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[n04hxm1l4n]

“Das Leben handelt vom Geben und Nehmen…” Flüsterte er, drehte sich um gab sich die Kugel und nahm sich somit das Leben…

[traeumendestille]

Ich konnte weder an der Schulter meines Vaters weinen, noch konnte ich mit meiner Mutter über meine Probleme sprechen. Also habe ich Mauern gebaut, um mich zu schützen. Jetzt weiß ich nicht mehr, ob ich geschützt oder gefangen bin..

[wordx]

Its over. it's over. it's over. it's over. it's over. it's over. it's over. it's over. it's over.

[servuscallidus]

I'm going to *remembers suicide is often not a desire for death itself but rather an attempt to radically change one's life because the current state of being has become unbearable but the person can't think of any way to change it other than death* kill myself

[thoughtkick]

“What other people think and say about you is none of your business. The most destructive thing you would ever do is to believe someone else’s opinion of you. You have to stop letting other people’s opinions control you.”

— Roy T. Bennett, The Light in the Heart

[dunkelundunbekannt]

"Manchmal kann das Ausbleiben einer Nachricht selbst eine Nachricht sein."

[surqrised]

“I couldn’t be with people and I didn’t want to be alone.”

— Marian Keyes

[verpasstzuleben]

[juansendizon]

“I survived by telling myself ‘I’ll kill myself tomorrow but not today.’ I kept putting it off for days and days and days with the hope that the darkness will leave my body one of these days. and some days, it leaves and some days, it stays. I’m still surviving and that’s the sad truth and maybe I’ll kill myself tomorrow but not today.”

— Juansen Dizon, Magic Mantra

[seelenspliitter]

Kannst du mir versprechen, dass wir uns nicht verlieren?

[nabbibutterfly]

I wanna cry, scream, hurt myself, and die so bad, but I just don't have energy for anything anymore...

I feel so damn exhausted

[jessss-ica]

I, from the very bottom of my heart, am just so tired.

[hoffen-auf-hoffen]

Ich hasse dich nicht, sondern bin enttäuscht von mir selbst, weil ich dich vollständig falsch eingeschätzt habe.

[hackedhearts-deactivated2024111]

Trauma isn’t just the sadness that comes from being beaten, or neglected, or insulted. That’s just one layer of it. Trauma also is mourning the childhood you could have had. The childhood other kids around you had. The fact that you could have had a mom who hugged and kissed you when you skinned your knee. Or a dad who stayed and brought you a bouquet of flowers at your graduation. Trauma is mourning the fact that, as an adult, you have to parent yourself. You have to stand in your kitchen, starving, near tears, next to a burnt chicken, and you can’t call your mom to tell her about it, to listen to her tell you that it’s okay, to ask if you can come over for some of her cooking. Instead, you have to pull up your bootstraps and solve the painful puzzle of your life by yourself. What other choice do you have? Nobody else is going to solve it for you.

Stephanie Foo, What My Bones Know: A Memoir of Healing from Complex Trauma

[cutiealls]

[a-little-less-than-okay]

[w1sh1ngw3ll-deactivated20260119]

“You look like you’re about to cry.”

No I just wanna k1ll myself.