I'm Nighty! Pronounces are she|her. A bit artist, a bit writer, depends on mood. Multifandom blog: mostly Mortal Kombat and Transformers. Have countless ocs and aus.
Meet my child, Tresdes! It's been years since I tried to draw her personal page, but now there goes the complete one. If you can't read my handwriting, there will be typed text under cut.
Plus chibi ver. created with maker on picrew. If someone needs the maker, it's here: https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/1407730/complete?cd=S2pLgPv1w0)
Age: 20 y.o.
Best subject: Alchemy
Birthday: [Unknown]
Class: 1-D
Club: Mountain Lovers' Club
Hight: 1.55 cm
Hobby: Painting, gardening
Homeland: "Other World"
Likes: Mushrooms, tea, sweets
Dislikes: Noise, crowds, bullies
Unique Magic: I know the Truth!
Is able to materialize the target's bool of life. Only she can read it, edit it and erase the text. She's able to destroy it to kill and even erase a person from history.
When I graduate, I definitely will have to take some meds and vitamins like Magnesium or Melatonin or Vitamin D. Or I will drink all our reserves of alcohol.
Why do finals and a diploma defence are supposed to put such a pressure and terror on students? I mean, I get it, this is the final battle for our bachelor education and all. But I don't get the necessity of making students to feel like useless and hopeless shit, making them suffer more than at actual work, suffocating them by fear of failing and it's consequences and making all of this SUCH A BIG FUCKING DEAL! It feels like we are playing some kind of game with no ways to win: we fail and all our attempts and afforts go to waste or we die due to inability to cope with the pressure. Cus in my group like half of students take antidepressants and pills to reduce the cortisol level. To be honest, it feels unfair.
I know, it can look like I'm just whining about something casual and some people have worse conditions, but it's not a complain. Well, it sort of is, but I hope you get my point. I get the seriousness of graduation and all stuff, but in my very humble opinion, faculty members shouldn't terrorise students and make them feel like failing final exams means the end of the world. The process of preparations and taking exams and a diploma defence should not be such a both psychologically and physically harsh process, when in the end students seriously go to doctors and have to take pills anyway. Goddamned pills! Just to cope with the pressure!
And the worst part of it, students really fail sometimes. And it means all their afforts were useless. I'm not talking about guys who don't prepare at all and not scared to fail. I'm talking about some poor students, who spent absolutely uncountable amount of their time, put their absolute maximum afforts, were buying and taking meds and pills to stay emotionally alive (and not only emotionally, but even physically, unfortunately) and just to survive to meet some kind of old jerks in the committee, who think they can do anything they want and intentionally make students' life harder. Just imagine the feeling when all of your efforts are useless in the end after all of this. I personally can't (and I really hope that I won't) get the feeling, but I heard some stories of some, who failed and… Well, rest in peace to them, I guess… I find it very ironic that our university campus has a cemetery at neighborhood.
Our finals and a diploma defence look like it's really a final boss of our education journey. No less. And I really hope no one of us fails. Cus it would be excruciating. Our professors don't make it feel easier. They keep reminding us the consequences of the fail. And of course we are scared and exhausted. And I really pretty sure that I will be in a great need of something relaxing and rehabilitating. Last week I had to take mom's Magnesium cus I feel like I can't take it anymore. My diploma pre-defence was HORRIBLE. And when I say horrible, I mean literally. I was stumbling through my speech (if we can call some randomly sputtered words about my diploma a "speech"), I was shaking so damn hard as I have never been shaking in my life, and after the disapproval of the committee and with not even a little defence from my diploma tutor (who had been actively ignoring me almost the whole time) and her lie to shift the blame on me, I desperately needed something strong. Mom and I were sure that if I get to an alcohol bottle, I won't stop till I run out of it, so she proposed me to take her Magnesium. I can't say it really helped, but with mom's reassurance it was much easier to cope with all the stuff. It took me two fucking days to feel better.
I just hope I can deal with all the stress and pressure of this bullshit. Cus I had an actual job. It was MUCH EASIER to work than study. No, wait, that's not it. Let me rephrase it. It was much easier to get the job and work somewhere than getting the education and graduation papers for it. It's difficulties are inproportional.
I just… I just wish it's over soon. I just pray I can make it. To pass my exams and defend my diploma work. I really hope my afforts are enough. And I really hope I won't get to feel even worse than I feel now.
You know, I watched Project Hail Mary, and my hyperfixation won't let me go.
For the clearance, I have almost unhealthy love for rocks and crystals. And that is one of the reasons I loved the movie. Well, it's not the main reason, I mean the movie is just great due to many reasons. But having one of the main characters who is a living talking rock was a pleasant bonus for my stone lover.
So here we are, I had to draw Tomáš and Tresdes as Eridians. Now it's my guilty pleasure :D
Back in College Tres and Jade shared the same passion about mushrooms and had their own garden. They had several camp journeys where they gathering new samples for it.
