It's an act of rebellion, proof that I'm still here, glowing. Fashion allows me to embody both my vulnerability AND my resilience. That duality is what makes my style stand out.
What’s your dream fashion moment?
My dream fashion moment is to transform into something otherworldly in a music video, on stage, or in a magazine spread. I want to showcase fashion and art that tells my story, because it's really not just me. Many others have their own stories of almost not surviving, but persevering through illness, hospitalizations, surgeries, and abandonment by family/friends. I want to shine for anyone else out there who might be going through the grief of chronic illness or the rejection of who they are.
What would you do with $20,000?
My goal is to build a platform for awareness, visibility, and acceptance around chronic illness, disability, neurodivergence, mental health, suicide, trauma, C-PTSD, and LGBTQIA+ pride. To invest in creative projects that create an ecosystem of art forms to share not just my story, but others' too. I want to be the role model I never had when I was so sick and lost. If I can empower even one person to reclaim their spark no matter what challenges they're facing, then I shall not live in vain.
One trendsetter will jet off to Milan for the Versace Fashion Show, be featured in Flaunt Magazine, and take home $20,000.
Hey, Holograms! I'm in the running to be a Style Icon. Please vote for me so that I can use my platform and art to help create positive change in the world. (Click the link above or here!)
You can cast one free vote every 24 hours. More votes can be cast by donating ($10=10 votes and so on). Sometimes they hold 24 hour DOUBLE donation vote rounds, so keep an eye out for that too.
💖🪽✨
Style is a sacred way to showcase the soul on the outside, to be defiantly visible. That’s where the power of fashion really lies.
What makes your style stand out?
My style is cyber-angel resurrection: soft, alien, and unapologetic. Growing up, being myself wasn't safe, so I had to constantly conceal. But one day, I just couldn’t hide anymore. My soul was screaming to sparkle. Fashion lets me glitter when the world is dark and is my way of reclaiming transformation on my own terms. It's an act of rebellion, proof that I'm still here, glowing. Fashion allows me to embody both my vulnerability AND my resilience. That duality is what makes my style stand out.
What’s your dream fashion moment?
My dream fashion moment is to transform into something otherworldly in a music video, on stage, or in a magazine spread. I want to showcase fashion and art that tells my story, because it's really not just me. Many others have their own stories of almost not surviving, but persevering through illness, hospitalizations, surgeries, and abandonment by family/friends. I want to shine for anyone else out there who might be going through the grief of chronic illness or the rejection of who they are.
What would you do with $20,000?
My goal is to build a platform for awareness, visibility, and acceptance around chronic illness, disability, neurodivergence, mental health, suicide, trauma, C-PTSD, and LGBTQIA+ pride. To invest in creative projects that create an ecosystem of art forms to share not just my story, but others' too. I want to be the role model I never had when I was so sick and lost. If I can empower even one person to reclaim their spark no matter what challenges they're facing, then I shall not live in vain.
TOP 15 cut is in 3 days! Thanks for keeping me in the top 1-2, everyone. Please keep putting in free daily votes. 💖🙏🏻If you wanna do donation votes, wait for the double vote events. I’ll be sure to announce them when they start.
Help New become the next Style Icon 💖✨
Please share my story and keep voting.
https://styleicon.org/2025/new-hologram-disabled-queer-icon
You can cast one free vote every 24 hours. More votes can be cast by donating ($10=10 votes and so on). Sometimes they hold 24 hour DOUBLE donation vote rounds, so keep an eye out for that too.
One trendsetter will jet off to Milan for the Versace Fashion Show, be featured in Flaunt Magazine, and take home $20,000.
Hey, Holograms! I'm in the running to be a Style Icon. Please vote for me so that I can use my platform and art to help create positive change in the world. (Click the link above or here!)
You can cast one free vote every 24 hours. More votes can be cast by donating ($10=10 votes and so on).
💖🪽✨
Style is a sacred way to showcase the soul on the outside, to be defiantly visible. That’s where the power of fashion really lies.
What makes your style stand out?
