I am not a good person. I have done horrible things to the person I held most dear. I have been so irresponsible, disrespectful and ungrateful through and through. I cannot believe the things I’ve done. I was so in love and so happy and then threw it all away, and for what. For a drunken mistake to quench my drunken sexual desires. I’m not in a good place and I do not really know where to go moving forward. However, I’m so concerned for her. I’ve made her feel like the fool and I’ve made her feel the worst pain she had ever felt. I just want her to be happy again and it pains me so badly to know that the reason she is in this situation is because I put her there. She means so much to me and life without her is going to be so dreadful. She had everything and she opened up her heart and let me into her life, and I stomped on it. I just wish I could take it back, but I can’t. I wish i was smart enough to understand the love that we had. I don’t deserve her and she deserves way better, but none the less I can’t help but feel that I will always love her, care for her, but most of all I know I’m going to miss her. My heart is broken and I’m sure hers is too and I cannot find any possible way of fixing this. I know you don’t go on here anymore, but I am so deeply and incredibly sorry for what I have done. I love you so much and I wish you the best.
