too glam to give a damn

You have the same amount of hours as Beyoncé. 

[nic0lehh]

These are all things I was incredibly proud of myself for accomplishing, living, and fulfilling...all of it.

I was proud that I wasn’t succumbing to society’s expectations of needing to be married by 30.

I know the value of making memories versus millions. I know at the end of my life I would be rich in life and love and memories.

I was learning to love myself. Learning to love the body I have been blessed with. Every pound of it.

I found happiness in the ordinary things, the smallest things would make me smile -- from my dog sun bathing and smiling to my gas tank filling up at an even number.

I thought my parents would be proud of how happy I was because I was doing something I loved and was so incredibly passionate about.

I had a job I enjoyed for almost four full years, it may not have paid high and had benefits like a regular 8-5 office job, but the amount of fulfillment I felt every minute on the job and the lives I impacted was priceless to me.

Instead...

My parents -- my dad, refuted and denounced every single one of those things.

He disapproved of the job that filled my bucket. The career I wanted for myself because it was in my heart of hearts to do. I was so incredibly happy with the life I was living and who was in it, but it wasn’t enough. I was learning each day to love my body, embrace my anxiety, and started to live a healthier lifestyle FOR ME -- not for anyone but me. But he constantly ridiculed my weight, even when I felt I was making progress in shedding the pounds he just completely threw all that progress away. He made me hate myself. Hate the way I look. I can’t even stand to look at my own reflection because of that.

I had made all these improvements on my life, only to be stripped of the progress I made and to be utterly discouraged.

[thehopefulquotes]

I've learned that I still have a lot to learn.

— Maya Angelou

[lizardsister]

good god when the onions and garlic hit the olive oil..........

[justablueumbrella]

[dankmemeuniversity]

[be-artistic-deactivated20230306]

[a-bright-ray-of-sunshine]

"Let it hurt. Let it bleed. Let it heal. And let it go."

—Nikita Gill

[nic0lehh]

YOOOOOO!

I'm back. It's been years, my old friend. It has been literally 84 years. It is good to see you, I have missed you dearly. I've stopped by a few times since we were inseparable, but never spent much time with you like we used to. I oftened wondered how you have changed and if you have aged well. I wonder what circles I would have followed had we remained close.

My, how we have both changed. The last time we were together you were filled with Glee & love and hope. Flash forward and life has done to me what it has to others and that's hardened me. I no longer have that same hope, drive, and maybe even resilence I did all those years ago. I'm further buried by adulthood.

I have nothing but fond memories between the two of us. You brought me so much joy, love, and laughter. I don't have many, or any sad memories attached to you. It was an amicable break up, if you want to call it that. Even thought it wasn't really a break up, we just...I needed to grow and focus.

You were everything to me, we spent hours upon hours together. Endless nights. Early mornings. Constant scrolling. I shared my true self with you. You knew before I did or anyone else did who I truly was. Down to my core. Who I was when I was with you was who I wanted to be in the real world. You helped me find myself -- discover myself. I made amazing friends, read incredible stories, and I fell in love.

Thanks to you I fell in love and have continued to compare all other love and feeligns to that love. That love has been incomparable. I have since felt those same butterflies or passion and intensity and I honestly have been searching for it ever since.

I...was confident and comfortable in my own skin now I cower at my own reflection. My anxiety often controls my life in the worst way possible sometimes.

Things have changed...I have changed. But I'm glad to be back with you, my old friend.

[anxietyproblem]

[konketsu]

dont care if i sound corny or cliche but to love and be loved back and not having to second guess where u stand in someones heart is such a warm and safe feeling & everyone should have the luxury and pleasure of having it always

[morganalefays]

me at the store: do i want some snacks? nah it’s ok

me at home: past me was a fucking dumbass

[dog-teeth]

yall ever just yearn? ever get filled with the most profound sense of longing for something you cant understand? yall ever crave? ever have an unexplainable ache?

[kultklassic]

I just alternate between ‘maybe I’m smarter than I give myself credit for’ and ‘maybe I’m dumber than I realized’

[keplercryptids]

hey, it's okay if the only thing you did for pride was exist. i'm glad & grateful you are in the world. your survival is a celebration.

[nic0lehh]

I’m writing a story...it’s my first one. It’s fluffy with a touch of smut lol! Also v gaaaaaay! Would love some readers and some feedback! Dying for some feedback bc obviously I think it’s pretty good but I wanna know what everyone else thinks hahah!

[sarahmichellesgellar]

endless list of inspirational women  ↳ Carrie Fisher

Stay afraid, but do it anyway. What’s important is the action. You don’t have to wait to be confident. Just do it and eventually the confidence will follow.

[chrishemswortth]