Today I thought about myself.
"One of the biggest challenges for me these past few years was putting myself first without feeling guilty about it. You see, when you continually place others’ needs in front of yours, they get used to it. They start to feel entitled. Like you owe them your attention, your time and your care. And if you don’t sprinkle little particles of affection that you had originally gifted them out of choice – they make you shrivel with guilt. The very people whom you chose before you, make you feel inadequate for choosing yourself over them. And that’s my biggest challenge – learning to put my own needs before others; my mental health, my emotions and my heart without feeling dread settle over me. Without feeling my chest tighten with guilt and regret. Because what good will any of it do if, whenever I take out time for self-care, I’m reminded that I’m being selfish, that I’m not putting others first as I should, that I have taken something away from them just by thinking about myself for once. Remember this – if someone regards you highly and cares about you, they won’t make you feel bad about asking for space. Especially if you tell them that you want to put your mental/emotional health first and that you’ll message them when you feel better. And when you take that time to focus on yourself, to pour love and happiness into your heart and do what you must to cheer your soul, people who care about you won’t hold it against you. They won’t make you feel small about how you used that time – because that time is yours and yours only. Those who respect you will not turn your need for time off as something that attacks them and their value in your life, they won’t see you choosing yourself as contravening with you choosing them."
words: @r.dhalwriter #starsouls