i'm a genuine nice guy

this is where i come to vent, be melodramatic and all that good stuff i kept to myself, this can get a little dark but it really depends on what i feel and am going through... also really you can ask me ANYTHING i'd be happy to answer :)

[niceguythougthsandworries]

It's my 13 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

"Do not cite the deep magic to me witch, I was there when it was written."

10/10/2013 main blog

28/11/2013 this blog

[achillesinhighheels]

[hangsawoman]

sure let’s ask the girl with the weird dreams and the big heart

[cryptotheism]

I'm an Absentee Atheist. I think a god made the world, but it was an action so insignificant to the higher will that it is not aware we exist, rendering existence effectively godless.

[cryptotheism]

I'm a Mutual Exclusivity Polytheist. I believe the world is woven by several demiurges at once, all of whom are entirely unaware of each other's existence.

[cryptotheism]

I'm a Deferential Semantic Atheist. I believe in a god in the sense that I believe in gravity; as an observed phenomenon that I do not understand, but am confident that other people with more time on their hands can prove the existence of.

[cryptotheism]

I'm an Autogenesis Absentee Deist. I believe that God is instantiated like a mind into the divine clockwork of the material physics of the universe. I am not a Pantheist, as I believe that this mind designed and consciously instantiated itself into the world through some unknown method, however this is annoying to explain at parties so I generally don't talk about it much.

[cryptotheism]

I'm an Antirationalist Manichean. I think God built the world, but the Devil built causality, thus any train of thought that follows logically is incorrect, and the result of trickery.

[cryptotheism]

I'm a radical Hindu-Gnostic Monotheist. I think Brahman should make up it's mind and knock all this "emanation" shit off and squeeze back into a monad.

[cryptotheism]

I'm a Chaos Agnostic. I believe the universe exists in a constantly changing spectrum of divinity from "Was Made By a Present God" to "There is no god" and it changes every 24 hours or so.

[cryptotheism]

I'm an extremely localized animist. Only my dog has a spirit.

[grimeclown]

Op is actually an interfaith spiritualist and channeling each of these deceased in turn

[cryptotheism]

[niceguythougthsandworries]

"To remember is to bear the curse of pain but to forget is to curse the ones we love"

Read this on a YouTube comment but can't find the source

[frostedmagnolias]

Stag with Herb Branch Mounted as a Ring

1550-1600

German or French

Gold, enamel, ruby, opals, and pearls

Art Institute of Chicago

[siegecraft]

i know it's hard. but i so firmly believe the strongest antidote to loneliness is reaching out first. and continuing to reach out. again and again and again. excise any scrap of shame you hold about being the person who texts first or pitches the plan or asks to get lunch. everyone is tired and busy and struggling. and afraid of feeling unwanted and unimportant. don't let the people you love feel that way. reach out first. don't be a ghost in your own life.

[niceguythougthsandworries]

It's my 12 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

Happy bday personal blog haha 28/11 that's crazy this blog started out as peak depression era, it's seen everything all my faults and my growth

[niceguythougthsandworries]

Seems like I deleted pretty much all of the pictures of you on my phone... I don't miss you like I used to

I started wondering... what did I see in you?

Was I just in delusion because you made empty promises you couldn't keep?

No. I know the person I met was genuine and true. I know what I saw and you saw it too.

Only God knows what actually happened though. The sad thing is I still mourn the loss of you more than I did my passing father. But I don't expect anything anymore I've actually let go.

Now only the pure love I felt and the memories are left

and I think to myself is this just what it means to be human?

[niceguythougthsandworries]

Every day you should start as if you never met the person before, you don't know what happened between the last time you saw them and this facilitates manifestation through different timelines

When you give people space to grow wonderful things can happen but you have to let go of your old concept of them, view them as the best version of them

[niceguythougthsandworries]

It's proven that if you are rushing

For example rushing out the door

You will be more stressed and in such a state it will actually take you longer to do your tasks efficiently

So not stressing will keep you calm and it will take you just as long or maybe even less time

Some of my favorite affirmations:

I make my own time

I am outside of time

Time flows around me and I am in all of time at the same time

Thus I am always on time and in the right place and time

Devine timing doesn't exist as it keeps you waiting, I am *is* all of time and therefore it *is* meant for you, it's already yours

[cotdeath-blog-blog]

[alchemistmelody]

[tendercherie]

forgive me lord for I have imagined a life far more soft and tender than the one you created for me

[dduane]

A brief moment of rationality from the bird place.

[flightstalling]

An explanation.

[jones-friend]

OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOO

[feniczoroark]

;-;

[corillion]

Anyone crying over this needs to think about how insufferable a dragon raised by a seagull would be

[theclockworkjudas]

You bring French fries onto the beach. You angrily shoo away seagulls that predictably try to grab them. A HUGE shadow swoops over you.

[ramblin-tiger]

Ok, the last two are new additions to me, and I am LOVING it

[the-real-seebs]

a dragon raised by a seagull sounds like it would be a good nature/nurture test until you realize those two species are known for having exactly the same personality

[sinfulsuns]

worship me and I’ll worship you and maybe we’ll find divinity