Nhkman

Probably an artist. TAKING REQUESTS I like Twenty one pilots, the summer when hikaru died, attack on titan, cry of fear. Also love watching let's plays and series read books and manga. TW: I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder OCD and epilepsy a sad 21 year old man

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This blog was originally created for shitposting and occasionally showing off my drawings. It’s more like a diary and a way to interact with at least someone

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I just saw in ur description that you like twenty one pilots. Im a big fan as well and always want more people to chat with abt them which album is ur favorite?? 😀

Hi! Thanks for asking. Yes, I love them so much. My favorite album is Trench, and I really really like the last two albums🫡

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How do you build dialogues with people here?

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Happy pride month guys!

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I'm fucking wanna die

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Memories consume

Like opening the wound

I'm picking me apart again

You all assume

I'm safe here in my room

Unless I try to start again

I don't want to be the one

The battles always choose

'Cause inside I realize

That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

I don't know why I instigate

And say what I don't mean

I don't know how I got this way

I know it's not alright

So, I'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit tonight

Clutching my cure

I tightly lock the door

I try to catch my breath again

I hurt much more

Than any time before

I had no options left again

I don't want to be the one

The battles always choose

'Cause inside, I realize

That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

I don't know why I instigate

And say what I don't mean

I don't know how I got this way

I'll never be alright

So, I'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit tonight

I'll paint it on the walls

'Cause I'm the one at fault

I'll never fight again

And this is how it ends

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

But now I have some clarity

To show you what I mean

I don't know how I got this way

I'll never be alright

So, I'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit tonight

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I realized that I don't want to fuck anyone I just want fucking basic human warmth

I just don't care anymore how I get this warmth and POSITIVE attention

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I'M FUCKING CRY OF FEAR but only in my head

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I just want to die not hear voices in my head anymore not fuck around not drink alcohol not want to die not be afraid of people

I don't want to feel FUCKING pain anymore

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I tried to communicate with people and thought everything was okay

I was in a great mood on my day off

I try hard at work and in my relationships with my partner. In my relationships with my family No matter what I do people are always dissatisfied with me

It's as if I just don't deserve anything normal

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

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Hikaru

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I'm trying really hard to work at a normal job and try to socialize. But all I want to do is lock myself in the house and not have contact with anyone.

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These lines from the Linkin Park song "I don't want to be the one the battles always choose" really suit Reiner