H & M

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[whisplings]

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I thought he really wanted me. I thought he really loved me. 😞

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It was all a dream

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Today he calls and only to ask if there is something I need to tell him? There is absolutely nothing for me to report to him.

1. I am not a child

2. It’s obvious shits happening that I am unaware of. I’d like to keep it that way.

I’ve deleted everything but Instagram. I am no longer available! I can NOT let him use me. He won’t speak to me correctly but wants to be spoken to correctly. That isn’t love- it’s control. I will survive this pain and betrayal Nico.

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I’m all alone. I have not one friend. He is out there using others. He is out there showing he don’t give a fuck...almost like that’s cool or he thinks it gives the impression that he is REAL. The only real thing I have noticed is that he will step on whoever. There is no loyalty. How could I expect that from someone that bad mouth EVERYONE in his path or past.

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I love you like no one else can love you. I see you for who you are and chose to be there. Chose to love. Chose to give. All choices one makes when they love. All I wanted to be responsible for was that smile of yours. Devastated that this is what love is.

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I wonder what wish you made? Did you get away with it?

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The only person allowed to express & be supported is you? Wow. Where is the love. Why do I find myself in these situations. You said you had my back (guess that’s a thing to say)

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There was no love there. I loved you to only find out that you NEVER LOVED ME

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I just loved you. Thats all I needed in return. 

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I was the Queen of Hearts & You were the Ace of Spades

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Self Destruct Indeed. He just keeps on moving through life.

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He doesn’t care

Honey, he does not care. He does not think of you the way you do. He doesn’t remember what it feels like to kiss your lips. He only likes when you chase him, makes his ego bigger and your pride smaller. He doesn’t love you. He doesn’t care

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I promise I will work hard on getting over you. Everything you did I loved yet all you saw or heard was my complaint to be loved and showered with affection. Smoke on that one. 

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Pushing me away now just shows me I was used. 💔

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Because yours is not ALWAYS the best or the way.

Love the people who are there for you & support you. You will regret the day it is gone!