My style is cyber-angel resurrection: soft, alien, and unapologetic. Growing up, being myself wasn't safe, so I had to constantly conceal. But one day, I just couldn’t hide anymore. My soul was screaming to sparkle. Fashion lets me glitter when the world is dark and is my way of reclaiming transformation on my own terms. It's an act of rebellion, proof that I'm still here, glowing. Fashion allows me to embody both my vulnerability AND my resilience. That duality is what makes my style stand out.
What’s your dream fashion moment?
My dream fashion moment is to transform into something otherworldly in a music video, on stage, or in a magazine spread. I want to showcase fashion and art that tells my story, because it's really not just me. Many others have their own stories of almost not surviving, but persevering through illness, hospitalizations, surgeries, and abandonment by family/friends. I want to shine for anyone else out there who might be going through the grief of chronic illness or the rejection of who they are.
What would you do with $20,000?
My goal is to build a platform for awareness, visibility, and acceptance around chronic illness, disability, neurodivergence, mental health, suicide, trauma, C-PTSD, and LGBTQIA+ pride. To invest in creative projects that create an ecosystem of art forms to share not just my story, but others' too. I want to be the role model I never had when I was so sick and lost. If I can empower even one person to reclaim their spark no matter what challenges they're facing, then I shall not live in vain.
Reminder that you can vote once a day for free! This first phase (5 rounds) of voting goes until November 13th so let’s get me to the quarterfinals. 🙏🏻
One trendsetter will jet off to Milan for the Versace Fashion Show, be featured in Flaunt Magazine, and take home $20,000.
Hey, Holograms! I'm in the running to be a Style Icon. Please vote for me so that I can use my platform and art to help create positive change in the world. (Click the link above or here!)
You can cast one free vote every 24 hours. More votes can be cast by donating ($10=10 votes and so on).
💖🪽✨
Style is a sacred way to showcase the soul on the outside, to be defiantly visible. That’s where the power of fashion really lies.
What makes your style stand out?
My style is cyber-angel resurrection: soft, alien, and unapologetic. Growing up, being myself wasn't safe, so I had to constantly conceal. But one day, I just couldn’t hide anymore. My soul was screaming to sparkle. Fashion lets me glitter when the world is dark and is my way of reclaiming transformation on my own terms. It's an act of rebellion, proof that I'm still here, glowing. Fashion allows me to embody both my vulnerability AND my resilience. That duality is what makes my style stand out.
What’s your dream fashion moment?
My dream fashion moment is to transform into something otherworldly in a music video, on stage, or in a magazine spread. I want to showcase fashion and art that tells my story, because it's really not just me. Many others have their own stories of almost not surviving, but persevering through illness, hospitalizations, surgeries, and abandonment by family/friends. I want to shine for anyone else out there who might be going through the grief of chronic illness or the rejection of who they are.
What would you do with $20,000?
My goal is to build a platform for awareness, visibility, and acceptance around chronic illness, disability, neurodivergence, mental health, suicide, trauma, C-PTSD, and LGBTQIA+ pride. To invest in creative projects that create an ecosystem of art forms to share not just my story, but others' too. I want to be the role model I never had when I was so sick and lost. If I can empower even one person to reclaim their spark no matter what challenges they're facing, then I shall not live in vain.
Now that my surgery is finally scheduled, I'm in prep-mode. Luckily it's minimally invasive, but I'm a complex case with a lot of comorbid conditions (such as fibromyalgia and ulcerative colitis). My surgeon warned that healing could be much slower for me, especially if my other conditions flare up. I'm anticipating that I could be out for a month, hopefully no longer than two before I can return to work.
As of writing this I have less than 6 weeks until the surgery date. I'm going to try to work as much as I can to buy things I'll need for recovery but also just to have my basic bills covered so I can focus on healing.
If you want to help out, there are multiple ways:
GoFundMe: For a one-time donation
Ko-Fi: One-time or recurring
Patreon: Monthly support and access to Hologram Discord server (name in YouTube endscreen!)
Please note that during recovery, it's unlikely I'll have the energy to get a lot of editing done, so my let's plays, fansubs, etc, will be on pause until I feel better.
I'll be keeping everyone up to date as we get closer as well as during recovery. Can't believe I'm finally getting ready for this after so many years of fighting the medical system. I'm extremely nervous and scared but also relieved.
Thank you for all the encouragement and support over the years. I'm very blessed to have so many kind friends.
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