Nick Brewster

Hm.

Perhaps you should try harder.

You seem to be in good spirits.

I always try.

If I had some good spirits, they'd be even better.

#alexander

Home sweet home...

Let’s not pretend I had a choice, Nick! You left at the first sign of trou- no, fuck this. I really don’t know what you want me to say and I’m bored of whatever this is. Of going back and forth, of you trying to catch me out or prove me wrong.

Just get whatever you have to say, over with.

#ignore the text please #scarlett

You always do this! We start talking and you shut off, saying you're bored. If you're so bored then why did you ever give a shit if I left anyway, huh?

What I want to say is no, I didn't leave at the first sign of trouble, at least not from you. I left 'cause I'm a coward and couldn't face the people- you- who I'd see dissapointment from. I'm not trying to prove you wrong, I just want you to see that you're not the worthless piece of shit lost girl you think you are. I can see that, and I'm an oblivious dumbass. Why can't you?

Hm.

How very observant of you. I’m afraid it’s a bit more ineffable than that.

Sorry I'm not....effable enough to get what you mean.

#alexander

Home sweet home...

You wanted the help. I don’t. I don’t want to change, I’m fine being like this.

No, but he knows about it all. The acting. The drugs. The killing. You know what you want to know, it was much easier for all of you when I was the stupid little bitch trying so hard to make friends. I don’t even know me. I spent so fucking long trying to be someone else, I lost myself years ago! Now I get to have some fun finding her again. Little orphan Annie, the devil child.

What mistakes? Because from where I’m standing, it seems our definitions are very different.

Really? 'Cause from over here it doesn't look like you are.

I don't know any of that because you're the one who won't let anyone else in. You know, you don't have to do everything by yourself.

Yeah? And what's your definition? Because you look like you think you've made a lot.

Hm.

Something’s different tonight.

It's colder?

#alexander

Just got a new album.

What is it then?

..I just told you.

Home sweet home...

You managed just fine without me. Why?! I-I don’t know what you want me to say. Everything’s different now, fuck, things were different even before Holly!

You don’t even know me, Nick. None of you do, except for Alex-. I’m wrong, in every way, shape and form.

See, you’re still not listening. Okay isn’t an option for me.

#scarlett #ignore the text please

Uh, do you remember when you met me? I was a fucking mess. Still am, but for different reasons. What's different now? Besides the fact that I'm the one trying to help you instead of the other way around? And what- what does she have to do with anything?

Did he tell you that? Because you're not. Wrong people don't help fuck ups like me. They don't care if people like me walk out of their lives. I know you better than you think, even if I am a dumbass.

Okay isn't an option because you don't want it to be, just like I didn't want it to be for me. You made me see that maybe it is. I don't have to live in my mistakes and neither do you.

Just got a new album.

Scared of all the creatures around?

Yeah, that's it.

Home sweet home...

This is the longest you’ve stuck around, the only difference is that I wasn’t here. It’s fine, I get it. I’m finally accepting it. Stop, please. I’m good remember, I’ve been picking up my quotas, I’ll find a way to get moved. People who care? So what, I stay and wait? I can’t face- no, I’m not doing this. You don’t understand.

Yeah, so am I. But I can’t take any of that back now.

I might not fully understand but that won't make it hurt any less if you get moved. Then who's gonna keep me from making more dumbass mistakes? You aren't waiting, we're here. You don't sit around and wait for us to leave, you spend time with us and don't push us away.

It's...it'll be okay.

Just got a new album.

Nothing else in mind as costume?

Not at the moment. Halloween's not really my favorite time.

#letha

Just got a new album.

Not even on Halloween?

Maybe then....I'll be paper bag man!

#letha

Home sweet home...

Stop sayi- you don’t understand, do you? I drain people, make them hate me, make them flee. So I’m not waiting anymore, I’m done with trying to fight the inevitable. I’m done with all of this. So you might be here, but I won’t be.

M-my Mum, last month. I had to go back, I had to say sorry…he needed to be okay.

You think you're why I left? Scar...you might drain people, literally, but not-not that way. You're not the reason I left, you're the reason I'm staying. So stay. Where do you have to go? This is gonna sound crazy, but someone told me this once and I was too stupid to believe it and hurt a lot of people in the process, but you have people here who care and who aren't being drained by you. People that would hurt if you disappeared, people who are gonna stick around.

Jesus, Scarlett...I'm- I'm really sorry...

Home sweet home...

I don’t know what to think anymore. Why do you think I ca- Don’t say that, because it’ll happen. Tomorrow, next week, next month. You’re just taking a little longer than the rest, but it’ll come. Reality will hit…and I don’t want to wait around for it.

I didn’t run away! S-she died, Nick.

I'm not going anywhere this time, Scar. I'm not. That's the reality.

W-wait...what? W-who?

Just got a new album.

Poor thing.

Ever thought of wearing a bag over your head to not overwhelm other people with that glow of yours?

And cover all this amazing up? No way!

#letha

Just got a new album.

Then your awesomeness forces you to stay forever alone cause no one would be able to handle you?

What a tragic fate!

Eh, it's my curse.

Home sweet home...

You won’t be here for Halloween. It’s fine, everyone seems to be doing it lately, saying so much shit just to see how I’ll react. It’s beginning to feel like everyone’s in on the joke though.

Nothing.