Azul and Floyd def hated it XD
To say, Tres was an A+ student in chemistry and alchemy, so she has a lot knowledge about poisonous mushrooms and their usage. Let's say, she knew some things about revenge :D
Somehow I need to survive our final hunger games with finals and diploma defence, and I feel emotionally sick, dried and worn out.
But drawing makes me feel better and it also calms me down. My friend once asked me while panicking "Why are you so damn calm?", and I just said that I have no strength to panic loudly any longer. So drawing in my sketchbook is my meditation.
So that's why I draw Tres and Tomáš again. I have a story line in process where Tres goes back in time and brings Tomáš back to life, and after that they participate the final battle against Kronica. These two are my Roman Empire, I can't 😢
Today is my first attempt of presentation of my diploma work (it's a pre-defense). But my diploma tutor hasn't even opened it til today. We talked about it today and she doesn't like it at all, so technically I have nothing to present today in several hours.
I feel just terrible. It's too hot outside and at home so I'm sweating, stinking and feeling disgusting, I've got my periods today so my whole body hurts and it makes my self-disgust even stronger and I have a starting panic attack. So I have a whole bunch of probs that are heat, period cramps and panic attack. And I have to present my very unedited and not proofread work somehow and I can't even think straight rn
I just cant… Sb just kill me already, I can't handle it… X(
Today I present you Azul and Tres in mer forms. I recall posting Tres' mermaid design long time ago, so we can consider this as a continuation of that one post)
If you ask me where I am and what I'm doing at my free time, I will tell you, that mostly I write fanfics in my phone notes and draw in my sketchbook. And I've been there for awhile. I have a lot of written about the plot down there, so be ready read a lot😵
It's been several months since I've returned to my old fanfic for Resident Evil franchise. Initially, I was writing for Village game, but recently I watched re9, then re4, re5, re6 and a bit of re7 and... Well, let's say, I have plenty of things going on in the fanfic now. And if initially it was just about events of Village and a bit before, then now it's a crossover with several characters from different games.
So. The plot.
Three years before the Village events. Miki (my oc) finds out she has relatives in Romania, for some time she learns language, and finally has her journey to Europe. But instead of cosy village there are some lycans who meet her, who chase her, and she gets captured by Miranda. She is experimenting on the girl, infects her with Cadou, and Miki mutates into something extremely aggressive, hungry and feral. She spends several months in cage like an animal, being able to consume only human blood and meat.
After some time she wakes up in glorious room and realizes she's being watched. Then Miki finds out that she in a castle of Dimitrescu family. Right where she was heading to. She talks with Alcina and they find out together, that they are related by Alcina's younger sister, who managed to get out of Europe before Miranda got her hands on her. Her path as an infected mutant and part of the family begins.
After some time Miki explores the territory and get herself into a factory. She meets Karl. At first he was hostile that someone entered his factory, and Miki was extremely cautious. But later she finds the room, where is his whole plan of destroying Miranda. They agreed that they will get out of this hell hole by any means. And learn some things about each other. Get along much closer than they ever expected. They become some sort of shitty found family. (Just imagine grumpy German dad and his vanilla Japanese dauther being completely different that they look like a real family😆)
Then events of the game are happening.
Miki doesn't participate any of it, just waits. But before there's their chance, she notices some fuss and noise on Karl's territory. She heads there and finds him in his mutated form. She has a panic attack, but manages to cut him out of this metal trap, even alive. She noticed helicopters and drags Karl there. With Chris's team they get out. As they wanted. And both alive.
I don't have complete story further, but some written episodes and sketches.
In short, Miki and Karl get into a hospital under BSAA jurisdiction, where they make friends with... *intense drum roll*... Luis. Yes, Luis Serra himself, alive and almost healthy and happy. He becomes sort of family friend and gets involved in their lives. Once Miki and Karl were outside, when she was showing him a new world, after the war. And she was attacked. With a virus. And she starts transform, right on a street. Hopefully, Luis saves the day, and no one gets killed. After that attack Miki unofficially joins Chris's team as a scout. Which... leads into another incident of being infected with virus a year after. She almost killed Jake, who was sent by FBI to "eliminate the virus researches and BOW that was sent to get it". But day is saved again by Karl and Rebecca (yeah, she'll be there too), who came with Chris's team.
After that Miki get promoted to an official member of Chris's team. After some time (mb it's another year or a bit later) Miki was exploring one laboratory with the team, where she finds... *more intense drum roll*... Piers. He was the patient zero in this laboratory to improve C-virus (which was unsuccessful). Chris almost has a breakdown from the news. If my math is correct, it's been 7-8 years after the events of re6 (correct me if I'm wrong, I'm bad at math).
