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[stinkytofu-being]

Weight Loss Journey Introduction | Becoming healthier

Hello friends! Today is March 6, 2017 and I'm not sure if I'm ready ready, but hey, this is as ready as I'm ever going to be when it comes to eating healthie...

New video! Check it out please :)

[nhuyae]

People are still following me on here, but I’m not as active on here anymore. Please follow my other blog instead! @janetlifts I post way more often on there and if you’re interested in hearing me ramble and rant, please follow!!!

[nhuyae]

People are still following me on here, but I’m not as active on here anymore. Please follow my other blog instead! @janetlifts I post way more often on there and if you’re interested in hearing me ramble and rant, please follow!!!

[nhuyae]

Hello friends! I’m not active on this blog anymore, so please follow me @janetlifts

I post often on there!

[stinkytofu-being]

Why take cute selfies when you get take these selfies?

[nhuyae]

Where is that balance between knowing that it's fine to talk to other people and be close friends with them too while being in a relationship? Everyone says your SO should be your best friend, but I'm worried that I might not be his best friend anymore and this anxiety is irrational cuz talking to someone else a lot and having inside jokes with them and being able to relate with them doesn't mean he doesn't like me anymore. I know this, but I get so upset when we're skyping and he's out of the shot for minutes at a time on his phone. I just wanted it to be me and him, but that's not fair to him.

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Sunday fun*day 4.23.16

I spent this weekend just procrastinating and being an overall poop. I didn’t go to class on Thursday (I should’ve. I really like that class) and other one was cancelled on Friday. I just want to skip 3 weeks into the future lol I’d be done with school and I would hear back from my transfer schools already.

Please lord help me find the motivation to get through the next 3 weeks lmao.

I didn’t hear back from UB, even though the guy said he would contact us last week. I’ll email him tomorrow to see what’s up because even if I didn’t get the job, they should contact me to say so, right? He said I’d be hearing back soon too. 

I’m going to go get lunch soon and then today will be a paper writing day. I have a debate on Tuesday and a rough draft due Wednesday. I need to like get an outline of my other two papers before this week ends too.

*not fun. it is actually death

[stinkytofu-being]

Same pose, different day 🐛

[nhuyae]

Yes this is me. Follow for selfies and updates on my life

[stinkytofu-being]

5.3.16

It’s so beautiful outside. Morris is usually incredibly windy, but it’s been beautiful this week. I turned in my IHR paper today, so that’s one less thing I have to worry about. I have 2 presentations left and 2 more papers to finish. I’m almost done!

I called my mom this morning and just gave her an update on things. I haven’t heard back from UB yet, but it’s only Tuesday. She said that I should apply for more jobs, but honestly, I get such bad anxiety thinking about it. It’s chewwy bewwy all over again. UB works best with my summer schedule. SO is coming over late July, and I don’t know how responsive other part time jobs would be if I worked only for 2 months to quit when my BF comes over. 

I’m also stressed out about housing for the U of MN TC. Like… how does one even find a place to live there. I’m a part of the FB page for UMN housing, and there are dozens of posts everyday with people looking for subleases and places to leases, along with people asking where to live. According to the majority of answers, it depends on whether your classes are on West or East bank and whether or not you care about Greek life/quiet vs. loud/ obnoxious vs. maturity, ect. and it’s just so much. I really hope I get into Macalester if Bryn Mawr is a reach lol.

But it’s ok. I just need to get through the next 3 weeks. I think everything will resolve itself once I make it through.

[nhuyae]

Follow my fitness blog! I'm slowly transitioning from this blog to that one :)

[nhuyae]

Had an incredibly fun night skating with my brother and getting bubble tea afterwards. I'm so glad my spring break started off nicely.

[nhuyae]

I deal with stress so poorly. Somehow I always make it through but I still want everything to go away

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[nhuyae]

I'm scared to ask for help. I'm scared I'll end up in the hospital again. I'm scared that if I verbalize this, it'll be real. I feel so tired and so alone here. It'd be so easy to just disappear one night and everything would be okay.

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[wnq-writers]

I think, every once in a while, we need to step back and look at situations and realize that we know ourselves better than anyone else. We live with ourselves everyday. We are the ones who have our thoughts. We are the ones who know our intentions. Stop letting people tell you who you are.

nocolorsnofun (via wnq-writers)

[nhuyae]

Victor's birthday today. Tried on some makeup and felt cute. It's going to be a busy week. If you're interested in keeping up with my poopy life and hearing me rant and complain a lot, follow me on my fitness account, @swole-avocado. I update fairly often on there and post lots of selfies lol.

[living-fitness]

If it’s worth starting, it’s worth finishing.

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