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we make each other alive, does it matter if it hurts?

inspiration for my wips based on the end!verse world. haunted by theo since 2014 verses include, who is in control?, edensgalore, let the flames begin, city in dust, a thousand voices howling

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clairesbell

I'm not saying I'll do anything. And I know very well that you don't like me. I thought I'd be able to act like nothing happened. But it's difficult.

NEVERTHELESS, episode 8

#( mal & ara )#( v. who is in control? )

hearthouses

THE FIRST OMEN (2024) dir. Arkasha Stevenson

#( v. who is in control ? )#( mal & taeyang )

I changed so many ideas. Gotta update them here

always think about Ivan & Mal + Mal (Mallory) & Ara

how both Ivan and Mallory had wives before. And how the reason they’re so adamant in being with Malacai and Ara is because they’ll have to accept the fact that they fell in love with someone new

which shouldn’t be a big deal but they’ve been holding on to the memory of their dead spouse for so long, they made themselves believe they wouldn’t/couldn’t love anyone new. ever.

and yeah both Ivan and Mallory sleep around with other people but it’s not the same. They aren’t close with those people. There’s no stronger connections there but then for Ivan, Malacai comes into his life and for Mallory is Ara.

So now they have to accept the reality that yes they love someone new and then they’re filled with this need to protect them. Specially after the tragic death of their spouses. it’s a constant thing in their mind to the point of pushing their new partners away. afraid that they’d get hurt if they stay together

which becomes a whole thing because they’re all soldiers, is bound to get ugly and to be hurt in the job, but Mallory and Ivan both want to kept their person safe from any harm. Which they can’t do.

also the fact that their bond companion was their late spouses messes up with them. Both Mallory and Ivan are of the believed that you only have one companion. Fated for life and if they die then there’s no one else that you can love as intense as you did in that moment

and then there’s Malacai and Ara who are the person they love the most and they aren’t even their bond companion. Just a connection so strong that transcend the laws of this world for them

imagine their shock when learning they do have a new bond companion but is not the person they’re in love with. Is a shock but understanding, this bond companion would never compare or come close to Malacai and Ara.

It’s why they’re so torn apart and destroyed at having their person die because they finally come to terms with the fact that they can love again, just as intense or even more so than before and just when they think they can keep Malacai and Ara safe, it’s taken from them. it’s why they blame themselves so much

also there’s the guilt of having loved someone so long and to suddenly feel so strongly about these new people. it just shifts their reality of yk, what they believed and felt for many centuries. not that they never loved their spouse because they did. it was their life for so long but these new people just showed them they can love again

#( v. end!verse )#( v. who is in control? )#( mal & ivan )#( mal & ara )#( characters. control )#( characters. end!verse )

crying over aggie again. the sweetest baby. the most gentle soul. my child. I miss her so much. I wish I could rp this place again. Agatha Barlow you have my heart

#I feel like a proud mother am I Elta? lol I miss aggie

thinking of revamping this rp as a discord exclusive. no activity limit. new characters/ocs. slightly different storylines and so and so

#I just need a computer to feel nice doing stuff bc my iPad do not work for what I want

all I see is Mal and Elta pregnant with baby Aggie

#she posted this and I’m like omg 🥰🥰🥰

bluebandana

everyone should thank me because as bad as i am, i am holding myself back from being much worse

#( v. who is in control? )#( v. end!verse )#( ivan kozak )#( mallory kozlova )

the way i want to open this with OCS as a discord rp simply to use the gaining credits bots that could work so well with the rp lol

I often think about Ara and Lev and how she genuinely thought he was the one and that she loved him so much. And vice versa.

I struggle with making them have a bad fallout because there was love. It was real. It wasn't always bad. And I've always like the idea of them ending in good terms whatever the au/canon. Despite not ending together. And like it is possible for others version of them. But in this verse though... It's just meant for them to end badly.

Too much hurt. Too much resentment and like, is not justified of course it isn't. But is the choices they made regardless of being justified or not.

Like okay, they met they fall in love, find out they're each other's bond companion. Decide to get together and keep the relationship secret. But he never really can trust her, because she was his mission. And then Ara always trusting blindly in Mal (who killed Lev's siblings which Ara knows nothing about). Despite her not knowing, Lev dislikes that she will choose Mallory over him and holds resentment towards Ara for that.

But Lev lying about who he is, with whom he allies himself with. Hiding his real name and him keeping the mission going for years regardless of falling in love or not. Being the one that contacts Choi Dae-Hyun and giving him Ara's location so she'd be "punished" for cheating. And while he wasn't "expecting" for CDH to do what he did to her; Lev knew from the beginning what was the type of torture the man did.

Mind you, knowing or not doesn't justify his actions regardless of this. Ara cheated on their wedding night. A horrible thing to do. Lev waits five years later to confront her and then hand her information to a mana notorious for torturing people like. That's your wife that you love. Yet you have no remorse, knowing she could've gotten killed.

And then when she comes back and trusts you to be the only person she can count on. To care for her kid, you decided to "save yourself" by telling the bad guys everything and handing over the baby. Which comes to bite him in the ass cause he's not granted freedom for this though.

Like, from the beginning. Even after falling in love, he still held too much resentment towards Ara that were out of her control and even some that were in her control but have come to pass and he did nothing for years. And lie about his identity and all of that. Is like... How do you expect her to forgive him? She cheated; once. That was it. Lev knew all along who she was, what was her job. Everything. What did Ara know of him? Nothing.

And i just think that while her resentment builds later on, mostly after being cloned. She's the one rightfully angry out of the two. And after everything there's no way she can forgive him for the lies, the betrayal and even if (and that's a big if that's really a no) she forgave him for giving her info to CDH that one time, Ara would never forgive him for endangering her daughter.

#( v. who is in control? )#( jeon ara )#( lev baranov )#( lev & ara )#we could've had it all / you're going to wish you never had met him - is a great line that fits for them

dewrr

SURFACE | 1x04 Psychogenic Our wedding night…we ended up here. After everyone went to bed, we couldn’t sleep so we snuck in here and went for a swim, just the two of us.

#( v. who is in control? )#( lev & ara )

ptolemveamoved

“I watch him in the kitchen, and I think of how much it hurts to love somebody. How deep the hurt is, how almost unbearable. It’s not the love that hurts; it’s the possibility of anything happening to the object of your love.”

— Augusten Burroughs, Magical Thinking (via durianquotes)

#( v. who is in control ? )#( v. end!verse )#( v. let the flames begin )#( ivan & olga )#( mal & ara )#( mal & ivan )#( mal & elta )#( mal & ozge )

taiturner

YUMIKO & MAGNA The Walking Dead, 11x24 “Rest in Peace”

#( tess & callie )#( v. end!verse )

movie-gifs

The Banshees of Inisherin (2022) dir. Martin McDonagh

#( v. end!verse )#( ivan kozak )

avatricist

KILLING EVE SEASON 4 TRAILER

#( mal & ara )#( v. who is in control? )

araekniarchive

Was scrolling through your theme “of course we will hurt each other” and was wondering if you have/might make a post something like “love is still here and will be here probably forever but I have to leave for my own good” if it makes sense