And that how they met. But keeping in mind that BSAA are corrupted and use BOW, and Chris knows it, he tries to keep these three from danger as far as he can, but higher bosses know everything. So he decides to move them to another house (a big one). So now they have to get along living under one roof. Miki is not really against it, just confused. Karl is grumpy as usual and not really likes Piers at all. Piers was hella confused by the news and the fact that now he's the BOW, he was fighting almost whole his life, and he has to live with two others, and he's extremely nervous and cautious. But Miki calms his anxiety down a bit by having a conversation that not all BOWs are deadly dangerous and they still can live, even with their mutations. She even shows her claws and tries to joke about it.
And I also have a little sketch of three of them living in almost normal world. Piers is just early-retired soldier who can't serve the army any longer due to physical trauma. Chris recommends to visit a shelter and adopt some pet to have more enjoyable recovery. And Piers finds Miki, who is a fluffy playful black cat. He asked about her and was told that if he wants to adopt her, he has to take her companion, German Shepherd Karl, too. Karl, who was abandoned fight dog, met Miki when she was a stray kitten, scared and hungry (Does anyone recall a short movie Kitbull? I was really inspired by it😢). They got into the shelter together and have to be taken together. So Piers does. And now they are living the best time of their lives.
(I'm so not an animal artist omg😬)
So this re fanfic just won't let me peacefully go! As well as transformers and mk fanfics😭
If you read til the end, I'm impressed and big thanks. If anyone wants me to publish this fanfic here, just let me know in the comments. I'll try to translate it and publish here.
Yesterday I've been a bit drunk and wanted to draw something simple.
So I decided to draw Tresdes and Tomáš in their casual outfits instead of their usual uniforms. Maybe they're just scrolling through a city or on a spy mission idk🤷🏻♀️
Should I draw Harumi and Kuai Liang too like this?🤔
They give me serotonin folks. And I also was hit with the comic idea unexpectedly and I couldn't get rid of it. So, yeah. Tres and Tomáš again ;)
I also wanted Tres to have this neon-red lines as a signal of her strong self-hatred, and darkness around only makes it worse. She thinks and strongly believes that she's some kind of monster and she hates it and her whole existence. But Tomáš brings light into her worn out world. It doesn't gets rid of hatred, but it scares away the loneliness (aka darkness). He makes her existence much more bearable.
Not so long ago mom was scrolling through my blog here and saw my chibi-self from recent post. She asked would I draw her someday in my style and I just said no probs. So yesterday I finished. She turned out so cute☺
No need to say she loved it.
And I drew Tresdes again cus making her suffer somehow makes me happy.
If anyone can recall me drawing one sketch awhile ago, they will recognize that I drew Tres from different timelines. Just in color. And chibi. Talking about this post: https://www.tumblr.com/nightfury18/745132221516627968/the-circle?source=share
The middle one is the "canon" one Tres, who just have survived the Shirai Ryu' elimination cus she's immortal. She has terrible depression and blames herself for disability to change the fate or rewrite it even though she is the Keeper of History and has unique magic that lets her rewrite history of living creatures. She tried countless times, but result was always the same.
The left one is the Keeper of Time (after coming back in time and winning over Kronica). She restarted history with the memory of the previous timeline to prevent the same old incidents. She would look at her past-self with pity and still hurt, cus she still remembers the pain of loosing her family and whole clan in one day.
The right one is the Dark Titan (after winning over Shang Tsung, who was the Keeper of Time) and a necromant from the Order of Darkness. She doesn't have a memory of the past, so she doesn't understand the tragedy. She would say something like "Why wouldn't you just try to resurrect everyone?" without any sympathy.
If anyone of you wondered where I've been, I've been quite busy with my university stuff. And…
Well, to be honest, I'm not really sure that I'm totally fine. I mean… I've been to kindergarten practice for mere two weeks and these are the most stressful and hopeless weeks of my life. I had really hard time adapting to my group at kindergarten and I pray it ends sooner, cus I'm not sure I'm gonna make it. Every day of practice I go there with thought that I really don't wanna go there (which is unusual for me to think, I've been to really nice and welcoming groups that I loved) and pray that every coming day won't be an another accident. It's not a problem of kids (but quite theirs too), that's the problem of our preschool education system and kids' parents due to mutual indifference. It's real hard when people don't hear and don't wanna hear you. And it makes work routine horrible.
Today I came home as exhausted and tired as I've never been. I thought I would die today cus it's been me, our group mentor and 30 crazy children. 30 fucking children! For one actual worker and one student! It's unbelievable! I came home powerless and voiceless with new grey hair and backpain.
And every day I come home and crave for silence and peace, hoping that it'll end soon. And up here the face I had all fucking day. Every day of this hellish practice. I've been to better conditions at actual work.
Sometimes I catch signals from cosmos that say me to sculpt something. Well, I'm not really against it.
So the first victim was a poor seal who turned out to be super cute in this banana pose. Then yesterday I heard a signal that told me to sculpt an orca. So I did. It was kind of meditative actually🤔