I fucked up
I fucked it up big time! You were the light in my life and you were always there for me when I needed you, you made me laugh, you made me cry, you made me angry sometimes but I never knew how much all of these things meant to me...
Just to watch all of the pictures and memories I still have of you in my phone makes my heart eache and the tears starts to fall down my face, I fucked it all up!
I hurted you in a really bad way just beacuse of my past and that shit makes me so angry of myself. How one guy can hurt you so bad that you hurt both yourself and the people that you love/like!
Words can not describe how bad I feel and how much I REALLY miss you!!! Just to walk past your house everyday knowing that I will never be able to come and se you at your apartment, never be kissed, hugged and hear your beautiful laugh never again makes my eyes fill up with tears.
I donât know when I will ever be ready to delete those pictures and memories of you, I just sant to have you back in my life!
I know that I never meant this much to you, but I can deal with that, I just wish that it wasnât my fault that we two stopped seeing eachother and never talk to eachother ever again. At this point I donât know how to react if I saw you... I probably would break down and cry or run the other way. That beacuse I canât stand with myself and what I did to you and the way I hurted you. And to have to look into your beautiful green/blue eyes and face the fact that I wonât be able to talk and touch you would breaks my heart even more.
I Will always remember you with all the memories that we shared â€ïž



















